not regret

Chapter 54

Following the address given by Tang Yuze, Shui Yifan found Shen Pan's tomb. It rained lightly, and Shui Yifan got out of the car and walked along the weedy path.

Every time he took a step, Shui Yifan felt that he was being scratched. At the end of the road was the person he loved the most. He wanted to walk quickly, but his feet didn't listen. He walked slowly, and his whole body was full of contradictions. Want to see but afraid to see.

The rain wasn't heavy, but it was enough to wet Shui Yifan's hair, which was wet on his forehead.

Shen Pan's tombstone stood upright, but Shui Yifan didn't dare to go there. In fact, until now, he didn't believe the news of Shen Pan's death. He would rather hear that Shen Pan and Tang Yuze were together. He didn't want to hear about Shen Juan's absence.

Shui Yifan gently stroked the photo on Shen Pan's tombstone, "Why are you so cruel? Why didn't you tell me you were sick... What should I do if you left me alone?"

Shui Yifan sat next to Shen Pan's tombstone, his starry eyes were full of tenderness, "You, you've been thinking about me all your life, and you don't think about yourself, even if you want to leave, you have to let me I think you are wrong, you are the one who is sorry for me, what are you trying to do? You said you were sick and didn’t say anything, just pretending to be okay, I really didn’t see it.” Shui Yifan sniffed, then said "Is it cold down here? Have you met your parents? I have always known that your father's death was a problem for you. Now that your family of three is reunited, you should be happy, but you left me alone in this world." , are you really relieved? Brother Judgment, I miss you, I want to drink the soup you made for me, you are so cruel, you have been away for so long, and you have never come to see me in your dreams, even if only once Okay. I see." Shui Yifan leaned against Shen Pan's tombstone, "Are you angry with me? You must be angry. You are so narrow-minded. Are you angry that I am with Pan Wenqing? Being with him, that is, because he has paid so much, I look at him pitifully, you are angry and I ignore him, okay? Can you entrust me with a dream tonight? I really miss you. "

Shui Yifan stayed in the cemetery until the afternoon, the rain completely soaked his clothes, sticking to his body sticky, tears dripping down together with the rain, he has been sitting leaning against Shen Pan's tombstone, he felt so tired, so he just If he wanted to stay by Shen Pan's side forever, even if separated by a layer of dirt, even if Yin and Yang were separated, he didn't want to go anywhere.

After sitting for an entire afternoon, when he stood up, Shui Yifan's legs became numb, and he couldn't even stand steadily. He reluctantly walked a few steps. Shui Yifan said, "Wait for me, brother judge, don't walk too fast, I will I'm afraid I won't be able to catch up."

Back at the hotel, I took a hot bath and rained for a whole day, but I couldn't stand it even if it was hard, and I was so burnt in the middle of the night that I couldn't even get up to drink water.

Shui Yifan returned to the small town where he and Shen Pan grew up together, but he didn't dare to go back to his home, he walked back and forth along the alley behind his home.

He went back to the school where he and Shen Pan had read together, which was almost dismantled. He found the willow tree. He recalled that Shen Pan confessed to himself under this willow tree. He went to the first kiss between him and Shen Pan. alley.

He followed the walls and the ground here, recalling every inch of him and Shen Pan here, and Shen Pan's shadow was everywhere but he was gone.

Shui Yifan walked to the Internet cafe where he and Shen Pan met for the first time. Unexpectedly, the Internet cafe was still open for more than ten years. open.

Turned on a computer, Shui Yifan faced the computer but didn't know what to do, he didn't want to open the LOL that he usually loves to play.

Brother Zhang walked up to him, opened the chair and talked to him, "Are you the kid named Shui?"

Shui Yifan didn't expect Brother Zhang to remember him, "Yes, my surname is Shui, I didn't expect you to remember me."

Brother Zhang said, "You and that kid surnamed Shen had such a big fight at the beginning, and our place is not big, so there was a lot of rumors. Who doesn't know, hey, you and your childhood haven't changed much."

Shui Yifan smiled slightly, yes, almost everyone in the town had heard about the matter between himself and Shen Pan.

"I still remember that kid had no money back then, so he let you stay all night with me on credit, but remember, there are not many kids who are as bold as him, and dare to come to the Internet cafe to pay on credit."

Shui Yifan remembered that Shen Pan ran away from home at that time, and he probably didn't have any money on him. Later, he didn't ask Shen Pan or say anything. It turned out that Shen Pan let him play on credit, "Brother Zhang, you He's still our old man, if it weren't for your Internet cafe, we probably wouldn't know each other."

"Aren't you two in the same class? How could you not know each other?"

"Yeah, but he didn't go to school very often, and I really didn't know him if I didn't come to the Internet cafe." Shui Yifan recalled how he and Shen Pan were at school. He was really stupid when he was a child, and he smiled unconsciously. stand up.

Brother Zhang turned on the computer next to Shui Yifan, "Why did you come back alone today? What about him? I heard that he has become a big boss and made a lot of money?"

Shui Yifan said, "He's waiting for me somewhere."

"Really? It's rare to see people as rich as the two of you here. You two should have a good time. I have a nephew who is also like you. After he heard what happened to you, he had a fight with my brother. What do you call coming out of the closet? Oh, it's very kind."

"Yes, very courageous, Brother Zhang, I'm leaving." Shui Yifan stood up and said goodbye to Brother Zhang, and it was already dark when he left the door.

He walked to the small courtyard of his house, where the lights were on, and he knew that his parents would be there, so he kowtowed three times in the direction of the small courtyard of his house, and did not cry for many days, but this time His eyes were moistened with tears.

Shui Yifan went back to the house where he and Shen Pan lived together overnight. No one had been there for a long time. The room was covered with a layer of dust. When Shui Yifan turned on the light, Shen Pan's shadow appeared in various places. In the kitchen, in the bedroom, in the living room, sitting, standing, cooking, hugging him, kissing him, all kinds of punishments.

Shui Yifan thought that the person who would make soup for him, the person who would cut watermelon clips for him, and the person who would warm his feet would never be seen again, so he felt pain in his heart.

He mixed the dozen or so boxes of various anti-inflammatory drugs he bought with alcohol and swallowed them.

He lay quietly on the bed where he and Shen Pan had spent countless beautiful nights together, "Brother Pan, wait for me."

As time passed by every minute and every second, Shui Yifan saw Shen Pan, who was in full bloom back then, walking slowly towards him in a daze. so charming.

Shen Juan approached him, slightly hooked his thin lips, "Do you regret being with me?"

Shui Yifan shook his head slowly, and responded softly, "I don't regret it."

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What follows:

It’s finally over. I started writing on August 8th and it took 6 months to finish. This is Xiaoshui’s first published novel. Delay, there are many immature places.

There are a lot of my childhood experiences in "No Regrets". Originally, this article should not be so clean, but my father, a father who loves his daughter, you can understand the mood, knowing that I actually wrote my own The article was posted on the Internet, and he has been chasing updates, so... Ha, you understand, so most of the articles I wrote after that should be Qingshuiwen. There is no meat. The first one is that my father will read it. The second is that I really don’t know how to write meat (ha~).

Let’s talk about the two characters Shui Yifan and Shen Pan. The personalities and tempers of Shui Yifan and Shen Pan are a combination of my husband’s and my temper. They are both half and half, so they have such temperaments. Well, Shui Yifan is actually a pretty lazy and nerdy person, which is really in line with me, but Shen Juan is another me, and I still work hard at work.How Shen Juan treated Shui Yifan is how my husband treated me. Many small details in life are almost all mine and him.

In fact, Xu Zhiqiao in the book "No Regrets" was not as simple as being paralyzed in my previous conception, but died directly in a car accident, but for the character Cui Can, I mixed the name of my real friend and my softness. Waxy temper, I think it's better to play lightly.

As for why someone asked me why I wrote BE, first, my abuse point is really too high to describe, and ordinary abuse articles can’t abuse me at all, so I write some abuse articles according to my own ideas.Second, I am a complete loser in the three dimensions. I belong to the kind of person who "doesn't deserve it" when I have nothing to do, but I am quite good at self-regulation (what kind of nonsense).

I know that the article "No Regret" is not refined, the turning point is quite blunt, and the story is very old-fashioned, but I still want to write it (slightly, slightly...).

The second book "One Second of Paradise" is about Huo Bin, a story about a social elder brother and a half-blooded little prince, but the half-blooded little prince will be tortured by blood, so I can only spoil this point. It's still the same old saying, what can't be eaten is the story Don't read it, I'm just such a person, if you can read it, you can watch it, if you can't, then go away.

Thanks for your companionship for 4 months, writing is my pleasure, as long as there is one person reading it, I will keep updating (meh da).

There are probably only two extra words. For a lazy person like me, I think it’s over when it’s over. I don’t want to write any extra words, but I have to explain what I didn’t write later (ah~), it should be Cui Can and Xu Zhiqiao's and Pan Wenqing's.

Finally, I would like to thank you for gritting your teeth and reading my writing. I still know very well what I wrote myself.