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The next day, the doctor Mu Qing invited came to see a doctor, and Shi Yan bought a box of pregnancy test sticks when she went out to buy groceries in the morning.

Even if it's a guess, always have the courage to prove it.

In the end, before he could verify it himself, the old doctor Zeng who came to see the doctor had already diagnosed that he was pregnant with a child.

But the situation is not optimistic.

After all, he is an old doctor who has been practicing medicine for decades. When encountering this kind of man's pregnancy, the old doctor is also very calm, but with a serious face, he took the hand for taking the pulse and said, "Are you planning to have this child?" ?”

Shi Yan's face turned pale, and he shook his head again and again, "No, I definitely want it."

"Then how did you end up like this? The fetal phase is unstable now, and there is a possibility of tire slippage at any time. Are you emotionally agitated and have frequent abdominal pains recently? Are there any signs of bleeding?"

Shi Yan explained to him one by one how his body reacted recently.

The old doctor nodded after hearing this, "You have no experience in this field, and you are men, so you will inevitably be negligent. But fortunately, if you find out in time and take good care of it, the child can still be born safely."

"You are pregnant now, so don't take western medicine, and you can't use traditional Chinese medicine with strong properties. I will prescribe you some medicines for recuperation. In addition, I will also prescribe some folic acid, calcium tablets, and blood-enriching oral liquid. Some time I will send someone to send it to you. You must continue to eat folic acid until next month. Your child is now 10 weeks old. Stop taking it until he is four months old. Calcium tablets and oral liquid for nourishing qi and blood must be taken all the time. "

Next is the things that need to be paid attention to during pregnancy, especially the risk of miscarriage. The old doctor Zeng told them one by one, and Shi Yan kept nodding. She didn't expect to pay attention to so many things during pregnancy.

I am a complete beginner.

After seeing Shiyan's illness, the doctor showed Meng Yun again, saying that his Qi and blood were congested and his heart arteries were severely damaged, and he needed acupuncture and moxibustion to slowly dredge the blood vessels and meridians.

What a treasure doctor.

After seeing the illness, Shi Yan respectfully sent him away, and when he returned home, Meng Yun stared at him with a strange expression.

"What's the matter?" Just got the good news, when Shi Yan was anxious to tell Mu Qing, seeing that Meng Yun's expression was not right, she couldn't help but stop and ask.

Meng Yun walked up to him, reached out to touch his belly, and murmured: "Baby."

Shi Yan's eyes lit up, she grabbed his hand, and looked at him in surprise: "Did you understand what the doctor said?"

"Meng Yun, do you know who I am?"

Meng Yun tilted his head to look at him suspiciously for a long time, "Brother?"

Shi Yan lowered her head in disappointment, "Forget it, don't be impatient, old doctor Zeng seems to be very good at medicine, I hope he can help you recover as soon as possible."

Afterwards, I tried to contact Mu Qing. It was already past four o'clock in the afternoon, and his side should have landed.

She didn't tell him directly, but gave him a pregnancy test stick with two bright red marks on it, which should be clear at a glance.

There was no reply half a day after the picture was sent out, maybe the signal over there is not good or something.

Shi Yan was a little disappointed.

However, it doesn't matter, anyway, I will be back soon, and I might be more pleasantly surprised if I tell him face to face.

As a result, I sent a message the next day, but it couldn't be sent out?

It was not until the afternoon that I received a call from Mu Qing, saying that the mobile phone was stolen as soon as I arrived there.

Shi Yan laughed at him for being too careless.

She decided to tell him about the pregnancy after he came back.

It has been half a month since Mu Qing left. Under the care of old doctor Zeng, Shi Yan's body is getting better and better, and the child has gradually stabilized. Meng Yun is also getting better day by day, and one day he even called Shi Yan Yan.

Every day I make video calls with Mu Qing, intentionally or unintentionally take medicine in front of the camera in front of him, and every time he asks what the medicine is, he will tell him with a smile and tell him that the old doctor Zeng said hello there, and there is no medicine for the time being. tell him.

It took another ten days before the cargo ship was settled properly. The pirates were encircled and suppressed with the assistance of the local government forces, and a ship of cargo was lost. Fortunately, the crew and captain were rescued safely.

The lost goods need to be returned to the country to be dealt with by the manufacturer's customer contact person here. Jinghua has arranged for people to negotiate in advance, and Mu Qing successfully completed the task and returned to the country.

Shi Yan knew that he was going back to China soon, but Mu Qing didn't tell him the exact date, and wanted to surprise him by appearing suddenly.

The flight arrives at the airport at [-] pm, and it takes an hour and a half to drive from the airport to the residence.

When Mu Qing arrived at the door of the house, he swept away the exhaustion from the journey, pulled himself together and opened the door. It was less than seven o'clock, and Shi Yan should start cooking at home.

After pushing the door and entering the house, I walked into the living room. The house was empty, no one was seen, put down the suitcase and went directly to the kitchen, pushed open the kitchen door, and hurriedly called: "Shi Yan!"

In the kitchen, Meng Yun held Shi Yan's waist from behind, resting his chin on his shoulder, half-closed his eyes like a big cat, opened his mouth to catch the small tomato that Shi Yan fed him, and put it in his mouth. He leaned over and kissed the corner of Shi Yan's mouth, "Ke Qing—"

Shi Yan was wearing a simple white shirt and black trousers.

Mu Qing originally planned to throw this suit away for him, but he said it was borrowed from Jiang Keqing, and he needed to find time to wash it and return it to him. Maybe it was because there were too many things later, and he completely forgot it, or Shi Yan deliberately forgot about it. I want to keep this suit as a souvenir.

No matter what the reason is, now this set of clothes is worn on Shi Yan. Although he and Jiang Keqing have different appearances, they are seven or eight points similar in figure. At first glance, I couldn't immediately recognize Shi Yan himself.

When Shi Yan and the others heard the sound of opening the door, they turned their heads, and the warm atmosphere between the two of them was condensed because of the interruption of outsiders.

Mu Qing's hand slipped from the doorknob, the joyful smile on his face slowly froze, and finally he looked at them expressionlessly, without saying a word.

Shi Yan's face changed slightly, he put down the kitchen knife in his hand, and pulled Meng Yunhuan's hand from his waist, "Meng Yun, go outside and play by yourself."

"Ke Qing." Meng Yun is not willing to let go, pestering him coquettishly, "Ke Qing—" stepped forward to push the person against the cooking table, the corners of his mouth curled up, "I like Ke Qing the most, you kiss me."

"Oh!"

The kitchen door was closed forcefully, Shi Yan panicked, pushed Meng Yun away, tried not to scare him and said: "Brother has something to do, you play by yourself, you can't take a knife."

"It's not brother, it's Keqing!"

Shi Yan ignored him, opened the door and ran out, Mu Qing had already pulled the suitcase to the gate.

"Mu Qing!" Chased after him and grabbed his arm and hurriedly explained, "Old Doctor Zeng said that his condition is improving now, so I can stimulate him properly, so—"

"Shiyan!" Mu Qing interrupted him with a cold expression, looking at him with cold eyes, "How long are you going to lie to yourself?"

"No, I—" Shi Yan was originally not good at words, and now he was even more clumsy when he was in a hurry. He didn't know how to explain it, so he had to explain the cause and effect of the matter clearly, "This suit is what Meng Yun found out in the closet and asked me to wear it. I didn't mean to-"

"Do you wait until you're in bed with him before you admit you love him?"

"I don't want to lie to myself again!" Mu Qing pushed his hand away like a knife, and said in a trembling voice: "You have never loved me from the beginning to the end, from the beginning to the end! Shiyan, admit it, the one you love The person is Meng Yun, the person I like is Meng Yun, it has never changed!"

Shi Yan looked at him in shock, and was speechless for a moment. He didn't know what this year was, and finally made Mu Qing come to such a conclusion.

Thinking he was right, Mu Qing smiled miserably, "You cry for him, laugh for him, go crazy for him, suffer for him, everything about you changes because of him. Let me ask, what have you done for me? You even, Not even the slightest bit of jealousy will be given to me!"

When Shi Yan heard the words, she suddenly introspected, yes, what have I done for him? It is a matter of course that I enjoy his favor, and it is a matter of course that I ask him for it. I have never done anything meaningful and unforgettable for him.

"Mu Qing, I was wrong, I didn't know you cared so much about those things, I just, just—" Even if it's a friendship, this seems too much, who would do this for a same-sex friend.

"No, you're right," Mu Qing said with a wry smile, "I was wrong. I shouldn't have forced you from the beginning, I shouldn't have forced you."

"Ke Qing!" Meng Yun opened the kitchen door and ran out in a panic, anxiously looking for Shi Yan.

A look of patience flashed across Mu Qing's face, he pulled up the suitcase and turned around resolutely, "Let's separate for a while, let's think it through."

"No, Mu Qing, listen to me, I'm pregnant—" Before he could finish speaking, Meng Yun ran over and hugged him from behind, looking at Mu Qing with hostile eyes, Mu Qing said coldly He looked at each other and slammed the door shut.

"Oh!"

The mechanical sound of the electronic lock gave people goosebumps. Shi Yan wanted to open the door to chase after him, but Meng Yun grabbed his wrist tightly and begged in his ear, "Please don't leave me, please!" , don’t leave, Keqing, Keqing, please—”

"Meng Yun, let me go!" Shi Yan cried, "Let go of me, Mu Qing is leaving!"

"I don't want it! You don't want me, don't let me go!" Meng Yun hugged him like crazy and refused to let him go. No matter how hard he struggled, he couldn't break free from his arms. Shi Yan knelt on the ground and cried bitterly, clutching the door lock with both hands. , his Mu Qing doesn't want him anymore.

Why is this happening?

Obviously, everything is getting better, isn't it?

After all, we can't let the misunderstanding continue like this, Shi Yan comforted the confused Meng Yun, and waited for him to finish eating and sleep before he could calm down and think about how to explain to Mu Qing.

This matter today, I really couldn't grasp it well.

Regardless of whether Mu Qing came back suddenly, at least he should avoid getting too entangled with Meng Yun, especially recently, he has gradually regarded him as Jiang Keqing's stand-in.

Dr. Zeng said that this is a good transformation. Through empathy, he gradually walks out of his own spiritual world and then slowly accepts the changes of the outside world through the guidance of the outside world.

So at that time he couldn't refuse Meng Yun's request, especially after he put on the clothes, Meng Yun's face had never been brighter than before, holding him and calling Jiang Keqing's name, Shi Yan thought it was a rare opportunity If there is no opportunity, it is better to temporarily follow his imagination to enlighten him and try to wake him up as soon as possible.

Unexpectedly, Mu Qing bumped into that scene.

After thinking about it for a long time, Shi Yan wrote down what he wanted to say to Mu Qing in the memo on his mobile phone, and carefully deleted and revised it. From the first meeting to later, he visited the school again and again, asking him to make friends with him through the counselor overtly and secretly. Whether it is to demonstrate to him or to coerce and lure him, he always clearly shows his feelings and heart in front of his eyes.

He was telling him his feelings so bluntly with practical actions. Shi Yan is not a fool, how could he not feel it, from the initial misunderstanding to the later understanding, gradually accepting, step by step, Shi Yan is very clear about his feelings Towards, even very clear how he fell in love with him.

It wasn't even a moment, but a long process from full of vigilance to open heart. Until now, Shi Yan knew that in this life, except for Mu Qing, he would never fall in love with anyone else again.

As for Meng Yun, it was only now that Shi Yan realized that he had never appeared in his future life plan. He was with him as a classmate and as a friend. He felt sad, sympathetic and empathetic for what happened to him and his life.

But it is undeniable that they cannot love each other, even without Mu Qing and Jiang Keqing, they will not love each other, they will be more than friends, but they will not be close lovers.

Perhaps relatives, relatives who are not related by blood, are more suitable for the positioning of their relationship.

I wrote long, long things, edited them, and sent them to Mu Qing, hoping that he would change his mind after reading them.

She didn't tell him about her pregnancy. Now that the relationship between the two is so stiff, Shi Yan doesn't want to tell him now, as if she wants to coerce him.

At least wait until he is willing to meet with him and hear him explain before telling him.

In the evening, there was a sad cry, it seemed that he was affected by his emotions, and his stomach could not calm down all night.

I saw red in the toilet the next morning.

Shi Yan immediately contacted Dr. Zeng and asked him what to do.

The old doctor Zeng asked him to go to the hospital to examine him personally, and he might need to be hospitalized.

Meng Yun couldn't be left alone at home, so he had to take him with him.

After the examination, Mr. Zeng asked Shiyan to stay in bed immediately, otherwise the child would be lost.

He has a special body, and in the VIP ward arranged by the old man alone, the old man does all the changing of the medicine himself.

Shi Yan contacted Mu Qing and hoped that he could come to help take care of her for a few days, but Meng Yun couldn't help, not even being able to eat on time.

However, have been unable to contact.

Mu Qing refused to answer his phone calls, and did not reply to his messages.

Maybe the crazier love will be more resolute and ruthless when leaving.

After staying in the courtyard for five days and returning home, he opened the door and saw Mu Qing pulling a suitcase and putting something on the coffee table.

"Mu Qing!" Shi Yan put down her luggage and ran over excitedly, looking at him expectantly, "You're back!"

"Well. I'm coming back to pick up some important luggage. This house will be left to you, and the lawyer will contact you to handle the transfer procedures later." Mu Qing looked haggard, with bloodshot eyes, and said expressionlessly.

The pale smile on Shi Yan's face was frozen, but immediately the corners of his lips curled up nervously, not wanting him to see his sad face, "What do you mean, Mu Qing?"

Mu Qing put one hand in his trouser pocket, took a deep breath, and looked up at him and Meng Yun, "Let's break up. I've thought a lot these days. What you cared about before is not unreasonable. You and I grew up in different environments. The world outlook and outlook on life are also very different, and, in the beginning, I did it wrong, and I shouldn't force you to agree with me."

"You are a very good, long-lasting person who values ​​love and righteousness. But I am not as magnanimous as you think. I'm sorry." Although his tone sounded calm and calm, Mu Qing still couldn't help but feel under Shi Yan's gaze. You can't look at him without looking away.

Shi Yan lowered her head and clenched her fingers, holding her breath and said quickly: "I know, Mu Qing, I didn't do well. I have low self-esteem, I don't have self-confidence, and it's hard for you to keep chasing me. I'll change in the future, Mu Qing, okay? Okay, I'll change it, and I will respond to your feelings properly, okay?"

"You, have you checked the information on your phone? I, I sent you a lot of messages, we, we have—"

"Smash it, throw it away!" Seeing his tears falling like broken beads, Mu Qing looked humble and lonely, and couldn't bear to interrupt him quickly, shrugging his shoulders mockingly, "I don't know which river to throw in Binhai You see, I'm really not as magnanimous as you think."

It only takes a moment to really destroy this relationship that has been carefully maintained. The relationship between them is so fragile that they cannot experience any suspicion.

"There's no need for us to torture each other like this anymore. I'm afraid that one day I'll lose control and hurt you. Shiyan, let's just leave it like this. Let's break up peacefully."

"I don't want it!" Shi Yan stepped forward to hold his hand and bowed her head to kiss his fingers, "I don't want to end in such a vague way. You say I don't love you, how do you want me to prove it? Just send Meng Yun away. ?"

Mu Qing's eyes moved slightly, looked at him with tears in his eyes and asked: "Are you willing to send him away? Between me and him, if you can only choose one, who do you choose? I don't want to continue to be patient and continue to pretend that I don't care and pretend to be magnanimous." , I just can’t tolerate him getting in between us! Shiyan, give me an answer, who do you choose?”

Shi Yan turned her head to look at Meng Yun who was squatting by the coffee table and playing with building blocks. He looked calm and much better than before.

And now, who else is the only person he can rely on in this world besides himself?

For a moment, Shi Yan even wanted to harden his heart and send him away, but the words finally turned into a helpless sincere request, "Old Zeng said that his condition is improving, Mu Qing, it can take two months at the earliest, half a year at the slowest. recover, we, we—”

Mu Qing sneered mockingly, without speaking, and wanted to withdraw his hand from him, but Shi Yan grabbed him tightly and refused to let go.

He was terrified, and tremblingly grasped his hand, "Please, Mu Qing, I promised Keqing that I would take good care of Meng Yun. Before he left, he had predicted that Meng Yun would lose his mind. I can't let his spirit in heaven rest in peace. Moreover, I was the one who brought him out of the house at the beginning, so I have to be responsible to the end! Or, or, we invite a professional nurse to come to the house—"

"Shi Yan—" Mu Qing raised her hand to caress his thin and pale face, and gently slid her fingers over the bloodless lips, wiping away the tears on her cheeks. Recently, he has been crying all the time, so many tears, Where did it come from?

Then he held the wrist that was holding his hand, and slowly rolled it off his hand, "If you just answered directly that you were willing to send him away, I might give in and agree that he will continue to stay at home for treatment. It's a pity—— You only get one chance and you choose the wrong answer."

"We get together and get away. If you are not feeling well, go to the hospital for a check-up and see a doctor as soon as possible. No matter how big the problem is, don't make trouble with your body."

As if there was no mention of breaking up, she gave gentle and considerate instructions as usual, then sideways pulled up the suitcase, and smiled slightly at Shi Yan, "I'm leaving, you can take care of yourself."

Shi Yan licked her face for the last time and grabbed his arm and said hurriedly: "Mu Qing, child, we have a child, don't leave, I, we—"

"Shiyan!" Mu Qing said in a sad voice without turning her head, "Don't embarrass yourself too much. Let's all show respect to each other."

After speaking, with the sound of the luggage wheel leaving, the sound of the electronic door lock opening and closing came.

Shi Yan was standing beside the sofa in a daze, and there was the sound of building blocks collapsing from the side of the coffee table, crashing, like the sound of a broken heart.

"Ah, Keqing, here, I picked up a piece of colored paper, look, it's so beautiful." When Meng Yun was arranging the building blocks, he saw the sticky note left by Mu Qing earlier, picked it up and sent it to Shi Yan to claim credit.

Shi Yan looked at him blankly, she could no longer shed tears, only the hollow and numb pain remained.

The pain seemed to tear his soul out of his body, and the pain made him lose his mind and panic and didn't know where he was.

The note was stuffed into his hand, he lowered his head, his eyes couldn't focus, and it took an unknown amount of time for the vigorous and flying characters to come into sight one by one.

It is a poem by Gu Cheng.

"The alley is long and curved. There is no door or window. I took an old key and knocked on the thick wall."

But, Mu Qing, you knocked on the door of my heart a long time ago, and caused a storm inside. Now you just wave away and leave me where I am, what do you want me to do?

The signature signed Mu Qing's name and a message, "Send my mother to France to recuperate. It will be a long time, and I will see you again forever. I hope you will cherish it."

After reading it, I was still ignorant and didn't know what happened, so I took out my phone to watch the latest news.

Just the day before yesterday, Mu Qing's mother, Xin Qing, had an argument with her husband, Mu Hanshan, in the lobby of the Hilton Hotel. Mu Hanshan accidentally pushed him down. He suffered a miscarriage and fainted on the spot. All the information was exposed, and Mu Hanshan was detained and disqualified for bail.

In the past few days, he has been in the hospital for injections, and he was not allowed to leave the hospital until Mr. Zeng said that the fetus was temporarily stable.

By the way, boy!

Can't be sad!

Can no longer be sad, no longer toss.

Mu Qing is gone, and they don't want their father and son anymore.

But fortunately, leaving him such a most precious treasure is not such a bad ending, is it?

At least, this year is not fake, it is real and gave him the best answer.

Shi Yan looked down at his stomach, sitting in the empty living room, smiling sadly, next to Meng Yun who was still sitting on the carpet beside the coffee table, piling up logs, ignorant of what happened outside.