silent age

Lin Heng looked at the empty hall for a while. During this "moment", he recalled Bai Sihuan's cowardly appearance when he first entered the house, recalled his deer-like eyes when he was eating those fruits, and recalled many , recalling the old-fashioned scarf he put on himself.

When Lin Heng pushed away the servant and chased him out, Bai Sihuan had already boarded Bai Ying's rusty bicycle.

Bai Ying and Bai Sihuan, who were dressed in rustic clothes, seemed to be the same kind of people. They and their bicycles shuttled through this magnificent building complex, like an ant crawling across a painting.

I hurried to take a look, and hurried back to the nest.

Bai Ying knew that the surrounding environment was a blessing she couldn't even dream of in her life. She stepped on the pedals with difficulty, her sweaty face wrinkled together, her eyes only looked at the road ahead, but she couldn't help but catch it from the corner of her eye. These could have belonged to her scenery.

She murmured in a low voice: "I'm going to be successful, I'm going to be good... my son is going to be good, I'm going to make it to the end..."

The bicycle rattled and rattled, and Bai Sihuan felt that it was like Bai Ying's backbone, shaking, ringing and supporting.

He supported Bai Ying's back, turned his head sideways, and saw Lin Heng running out of the house, chasing him, and shouting "Brother" loudly.

Bai Sihuan grabbed his mother's clothes tightly, with a calm expression, but the wound on his body from Lin Heng's beating suddenly started to hurt.

He remembered that his rustic scarf was still in Lin Heng's hand, it was a birthday present from Bai Yingzhi.

Take it again when you have a chance.

after.

He silently read these two words, later.

Lao Pei rushed out to stop Lin Heng, but Lin Heng failed to catch up with them in the end.From a distance, Bai Sihuan saw that Lin Heng seemed to be wiping away tears, he seemed to be crying.

But Bai Sihuan knew that was impossible, and it was absolutely impossible for Lin Heng to cry.

After Bai Sihuan returned to the old alley, the neighbors seemed to have seen the Zhuangyuan Lang who had returned to his hometown, and rushed out to congratulate him.

Among them were a few shirtless men who were "regular customers" of Bai Yingye, and they also came to take a look.

Someone told Bai Ying privately that he thought Bai Sihuan looked a lot like him, and asked if Bai Sihuan was his kind.

Bai Ying patted his chest and scolded "Fuck you", to wake him up: "When you came to my place, our family wished Cheng to be four years old, don't be a toad who wants to eat swan meat. I asked you to borrow money, but you refused to give it, I still remember this!"

Bai Sihuan saw the flirting and scolding between his mother and the married man, and the things that he was used to before had become unaccustomed for some reason.

Thinking back to Lin Heng's phrase "Little San even chose a coquettish name", I felt mixed feelings in my heart.

Bai Ying used the thousands of dollars that Lin Huan gave Bai Sihuan to buy a new schoolbag, new clothes and shoes for her youngest son Bai Yuancheng. She said that Bai Yuancheng was going to a new school soon, and she needed some clothes that he could see.

Bai Sihuan didn't say anything, and gave the rest of the money to his mother, who took it without hesitation.

Bai Ying directly took Bai Sihuan away, but the Lin family didn't respond.Bai Ying refused to let Bai Sihuan go to the junior high school, the principal of the high school came to the old alley to give Bai Sihuan a scholarship and sign the enrollment contract.

Bai Ying took away his scholarship and planned to use it to renovate the house.But for several months, no one came to start the work, and the money disappeared.

The high school was too far away from the old alley, so Bai Sihuan had to stay at the school. As a top ten student in the city and a student who skipped a grade in the self-enrollment examination, he was adored and respected by the students in this key high school.

People talked about this talented student, and they talked about it lively for a long time.

But because of the inner inferiority complex he had developed earlier, Bai Sihuan still didn't know how to communicate with others, and his classmates adored him, but almost no one would come to talk to people who only bury their heads in reading all day long.

One day after school, Bai Sihuan was going to the cafeteria to eat, when a classmate returned to the classroom grabbed his arm and said to him, "Hey, there is a handsome guy at the door of the cafeteria with a red scarf in his hand, he seems to be looking for you. "

Bai Sihuan wanted to get the scarf back, but he was afraid of seeing Lin Heng, and also afraid that someone from the Lin family would come to arrest him again.Without even thinking about it, I turned around and went directly to the library. I didn't eat dinner, and I didn't go to the evening self-study.

After school the next day, he looked out the window of the classroom on the sixth floor and saw a familiar figure hovering at the school gate.

Bai Sihuan hurriedly packed up his things and ran down to look for her. Lin Xianyan saw someone coming, and said with a smile: "Yesterday, Ah Heng came and waited for you for more than an hour, but I didn't see you. I'm also trying to come and wait and see if I can see you." Met you, I really met you."

Bai Sihuan pretended not to know with a smile and said, "So he has been here..."

"I have sneaked out several times, but yesterday I found the right place, and I haven't seen anyone yet." Lin Xianyan seemed to feel that she was very lucky, she looked around, took out a bulging envelope from her coat pocket, and handed it to Bai Sihuan In his hand, "He asked me to give this to you." Then, he shamelessly took out a thinner envelope, "This is from me to you, it's not so..."

Bai Sihuan quickly evaded and said, "No need!"

"Take it!" Lin Xianyan stuffed the two envelopes containing money into his pockets, and did not ask him to take them out again, "You deserve it."

Bai Sihuan clutched the two envelopes tightly in his pocket, feeling grateful, embarrassed and ashamed at the same time, he lowered his head again.

"They said don't bow your head so easily!" Lin Xianyan patted him on the shoulder again as if to cheer him up, then turned around and said, "I'm leaving!"

After Lin Xianyan left, Bai Sihuan opened the envelope that Lin Heng gave him. In addition to a wad of money, there was a note on it that read: Idiot, eat well.

Bai Ying made a mistake in her estimate. Although the school waived Bai Sihuan's tuition and accommodation fees, she still had to bear the food expenses and the annual registration fee herself.

In the case of Bai Sihuan's family, they were able to apply for the bursary, but there was a child in a family who was more difficult than him who lacked the money, and some people said that his father was Lin Huan, and he didn't need this little money at all, so the bursary It's completely out of touch with him.

The money that Lin Heng and Lin Xianyan gave Bai Sihuan was found out by Bai Ying on the day Bai Sihuan came home, she withheld the money, pointed at Bai Sihuan and yelled: "Bai has raised you for so many years, why would you keep so much money for yourself? The day before yesterday your school called again to press for your exam fee, I just gritted my teeth and asked my neighbor to lend you money to pay it, but you are lucky, if you have the money, hide it yourself, what do you want to hide it for?"

Bai Sihuan didn't give the money to his mother this time because he knew that his mother would definitely spend the money on something that shouldn't be spent.Sure enough, that day Bai Ying took the money away, went out for a trip, came back drunk with a cigarette in her mouth, and brought some sets of clothes for Bai Yuancheng, but the money was nowhere to be found.

Within a few days, Bai Sihuan told Bai Ying that he wanted to participate in a math competition and had to pay.Bai Ying scolded: "No money! You only have a few dollars for those things! I've already paid you all the money! It's gone!"

The school had to pay more and more fees, and Bai Ying couldn't pay a cent.

Bai Sihuan received a lot of scholarships back then, but Bai Ying squandered them all within half a year, and now his family can't afford a decent red note at all.

She didn't have a decent job, and she occasionally went to sleep with a few single men, or men whose wives were away, and she could bring some food and a few banknotes when she came back.But now that I am getting older, there are fewer customers, and the money I can get at one time is not as much as before. Because of my temper, I fell out with many regular customers and cut off many sources of income.

Thinking that Bai Sihuan will go to university in two years, and the tuition and miscellaneous fees of the university will be even heavier, plus Bai Yuancheng's future expenses, Bai Ying feels that she cannot sustain it.Maybe this head, she can't get over it.

The clothes are still those clothes, and the bag is still the backpack that dropped the thread.Bai Ying slowly put away Bai Sihuan's luggage, took him out and said, "It's not that I don't want you, but I really can't afford you."

She still rode that rusty Phoenix bicycle from evening to dark, sending Bai Sihuan away from the old alley.This time, Bai Sihuan didn't resist, and let her lead and drag him like a marionette, back to the gate of Lin's house.

Bai Ying sent Bai Sihuan back with a smirk, saying that the child was young and ignorant, so she ran back by herself. She waited at home for a long time but no one came to pick her up, so now she had to send the child back by herself.

Cheng Sutang didn't let the two of them enter the gate, stood at the door of the house and said the same words as Lin Heng at that time: "What do you think the Lin family is, you can come and go when you want? Use this as a garbage collection station? Garbage collection There is no reason to throw and take when standing!"

Bai Ying stood outside the gate with a flattering smile that Cheng Sutang couldn't see, and shouted from a distance: "This is the son of your Lin family, and this is your son too!"

"It's so funny!" Cheng Sutang sneered contemptuously.

Bai Ying grabbed Bai Sihuan's clothes and pulled him over, persuading him: "Call your mother better, admit your mistake, tell your mother to let you in. Hurry up!"

Bai Sihuan closed his lips tightly and refused to say a word.

After Cheng Sutang sneered, she went back to the house and closed the door heavily, preventing the maid outside from opening the door for them.

Bai Ying got angry, slapped him a few times and cursed: "Stand here by yourself, I don't care about you!"

Bai Ying rode her bicycle back in shame and indignation, saying that it didn't matter whether it was true or not.

Bai Sihuan stood at the gate for half an hour. He didn't think about where he was going until his legs went numb.He can go to the bookstore near the school, the owner of that bookstore is good, maybe he can stay for one night.He will work there in the future, and maybe he can live there.

Just as he was about to turn around with his numb legs, the door opened.The maid came out and said to Bai Sihuan: "Master Heng asked you to help him with his homework."

If Bai Sihuan remembered correctly, Lin Heng should be in the third year of middle school this year.I haven't seen him in just two years. Lin Heng, who used to be almost as tall as him, is now a head taller than him, and his body is also much stronger.He is still in the puberty stage, and he can grow taller in the future, but Bai Sihuan, on the other hand, still has this thin and thin appearance for so many years.

The first moment he saw Bai Sihuan, Lin Heng's eyes lit up, and Karen who was lying beside him stood up, sticking out her tongue and wagging her tail at him.

Lin Heng quickly withdrew his superficial joy, looked away, coughed twice and said, "I don't know how to do this question, please explain it to me."

His eyes, which had nowhere to rest, flickered left and right, and finally fell on Bai Sihuan.

Bai Sihuan was silent for a moment, said "oh", walked over and sat beside him, and helped him look at the final math problem.

Bai Sihuan only read it for less than half a minute, then picked up a pen and wrote down the process of solving the problem on the draft paper.

Lin Heng's mind was not on the question at all. He pondered for a long time, and finally asked a question that had been pent up in his heart for a long time: "I went to your school to look for you, but I didn't wait for you. Why did I meet Ah Yan as soon as I went?"

Bai Sihuan answered him almost without thinking: "It's a coincidence for her to go, but it's not a coincidence for you to go."

"Just because of that?"

"That's all."

Bai Sihuan wrote down all three ways to solve the problem.

Lin Heng glanced at it, without thinking about it, and said, "Tell me about it."

At this time, Bai Sihuan saw the full-score test paper he had put in the math book, opened his mouth, and still cooperated with his performance, and explained the topic to him.

On the second day after Bai Sihuan came back, Lin Heng brought a large pile of high-end clothes to his room and threw them on his bed: "These clothes are for you to wear." Before he refused, Lin Heng added, "It's not on purpose. It’s for you, but I can’t fit anymore.”

At noon, Lin Heng begged Cheng Sutang who had just moved his chopsticks: "Mom, I want my second brother to eat with us."

Cheng Sutang picked up a piece of cucumber and tasted it, with no expression on her face, she said to the servant, "Go and call him over for dinner."

It was the first time Bai Sihuan went to the Lin family's dining table.

Lin Heng gave up the seat next to him and wanted him to sit, but Lin Xianyan smiled and waved to him first.

Seeing Bai Sihuan sitting next to Lin Xianyan, Lin Heng's face suddenly turned cold.Put the chopsticks on the table: "Mom, the second sister eats very loudly."

Cheng Sutang swallowed the rice and ordered Lin Xianyan: "You go out to eat."

Lin Xianyan's smile froze on his face, he glared at Lin Heng, and left with his job in hand.

Seeing Lin Xianyan's leaving figure, Bai Sihuan suddenly felt embarrassed, as if he wanted to get up and follow her.

Lin Heng reminded: "At the dinner table, sit down, eat well, and don't look around."

When taking a shower at night, Bai Sihuan habitually went to the first floor.Lin Heng stopped him: "The first floor is now exclusive to Karen, don't fight with him, wash in my room."

Bai Sihuan would still just say "Oh" obediently, and went to take a bath in Lin Heng's room.

Bai Sihuan was soaking in the large bath full of foam, and Lin Heng walked in with a towel.

Hearing the sound of Lin Heng undressing and going into the bath, Bai Sihuan bent his knees nervously, and moved to the side after realizing that Lin Heng was approaching him.

Lin Heng put a warm towel on his back: "Don't move, help you wipe your back."

Bai Sihuan's nerves tensed, and he really didn't dare to move.

Lin Heng rubbed his back with no force, and the warm mist lingered between the two people, mixed with the rise of their body temperature.

Bai Sihuan suddenly felt a little out of breath, and his breathing became short of breath.

The silence between the two lasted for an unknown amount of time, when Lin Heng suddenly mentioned something that Bai Sihuan had forgotten for a long time: "When I hit you, did it hurt?"

Bai Sihuan held his quick breath, as if the air had suddenly cooled down, and his chaotic thoughts found their place in an instant.

His voice became hoarse, and he gave an explanation that he didn't have time to make back then: "I didn't steal your girlfriend..."

"Steal my girlfriend?" Lin Heng seemed to be amused by this reason, and chuckled lightly, "Do you think it's because of that reason that I can't control myself?"

"...No, what else?"

Lin Heng took a deep breath, rubbed his back harder, and asked again: "Why didn't you fight back then?"

Bai Sihuan whispered: "I can't beat you, and I don't dare..."

Lin Heng thought his reason was funny, how could a man be like this?

"Won't you fight back no matter what I do to you?"

A momentary miss, the towel fell between Bai Sihuan's legs.Bai Sihuan immediately jumped up as if he had been touched, and the water splashed Lin Heng's face.

Lin Heng wiped the water off his face, and picked up the towel that fell into the water unhurriedly: "Why such a big reaction, the towel just fell off accidentally."

Bai Sihuan's face turned red, and he didn't want to take a bath with him anymore, so he quickly ran to change clothes behind the screen.

Lin Heng looked at the figure of Bai Sihuan changing clothes on the screen, the crystal light reflected in his eyes, the light flickered on and off.