The Road to Rebirth

It will be New Year's Eve in a few days, no matter how carefree the life in the holiday villa is, Qin Ziyan and the others will have to go home to celebrate the New Year.He and Ye Zhichen are both locals in City S, and it's okay to go home a day or two late, but Li Xin, no matter how urged by his family, will never go back until the last day, and even suggested that everyone go to 1987 for dinner before going home.

Everyone had no objection to having a reunion before returning home for the New Year. Qin Ziyan originally thought that the two old people would go back after staying in the villa for a few days, but in the end, he accompanied them back to City S. He actually planned to go back with him to meet his parents, and wanted to take him with him. His parents went to his family in city b to celebrate the New Year together, Qu Mohan was meaningless about it, and acted as "obedient" as he listened and respected.

Qin Ziyan didn't know whether to laugh or cry, he didn't ignore the strangeness of Qu Mohan's paralyzed face, when he heard the old man said that he wanted to meet his parents, and hoped that his parents could go home together for the New Year, Qu Mohan's dark and deep eyes froze. The brilliance bloomed in an instant, and the corners of the cold and hard mouth curved slightly.

What the old lady said is absolutely right, Mr. Qu only looks stern and fierce on the outside, but he is actually very kind and gentle, a typical knife-mouthed bean curd heart, arrogant and awkward.Maybe it's because of old age, the elderly tend to play childish temper, but he can see that the old man has accepted him.

During the time in the holiday villa, even Li Xin was called grandpa and grandpa, and they called him very affectionately. After all, in Li Xin's memory, this old man could make him a "bear kid" who was fearless from childhood. , who ran away in fright when they saw it from a distance, but now they get along very harmoniously.

It's just that the old man's awkward temper didn't decrease by half, and he would stab him occasionally. When Qin Ziyan was in a good mood, he would argue with the old man a few times, which made the old man blow his beard and stare.But he could see very clearly that there was no trace of anger in the old man's eyes, and he knew that he was catering to the old man's picky appetite.

After a few glasses of wine, Qin Ziyan felt dry and hot all over his body, and his mind became groggy. He raised his hand and rubbed his swollen temples, shaking his head slightly, to drive away the slightly messy thoughts.In order to exercise his drinking power, Qu Mohan would accompany him to drink a few cups in his spare time, but now it seems that it didn't help much, his body is naturally incapable of drinking.

"Drunk?" Qu Mohan was always paying attention to the conditions of the people around him. Seeing Qin Ziyan resting his chin on one hand, he hurriedly supported Qin Ziyan's body, leaning forward and asked, "I have to get up early tomorrow morning and rush back to city B, do you want to accompany him first?" You go back to rest?"

Qin Ziyan put down his hand rubbing his temples, turned his head and glanced at Li Xin and the others who were having a good time, smiled lightly and shook his head: "No, I can still persist, don't spoil everyone's interest. After today, we have to wait until the start of school Before we can meet again, I'll go to the bathroom first."

Qu Mohan hugged Qin Ziyan's shoulder and said, "I'll accompany you..."

"Zi Yan is going to the bathroom? I'm going too!" Before Qu Mohan could finish speaking, Li Xin, who had pointed ears, interrupted Qu Mohan's words, stood up and waved at Han Muze boldly, "Wait until I come back." War, I will keep you out tonight."

Han Muze held the wine glass in an elegant posture, raised his hand towards Li Xin, and said with a smile on his lips: "Go!"

Li Xin proudly raised her chin, pulled Qin Ziyan out of the booth.

Seeing this, Ye Zhichen helplessly supported his forehead, and said to Qu Mohan, "I'll go and see them."

"With Zhichen accompanying them, don't worry!" Han Muze smiled and stopped Qu Mohan who was about to get up.

Qu Mohan glanced at Han Muze indifferently, and finally stopped the posture of standing up. He was worried at first, Li Xin drank a lot of wine himself, and it was already good enough to be able to walk steadily. Don't count on this guy. The brain is still awake.But Ye Zhichen is much more reliable than Li Xin, with Ye Zhichen around, he doesn't worry anymore.

Han Muze laughed, shook the wine glass in his hand and jokingly said, "Do you know how Li Xin described you?"

Qu Mohan's eyes sank slightly, he raised his wine glass expressionlessly, and drank the wine in the glass in one gulp.

Han Muze smiled unmoved: "What Li Xin said is absolutely right, you can only transform yourself in front of Zi Yan and become...an idiot, a loving wife and a madman. I thought it was just Li Xin's. It’s nonsense, but now I believe it a bit.”

Han Muze started laughing while talking, Li Xin often whined and complained in his ear, accusing Qu Mohan of discriminating, and frantically asked him to write tens of thousands of words of self-criticism.

Han Muze laughed when he thought about it, Li Xin also said that his friend who has always been facial paralyzed, often keeps silent in the group of relatives and friends, but as long as someone says something about Qin Ziyan, Qu Mohan will always appear at the first time, that guy Li Xin He patted the table, gritted his teeth and said that Big Devil Qu definitely set Qin Ziyan's keyword reminder.

Qu Mohan just looked at the wine glass in his hand indifferently. He didn't think there was anything wrong with his love for Qin Ziyan. Qin Ziyan was the one he wanted to love for the rest of his life. It doesn't matter, he loves Qin Ziyan because he wants to give all of life.

Qin Ziyan walked into the aisle leading to the bathroom, and the door behind him cut off the deafening music in the bar, and suddenly felt that the surroundings were clean, and he became a little more sober.He exhaled lightly, and walked quickly to the bathroom. As soon as he reached the corner, he saw two familiar figures pulling together.

"Xiao Ning? Teacher Sheng?" Qin Ziyan stopped in surprise.

"What's wrong?" Li Xin and Ye Zhichen walked up quickly behind them.

"Xiao Ning?" Ye Zhichen was also surprised, "Why are he and Teacher Sheng here?"

Sheng Xuanling obviously drank too much again, and his frivolous steps could not support his tall body at all, but his eyes were exceptionally clear and cold, and his handsome face showed no emotion at all.Xiao Ning, who was burning with anxiety, stepped forward to support him, but he pushed him away mercilessly.

"Mr. Sheng, don't be like this. I'll take you back." Xiao Ning was pushed by Sheng Xuanling without any precaution. His eyes made his heart ache as sharply as ants gnawing.

Sheng Xuanling withdrew his pulled arm, looked at Xiao Ning indifferently, and said in a deep voice, "Don't meddle in your own business!"

"Sheng Xuanling!" Xiao Ning, who was pushed away again, suddenly shouted, and stopped the three of Qin Ziyan who were about to step forward to help.

Xiao Ning raised his head and stared deeply at Sheng Xuanling, the handsome face that made him so infatuated that his heart ached, and was still expressionless at this moment, tears finally welled up in his eyes, he choked up and said: "Sheng Xuanling, how long are you going to be self-defeating? Teacher Qin is dead, he is dead... Why don't you cherish him when he is alive? Don't you own it? Now that he is dead, what's the use of you being heartbroken for him and giving up on yourself? He will never Might come back to life..."

"Shut up!" Sheng Xuanling roared with red eyes, "Even if Ziyan dies, he will always live in my heart, irreplaceable!"

Xiao Ning sobbed in a low voice, even though he knew that Sheng Xuanling loved Qin Ziyan deeply, even if Qin Ziyan had passed away, Sheng Xuanling still couldn't forget it, but when he heard the words of his beloved who loved others deeply, His heart seemed to be cut by a knife, and when the knife went down, it reached the deepest part of the heart, and blood gushed out.

"Sheng Xuanling, can't you look at the living people? In this world, you are not the only one who can't ask for it. Those who care and love you, when you are sad, are just like you... ...So sad for you..." Xiao Ning sobbed softly.

In this world, a living person can never compare with a dead person, not to mention that this dead person was so perfect, a person who was perfect in everyone's eyes, passed away at his most dazzling moment, like a shooting star across the bright night sky, What is left is eternity that can no longer be erased.

He will not grow old, will not leave traces of the years, and will not be obliterated by the world. Whenever someone remembers him, it will always be that radiant face that remains in his mind.A living person may shine for a moment when he is young, but he will gradually grow old, be stained with dust by the world, and become a worldly person who rushes about for life and cares about everything.

What did he Xiao Ning compare with an already perfect dead person?Everything about Qin Ziyan will be deeply imprinted in Sheng Xuanling's mind, and will never be erased, just like Sheng Xuanling himself said - irreplaceable!

"I can't ask for it..." Sheng Xuanling suddenly laughed lowly, but the laughter was full of sadness. Qin Ziyan is not his past tense, nor is it that he has lost, but that he will never get it, "If you ask for it, you can't get it." ..."

"Sheng Xuanling, you coward!" Xiao Ning heard Sheng Xuanling muttering to himself almost crazily. Xuanling's heart demon, and his feelings for Sheng Xuanling were only hopeless, and finally broke down and left a word, turned and ran in the opposite direction.

"Xiao Ning!" Qin Ziyan hastened to catch up, "Zhichen, Li Xin, go and look at Xiao Ning."

Ye Zhichen glanced at Qin Ziyan with a complicated face, finally nodded and said: "Then Teacher Sheng will leave it to you."

Li Xin was sober from the wine, glanced at Qin Ziyan and Sheng Xuanling, and hurriedly followed Ye Zhichen's footsteps.

Qin Ziyan stood a few steps away from Sheng Xuanling, and said calmly: "Do you need me to book a lounge for you?"

At this time, Sheng Xuanling had lost sight of the madness just now, and walked up to Qin Ziyan with a calm expression. He lowered his head and stared at the delicate face in front of him. This extremely beautiful but strange face was endowed by the soul in his body. The vitality of this face, only the soul in the body can make this body dazzling, and only the soul in the body can make this body amazing and beautiful.

Sheng Xuanling's eyes gradually became confused, and he hugged the body in front of him: "Ziyan, Ziyan..."

Qin Ziyan said calmly: "Mr. Sheng, you are drunk, I will help you to the lounge."

"Heh..." Sheng Xuanling let go of his arms, and his laughter was full of bitterness, as if he was talking to himself, "You are always like this, so calm that people dare not approach easily, lest they disturb you, your world Never let anyone in... No, someone has already entered..."

Qin Ziyan didn't speak, and sent Sheng Xuanling to the single lounge of 1987 Yuse Bar, turned his head to look at the person lying on the sofa, and sighed softly.He is not indifferent, but Sheng Xuanling's feelings are too heavy for him. No matter whether he lives again or not, he can't respond to this feeling. What's more, now that he is living again, his heart has long been covered by a person named "Qu Mo Han" was filled.

Qin Ziyan put a glass of water on the tea table, leaned over to look at Sheng Xuanling with his eyes closed, and said softly, "You have a good rest, I'm going out first."

As soon as Qin Ziyan turned around, his arm was grabbed by a force, and he sighed, "Sheng Xuanling, let me go!"

Sheng Xuanling did not let go, but stepped up his strength, and said in a hoarse voice: "I know that there is a devil living in my heart, otherwise every time I see you and Qu Mohan together, I would rather you were dead .If you are really dead, no one in this world can get you anymore, and you have never been owned by anyone. Instead of being like this, knowing that you are still alive, but you can only watch you being owned by others Possess. Tell me, am I terrible like this? Like a devil, wishing you were really dead, madly jealous of Qu Mohan who can have you."

Qin Ziyan turned around, looked at Sheng Xuanling lightly and said, "Sheng Xuanling, Qin Ziyan is dead, and it is Qin Ziyan who is alive. You have seen it. What else is on this face that is Qin Ziyan? What lives in your heart is Qin Ziyan is dead, not Qin Ziyan. Sheng Xuanling, no one is qualified to judge your feelings, including me... I will never be able to live as Qin Ziyan again in this life, not everyone has to do it all over again Chance, so Sheng Xuanling, even if death makes me lose everything I had, I have to start all over again, and I have never resented anyone. From the moment I woke up again, I was Qin Ziyan, and Qin Ziyan was just an old the dead."

Sheng Xuanling raised his head and stared at Qin Ziyan steadfastly, but the hand holding Qin Ziyan kept tightening.

Qin Ziyan didn't break free, but said softly: "Let go of your obsession, and you will be reborn!"

Sheng Xuanling held Qin Ziyan's wrist firmly, as if he had grasped the soul in Qin Ziyan's body. It was so long that Qin Ziyan thought that Sheng Xuanling would never let go, and when he was about to break free, Sheng Xuanling easily opened his grip. With a lot of strength, he leaned his head back on the sofa and closed his eyes.

"You rest!" Qin Ziyan breathed a sigh of relief, turned and left.

"Do you love him?" Sheng Xuanling sat up straight, staring closely at Qin Ziyan's back.

Qin Ziyan paused slightly for the hand holding the doorknob, and said softly, "Love, I love him!"

Sheng Xuanling leaned his head back on the sofa, and the empty lounge became quiet again after a slight sound of closing the door.During the shallow breathing, it seemed that the familiar breath still remained. During the greedy breathing, he raised his hand to cover his aching eyes, and the water slid slowly down his face.