Fork in the road

Bai Xiaoyuan couldn't help but consulted Ms. Bai Xinhong, the off-site support, and this time he told what he and Yu Xian had seen before.

"I don't care about this situation at all, or should I tell the parents, or it's better to say it when the parents are present at the same time?" Bai Xiaoyuan felt that nothing was good.

"You never thought of asking me to tell Yu Xian's mother directly?"

"No... Rather than letting you go, it's better for me to talk directly. But neither of these two is a good way."

"Hmm." Bai Xinhong said in a relaxed tone, "Why don't you bring your own thoughts into it? What would you do if it happened to you?"

"No way. You have been divorced for so many years, and you still care about my dad buying gold jewelry? Even if I tell you, you will only find it annoying. "

"Indeed...but don't bring your own family background into it. If you were like Yu Xian, what would you do?"

Bai Xiaoyuan thought for a while, and replied: "I can't think of it, the difference is too great, the relationship between Yu Xian and his parents is too close, and he has too many worries and ideas."

Bai Xinhong continued: "How about analyzing the possible results of each choice?"

"If nothing happens to Uncle Yu, then it doesn't matter which way you choose." Bai Xiaoyuan muttered softly, "I think Yu Xian's parents seem quite harmonious..."

"Then we might have to apologize to your Uncle Yu once here, assuming—" Bai Xinhong emphasized his tone, "assuming he has something to hide from Yu Xian's mother, how should we analyze it?"

"If Aunt Hu doesn't know, then I think the first and third options are better... If you talk to Uncle Yu directly, it feels like covering up. But if Uncle Yu knows his mistake and corrects it, then this paragraph It seems okay to keep Aunt Hu from knowing about the experience?" Bai Xiaoyuan frowned, "No, this kind of deception is still too much..."

"You said 'if Aunt Hu doesn't know', that means you think Yu Xian's mother might know about her husband buying gold jewelry?"

"It's also possible that Aunt Hu knew about...well, the cheating." Bai Xiaoyuan felt very awkward when he made this baseless guess, and then added, "This kind of family often happens, right?"

"Indeed, but your Auntie Hu is not the kind of character who compromises. In this case, what advice do you have?"

"In my case, I would suggest that Yu Xian tell Aunt Hu directly, but Yu Xian has such a good relationship with his parents, so he may not accept my suggestion. If I suggest that he say when he and his parents are together, he It should be acceptable."

"Aren't you very clear about what you think?"

"Well... my focus is not actually on what Yu Xian is going to do. He wants to say it is nothing more than a psychological struggle. In fact, I am more concerned about the result after he says it. It would be best if nothing happens, but I also I'm a little worried, will there be a gap between him and his parents? If something happens, I'm even more worried, what if his parents divorce? If his parents reach a consensus not to divorce, will there always be a shadow in Yu Xian's heart? If they don't reach a consensus and are just wasting, will Yu Xian have to face a restless home every day?"

"Yu Xian is nearly a year older than you. Why does he seem so fragile in your mouth? No matter how many worries you have, it's all his own business, right?"

"That is to say, I am not worried that he will be upset if something happens at home... Uh, it will affect his study in the end..." Bai Xiaoyuan actually thinks that the latter reason is far less important than the former one.Even if he was worried that these things would affect Yu Xian's grades, it was because he was afraid that Yu Xian would be even more depressed after his grades dropped.

What Bai Xiaoyuan thinks most in his heart is to be happy.It's not just about the immediate pleasure, if it can only make you feel comfortable for a short period of time now but will cause trouble in the future, Bai Xiaoyuan will not do it.

If Yu Xian's academic performance is affected because of these things affecting his mood, then he will not be reconciled in the future, right?

Bai Xiaoyuan didn't want these things to happen, but he was just Yu Xian's deskmate and child.He can't stop things from happening, he just hopes that the impact of the results of these things will be as small as possible.He can't analyze Yu Xian like an expert, nor can he explain Yu Xian like someone who has experienced it, but if Yu Xian is really sad, he can at least give him some support and companionship by his side.

In fact, Bai Xiaoyuan didn't know what Yu Xian was thinking.

From Bai Xiaoyuan's point of view, parents divorced?Then leave.He wasn't there when his parents divorced. He hasn't lived well for so many years, and he doesn't have any psychological defects.

Who will the child live with?It's all right, anyway, he can take care of himself by himself, and it's obviously better to have a parent by his side to take care of him than alone.

Will there be a new partner after the parents divorce?This has nothing to do with him, even though Bai Xiaoyuan is the only child, he did not look eagerly at his parents' wealth.No hands or feet, can't support yourself?As for getting less love... It seems that Bai Xiaoyuan's love could not be less.

By analogy, it's like people who have never been in love can't understand the pain that others feel from the heart after breaking up.He could understand the emotions of the other party, but he couldn't imagine how this emotion came about and how it made people so sad.Some better people don't understand but are tolerant of sad people, and some people probably think that these people who are suffering after a breakup are moaning for nothing, and firmly believe that they will be able to return to normal immediately after a breakup, rationally and coldly.

Bai Xiaoyuan tried his best to make himself a "better person". He couldn't imagine the painful feelings of a teenage child brought about by the divorce of his parents, but he felt that it was normal to be depressed or depressed—as long as he didn't give up on himself, are still acceptable.

On the way to school the next day, Bai Xiaoyuan told Yu Xian everything he had prepared before.Bai Xiaoyuan tried his best to express what he wanted to say clearly and objectively.He didn't know what Yu Xian would do, but he didn't want his thoughts to have too much influence on Yu Xian's final choice.

After hearing Bai Xiaoyuan's words, Yu Xian could only say: "I will think about what to do."

That's what I said, but every time I think of this matter, Yu Xian's mind is slow and slow, as if what happened before this, whether it is the figure of his father they saw, or the sound that came from the middle of the night The voices of the dispute were all fictitious. He seemed to be watching what happened through the screen, and felt indifferently that it had nothing to do with him, so he couldn't give a suitable response.

Although Yu Xian has a very close relationship with his parents, he doesn't know how to say this kind of questioning.

If it's true, it's bound to involve a lot of things; if it's just my own wild thinking, wouldn't I distrust my father too much?Yu Xian's attitude towards his parents has always been to respect them more than to be close to them. If he wanted to say this matter casually in a joking tone, he would not be able to do it.

Yu Xian set a deadline for himself.The midterm exam was just after the November holiday, and he had to say it before the exam no matter what.

However, the plan could not keep up with the changes.

The holiday time is from the afternoon of NO.30 to the night of the third, and the quarrel between Yu Xian's parents broke out from the night of NO.30.

While having dinner, Yu Xian felt that the atmosphere at the dinner table was extremely tense. Hu Yue and Yu Ning didn't even make eye contact, let alone a conversation.

Although Yu Xian is a man of few words, he will also talk about school affairs when eating at home.Today, as usual, he started talking when he sat down, but his parents failed to respond to him as naturally as usual, and their smiles seemed to be stiff.Yu Xian only said a few words, then closed his mouth and speeded up his eating.

After eating, Yu Xian was going to take the bowl to the kitchen, but Hu Yue suddenly said, "Let's put it here, I'll clean it up later. You go to the room and do your homework, isn't there an exam after the holiday?"

Yu Xian let out an "um", walked into his room, and closed the door.The sound insulation effect of the door is not very good, Yu Xian can still hear the sound from outside.

He was sitting in front of the desk, but he didn't hear the sound of bowls and chopsticks bumping and walking back and forth when the table was cleared outside. He only heard the footsteps of two people walking into the master bedroom opposite his bedroom, but the door on the opposite side closed the sound of.

After that, there was no sound. It should be that the two people who were talking to each other lowered their voices because they were afraid of being overheard by Yu Xian.Yu sat for a while, opened his schoolbag and took out his vacation homework.

Before starting to write, Yu Xian put on the earphones and adjusted the volume of the phone to an appropriate level.He also didn't want to hear how his parents confronted or argued, he just hoped that they could give him the final result and the whole story, instead of keeping secrets about himself because he still felt like a child.

Yu Xian initially listened to music with headphones because he was afraid that he would be thinking about his parents all the time and would not be able to concentrate, but he did not expect that after he started doing his homework, he would really be completely absorbed in it, and he didn’t even know what song was just playing in his headphones .

What broke his concentration was a suddenly high-pitched voice from the next room.

Although the specific content could not be heard clearly through the two doors, Hu Yue's voice actually overwhelmed the singing in Yu Xian's earphones and reached his ears.Yu Xian took off the earphones and tried to listen carefully, but he could only hear the fuzzy voice of his parents arguing in a somewhat heated tone, so he took the earphones back and turned up the volume by two bars.

It's a bit deafening, but that way you can't hear anything else.

After writing the weekly diary, which had no real feelings at all, Yu Xian took off his earphones, shook his head, feeling a little dizzy.The earphones were too loud and after listening for a long time, he was completely blinded.

There was no sound from the next door. Yu Xian checked the time, and it was past ten o'clock, so he went out of the bedroom to wash up, and when he came back, he half-lyed on the bed.It's hard to get a vacation, but Yu Xian doesn't want to spend the time he usually goes to school at all.

The room was quiet, and I wondered if the two of them were still arguing.Yu Xian was holding the phone, but his eyes were cast on the opposite wall, thinking wildly in silence.

What is the reason for the quarrel?His father came back too late recently, or did he work too much overnight?Yu Xian remembered that when he was a child, Yu Ning did not go home at night, and when he worked overtime all night, it seemed that he wrote more often recently, but it didn't appear to be particularly frequent.Thinking of his guess before, Yu Xian shook his head in his heart, it could not be because of cheating, otherwise there would be no quarrel - after all, the cheating party is completely wronged.

Every time after the parents quarreled, the relationship would be tense for a few days. Anyway, tomorrow will not be reconciled, so let's talk about it directly at the dinner table tomorrow.Either they all knew about it, and felt that they made a fuss, maybe they could calm down after a laugh, or... Yu Xian couldn't imagine what kind of quarrel it would be.

He turned over and picked up his phone to read a novel.

In the middle of the night, Yu Xian was awakened by a loud noise.He reacted for a while, and only after fully waking up did he realize that it was the sound of the security door being slammed shut.After that, there was another rustling sound, and after a series of hurried footsteps, there was another sound of the anti-theft door being closed-this time it was much lighter.

Yu Xian turned over and lay flat on the bed, looked at the 02:33 written on the phone, thinking, but I'm already awake.The sound was really loud enough, one must know that Yu Xian was someone who couldn't even be woken up by a thunderbolt after falling asleep.

The loud noise before... Maybe my own mother was so angry when she went out that she forgot that her son was still sleeping, and slammed the door. His son was sleeping, so he was much gentler.But Yu Xian woke up, and he was out of the half-dream and half-awake state where he can fall asleep again by closing his eyes and tilting his head. Even if there is no sound, it will take a while for him to fall asleep now.