Skimming the fire

There is no point in my life to say more.

All in all, "I deserve it".

I have had the best life in my life, but only a dozen years.

More than ten years seems to be a long time, but at the end of life, it is found that it is just a flash in the pan, like a cloud that cannot accumulate rain, and is easily blown away by the wind.

I think it's only been thirty years, and the best day I had was probably the day I married Xianying.

It snowed heavily that day.

A snowy day with no wind is the most beautiful appearance of Cangyun. The ground is covered with frost-covered grass, which is decorated into a pure white grassland.

The goose feather heavy snow slowly fell from the sky.

Now that I think about it, I didn't deliberately pretend to be a fool that day, I just didn't know what to do.

I saw Xianying riding a horse in a bright red dress, the wide cuffs and neckline were trimmed with a circle of pure white wool, which made his profile look much gentler.

He still wears that mask.

I got married with him in the second year of our acquaintance. He is serious and rigorous to the point of obsessive-compulsive disorder. I have never seen him take off his mask, but he is also a professional Tangmen.

I think those who come to Jingyu Hall to teach must be people with high aptitude. What kind of luck did I have?

Thinking wildly, he had already rode his horse to my side, reached out and rubbed the white hair on my head, and then I came to my senses, got on the horse, and stared at him curiously.

The bright red brocade dress made his skin like snow and reflected a faint red, I was dumbfounded.

He raised his eyebrows: You are comfortable getting married, it's a fool's fault that you don't feel ashamed.

Oh, is he a little shy?

Still staring at him intently, I swallowed.

He looked away unnaturally, not looking at me.

I took a closer look at his appearance, Yanmen Pass is not peaceful inside and outside, he usually wears Tangmen's equipment, today he got married, he took off his gloves rarely, I saw his white and slender hand holding the rein.

Following the welcome team formed by a group of brothers who joined in the fun, there was a commotion around Cangyun Castle on the city wall with gongs and drums. The banquet was placed on the usual martial arts training ground, and the brothers began to eat wine lively.

Xianying and I got off the horse and bowed in front of Father.

That was the best day of my life, like an endless dream, I looked at Xianying, he was dressed in red and his cheeks were flushed, and later appeared in my dreams countless times.

I have dreamed countless times that on the night of the bridal chamber with candles, he stood in a very festive room covered with red cloth, and finally took off his mask.

I dreamed countless times, when he handed me the mask, he said, "I am a member of Tangmen, whoever I recognize is whoever I am. Although you may not understand it, you just need to know that I will treat you well for the rest of my life." In the end, he leaned close to me and stared at me, asking, "Do you understand me?" 』

Later in the dream, he wanted to snatch the mask back, and he said, "Xue Xixi, how can you lie to me?" 』

In my imagination, in the ending I expected, even if he was furious, even if he cried, even if he beat me and scolded me, he still couldn't escape from my arms in the end.

That's the ending I prepared for him.

It is probably because when people have no choice but to daydream, they are still thinking about things like the ending, it will always be okay, and it will always be resolved.

I dreamed that he was crying and scolding me, and he said, "How dare you lie to me? 』I said I didn't dare anymore, I wouldn't dare anymore, I was wrong, please forgive me.I hugged him and didn't let go. In the end, he was tired from crying and fell asleep, and I won.

I'm really shameless.

Facts always break through the limit of fantasy, making people suddenly bewildered and at a loss.

On the day he found me, he didn't make trouble, didn't cry, didn't scold me, and didn't hit me.He just stood there silently.

I didn't see his tears until he left.

Yeah, he was never weak enough to cry, did I forget on purpose, or did I just dare not imagine it?

My extremely selfish life just stopped in those daydreams.

The ending I prepared for him was to be forced to forgive me.

You love me, you love me, forgive me, okay?

Until later, I saw him again in a dream, and he suddenly said, "I won't love you anymore, Xue Xixi, I hate you." 』

After that, I never dreamed of him again.

In my dream, between the sleeves of the red dress and Chinese dress that year when I was free, his white and slender hand was holding the rein.

In my dream, only my long-cherished wish was finally fulfilled. I held his hand, kissed his red-clothed shoulder, and promised the most extravagant wish in my life.

"Hold the hand of the son, and grow old together with the son." 』