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Wen Wuyou, can you be a little more selfish?This time, Ruo Bing was so angry that she blushed and scolded me for being selfish. She said that I look exactly the same as Jing Linyu back then, selfish and overbearing. Quan will turn bad, this time she didn't shed tears but looked at me angrily with those beautiful eyes, she said: "Wuyou, let's all calm down and calm down, don't force me to say goodbye."

When she said those few words, I realized the seriousness of the situation, and I slammed my clenched fists on the sofa, and the sound of closing the door made the whole house buzz.I have always wanted a good life for Ruo Bing, and bought her the best things. Now I have realized all my wishes, but I have forgotten the freedom and happiness that I cared most about at the beginning.

Ruo Bing said that the child is growing up, with the help of both parents, and my career is getting more and more stable. She wants to go to Chen Lifan to help her in her spare time.I asked her what you can do when you go there, she is a dancer anyway, are you going to be an assistant for someone or something, you haven’t danced for many years, what can you help her, don’t mention this to me When I say no, it means no.

For some reason, Ruo Bing, who had been absent from dancing for many years, wanted to go out more and more. In the end, I ended the topic decisively with a bad temper. Later, my mother specifically asked me to talk about Ruo Bing going out to work again. People around me told me not to be too stubborn.

It's not that I'm mad and angry, you don't need outsiders to point fingers at us, Ji Ruobing, what are you going to do, are you going to make everyone think that I have treated you badly...Asshole...

My mother said that I was a demon, and that I was getting worse and worse. At the beginning, I would hear that I couldn't suppress my temper, and every time I mentioned it, I would yell at my mother with a thick neck.

The car finally stopped at the entrance of the building. Huiwen pushed me and sat there with my eyes closed and meditating, and said, "Anyway, you look good, okay." She took a breath, pushed the door, got out of the car, bowed her head and strode towards the entrance of the building. In the next second, Hui Wen's voice came from behind, "You are holding an umbrella, my little ancestor doesn't have legs anymore, does he?"

Ignoring her, she pushed the door into the corridor, got on the elevator and rang the doorbell in front of a big iron door. Ruobing's mother quickly opened the door and let me in, "Mom, where is Ruobing?"

"Oh, she went out and said she was with friends, don't come back in a hurry, have you eaten yet?"

"Not yet, mom, I'm not hungry, so don't worry about it."

I got up from the sofa and opened the door, entered the bedroom and fell headlong on the bed. When I was in a daze, my son's voice resounded throughout the room, "Grandma, grandma, the baby is back..."

"Hey, my grandson, be good, come and wash your hands."

I lay on the bed without moving. A few minutes later, the wooden door of the bedroom was pushed open. The person turned around and turned the switch to take off my coat with her back facing me. When she was preparing the pajamas, she noticed me lying on the bed.

"Why are you here? Isn't there an event today?"

"Cancelled,... I..., come back with me."

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"I know that I have many problems, and there are many problems between us, but Ruobing, my heart for you has never changed. My mistakes are all my faults. From now on, if you want to go out to work, you will Going out to work, I don’t care and I won’t express my opinion, okay?”

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"Don't keep talking, okay, my mother and Huiwen have already scolded me for you, my fault, I'm rude and overbearing, I'm not human, okay, please come home with me, okay. "

"Wuyou, I don't want you to change anything, I just want you to give us a little space for each other, you see me too deadly, we are both very tired, Wuyou, I don't care and I don't regret giving up dancing, I just hope you I can understand that what I am willing to do and what I am forced to do are two different concepts.”

"I understand, I understand what you said, you go to bed early, I'm going home."

Ruobing still didn't go home with me. After playing with my son in the living room for half an hour, I appeared alone on the side of the road and walked home slowly. The rain stopped and the air was fresh and cold.

Ruo Bing, I have cramp in my calf, come back, okay?

It is roughly estimated that it took more than two hours to arrive at the gate of our community. Our house is still the same one. Sometimes I am surprised to think that Ruobing is just a copy of my mother. They seem to have little pursuit of material conditions. , but pays special attention to inner cultivation and self-improvement.

My mother likes Ruo Bing very much, and she even mentioned that if Ruo Bing is her own daughter, she will definitely not be like me. My mother said that if you are not my own, I really don’t want to talk to you. You, my mother said, you follow the well-behaved way and do those unreasonable things, and you don’t give up until you end up scarred and force everyone to have nowhere to go.

Pushing open the door, the room was pitch black, the changed clothes were put on the back of the chair in the dining room, and thrown on the sofa in the living room, slowly took off the clothes on his body, walked into the bathroom, turned on the water heater and stood under the shower.Inexplicably recalling Ruo Bing's words in her ear, she said: "You are so indulgent only when you are sure that mother will not do anything to you and that I will not leave you. You always say that mother doesn't understand you, you always say We are in charge of you, if you are annoying, you can do it the other way around, you have to correct what doesn’t suit you, you treat things as you treat feelings. Do you know how much your mother loves you, she paved the way for you since she was a child, in order to let you Avoid detours She has worked so hard to let you take a shortcut. Back then, you were ignorant and I didn’t really have contact with your mother before I believed your words and thought that my mother was a harsh elder. Now we have lived together for several years. I asked if your mother is the kind of person you said she was, the kind of person who admits death without leaving any room for reason. Back then, it was your insistence on going your own way that made her feel cold. Do you know how much your mother misses you? , do you know how your mother got angina pectoris? Do you know that your mother has always said that you are good, that you are outstanding and promising. We know that it is not easy for you to get to where you are today, so We are unwilling to argue with you on many issues, and think that as long as it is not a matter of principle, it is up to you, but worry-free, since I have talked about it today, I really want to ask you, and I invite you alone When you calm down, ask yourself, who is the culprit who caused the situation like that back then and forced you to go on this road? Is it really your mother, is it? Wuyou, the really stubborn and domineering ones don’t give People who leave room for others, I think you should know who it is, right?"

The bathroom has been filled with misty white mist, turn off the rain, wrap in a fluffy sleeper, step out of the bathroom, and lie down randomly on the big bed, the wet hair soaks the sheets behind the head, looking at the The ceiling, my mind is empty, my heart is also empty, my stomach growls inappropriately in the dark space, I don't know how long it took for sleepiness to defeat hunger, and I fell into a deep sleep.

Huiwen asked me how I was doing during the filming of the commercial. I shook my head and didn’t say anything. When she stuffed chocolate into my mouth, she said: “It seems that Ruobing is really playing with you this time, do you want to?” Let me help you choose a gift and send it over to coax you."

"Can it work? The purpose of my sudden gift is too obvious."

"If you don't want to send it off, do you have any other options?"

"Have no idea"

"Then it's worth it"

"I thought about it all night yesterday"

"Oh, what did you come up with... Let's hear it."

"I don't have to say, because I didn't think of anything."

"Is your head rusty? It's becoming more and more difficult to understand."

"Our few days are over, can we go back tonight?"

"It's probably enough, if you hurry up, let's fight for tomorrow night."

After a whole day of filming, I went back to the hotel room, sat on the big round bed and held the remote control in a daze against the TV that hadn’t been turned on, and found that the TV was silent all the time when I got up to open the door for Hui Wen .

"I'll give you fried chicken cutlets, eat quickly, you haven't eaten all day."

"Oh"

"What are you doing in there?"

"watch TV"

"Watching TV, why is the screen black, you look at the screen."

"Well, do you have any opinions? Who said that you must turn on the TV to watch TV?"

"Hehe, strong words are arrogant."

"how to drop"

"You can do it, what can I do to you, boss."

"Roll rough"

"Come on, why don't you go to my room and have fun with us?" Hui Wen insisted on dragging me to her room, so the room was filled with bento snacks for men and women.

"Mr. Wen, look, we bought a lot of food together." In this way, I stayed in Huiwen's room until very late before returning to the room, and fell asleep after returning to the room.The second day's filming ended smoothly. I arrived at Ruobing's mother's house before nine o'clock. At the door, I asked, "Mom, if Ruobing slept."

"Not yet. I just returned to my room after taking a shower. You can go in."

"Oh, what about the son?"

"sleep"

"Oh, then I'll go in." When I twisted the door at the door, my mind suddenly shook, so I stepped in after pushing the door open for a minute. Ruo Bing was blowing her hair at that time, her long hair Blown by a windmill.I walked over to stand behind her and closed my eyes subconsciously when I saw myself in the mirror.

Four and a half years, it has been four and a half years since Ruobing brought me back. No matter how hard I try, I am still full of repulsion towards mirrors or objects that can reflect my own image. I don’t want to see them except for work. own appearance.

The humming sound of the hair dryer did not stop, but when I opened my eyes again, the mirror that was placed on the table was gone, and I held Ruo Bing’s fingertips with my fingers, and I said, “I used to wish that you could stand The stage is illuminated by lights, if you still like the stage and love your dance, then you can go, I know that I am not active enough and enthusiastic enough, even demanding that you do not leave the house, do not touch anyone except me , I'm sorry, I was wrong, I... I won't do it again, I swear I will never."

Ruobing, you say that I am exactly the same as Jing Linyu back then, you say that I don't understand my mother's hard work, you blame me for being too paranoid, you blame me for not listening to persuasion and going forward blindly, then I will stop and not be restrained You, try your best to understand your mother, don't be paranoid, and don't hide you deeply, you think it's good.

I forcefully pulled out a fake smiling face, I know that if I don’t accept her proposal, the gap between us will get bigger and bigger, and I will have a knot with her, Ruobing, I just want you to be with me By my side, I just want to take all your tenderness and temperature.Maybe you don't know, even when you are gentler to my mother than to me, I will feel irritable, want to lose my temper, and want to drag you back to my side.

"If you are serious, you will not regret it."

"Well, every word is true. If you don't believe me, I'll make a sentence for you."

"That's no need, your face is not very good, are you tired?"

"No, I can sleep like this tonight."

"Go take a shower, the nightgown is ready for you."

"Oh, I got it." I answered in a muffled voice and went into the bathroom. Seeing that the bath products and clothes had been prepared on the changing table, I picked up the body wash weakly. Said that I am sure that you will not do anything to me, you are not sure about me, no matter how unwilling you are, you will eventually compromise.

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This article is a continuation of the previous article "I Don't Think I Will Love You". I will repost the incomplete one here. You can go to the post bar to view the full version, thank you.