Fork in the road

In the rest of the night, I could almost finish a set of papers. After the two of them finished writing, they didn't do anything else.Yu Xian climbed onto the bed silently, Bai Xiaoyuan put away the table and also turned off the light and returned to the bed.

It's still a bit early for going to bed, Bai Xiaoyuan thinks it's time to bring up the topic that I didn't have the courage to talk about this afternoon and evening.In the dark room, both of them were lying flat on the bed, the distance between them was less than an arm's length, but they couldn't see each other's expressions clearly, only a vague outline.Perhaps in this way, both of them will have more courage, and they can both say some things that are usually inconvenient to say.

He asked as lightly as possible: "Salted fish, how long do you plan to live here?"

"Whenever my mother is willing to let me go back, I will go."

Bai Xiaoyuan was a little surprised: "Auntie doesn't want you to stay at home?"

"It's not that I don't want to, it's that I will make her suffer at home." Yu Xian's voice was emotionless, and he flatly narrated the previous relationship between himself and his mother, "My mother can't control herself from arguing with my father. She probably has the idea that I will feel uncomfortable hearing the content of the dispute, but she doesn't think she shouldn't argue with my dad, so she can only make me unable to hear them arguing."

Bai Xiaoyuan frowned when he heard it, not because of what Yu Xian said, but because of Yu Xian's attitude when he spoke.Such an overly calm tone, either he was so cold-blooded that he was not affected at all, or he was too much affected and didn't want to show it.

Bai Xiaoyuan clearly knows that Yu Xian is not a cold-blooded person, so he is really deeply troubled by the discord between his parents. It has been troubled for too long, and he may be a little numb and resentful——Bai Xiaoyuan Xiao Yuan still remembered that Yu Xian said "why not get a divorce" when he called yesterday.

At that time, Bai Xiaoyuan still felt that there was something difficult to overcome and he would get a divorce. Now that I think about it, I am an outsider who doesn't understand anything. It's really... It doesn't hurt to stand up and talk, after all, I never have to worry about my parents. Relationship is not it?

Bai Xiaoyuan tilted his head slightly, looked at Yu Xian's unclear profile in the dark, and asked, "Then, do you now know why uncles and aunts quarreled?"

"Because my dad drinks a lot lately? Actually, there are many reasons, and I don't know which one is the cause of this quarrel." Yu Xian paused, "Since that incident happened, they seem to quarrel over various things at any time. When you get up, most of the time when you don’t quarrel is awkward and indifferent. If they knew from the beginning that they couldn’t go back to the previous state, why didn’t they just divorce? Do you still want to endure each other for more than ten years or decades?”

Yu Xian once again talked about divorce.

Bai Xiaoyuan also began to feel that divorce seemed to be the best choice for Yu Xian's parents.But this is just my thoughts after listening to Yu Xian's words, Bai Xiaoyuan doesn't think it's really appropriate for him to say to Yu Xian now, "I also think uncles and aunts should get a divorce".

"Uncles and aunts may have their own reasons, and not all parents only compromise for the sake of their children. If you have any thoughts in your heart, you can try to let them know your attitude? Uncles and aunts will definitely consider it."

"I just hope they can make a decision sooner. No matter what the result is, I can accept it. No matter how bad it is, it can't be more unbearable than the current situation. This period of time is nothing more than killing the remaining feelings. .”

Bai Xiaoyuan hesitated for a while, and still said: "You said, there will be no worse result, but, have you ever thought that if," Bai Xiaoyuan bit the word "if" very hard, " Uncle and aunt divorced, it would be fine if it was like my family, but if they each form a new family, do you think the result is better?"

Yu Xian had never thought about it in this direction before.In other words, even if I had such a vision, I didn't want to think too realistically.He could comfort himself with the fact that his parents were still his parents after their divorce, but he had no way of knowing how he would feel when they also became someone else's parents.That other person may be a stranger who has no blood relationship with him at all, which is fine, but what if it is a child who has half the same blood as himself?

Yu Xian said in a low voice, his voice was harsh: "But what can I do? Even if I don't want them to divorce, I want this family, but if they continue to quarrel like this, even if the three of them still live together, this family will definitely not exist. Already."

Bai Xiaoyuan wondered if Yu Xian would cry.But even he, the listener, felt very uncomfortable, and Yu Xian must have felt even more uncomfortable.

Yu Xian came to live here because Bai Xiaoyuan had contacted Bai Xinhong before, and Bai Xinhong had contacted Hu Yue and gave her a suggestion to make her son less affected.But now Bai Xiaoyuan felt that Yu Xian should not stay in his home anymore.

Bai Xiaoyuan turned sideways, looked at Yu Xian's blurred outline and said, "Xianyu, do you want to go home? Do you want to repeat what you just said to your uncles and aunts?"

"My mother asked me to come here, I..." Yu Xian's tone was full of uncertainty.

Bai Xiaoyuan interrupted Yu Xian gently: "Auntie is afraid that you will be affected. But even if you are at my house, you still think about your own family, don't you?"

"But can what I said really have any effect...?" Yu Xian turned his head sideways, and seemed to meet Bai Xiaoyuan's gaze in the dim room.

Bai Xiaoyuan's tone was gentle: "Even if it didn't work in the end, at least you said it. You don't want to be out of the situation all the time, and in the end you only get a decision made by uncle and aunt? You are also what you want A member of the cherished family, you have a reason to say what you want. You are not a child anymore, and they will listen to what you say."

Yu Xian was silent for a long time, so long that Bai Xiaoyuan's eyelids became a little heavy.

Bai Xiaoyuan insisted on waiting for Yu Xian's answer, so he kept trying not to fall asleep, but there was no light source in the room, and the mattress was too soft, he felt that his consciousness was already floating on the edge of sleep.

The people next to the half-dream and half-awake room seemed to come over, and Bai Xiaoyuan felt a little warm in this room with the air conditioner turned on at 26 degrees.Some inaudible voices have reached my ears, like a "thank you".Even though his eyes were overwhelmed and his brain was still in chaos, Bai Xiaoyuan still replied subconsciously: "You are welcome... we two... who is with whom..."

His body became warmer, Bai Xiaoyuan stretched out his arms to hug the heat source, and smiled in his sleep.

When Yu Xian woke up the next morning, it was still dark, and he found himself nestled in Bai Xiaoyuan's arms in a posture that could be called a little bird.

The two are about the same height now, Yu Xian stretched out his legs and found that his feet were already outside the bed.

But let's not worry about it for now.

Yu Xian stretched out his hand cautiously, gently circled Bai Xiaoyuan's body, and slowly put his arm on the other's waist——

Bai Xiaoyuan didn't wake up.It's fine if you don't wake up.

Yu Xian buried his face in Bai Xiaoyuan's chest, breathing gently.I can't tell what it smells like, maybe part of it comes from Bai Xiaoyuan's lemon-flavored body wash, and part of it comes from Bai Xiaoyuan himself.Yu Xian couldn't say that the smell was just fragrant, but he was sure it was a smell he was familiar with and liked.

Just like a little bird is like a little bird, Yu Xian fell asleep again in this position.

I woke up again because I felt the movement of the person next to me.

Yu Xian opened his sleepy eyes and saw Bai Xiaoyuan's smile: "Woke you up? Sorry... Do you think I will apologize? No, it's time to get up, the sun is drying the apples!"

Looking at Bai Xiaoyuan's smiling face and slightly parted lips, Yu Xian suddenly couldn't help but leaned forward.By the time he realized what he was doing, he had already done half of the action, and Yu Xian's panic only lasted for a moment. He raised his hand to hold Bai Xiaoyuan's face, and kissed him deeply on the forehead.

It's dangerous, but fortunately the direction was temporarily changed, otherwise there is really no way to explain it.

Seeing Bai Xiaoyuan's surprised and bewildered expression, Yu Xian's heart was beating so fast that he couldn't show his face, he smiled and said very calmly: "Thank you last night, Yuaner." Seeing that Bai Xiaoyuan still had a strange expression, Yu Xian changed the subject, "You just said that the sun basks in the apples, isn't it the sun basking in the butt?"

Bai Xiaoyuan was indeed distracted, "Isn't that more elegant!"

Yu Xian got up and said, "Okay, okay, Wenya. Shall I go wash up first?" He looked at the time, "It's so late... Shall I go after lunch?"

"It's ok, the vegetables are all bought, every bite of mine is yours." Bai Xiaoyuan replied with a smile.

Yu Xian walked out of the room, and the smile on Bai Xiaoyuan's face turned into a puzzled expression.

He reached out and touched his forehead, his expression became more and more inexplicable.

What happened to Yu Xian today?Usually the other party will not take the initiative to make any intimacy, the intimacy value between two people is probably brushed up by themselves.

Could it be that what he said last night was so good that Yu Xian was very moved?After all, I am a person who has never felt a complete family. The call last night may have been thought out by racking my brains, and it was not easy.

Probably because Yu Xian's condition is not good recently, he is too fragile.After all, uncle and aunt had quarreled for so long, Yu Xian was already thinking about what would happen to him when they divorced...

Thinking of this, Bai Xiaoyuan began to feel sorry for Yu Xian again.

At the dinner table, Bai Xiaoyuan asked Yu Xian: "Have you told your uncle and aunt what you want?"

"No, let's improvise." Probably having made up his mind, Yu Xian seemed a lot more relaxed, "I'm talking to my parents, not giving a speech, and they won't mind even if they forget the words."

"Yes, no matter what, they are your dear parents."

"After listening to your words last night, I also thought about what would happen if they got divorced and each had a new home." Yu Xian became serious, "I think, by then I should have graduated from high school and was already an adult. When you were so young, you came here alone, and I can definitely go on alone."

"I'm not alone. When I was young, I had my parents and you played with me." Bai Xiaoyuan laughed, "You will never be alone. Uncles and aunts love you very much, and you still have me as a friend , for a lifetime, not expired."

Yu Xian lowered his eyes and smiled, "Yes, I still have you."