[Now] I want to hold your hand tightly

Xu Haoran looked at Zhou Jisheng who was sitting on the floor without saying a word. He sat up from the sofa and reached out his hand to touch Zhou Jisheng's shoulder. The moment he was about to touch Zhou Jisheng, Xu Haoran withdrew his hand again. return.

If he really did what Zhou Jisheng said, would Xu Haoran really have the courage to stand in public with Zhou Jisheng?The reason why he promised Zhou Jisheng to disclose their relationship was because he knew that Zhou Jisheng would not disclose it to everyone around them or people who knew them in Jingnan University without his consent.Parents are people who are related to them by blood, Xu Haoran will not lie to his mother, Zhou Jisheng will not lie to his parents, but...if they tell everyone they know or don't know about their relationship like Zhou Jisheng said, it will stop them. In front of Xu Haoran was a wall of people, he didn't have the courage to rush forward like Zhou Jisheng.Xu Haoran is cowardly after all.

"Xu Haoran, let's break up."

The New Year passed in a blink of an eye. For Zhou Jisheng and Xu Haoran, this year's New Year was a happy and sad one. For the people of Jingnan University, this New Year was a bit unexpected.

Xu Haoran greeted the gatekeeper Lao He as usual, and the always warm Lao He still held his big teacup that he didn't know how many years he had used, and nodded to Xu Haoran expressionlessly.

The students passing by Xu Haoran would look at him from time to time, but the eyes of the students were all kind. As for the teachers who passed by, their eyes were different from those of the students.

It took 10 minutes from the school gate to Xu Haoran's office. Xu Haoran felt that these 10 minutes seemed like a long time, but even when he walked into the office, the lingering eyes still lingered on him.

He no longer had anyone who could stand in front of him and shield him from the wind and rain. He chose to take a completely different path from Zhou Jisheng, so he had to bear the result.As long as he survives these four months, Xu Haoran tried to convince himself like this, but after four months, he might still be alone.

A few days ago, Xu Haoran called Xu's mother. Xu's mother asked Xu Haoran what was going on at school. After Xu Haoran hesitated for a long time, he still told Xu's mother the truth.On the other end of the phone, Mother Xu was silent for a long time, and finally Mother Xu hung up the phone without saying a word, and when Xu Haoran dialed back, the signal was already busy.

Xu Haoran knew that his mother was completely disappointed in him, so he decided to apologize to his mother after the matter was over, but his mother was expecting Zhou Jisheng to go back together, and it might not be possible at that time.

Compared with Xu Haoran, Zhou Jisheng's surrounding environment is much better.During lunch, all the nurses gathered around Zhou Jisheng, asking Zhou Jisheng about his boyfriend one by one.

"Doctor Zhou, you hid it so well, so the other party is also a handsome guy. It's a pity for us..." A little nurse said to Zhou Jisheng with a beaming smile.

Zhou Jisheng blinked, not knowing why the other party said it was a pity.

"That's right, all the handsome guys are internalized now, and we beauties can only be sold domestically."

"..." Zhou Jisheng's head was full of black lines, his worry seemed superfluous, but the worry in his heart appeared again.Now he would always be surrounded by a group of little nurses asking questions. Although Zhou Jisheng didn't mind the little nurses' concern, the development of the matter still surprised those who were mentally prepared.

When Zhou Jisheng was in the clinic, some patients or family members who were familiar with Zhou Jisheng would also ask about Zhou Jisheng's situation. They didn't come here for gossip, but they were probably worried that Zhou Jisheng's relationship with Xu Haoran would be spread. Will it affect Zhou Jisheng?One patient even worriedly asked Zhou Jisheng if he would be transferred away. Zhou Jisheng had been treating him all the time. If Zhou Jisheng was not in Boren Hospital, he didn't know which hospital he should go to see a doctor.

Zhou Jisheng returned to the patient with a slight smile, reassuring the patient.Dean Chen will not expel Zhou Jisheng because of this incident.

Dean Chen called Zhou Jisheng to the office on the first day of work after the Chinese New Year. Although the relationship between Zhou Jisheng and Xu Haoran was turbulent, it did not affect Zhou Jisheng's work at Boren Hospital.

However, Dean Chen was still a little worried. He asked Zhou Jisheng if the incident had affected Zhou Jisheng's parents, and Zhou Jisheng told the truth.

"If you need my help, just say it. Although our hospital is not well-known in Jingnan City, it is not enough to let our employees be bullied." Dean Chen's words were resounding, and Zhou Jisheng was very grateful to Dean Chen for his kind words. own love.

"Principal, this is my private matter, so I've troubled you." Zhou Jisheng scratched his head embarrassingly. He didn't want his and Xu Haoran's affairs to infiltrate into his work.In fact, this matter was originally a matter between him and Xu Haoran, and had nothing to do with Jingnan University or anyone else. Some people wanted to use this matter to make public opinion. Zhou Jisheng had the opportunity to resist, but because of the person he loved give up.

At the end of March, news that was about to be forgotten caused an uproar again.Although in the eyes of some people, this incident has nothing to do with the New Year's incident.

Zhou Jisheng sat on the sofa alone, made himself a cup of black tea, and browsed the news on the Internet with his notebook in his hand.Suddenly, there was a new email in Zhou Jisheng's email notification.The sender was someone Zhou Jisheng knew very well before, but now the two have become strangers.

Zhou Jisheng hesitated whether to click on it, but finally he clicked on the email.

"On April 4th, Lin Yihan and I will get engaged at the Huangjitai Hotel, and I hope Mr. Zhou will appreciate it."

One email, one sentence, easily erased his relationship with Xu Haoran.

Until this moment, Zhou Jisheng felt that the love between himself and Xu Haoran was actually very fragile.

"I will definitely appreciate it." Zhou Jisheng typed four words and sent the email.

Aunt Qin's health is not very good recently, Zhou Jisheng often visits Aunt Qin in the inpatient department.Aunt Qin's son and daughter-in-law saw that Zhou Jisheng often worked overtime to check up on Aunt Qin, and they were very grateful to Zhou Jisheng.Aunt Qin's physical condition is getting worse and worse, and Aunt Qin knows that when she sees Zhou Jisheng worried, whenever Zhou Jisheng comes, she will comfort Zhou Jisheng not to be sad.

"Xiao Zhou, how is your relationship with your partner? When are you going to get married?" Every time Aunt Qin saw Zhou Jisheng, she would ask about Zhou Jisheng's recent situation.

Zhou Jisheng would always say that it was not bad, it was still too early to get married.But in the past one or two months, what Zhou Jisheng said to Aunt Qin was "it's okay."

After several times in a row, Aunt Qin guessed that Zhou Jisheng was not getting along well with his partner.

"Did something happen, tell Aunt Qin, Aunt Qin is someone who can help you think of a way." One day after the inspection, Aunt Qin held Zhou Jisheng's hand and did not let Zhou Jisheng go.

Seeing Aunt Qin's concern, Zhou Jisheng sighed helplessly in his heart. He has received the care of many people for more than a month. Zhou Jisheng is grateful for everyone's concern for him, but he can't tell everyone that he and Xu Haoran are afraid. Never walk together again.

"Mom, Doctor Zhou said that you need to rest, so don't worry too much." Normally, Aunt Qin's son looked a little embarrassed when he saw Zhou Jisheng. Also know a thing or two.

Aunt Qin's reaction to seeing her son was also different from usual, and it was even more impossible for Aunt Qin to let Zhou Jisheng leave easily this time.She must ask clearly.

"What happened?" Aunt Qin asked unwillingly. She knew that her health was getting worse, so she wanted to hide and help Zhou Jisheng while she was still alive.

"Aunt Qin..." Zhou Jisheng has never been a hesitant person, just like when he resolutely wanted to explain his relationship with Zhou Jisheng on the Jingnan University forum, he did not hesitate at all.But now, facing Aunt Qin, Zhou Jisheng hesitated.

Aunt Qin didn't urge Zhou Jisheng, she looked at the young doctor who had been taking care of her all these years with concern.It must have been five or six years. Zhou Jisheng has been her attending doctor since she was admitted to Boren Hospital. During these years, she watched Zhou Jisheng grow up little by little. Like many mothers, the only one now My wish is to see my children get married when I rest in peace.Her son has married a wife, has a child, and has a happy family, but she knows that the child has not yet been settled.

"Did you break up with your partner?" Aunt Qin tried to inquire, and she got Zhou Jisheng's definite answer.

"If we break up, we will break up. Aren't you afraid that you won't find such a good deal?" Aunt Qin patted the back of Zhou Jisheng's hand, trying her best to comfort Zhou Jisheng.

However, Zhou Jisheng just lowered his head, his gaze gradually lost focus.

"You have been chasing her for so many years. Auntie knows you can't let go, but people always look forward, and you have to let go." Aunt Qin felt sorry for Zhou Jisheng.

It's time to let it go.Zhou Jisheng had already let go, but it was not that simple to completely forget Xu Haoran from his memory.

"Aunt Qin, I understand the truth, but..." Zhou Jisheng finally came back to his senses, showing a wry smile, and decided to confide the truth to Aunt Qin, "Aunt Qin, I'm afraid I will never forget him in this lifetime."

"Is she really that good?"

"He..." Zhou Jisheng smiled self-deprecatingly, "Maybe he is not good in the eyes of others, he dare not admit his relationship with me, he dare not make it public, he timidly falls in love with me, But I know that he really loves me."

Aunt Qin heard the unusualness in Zhou Jisheng's words. The relationship between Shen Jiahe and Ye Chen more than half a year ago made Aunt Qin know that same-sex love can also exist. She had suspected that the person Zhou Jisheng loves must not be ordinary. Now that Zhou Jisheng said that, Aunt Qin understood a little.

"Is it a man?" Aunt Qin asked.

Zhou Jisheng nodded, feeling guilty in his heart, he shouldn't have kept Aunt Qin away for so long.