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Ai Jun did not take Lu Qijiu to Lin Weiyuan's psychological clinic, but to Lin Weiyuan's home.

Wearing a mask, Lu Qijiu followed Ai Jun into the elevator with some embarrassment.

Ai Jun smiled and comforted: "Don't be so nervous. Let me tell you, he looks well-dressed, but he is actually a gentle scum. I have a lot of psychological problems, so I went to study psychology."

Seeing Lu Qijiu's surprised eyes, Ai Jun nodded, "Really, you'll know when you see him soon."

The elevator door opened slowly, and a tall and thin man leaned against the wall.

Ai Jun spoke first, "Are you still alive?"

Lin Weiyuan yawned: "You're not dead yet, how dare you take a step ahead!" After speaking, he smiled and said to Lu Qijiu: "Hello, kid, my name is Lin Weiyuan, Lin of the forest, towering The towering, the near and the far.”

"Hurry up and lead the way!"

"twitter!"

Lin Weiyuan opened the door of the apartment and invited Ai Jun and Lu Qijiu in.

Ai Jun sat on the sofa, and let Lu Qijiu sit next to him. "Is there no one hiding in your room?"

Lin Weiyuan put two glasses of fruit juice on the table, "Knowing that you are coming all the time, how dare you hide someone! Why don't you drink fruit juice with your children."

Ai Jun took a sip first, then turned her head and smiled at Lu Qijiu: "I tried it, it's not poisonous, drink it."

Lu Qijiu frowned, took off her mask, and took a sip from the cup.

Lin Weiyuan sat opposite Lu Qijiu, turned on the stereo with the remote control, and a soothing piano piece rippled like water waves.

In line with the music, Lin Weiyuan also lowered his voice, and said to Lu Qijiu: "Don't be nervous, completely relax your body. Choose your most comfortable position, whether you want to sit, lie down, or stand in my position with your shoes on." 10,000+ sofas are fine.”

Lu Qijiu nodded slightly.

"The rest of the time belongs to the two of us. You have the full right to let the man next to you get out of my room. Of course, you also have the right to keep him. I have no objection at all."

Ai Jun didn't bother, Lu Qijiu took out her phone and said, "It's all fine."

Lin Weiyuan gave Ai Jun a look, and Ai Jun moved to the chair behind Lu Qijiu.

"Now you can pretend that he doesn't exist anymore, and you can talk to me freely, and you can scold him whatever you want, and I will scold him with you." Lin Weiyuan said very softly: "If you feel nervous or uneasy when certain issues are mentioned, just Think about having him behind you to protect you. Although I don't want to admit it, I have to say that I really can't beat him."

Lu Qijiu pursed her lips and smiled.

"Do you think the distance between us is okay now?"

Lu Qijiu nodded.

"So, when did you get nervous about others? And when did you stop talking?"

"When I was 13. I don't remember when I didn't want to talk. It was about six or seven years old."

"Six or seven years old, you were still living in the orphanage at that time, right? Why didn't you talk anymore? Is it because other children bullied you?"

Lu Qijiu shook her head.

Next, in Lu Qijiu's intermittent description, under Lin Weiyuan's detailed questioning.

Ai Jun finally had a thorough understanding of Lu Qijiu's 24 years of life.

Lu Qijiu has lived in an orphanage since she was a child.He was bullied because of his cleft lip.

The other children laughed at him and called him ugly and little rabbit.

Only one little girl doesn't.

The little girl affectionately called him brother.

When other children threw stones at Lu Qijiu, the little girl would stand up and protect him behind her.

When Lu Qijiu first learned to use chopsticks, he ate very slowly, so the little girl fed him with her own vegetables.

When Lu Qijiu started to learn to speak, her pronunciation was incorrect, and the little girl patiently corrected her time and time again.

Until Lu Qijiu was five years old, the little girl was seven years old.

A couple came to the orphanage. They had been married for a long time but had no children, so the couple decided to adopt a child first.

Finally the little girl was chosen.

Lu Qijiu asked the aunt in the orphanage where the little girl went.

Aunt said she went to the city.

For Lu Qijiu at that time, the city was an unreachable place.

There are no phones in the orphanage yet.If Lu Qijiu wanted to contact that little girl, she could only write to her.

So Lu Qijiu started to read and study, and at the same time, she often went outside to pick up waste paper and iron on the side of the road and sell them. With the few cents she got, she could buy an envelope and a few stamps.

Sent several letters with no reply.

Lu Qijiu overheard the aunt of the orphanage saying that she had gone to the city to do business, and then she asked her how long it would take to go to the city, how to get there, and how much it would cost.

From then on, Lu Qijiu stopped buying envelopes and stamps, and hid every penny she saved.

Have forgotten how long to save, a year?Or two years?

Finally, I saved enough fare for a round trip.

The little girl's adoptive mother entertained him very warmly.

When her mother went to the kitchen, the little girl, who had already been named Lu Youjia, called Lu Qijiu outside.

Lu Youjia said to Lu Qijiu: "Don't write any more letters in the future, and don't come to me again. I don't want my neighbors to see it."

Lu Qijiu said: "Sister, I miss you very much. After you left, they all bullied me..."

"Listen well, I used to do that just because in the orphanage, those adults like obedient and sensible children. I help them take care of you, and every time they eat meat, they will leave me an extra piece. Do you think I really want to take care of you? You can't even speak clearly, every time I follow behind me, I'm going to be annoyed to death!"

Mother Lu came out and asked, "What's wrong with Xiaojia? Let your brother come in and sit."

Lu Youjia turned around and said, "My brother said he was leaving, so I'll come out to see him off."

When we got back, it was raining cats and dogs.Lu Qijiu walked back to the orphanage from the station in the rain, only to see that a little stray dog ​​he had brought back a few days ago was being disemboweled by other children.

Those children under the age of ten had blood on their hands.Said to Lu Qijiu: "The ugly monster is back! We can drink broth tonight! But it's not your share, so just watch from the sidelines!"

In the evening Lu Qijiu developed a high fever.

In the haze of consciousness, I heard the voices of several aunts.

"Oh, he's really serious. He still has to go out to play in such a heavy rain. It will cost a lot of money to get sick."

"He seems to have gone out to find that young lady, who was adopted two years ago."

"The couple wanted to adopt him, didn't they?"

"Yeah, I read his information first, and I think his age is right. The couple's family is rich, and his mouth can be cured. But that day, they saw that little girl teaching him to write, and they both thought that The little girl is very well-behaved and sensible, and she looks like an older sister. If she has a biological child in the future, this older sister will definitely treat her younger siblings well. That's why I adopted that little girl."

"It's life..."

The next day, Lu Qijiu buried the puppy's fur.

Afterwards, he never ate a bite of meat.

She had a high fever and her throat was inflamed, but Lu Qijiu hadn't taken any medicine.I had a sore throat for more than ten days in a row and couldn't speak.

There were too many children in the orphanage, and the adults couldn't take care of them, so no one asked whether his throat was healed.

After that, he never spoke again.

At the age of 12, Lu Qijiu was admitted to a local public middle school with No.1 grades.

There is no dormitory in the school, Lu Qijiu still lives in the orphanage.

The head teacher at the time was a young mathematics teacher.

Lu Qijiu's grades are very good, the best in mathematics.So the teacher often keeps him in the class to help correct test papers or homework.

The teacher's home was very close to the school, and occasionally he would correct too late, so he asked Lu Qijiu to have dinner at his home.

Once, when it was late at night to correct the test papers, the teacher asked Lu Qijiu to sleep at his house for the night.

Under the influence of the aunt in the orphanage, the young Lu Qijiu believed that the teachers were good people, and only by listening to the teachers would they be successful.

Unpreparedly agreed.

Lu Qijiu remembered very clearly that she locked the door by herself.

But I forgot that the teacher is the master of the house, so he will naturally have the key.

At night, the teacher climbed onto Lu Qijiu's bed.While undressing, Lu Qijiu woke up.But Lu Qijiu didn't know what the teacher was going to do, until Lu Qijiu felt the pain and reached out to push the teacher.

The teacher pressed Lu Qijiu's hand on top of his head, but he still had to continue underneath.It was only then that Lu Qijiu realized that something was wrong, and tried her best to break free from the teacher's restraint, then picked up something next to her and threw it at the teacher, and escaped from the teacher's house.

Lu Qijiu vaguely remembered that the teacher seemed to have a lot of background, and was worried that he would cause trouble for the orphanage, so she packed up her things the next morning and left a letter to say goodbye in a hurry.

Lu Qijiu has moved bricks, dug sand, swept the floor, washed dishes, he has done almost all jobs that do not require education or experience.But his body is too thin, his strength is very weak, and he can't speak, so there will be various problems in every job.

His last job was in an Internet cafe.At first, he was only responsible for cleaning and helping to deliver water to make a few bowls of instant noodles. Later, the boss saw that he knew a little about computers and was honest, so he was asked to be in charge of the cash register. 24 hours without rest.

I eat and live in Internet cafes every day.Although they ate instant noodles and lived in a simple camp bed, the surrounding environment was always filled with smog and miasma.

But Lu Qijiu is very satisfied, she doesn't need to worry about food and lodging, she can also watch everyone play games.

He is very grateful to the boss.

Later, Internet cafes became more and more popular, and four or five Internet cafes appeared on the same street.The business in my store is getting worse and worse, and the boss's temper is getting more and more irritable.Once, when Lu Qijiu was asked to pour water for him, he thought it was too hot, so he threw the water glass on Lu Qijiu's head.

This kind of thing happened more and more, Lu Qijiu proposed to resign, but the boss didn't agree, and even scolded Lu Qijiu for being ungrateful, forgetting how he took care of Lu Qijiu in the past, and tortured Lu Qijiu even more.

One night, the boss came to the store drunk and lost his temper again, scaring away the only two customers in the store.Then he put the blame on Lu Qijiu, saying that he was too ugly to scare the guests away.The boss took a keyboard and slapped Lu Qijiu on the head, and Lu Qijiu ran out of the Internet cafe in desperation.

Stayed in the park for one night, but was woken up by two police officers the next day.

The Internet cafe was stolen, and Lu Qijiu was taken to the police station to make a record.Although there is no evidence to prove that Lu Qijiu stole the money, there is also no evidence to prove that he is innocent.

Since Lu Qijiu was under the age of eighteen, the police carried out a series of strict ideological education, but did not punish him too much.

When I went out, I heard the boss say loudly to the police in the office: "I just hired him because I felt sorry for him!"

"I didn't expect him to be so ignorant of good and evil, he will repay his kindness with revenge!"

"No father, no mother, no education, it really isn't a good thing!"

"Looking like a ghost, I don't know how many customers I have scared away!"

After that, Lu Qijiu went to the second-hand market to buy an old computer, rented a small room without windows, and lived by playing games for eight years.

In the past eight years, Lu Qijiu has never left the room except for things like handling ID cards.

Until he finally saved enough money, and then bravely took the first step in a new life.

Then, I met Ai Jun.