The prime minister married a fake wife

This person who has never expressed much, even when he smiles is cold, there is such a gentle smile, Yang Xixue thought so, but the smile disappeared soon, and it turned back to a wry smile, he continued: "But we came out Not long after entering the palace, we were discovered, and we were quickly taken back to the palace. The late emperor was very angry. He withdrew his grace and no longer let me study with the emperor. However, this is also normal. The emperor is the most beloved son of the late emperor. If something happened, my life might be lost, and I was already ready to stop studying with him when I took him out of the palace to play, but the next day the late emperor sent someone to inform me that I should continue to study with the emperor. I was very happy at the time, and I immediately went to the palace to look for him, and I found out afterwards that he took the responsibility on his own, and was punished by the first emperor to copy a hundred chapters of the Three Character Classic, and he didn't ask me to take him out of the palace afterwards."

He sighed, and said helplessly: "Our relationship is like good brothers. He became the prince, and our relationship has not changed. I also think this is just a simple love between brothers, but I don't know when it started to change. To be honest, it was not that kind of liking from the beginning. Not long after he became the crown prince, the late emperor chose a crown princess for him, who is the current empress. They were not married at that time, they were just engaged. The empress was arranged by the empress dowager to often enter the palace to accompany her In fact, I wanted to match the emperor and the empress, and as the empress dowager thought, they gradually became close, and they often went out in pairs. I felt very uncomfortable like an outsider, and I really wanted to separate them. At that time, I I began to realize that my feelings for him were no longer brotherhood. I began to alienate him unilaterally, but the emperor did not allow it. Hide it, and try not to have close contact with him as much as possible, wait for it to be slowly diluted by time, and let it pass like this."

He had a sad expression on his face, his original deep eyes became hollow, and the corners of his mouth still held a slight bitterness: "Until the day he and the queen got married, I watched them get married, and I felt jealous inexplicably in my heart. The person next to him and his marriage is me, I almost ran over, I tried my best to control myself, told myself that I can't do this, and I can't run away from here, and endured until their wedding is over, after that, I realized this I can't let go of this feeling, and I don't want to let it go, but I still store it in my heart again and freeze it, because my feeling for him will only hurt him and myself, neither of us will Happy." He suddenly laughed at himself and said, "And he doesn't have that kind of affection for me at all, but I'm self-indulgent, so I think it's fine for me to suffer, why let this innocent person suffer with me?"

He sighed again, and continued to laugh at himself: "I thought I had kept it well after all these years, but in the end I was just deceiving myself." He laughed, and the laughter made everyone who heard it think Worried, suddenly, he stopped smiling, and asked the sky: "How can I kill this feeling in my heart?" It was like asking the sky, but also like asking myself.

He didn't get a response from Yang Xixue for a long time after he finished speaking. Turning to look at him, he couldn't help being stunned for a while, and found that this unrelated person was crying more sadly than himself. Indistinguishable complex emotions.

Yang Xixue stared blankly at him, tears gushed out of her eyes, and ran down his delicate cheeks. Seeing Liu Lingyan looking at him, she realized that she was crying, and wiped them off with her sleeve.

Liu Lingyan also turned his head and didn't look at him, lest he be more embarrassed, suddenly he heard Yang Xixue say: "It's not your fault, my concubine's mother said to me that if you fall in love with someone, no matter who that person is , Should you love? If you fall in love, don’t regret it. Love bravely. No matter what the result is, you have tried your best and have no regrets. Although I don’t understand the feeling of falling in love with someone, I feel that What my mother said is right, so there is no need to kill this feeling, because it is a kind of happiness to be in love with someone, and if there is someone who loves me so much, I will feel very happy."

After Liu Lingyan heard it, it seemed that his heart, which had been bound all along, was suddenly released. He didn't know why this person could make him not resist from the beginning?Obviously I hate all women except my mother, but I don't hate her. Why can she easily integrate into my life and let me treat each other like a brother and sister?Why can you untie the heart that has been closed for many years, and tell her the secret that has been buried for many years?Now I can use a few simple words to release the feelings I have suppressed for many years. This should be a scary thing, but why I am not afraid at all, and I am very glad that she is by my side. She is really a wonderful person.

Seeing that she finished speaking, Yang Xixue didn't react at all, she looked at him with big red, watery eyes and asked worriedly: "Are you okay?"

Looking at him like this, Liu Lingyan had a heart-warming feeling, and suddenly thought: "How good would it be if the person I like is her?" She smiled at him and said, "I'm fine, I'm much better." He is now more emotionally stable , his reason also recovered, and suddenly he remembered something, he thought that he had been hiding this feeling very well, even the emperor hadn't noticed it, and he hadn't been found out for so many years, what did this person in front of him discover?Not only did he think about it, but he asked it out.

Yang Xixue looked at him with an impossible look and said: "At the beginning, I just felt that you were weird today. You were obviously unhappy, but you pretended to be very happy. When you look at the emperor and queen, there is always a trace of love in your eyes." And you said before that you have a person you like, but you don’t want to say it, and you can’t say it? Combined with your strangeness today, I can guess that the person you like is the emperor.” He added another: “You were at that time His eyes are so obvious, how could he not be noticed?"

Liu Lingyan ignored his last sentence, noticed a loophole in his words, and asked him: "You said that when I saw the emperor and the queen, there was a trace of sadness in my eyes, so why didn't you guess it was the queen? Don't normal people guess women?" ? Don't say that the person I like doesn't want to say it, and I can't say it, this can also describe the queen."

Yang Xixue looked at him inexplicably and said, "Didn't you say you hate women?"

Liu Lingyan woke up. After getting along with her for a long time, he forgot that he hated women, and she discovered his secret, so he shook his head and said, "Well, I see, it's getting late, you can go back to your room and rest. .”

Yang Xixue asked, "What about you?"

Liu Lingyan pulled him up and said, "Go, I'll sit for a while, and then I'll go back to my room." Then she gently pushed him.

Yang Xixue took two steps to look back, took another two steps to look back, until she returned to the room.

Seeing him like this, Liu Lingyan thought it was funny, smiled and raised one hand and made a movement of pushing it back and forth, which was a gesture to tell him to go back quickly. After seeing him enter the room, he raised his head slightly, closed his eyes and sat down. After a while, he seemed to be in deep thought, and after a while he opened his eyes and went back to his room.

Yang Xixue returned to the room and didn't go to bed immediately. He walked through the open window by the door and secretly looked at Liu Lingyan in the courtyard through the window. He didn't go to bed until he returned to the room.