[Now] I want to hold your hand tightly

At the end of summer 18 years ago, even though autumn had already entered, the residual heat of the summer heat was still there, the sun was hanging brightly overhead, and people hiding in the shade were still breathing non-stop.

Zhou Jisheng took a fan with the logo of Jingnan University from the service desk for freshmen to handle the admission procedures and fanned it non-stop. He nestled behind a table in the orientation office of the medical school and completely hid himself in a corner.

As a freshman of Jingnan University this year, Zhou Jisheng was arranged like an old student in the orientation office of the medical school to go through the admission procedures with the seniors and sisters for the freshmen.However, the seniors of the medical school didn't arrange anything for Zhou Jisheng, they just asked Zhou Jisheng to distribute fans and mineral water to the new students.These jobs are too boring for Zhou Jisheng, so now he is propping his chin with one hand and fanning with the other hand, distributing things to the freshmen at the registration office in a bored way.

"Thank you senior." The new students who came to report were very polite, and would always thank Zhou Jisheng after receiving the fan and mineral water from Zhou Jisheng.

The person who was thanked raised his eyebrows unwillingly, and corrected the other party: "No, I'm in the same class as you, don't call me a senior."

"Ah?" The freshman was stunned for a second. Seeing that the other party ignored him and continued to hand out fans and mineral water to the next student who came to report, he could only take a step forward and give in to the next freshman.

Originally, Zhou Jisheng should have accepted the help of his seniors and sisters like these new students today, but his father, who is the dean of the medical school, registered his son in advance, and then sent his son away as a freshman of the medical school The reception desk is called "acquaintance with new students", but in fact...Zhou Jisheng thinks his father is trying his best to use all the resources to support the construction of the school.

Hmph, I'm also a freshman, okay?Zhou Jisheng shook his fan more and more frequently, and kept complaining about his father in his heart.

"That senior, may I ask..."

"I'm in the same class as you. Don't call me senior, just call me classmate." Zhou Jisheng was on fire, and without raising his head, he grabbed a fan and a bottle of mineral water and offered them to the person standing in front of him.

The other party hadn't seen the protruding thing for a long time, Zhou Jisheng raised his good-looking brows high, and urged: "Don't stand there stupidly, take the thing and go to the front to enthron and post a message, leave room for others, okay?"

Hearing what Zhou Jisheng said, the other party took what Zhou Jisheng was holding, but he didn't take a few steps forward to register the information as Zhou Jisheng said.

"..." Zhou Jisheng was speechless, and then he raised his head to look at the person who was standing still in a daze, and when he raised his head suddenly, a pair of clear and shy black pupils met Zhou Jisheng.Zhou Jisheng opened his mouth, he had never seen such a pure gaze, as if he could see the entire starry sky from his eyes.

What the hell kind of adjective is that!Zhou Jisheng later told Xu Haoran how he felt when he first met Xu Haoran, racked his brains to describe the feeling when he first saw Xu Haoran with the adjectives he could think of, but was despised by the doctor of the Faculty of Arts.

"Excuse me, my classmate, where is the reception desk for freshmen?" Seeing the other party staring at him, Xu Haoran thought he had offended him, but he got lost and finally found a reception desk for freshmen. Seeing that he was from the medical school, Xu Haoran had no choice but to ask Zhou Jisheng for directions.

Zhou Jisheng came back to his senses, his eyes fell on Xu Haoran's almost plain white face, and then pursed the corners of his mouth, his eyes continued to move down, the other party was actually wearing a whitishly washed blue school uniform to report , the school uniform is also engraved with the words of XX County Senior High School.Looking further down, his sight was blocked by the table. Zhou Jisheng stood up, bent down and saw the enamel basin, enamel jar and quilt in a fishing net bag beside the other party, and turned his gaze back to the other party. Noticed that the other party was carrying a bundle of quilts on his back...

Zhou Jisheng's eyes widened. This is a freshman who has been enrolled for several decades?Could this person in front of you be from time travel?

Seeing Zhou Jisheng's scrutinizing eyes, Xu Haoran lowered his head and picked up the things on the ground, turned around and was about to leave. He was sized up by people's strange eyes many times along the way, and he already understood the meaning of Zhou Jisheng's eyes.A poor person cannot be short-sighted, not to mention that he doesn't feel that he is inferior to others, and he was admitted to Jingnan University based on his true talents and knowledge, so he is no worse than these people.However, being stared at by such eyes, Xu Haoran would not be so stupid as to be watched by others.

Zhou Jisheng really felt that the other party was a bit "eye-opening" at first glance, but thinking of those clear eyes and shy face, Zhou Jisheng felt that his heart would skip a beat for no reason. "The feeling of love at first sight is when you meet that person, you will forget everything at that second, and only have the other person in your eyes. Afterwards, whenever you think of that feeling, that person's heart will miss a beat. "During the summer vacation, when watching a love idol drama with my mother, the best friend of the heroine said this to the heroine. At that time, Zhou Jisheng said to Zhou's mother while chewing watermelon: "Why are love idol movies so bloody now. "

"Hey, classmate, let me take you." Zhou Jisheng got up and caught up with the other party, and said to the other party with a gentle face, "It's not convenient for you to carry so many things by yourself. I will help you carry them." Before the other party refused Zhou Jisheng was the first to carry the fishnet bag containing a bunch of pots and pans for Xu Haoran.

Seeing that the other party was so enthusiastic and wanted to refuse, Xu Haoran felt embarrassed, thanked Zhou Jisheng, and exchanged names with Zhou Jisheng.

However...the two circled around the square of Jingnan University several times under the sun, but they couldn't find the reception desk for freshmen of the Faculty of Arts. There were many students who had the same experience as Xu Haoran and Zhou Jisheng.

"My God, this liberal arts academy is too unreliable. They don't even hold up a sign to pick up new students." Panting angrily, Zhou Ji wiped off the sweat from his forehead, and sat on the steps facing him, shaking his fan desperately. The person who was still looking for the reception desk for the freshmen of the Faculty of Arts said.

Suddenly, Xu Haoran pointed to a direction and said to Zhou Jisheng, "Is it behind that teaching building?"

"Eh?" Zhou Jisheng moved his head to Xu Haoran's direction, squinted his eyes for a while, then immediately jumped up from the ground, as if venting his anger, and shouted, "That's right there! Why is the Academy of Arts so unreliable?" Hidden so deep, I don’t even post a guide map.” Little did he know that Zhou Jisheng scolded his father’s friend, Dean Zhao Geyi, and the principal Zhang Shouzheng, who was from the Faculty of Arts.

Xu Haoran raised his eyebrows and glanced at Zhou Jisheng, who was already striding towards the Faculty of Arts with his luggage, thinking that it would be better to see Zhou Jisheng less often in the future.

The Faculty of Letters and the Faculty of Medicine were already far away from each other, and Zhou Jisheng and Xu Haoran had no interaction since the freshman registration.But it doesn't mean that Zhou Jisheng couldn't meet Xu Haoran without meeting him.Zhou Jisheng tried his best to find out about Xu Haoran's movements. Xu Haoran would go to the school library to study every night, so Zhou Jisheng also went to the library to read books every day.

However, it is not so easy to meet by chance in the library of Jingnan University. Zhou Jisheng went there for four or five consecutive days before he met Xu Haoran.Xu Haoran shuttled among the bookshelves, picking out the books to borrow. Zhou Jisheng came to Xu Haoran's side in a fake manner, glanced at Xu Haoran, and then deliberately said to himself: "It's strange, the "White Tower" was released Where is it, why can't I find it?"

Xu Haoran heard the person beside him talking to himself, and saw that the other person was looking for a book on the bottom shelf, so he reached out and grabbed the book on the top shelf, and then patted Zhou Jisheng on the shoulder: "Aren't you looking for books on the bottom shelf?" Looking for this one?"

With his head down, Zhou Jisheng silently gave himself a thumbs up in his heart, then raised his head as if he didn't know anything, first glanced at the book in Xu Haoran's hand, then nodded and took it: "Yes, yes, it's Toyoko Yamazaki This book!" Afterwards, he turned his gaze to Xu Haoran, and was stunned when he saw his appearance, Zhou Jisheng deliberately tilted his head to look at Xu Haoran, and asked, "Have we met somewhere?"

Good old-fashioned plots and lines.Many years later, recalling Zhou Jisheng's expressions and words at that time, Xu Haoran bluntly said that Zhou Jisheng had no acting ability and was too fake.

Xu Haoran turned his head and left without saying a word. Although he didn't have a deep impression of Zhou Jisheng, Zhou Jisheng could be regarded as the person who gave him a bad impression in his life.

"Hey, I remember, your name is Xu Haoran, right? I helped you carry your luggage when you entered school, and helped you find the freshman reception desk of the Faculty of Arts. After all, you are also your benefactor. Why are you so cold?"

Xu Haoran took a deep breath, then stopped, turned his head and raised his brows to look at Zhou Jisheng, after a few seconds, Xu Haoran said coldly to Zhou Jisheng: "You forgot to say 'thank you' to me."

"..." Zhou Jisheng raised his forehead, why is it so difficult to chase someone.

Although the two met for the second time was not very satisfactory, at least Zhou Jisheng and Xu Haoran knew each other, Xu Haoran was indifferent to Zhou Jisheng, but Zhou Jisheng was full of enthusiasm for Xu Haoran.The ice will eventually be melted by the fire. After a long time, Xu Haoran's attitude towards Zhou Jisheng has softened a lot. The two of them can't be called best friends, but they can be regarded as friends.

In the second half of the freshman year, Jingnan University’s public elective courses are generally arranged in the second half of the semester. Except for the political course, which can be taken by all colleges, students of other elective courses can only choose the courses taught by the teachers of this college.Zhou Jisheng asked in advance which teacher Xu Haoran would take for his political class, and then on the day the school opened the course selection system, he stared at the page for a full three hours and finally grabbed that teacher's elective course.When Zhou Jisheng met Xu Haoran in the library, he immediately told Xu Haoran his choice, and then...the tragedy is that Xu Haoran didn't grab it, he could only grab another teacher after Zhou Jisheng's political class political class.Therefore, Zhou Jisheng would sigh before each political class, greet Xu Haoran cheerfully after the political class, and then sigh again after the next political class started.

It didn’t take long for Zhou Jisheng’s appearance to be discovered by the careful Xu Haoran. When he was reading in the library at night, Xu Haoran asked Zhou Jisheng why Zhou Jisheng would sigh every time the political class was over. , Is Zhou Jisheng not interested in the teacher's class?

Zhou Jisheng rested his chin on one hand, and said sullenly, "Of course I'm not interested, and I didn't go to bed with you."

"What?" Xu Haoran was taken aback, not understanding the meaning of Zhou Jisheng's words.

Zhou Jisheng raised his eyes and stared at Xu Haoran. The more he looked at him, the more he liked him. Although Xu Haoran seldom loses his temper, Xu Haoran's personality is not perfect. Maybe it’s just about him, Zhou Jisheng, but this person is pure and simple, and he doesn’t understand many things. Zhou Jisheng tilted his head and looked at Xu Haoran, and said with a fever: "Xu Haoran, I like you so much, I can’t stop liking you, I want to See you every day."

"What nonsense are you talking about!" The person on the opposite side who confessed his love was taken aback, he hurriedly pushed away the chair, the chair rubbed against the floor and made a screeching sound, spreading in the silent library, Xu Haoran and Zhou Jisheng attracted a group of people Attention.Feeling that he was surrounded by curious eyes, Xu Haoran quickly grabbed his schoolbag, even ignoring the half-read book spread out on the table, and ran away. He wanted to run away from Zhou Jisheng's sight, but his mind However, Zhou Jisheng's expression when he confessed to him just now keeps reappearing in the movie - nostalgia, longing and... I can't think about it anymore!Xu Haoran shook his head desperately and disappeared from Zhou Jisheng's sight.

"Ah... Zhou Jisheng, you scared him away, I'm afraid it will be difficult to see him again in the future." Zhou Jisheng beat his head with both hands in frustration.

Since then, Xu Haoran has been avoiding Zhou Jisheng, and Zhou Jisheng also knows that Xu Haoran is avoiding himself. He no longer intentionally appears in places where Xu Haoran often appears, and he no longer meets Xu Haoran. The four years of college time are fleeting. , They never saw each other again until graduation.

Zhou Jisheng is a combined undergraduate, master, and doctoral student, so he has to continue to study for a master's and a doctorate at the School of Medicine of Jingnan University after graduating from senior year.Others started looking for a job early, while Zhou Jisheng stayed at home and was an idler.

One day, Zhou Bo's old friend Zhao Geyi came to Zhou's house to visit, and Zhou Jisheng overheard Zhao Geyi talking about applying for a master's degree in Jingnan University's Faculty of Arts this year.

"Isn't there still our school's own students?" Zhou Bo asked Zhao Geyi. Generally, famous schools like Jingnan University would give priority to admitting their own students, but according to Zhao Geyi's words, it seemed that they were not very satisfied with their own students.

Zhao Geyi shook his head and sighed: "Have you heard of that student Xu Haoran?"

Zhou Bo thought about it for a while. He is the dean of the medical school, and he doesn't know much about the affairs of the liberal arts school, but he has heard of Xu Haoran's name: "You said that student who contradicted you in your class?"

Zhao Geyi nodded, then smiled wryly, "It's him."

"Didn't he apologize to you? Old Zhao, you are not such a caring person." Zhou Boyi tried to persuade Zhao Geyi to let go of his prejudices.

Zhao Geyi waved his hand: "Old Zhou, you misunderstood. I still remember that incident. The spirit of this student's research is commendable, but his arrogance should be put back. It is not good for his future."

Zhou Bo glanced at Zhao Geyi, saw that there was something in Zhao Geyi's words, and asked, "What's the matter, didn't you say that he apologized to you?"

"He was brought here by Nie Mi to apologize to me." Zhao Geyi said displeased.

Zhou Bo immediately understood the reason. Zhou Bo smiled: "It turns out that you are not dissatisfied with the students, but with Nie Mi. Did he choose Nie Mi as his tutor?"

"You guessed it."

Zhou Bo patted Zhao Geyi on the shoulder: "The student chose the path himself, you will guide him more in the future, don't make things difficult for the student because of Nie Mi."

"Am I that kind of person?" Zhao Geyi asked angrily.

Seeing that Zhao Geyi raised his thorn when he touched it, Zhou Bo hurriedly said "No, no", Zhao Geyi calmed down.

After Zhao Geyi left that night, Zhou Jisheng said a lot of good things to Xu Haoran in front of Zhou Bo. Zhou Bo wondered why his son had gotten in touch with the students of the liberal arts college. With good words, Zhou Bo agreed to his son, but even so, Zhou Jisheng still did not expect that Xu Haoran and Zhao Geyi would still have a red-faced argument when Xu Haoran was defending his master's thesis three years later.

Xu Haoran's confrontation with Zhao Geyi has spread not only in the Faculty of Arts, but even throughout Jingnan University.Zhou Jisheng, who was reading in the library, looked at the news in his circle of friends, and shook his head with a wry smile. The image he had decorated for Xu Haoran in front of Zhao Geyi all these years was completely ruined. Zhou Jisheng read half of the books together and walked out of the library.

It was already the end of June at this time, and the students who should go home had all gone home, and the campus was empty and there was no one there.After Zhou Jisheng came out of the library, he headed towards the student dormitory of the Faculty of Arts.The student dormitory of the Faculty of Arts was relatively remote, and there were no people on the road. When he was about to reach the entrance of the student dormitory of the Faculty of Liberal Arts, Zhou Jisheng leaned against a tree and waited for those who hadn't returned home to pass by this road with his arms crossed.

Half an hour later, a figure appeared on the quiet path. That figure was very familiar to Zhou Jisheng. Maybe Xu Haoran had forgotten Zhou Jisheng's existence in these years, but Zhou Jisheng watched Xu Haoran every day. exception.

When Xu Haoran was about to approach, Zhou Jisheng suddenly reached out his hand to greet Xu Haoran: "Hello, long time no see."

Xu Haoran, who was distracted, was taken aback. When he came back to his senses, a familiar person and someone he hadn't seen for many years stood in front of him under the dim light. Xu Haoran subconsciously took a step back.

From the look on the other side, Zhou Jisheng discovered a piece of news that surprised him. Xu Haoran hadn't seen him for many years, but he still recognized him. Or, like him, Xu Haoran always stared at each other?

"It seems that we haven't seen each other for a long time." Zhou Jisheng said with a slight smile.

Xu Haoran looked a little embarrassed, he heard the meaning of Zhou Jisheng's words, it was indeed as Zhou Jisheng said, he would also care about Zhou Jisheng's movements in the past few years, and he would secretly take a look at Zhou Jisheng when he was in the library , it's all due to Zhou Jisheng's inexplicable words when he was a freshman.Even if he no longer appeared in front of Zhou Jisheng, he always seemed to notice Zhou Jisheng involuntarily.

"Dining, going to the library, taking a walk, you will always meet." Xu Haoran replied.

Zhou Jisheng pouted, he knew Xu Haoran didn't want to admit it, but he could already see a happy ending. "You're about to graduate and you're still contradicting Dean Zhao. I can't help you out this time in front of my dad." Zhou Jisheng walked a few steps towards Xu Haoran and said standing in front of Xu Haoran.

"It turned out to be you..." Xu Haoran whispered, although he knew that Zhao Geyi didn't like him because he contradicted Zhao Geyi, but in these years Zhao Geyi still gave Xu Haoran some tips from time to time in class, and also helped Xu Haoran recommend papers to various journals, Unexpectedly, there was Zhou Jisheng's help behind this.

But Zhou Jisheng waved his hand at Xu Haoran: "It doesn't count. Although Dean Zhao is a bit rigid, he is a nice person. He admires you very much. I just help you shape a good student image."

Xu Haoran raised his eyebrows, Zhou Jisheng said this as if he was not a good student.

"Don't get me wrong, I'm just going to give you better things." Seeing the questioning look on the other side's face, Zhou Jisheng hurriedly explained.

Xu Haoran glanced at Zhou Jisheng, not wanting to continue this topic with Zhou Jisheng: "Then why did you come to see me?"

"Looking at the stars, looking at the moon, talking about poems and songs, talking about the philosophy of life, tasting the wind, flowers, snow and the moon." Zhou Jisheng pointed to the stars and the moon above his head while talking.

"Speak human." Xu Haoran was about to touch his forehead.

"I confess to you." Zhou Jisheng, who spoke in human terms, was immediately straightforward, but this directly made the person opposite him turn around and run away.

Zhou Jisheng quickly grabbed Xu Haoran, pretending to be sad: "Xu Haoran, you escaped once seven years ago, and you still want to escape now? Just give me an answer, whether you refuse or agree, I can accept it."

"You have to give me some time to think about it, and... to be honest, don't you think it's weird that we two are together?" Xu Haoran felt Zhou Jisheng firmly grasping his wrist, and he was powerless even if he wanted to struggle .

"'Love doesn't know where it started, but it goes deep.' Even humans and ghosts can love each other, why can't we love each other?" Zhou Jisheng asked Xu Haoran with a smile.

Xu Haoran has a big head, and Zhou Jisheng has not changed his habit of using allusions indiscriminately for so many years: "That is a romantic technique, and realism can't be used."

"Don't you think it's inappropriate to discuss academics now?" Zhou Jisheng's smug smile deepened, "I can give you time to think about it, but you have to promise me one condition?"

"What conditions, you say?" Xu Haoran only wanted to get out quickly, and urged Zhou Jisheng to say it quickly, no matter what conditions Zhou Jisheng would offer.

Zhou Jisheng forcefully pushed Xu Haoran to the side of the road, and then pressed Xu Haoran against a tree. He shook his head triumphantly, raised Xu Haoran's chin with one hand and showed a wicked smile: "The condition is that I will kiss you. Even if you refuse, I can still have some memories of the seven years of secret love."

"Don't be so straightforward..." Zhou Jisheng blocked the word "strong" with his lips before he could say it.

But Zhou Jisheng is not a naughty person. He lightly kissed Xu Haoran on the lips, then raised his head, looked at Xu Haoran and said, "I'll wait for you for three days, and I'll wait for your reply here at this time after three days, bye." !"

Before Xu Haoran could react, Zhou Jisheng had already strode away, looking at his smug back, Xu Haoran was so angry that he rolled his eyes at the stars and moon in the sky.

He would never agree to Zhou Jisheng!

Three days later, when Zhou Jisheng appeared by the side of the road on time, Xu Haoran did not come. Zhou Jisheng thought that Xu Haoran was delayed by something, and waited until dawn.Until the gatekeeper said that Xu Haoran had gone back yesterday afternoon, this time it was Zhou Jisheng's turn to roll his eyes at the sun.

It's okay, Xu Haoran is still studying for a Ph. D., and he still has time to continue chasing Xu Haoran, he can always catch Xu Haoran!