[Now] I want to hold your hand tightly

"You didn't come to me today just to celebrate." Xu Haoran and Zhou Jisheng have known each other for more than ten years, and they have been together for seven years. Xu Haoran can immediately tell Zhou Jisheng is in Zhou Jisheng's subtle movements or expressions. what to think.Zhou Jisheng joked that Xu Haoran was more suitable to be a doctor than him, and it was a pity why he chose a liberal arts.Xu Haoran smiled and said that the interest lies in not being able to force others to make things difficult.

Zhou Jisheng put a piece of fat and tender sashimi on the plate in front of Xu Haoran, and thoughtfully squeezed some wasabi on the side of the plate. After finishing all this, he urged Xu Haoran to eat the sashimi first.Xu Haoran lifted the chopsticks and swallowed the sashimi whole. After a second, Xu Haoran put down the chopsticks and continued to stare at Zhou Jisheng.

Zhou Jisheng was speechless and said that Xu Haoran was reckless, and Xu Haoran replied that sashimi is eaten because of the taste, and if you eat it bit by bit, it is not sashimi.Zhou Jisheng shrugged, and he continued to pick up a piece of sashimi to be placed on Xu Haoran's food plate. Xu Haoran suddenly grabbed Zhou Jisheng's wrist: "Your expression shouldn't be a bad thing, why didn't you say it?"

"I'm sorry to say that." Zhou Jisheng still put the sashimi on Xu Haoran's plate, and said with a smile.

Xu Haoran put down his chopsticks and sat up straight, which meant that Zhou Jisheng should not hesitate and say whatever he wanted.The other party made his attitude so obvious, so how could Zhou Jisheng stop saying: "Well, I bought a flat a month ago. The salary can cover the rest of the house payment." Zhou Jisheng looked at the expression of the person opposite, and saw that there was no change on the face of the person opposite, Zhou Jisheng was not sure whether Xu Haoran refused or agreed, the words had reached this point, Zhou Jisheng Simply continue, "Do you want to live with me?"

"Cohabitation?" The liberal arts students could easily grasp the key points in Zhou Jisheng's disorganized sentence and draw conclusions.

Zhou Jisheng nodded, he was used to Xu Haoran's directness: "Do you want to think about it?"

Xu Haoran didn't directly agree to Zhou Jisheng, he lowered his head and looked away.They have been together with Zhou Jisheng for seven years, and there are twists and turns between them. Zhou Jisheng gave up the job introduced by Zhou Bo to go to a private hospital in order to be with him, and he was also excluded by the old professors in the Faculty of Arts.Zhou's mother once cried in the heavy rain and begged Xu Haoran to leave Zhou Jisheng. The old professor also exerted various pressures. Xu Haoran wanted to give up several times, but Zhou Jisheng refused.Zhou Jisheng even left Zhou's family for this reason and rented in a community near the hospital.Sometimes, when Xu Haoran was exhausted from reading in the library, he would think of Zhou Jisheng. He thought about Zhou Jisheng's relentlessness, and why Zhou Jisheng had such great faith and dared to break face with his parents who had raised him for more than 30 years.Xu Haoran felt that Zhou Jisheng was really stupid, this relationship was obviously hopeless, why did Zhou Jisheng still hold onto it?Xu Haoran’s parents are both farmers. His father passed away when he was ten years old. It was his mother who brought him up and borrowed money from relatives to send him to study in a big city. Reading, not only free of tuition, but also a scholarship of 8000 yuan a year, plus Xu Haoran's part-time job money, Xu Haoran paid off all the money borrowed by his mother together with the interest in his second year as a lecturer.In his heart, his mother will always come first, and Xu Haoran will never be able to refute his mother like Zhou Jisheng did.

Seeing that Xu Haoran didn't reply for a long time, Zhou Jisheng couldn't tell what Xu Haoran was thinking. At this moment, Zhou Jisheng was a little nervous. After all, cohabitation meant that the two would live together from now on. Zhou Jisheng had been preparing for this for three or four months. Knowing whether Xu Haoran can accept it immediately.

Xu Haoran thought for a while and then asked, "Where is the location?"

"Drum Tower East Road."

Xu Haoran was a little surprised: "It's very close to the school, but if you have to go to the second outpatient clinic on Tuesday and Thursday, isn't it far away?" Boren Hospital is composed of the merger of two hospitals, and the main clinics are located in the city center. The first outpatient department and the second outpatient department are in the east of the city, and it takes one and a half hours to drive from Gulou East Road.Xu Haoran knew about Zhou Jisheng's income. To be able to buy a house of more than 70 square meters on Gulou East Road, which is far from the city center, has already emptied Zhou Jisheng's savings for the past few years. It is impossible to buy a car. of.

Zhou Jisheng smiled, he didn't care about the distance he traveled to work, as long as Xu Haoran was willing to live with him, even if he was asked to run like this every day, he would be happy: "If you want to live with me, you will cook dinner." Just now Xu Haoran The worrying words made him happy. Zhou Jisheng knew that Xu Haoran was very cautious about this taboo relationship, so Zhou Jisheng did not cross Xu Haoran's boundary. A kiss, a rare hug and sleep.Xu Haoran asked Zhou Jisheng if he was going to work, and Zhou Jisheng thought that Xu Haoran wanted to accept his proposal.

"Don't complain if it's not delicious." Xu Haoran also put a piece of sashimi in Zhou Jisheng's bowl. The man in front of him was always gentle, but Xu Haoran couldn't give in when he was stubborn.

"Don't complain! Absolutely don't complain!" Finally got Xu Haoran's affirmative answer, Zhou Jisheng swallowed a whole piece of sashimi happily, as if he had forgotten what he had said long ago.

Xu Haoran pursed his lips and smiled, no matter for Zhou Jisheng or him, their relationship has finally taken a substantial step forward.

Zhou Jisheng originally wanted to go to see their new house with Xu Haoran after dinner, but Xu Haoran said it was too late and had to teach the students tomorrow morning, Zhou Jisheng sent Xu Haoran back to school even though his heart was empty.

At the beginning of the Chinese lanterns, snowflakes fell profusely under the light, and there were still no pedestrians on the street. Zhou Jisheng and Xu Haoran walked side by side, and their footprints were left side by side on the snow. After a while, the snow that fell from the sky covered their footprints again. .

They didn't hold an umbrella, and snow fell on their hair and shoulders. Seeing that Xu Haoran was not wearing a scarf, Zhou Jisheng took off his own scarf and put it around Xu Haoran's neck. Then he reached out and held Xu Haoran's cold hand, trying to wrap it Xu Haoran's hand was warmed up by Wu.

"Where are the gloves I bought you last time? Why aren't you wearing them?"

"too expensive."

"Things are for use, and they are worthless if you leave them alone. Remember to put them on tomorrow." Zhou Jisheng rubbed Xu Haoran's hands distressedly.

"Oh." Xu Haoran nodded.

It has been more than ten years since Xu Haoran came to Jingnan City alone, and he can hardly remember how he met Zhou Jisheng.The fate between people sometimes makes the parties feel inexplicable, just like him and Zhou Jisheng.A liberal arts student and a science student have been together for seven years and have known each other for more than ten years.One is the proud son of heaven, and the other is a poor farmer. The two men came together. The road seems to be difficult, but in fact, they don't feel much bumps.Perhaps, this is only for him, Xu Haoran.

The two walked forward on the street lamp with their fingers interlocked like this. When they were about to reach the gate of Jingnan Gate, Xu Haoran suddenly let go of Zhou Jisheng's hand, took his own umbrella in Zhou Jisheng's hand, and said to Zhou Jisheng: "I'm going back. You have an early consultation tomorrow, so go back early."

Zhou Jisheng nodded with a smile, and waved to Xu Haoran: "Find some time this week to look at our house together."

"En." Xu Haoran turned around and answered, and then walked into the gate of Jingnan University alone with an umbrella.

Old He, the gate guard, knew Xu Haoran. He didn't notice Zhou Jisheng who had left the gate of Jingnan University. He opened a window and congratulated Xu Haoran who approached: "Congratulations, Teacher Xu, for becoming an associate professor. I will call you Professor Xu from now on." .”

Xu Haoran raised his head and smiled at Lao He: "Thank you."

Lao He nodded to Xu Haoran, watched Xu Haoran enter the campus, then he closed the window and went to watch TV with hot tea in his arms.

Zhou Jisheng slowed down his pace, and he handed the scarf to Xu Haoran. At this time, the cold wind poured directly into his neck, causing him to shrink his neck from time to time.The orange light gave people a warm feeling. He imagined the light of his new home. There were two people sitting in the dining room, eating together under the warm light. They sometimes chatted a few words and occasionally laughed out loud.After dinner they do the dishes together, sit on the couch and watch TV, and then fall asleep in each other's arms.A warm smile appeared on the corner of Zhou Jisheng's mouth, he finally gave Xu Haoran a home with his own ability.

Zhou Jisheng's imagination was interrupted by the ringtone of the mobile phone. Zhou Jisheng glanced at the caller ID, hesitating whether to answer it or not.Finally, he pressed the answer button.

"Mom?" Zhou Jisheng always felt guilty about his mother. Although his mother didn't approve of him being with Xu Haoran, she never objected.

"Jisheng, Chinese New Year is coming soon, please come back on New Year's Eve this year." Everyone said that Zhou Jisheng's gentle personality is like his mother, and his stubborn temper is like his father. Zhou's mother's voice is also very gentle, Zhou Jisheng can hear, Mother is begging him.He also went home four years ago because of his mother's prayer, but the family broke up after eating the New Year's Eve dinner on New Year's Eve.Zhou Jisheng returned to his rented house that night. He wanted to call Xu Haoran, but Xu Haoran told Zhou Jisheng not to call him before leaving. frank.

"Mom, I will visit you after the Chinese New Year." Zhou Jisheng will not refuse his mother's kindness, but he does not want to have trouble with his family on New Year's Eve. During the year, Zhou Jisheng would take advantage of his father's absence to buy some gifts to visit his mother.Seeing that Zhou Jisheng bought seven or eight gifts, Zhou's mother knew that some of them were for Zhou's father, but the knot between father and son might not be untied for the rest of their lives.

"Jisheng, we only have one son, you, do you have the heart to spend the New Year's Eve alone with us?" Zhou's mother was already crying on the phone. She was in the same city as her son, but she and her son only Mother Zhou felt sad to see her several times a year.

"Mom, don't cry. I'll give you a call on New Year's Eve, okay?" Zhou Jisheng could only do this. He tried to reconcile with his father in the past four years, but his father was firm. Disappointed.He longed for his father to accept him and Xu Haoran, but his father's attitude has always been unwilling to change.

Zhou's mother sighed on the other end of the phone. Both father and son had a stubborn temper. She wanted to be a peacemaker, but neither of them gave a chance: "Well, is Xiao Xu okay?" After all, he is the person his son loves, and Zhou's mother asked politely.

"He is very good. He was promoted to associate professor today." Zhou Jisheng happily told his mother about Xu Haoran. Suddenly he remembered that he had bought a new house and hadn't told Zhou's mother. Zhou Jisheng continued, "By the way, Mom, I I bought a new house on Gulou East Road, come and take a look if you have time."

"New house?" Unlike other parents who heard the joy of their children buying a house, Mother Zhou's tone was filled with shock and anxiety.Zhou's mother never thought that her son would be serious about a man for the rest of his life, but Zhou Jisheng bought a suite, which showed that Zhou Jisheng planned to live with Xu Haoran for the rest of his life.

"Yes, it's more than 170 million, but I've finished the down payment and the loan, and there's only about 30 left, which can be settled in one go next year." Zhou Jisheng felt that there was something wrong with his mother's voice. He thought his mother was worried about him. Not enough money.

After a long time, Mother Zhou's low voice came from the other end of the phone: "Okay, Mom understands." Then Mother Zhou hung up the phone.

Only then did Zhou Jisheng feel that his mother's abnormality was not what he thought, but he couldn't understand why his mother was disturbed.