Erguotou and Brandy

Everyone had almost left, Guo Ding sat down on the ground, shorter than Mama Yang who was in a wheelchair.

Guo Ding coughed a few times, his throat was itchy due to the addiction to cigarettes, and he looked at the ashtray on the coffee table, the cigarette butts left by Yang Zhen were very eye-catching.

So he stood up and lit a cigarette, took a deep breath and spoke slowly.

"Mother Yang, I have been a policeman for about 13 years, but my file only has 11 years. In the middle of the two years, I worked as an undercover agent."

"Every time I visited the victim's home and asked about the victim's situation, I would say, 'I understand your feelings, please forgive me', huh... Isn't that nonsense? It's not my family who died. What do I understand? I Know what?"

"There was an undercover mission to deal drugs with another gang. The other gang was played by the police. I didn't have enough evidence to kill the person in hand, so I could only use snakes to find evidence. As long as they exchange money and goods , and send them all to jail.”

"I was found out... I don't know where the turtle got the news. I know that the other party is played by the police. Let the people under him... one by one... shoot the other party... Surrounded by the police outside, shot dead inside When it was my turn... I held the gun, and for the first time I felt that the gun was so fucking heavy. I couldn't lift it up, but... I couldn't put it down. The moment the gun went off, my mind was like It’s like it’s broken into pieces, and I don’t even know how I got out of there.”

Guo Die threw the ashes into the ashtray, his face seemed to be unclear in the smog.

"Later, I broke down the ugly grandson. I went to visit the family of my colleague who was shot dead. I said, 'I understand your feelings, please forgive me.' His family was very poor, and three generations of his ancestors were all police officers. The incense was cut off there. The old lady thought I was his colleague, and there was nothing to eat at home, so she fried the old bacon and rice that had been stored in the refrigerator for a long time for me. I saw that the bacon was stained with mold, There was a sour smell, and the bowl of rice was eaten abruptly."

"The old lady went there before she lived for two months. If I hadn't visited her once a week, no one would have seen the dead body. I organized the funeral and didn't invite anyone. I didn't have much spare money as a policeman at the time, so I built a funeral. The thin coffin was buried next to my colleague, and I didn’t ask any old lady for permission on the tombstone. A second son was added after the eldest son, and my name was written on it. It doesn’t matter if it’s guilt...or pity..."

"'I understand your feelings, please forgive me.' When I said this, how much heart can I go, to be honest, there is nothing but pity. But this time, I really understand, Mama Yang, let me say something To be honest... I basically treat that little bastard Yang Zhen as my younger brother, and I will take care of him even if he commits a small bad thing. I feel sorry for him, the boy is so pitiful. This time he is gone... To be honest It didn’t hurt very much, it was empty. During the rest in the hospital, I thought a lot about the potted plants that Yang Zhen put on my desk, and said noisyly that I would treat him to steak after solving the case. It was like a slideshow. Pages passed in my head."

Yang Ma's eyes were red, and the tears she had been holding back for a day suddenly flowed down, and she said, "Is he... very disobedient?"

Guo Ding shook his head, chewed on the cigarette holder, and said, "It looks disobedient, and you're stubborn if you don't listen to anything. But... you say... why do you think so much..."

Yang Ma covered her mouth and sobbed a bit, but said nothing.

"Mother Yang, I still say the same thing. Everyone in the serious crime team is your son, and they are all brothers Yang Zhen."

Yang Ma closed her eyes, tilted her head and said nothing.

Guo Ding picked up the blanket from the sofa and covered Mama Yang, then stood up, and took the ashtray from the tea table away before leaving.

Xu Yao seemed to have lost his soul, standing downstairs in a daze, he didn't see any movement for a long time, when he saw Guo Ding coming down, he raised his eyes, then lowered his head, not knowing what he was thinking.

"Is the second trial over?" Guo Ding asked.

Xu Yao nodded, and said in an indescribably hoarse voice, "Soon."

Guo Ding wanted to say something, but before he could say anything, Xu Yao straightened up and sat in the car, followed by the two policemen.

Family.

Brandy wanted more than anything else.

Guo Ding hugged Brandy's shirt and slept on the sofa.

Pretending to be strong for a day...

I really can't hold on anymore.

The shirt was pinched out of shape.

Guo Ding took a puff of a cigarette, and instead of pressing the cigarette end into the calluses of the tiger's mouth as usual, he pressed the softest part of the skin on the inner side of his wrist.

The uncontrollable pain woke him up a lot.

The smell of burnt skin surface is very bad.

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Guo Ding began to blame himself