silent age

The back was suddenly hit, and Lin Heng grabbed Bai Sihuan by his collar and pushed him against the wall. He let out a muffled grunt, and felt pain in his back and jaw.

Lin Heng pinched his chin, as if trying to break his jawbone, the suppressed anger finally couldn't hold back: "Disgusting? You told me this kind of thing for such a woman? Words? Bai Sihuan, have you forgotten something?"

Lin Heng saw that Bai Sihuan was in pain, but his strength did not weaken at all.He was waiting for Bai Sihuan's pleading, as long as Bai Sihuan was willing to say a word of pleading, he would let go.

But Bai Sihuan clenched his teeth tightly, no matter how painful the jaw was pinched, he refused to give in.He doesn't understand, what is this man angry about?Why is this person so angry?Isn't he the one who said those words and thought so in his heart?

Lin Heng hates to see Bai Sihuan like this, no matter how he treats him, he refuses to give in.

"Okay, you forgot, I'll help you remember!" Losing his mind in an instant, Lin Heng pressed himself down on Bai Sihuan, tearing his lips like a beast.

"Let go! Uh..." There was a tearing pain from his lips, and a fishy smell wafted from Bai Sihuan's mouth.

A rough and aggressive kiss that left neither party feeling any pleasure.But Lin Heng felt a kind of distorted pleasure in his heart, he had the idea of ​​pressing this person on the bed to commit violence.It's just that this idea was interrupted by Bai Sihuan before it could be realized.

Probably because he was forced out of experience, this time Bai Sihuan stopped making unnecessary resistance and directly punched Lin Heng in the face.

Lin Heng was punched heavily in the face, and suddenly took two steps back.He probably didn't expect that two years had turned Bai Sihuan into a hedgehog with thorns, and he was pricked by his tall thorns when he was unprepared.

Lin Heng glared at Bai Sihuan fiercely, just about to get angry, but seeing Bai Sihuan's frightened wet eyes, the anger welling up in his chest had to retreat again.

Bai Sihuan was trembling even when he was panting, he wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth tremblingly, huddled in the corner and stared at Lin Heng vigilantly, as if he was afraid that Lin Heng would hurt him again.

Lin Heng took a deep breath: "Bai Sihuan, I told you straight to the point. Now, I will give you a chance to come back to me. Listen to me carefully. We are the same as before..."

"Do you still like me?" Bai Sihuan asked suddenly.He himself was a little surprised when he asked this sentence, but the anticipation in his heart still came out very disappointingly.

Lin Heng looked at him in surprise for a while, and couldn't believe his ears: "...huh?"

Bai Sihuan's eyes turned red in an instant, he suppressed his crying, and asked hoarsely, "Do you still remember what you said to me at the racecourse that year?"

Lin Heng said "I like you, you know" to him that year.He has remembered this sentence until now, and recorded it in every dream.This is his only memory in color during the two gloomy years.If Lin Heng remembered, even if he only remembered a little bit, he would choose to forget those unpleasant things.Even if he won't go back to the past with Lin Heng, he won't complain about anything.

Facing his question, Lin Heng was stunned for a while, with an unnatural voice: "We haven't seen each other for a long time, I can't remember what happened so long ago."

The brilliance in Bai Sihuan's eyes disappeared completely, and his heart also became completely cold.It turned out that Lin Heng couldn't remember the memories he missed and tortured for two years, and he couldn't even remember that he said "like".

Bai Sihuan laughed self-deprecatingly: "'Like before'? That's really nice to say, do you still remember what we were like before? Impossible Lin Heng, you should give up your mind."

Such a straightforward refusal made Lin Heng really stunned.There were very few people who dared to reject him since childhood. Bai Sihuan knew who he was, yet he still dared to reject him like that.

"You really don't want to?" Lin Heng's voice cooled down.

"I don't want to." Bai Sihuan resolutely dropped this sentence, turned and went out.

Lin Heng looked at his leaving back and lowered his voice: "I will make you regret it."

On Saturday, Ye Xing went to the supermarket to buy drinks, and Wen Moqiao rarely went to the cafeteria to eat. Before they left, they both patted Mu Ran on the shoulder tacitly, as if they had entrusted him with some important tasks.

Only Mu Ran and Bai Sihuan were left in the dormitory, it was very quiet.Bai Sihuan finished a set of exercises, covered the exercise book, and called Xu Yan, wanting to remind her about going to the library to return the books together today.

I called back and forth five times, but Xu Yan didn't answer once.

Is she busy recently?Bai Sihuan thought.

The day before yesterday I made an appointment to be a volunteer, and I waited for a long time at the tennis court before Xu Yan came.Yesterday we agreed to have dinner together, and finally waited for him to come, but only came to tell him that she still had something urgent, so Xu Yan left without eating.

Bai Sihuan wanted to make another phone call for the sixth time, but Mu Ran finally couldn't hold back his words: "Sihuan, there is something I want to tell you. You know, in fact, I have always regarded you as a brother. I don't want to talk about this matter. I can't hold it any longer." He turned his chair around and faced Bai Sihuan.

Bai Sihuan sat sideways and looked at him, bending a smile: "Go ahead."

Mu Ran was very straightforward: "I have seen Xu Yan with a freshman in the past two days, and their behavior is very intimate."

"..." Bai Sihuan smiled stiffly, and was taken aback, unexpectedly, there was not much pain.

"The freshman is the most influential person in the school recently. You have also seen it. The one who greeted you at the speech conference that day and sat next to you." Mu Ran continued.

Frowning slightly, Bai Sihuan seemed to know something, and the belated pain slowly crept away in his heart.

On the day of the speech conference, I came over to greet him as if nothing had happened, and the person sitting next to him...

After feeling that Bai Sihuan could accept it, Mu Ran was straightforward: "Listen to Ye Xing, it's called Lin Heng."

Bai Sihuan felt his heart pounding.

Mu Ran would not lie to him, and even his roommates would not lie to him.He said that when he saw Xu Yan with a freshman, he must have seen it and confirmed it clearly. If he said that person was Lin Heng, that person must be Lin Heng.

"Xu Yan belongs to the student union. It's normal for freshman students to ask her for help." An ethereal voice came out of his mouth, but Bai Sihuan didn't feel that he was speaking at all.

Mu Ran sighed old-fashionedly: "Hey, Sihuan, can I not tell if the relationship is pure or not? Why do you lie to yourself?"

The pain in his heart became more and more obvious, maybe he was used to this kind of pain, so Bai Sihuan learned to bear it without changing his face.

Yes, why lie to yourself.

I have been deceiving myself for two years, should I continue?Do you still have extravagant hopes for Lin Heng?

"You...you're right, I'll go ask her tonight." Bai Sihuan turned back to the desk, opened the exercise book that had just been closed, picked up the pen, and faced the blank page, unable to write a single word.

"Don't feel too bad, it's the couple who deserve to die." Mu Ran wanted to comfort him.

Bai Sihuan said in a low voice: "They didn't do anything wrong, who is right and who is wrong according to their feelings."

Lin Heng was not wrong, and neither was Xu Yan.

He is guilty, he shouldn't think that he can forget Lin Heng by finding a girl to date well, he shouldn't have regarded that girl as Lin Heng's substitute.It was he who made a mistake, he deserved what he deserved, and he deserved it all his life.

No one in this world loves him, and he is not worthy of being loved by anyone in this world.

"Sihuan, let's break up."

Before Bai Sihuan made an appointment to meet Xu Yan, Xu Yan made an appointment with him first.

The first sentence talks about the breakup, and the second sentence talks about the reason: "I don't want to hide it from you, I fell in love with Lin Heng. Coincidentally, he also likes me, so I decided to go with him."

Bai Sihuan's reaction was not too big, there was always a little bit of sadness.He took a deep breath and said, "Yes, but you tell me first..."

Xu Yan interrupted him: "You don't need to ask, I really liked you, but you don't know...you don't know how to like people, or you don't like me at all. Yes, you treat me very well. Well, give me a lot of things I want, and be considerate to me. But I can't feel your heart, maybe your heart has already been given to someone else."

"..." Bai Sihuan was silent for a few seconds, pointed to the slight bruise on her arm, and continued to ask, "How did your hand hurt?"

Xu Yan stared, and quickly pulled his sleeves, trying to cover the injury on his arm: "You don't need to know about this."

"You don't need to tell me, Lin Heng is my younger brother, so I don't know what hobbies he has?"

Lin Heng did have a tendency towards that aspect, and when Bai Sihuan and him "love me" before, he could bear it a little bit.Lin Heng would not attack Bai Sihuan too harshly, at least he would never leave such traces.

Thinking of Lin Heng doing such a thing to Xu Yan, Bai Sihuan's heart felt like a tearing pain.

"I did it voluntarily, and he didn't do anything. He just took me to a bar, and that bar has a lady who guides people..." Xu Yan didn't go any further, "Forget it, this is my business, anyway I find it exciting, much more interesting than going to some library every day as a volunteer.”

At this moment, Bai Sihuan understood.

Lin Heng was teasing her, leading her to another path that didn't belong to her at all, and this was just the first step.

Bai Sihuan felt that he should stop this kind of thing from happening, no one knew what Lin Heng would do if he really became mad.But he didn't intend to persuade Xu Yan, nor did he intend to tell her Lin Heng's real intention.Because he knew that no matter what he said at this time, Xu Yan would not listen.

Bai Sihuan smiled and said, "If you really think you can bear it, then I wish you happiness."

Seeing his congratulations so frankly, Xu Yan didn't show a smile, she stared at Bai Sihuan for a while, as if she wanted to wait for him to repent.But no, she didn't wait for anything, all she waited for was Bai Sihuan's relieved smile, she couldn't tell whether this relief was real or not.

"Well, thank you." Xu Yan turned and left, his high ponytail flicking in the moonlight.

Bai Sihuan looked at her back and suddenly realized where this place was.It was the first time he was confessed by a girl here, and today, also here, he was dumped by a girl for the first time.