[Now] I want to hold your hand tightly

On the day Ye Chen was discharged from the hospital, Zhou Jisheng went to visit him in the ward.Ye Chen was very popular, surrounded by a group of nurses, but Shen Jiahe was surrounded by no one.Zhou Jisheng touched his nose knowingly. After all, it was Ye Chen who was sick, and Shen Jiahe also had a face that should not be approached by strangers.But what shocked Zhou Jisheng the most was that these little nurses in the hospital knew that Ye Chen and Shen Jiahe were a gay couple. Zhou Jisheng remembered that there was only one little nurse who was in charge of taking care of Ye Chen's bed at the beginning, and occasionally came to see him. Zhou Jisheng also noticed this situation, so he would pay special attention to visit Ye Chen and Shen Jiahe often.Gradually, Zhou Jisheng found that there were more and more little nurses around Ye Chen's hospital bed, so that Shen Jiahe's ice face became colder. One day Shen Jiahe grabbed Zhou Jisheng and told Zhou Jisheng to let him watch The little nurses under his hands gathered around Ye Chen if they had nothing to do.Zhou Jisheng asked Shen Jiahe curiously, didn't those little nurses walk around Ye Chen and Shen Jiahe before, why did they become star-chasing little fans in just a few days?Zhou Jisheng also complained by the way that he was not treated so well, but Shen Jiahe looked at him in the end.

After staying in the hospital for a week, Ye Chen, who was originally sick, was alive and kicking when he left the hospital. Shen Jiahe had no expression on his face, but his eyes were very gentle.Zhou Jisheng remembered that Shen Jiahe could actually laugh, but the temperature of the smile on an ice cube's face was not too hot.

When Ye Chen left, he greeted Zhou Jisheng and, by the way, greeted Zhou Jisheng's partner for him. Zhou Jisheng's face instantly became embarrassed, but he couldn't say anything, so he could only greet Ye Chen and Shen Jiahe with a stiff smile. He waved his hand.

After seeing off Ye Chen and Shen Jiahe, Zhou Jisheng immediately went back to the inpatient department to visit Aunt Qin.Aunt Qin's situation is not very optimistic recently, and their children all know it. When they saw Zhou Jisheng, they all nodded slightly to express their gratitude to Zhou Jisheng. If Zhou Jisheng hadn't been there, Aunt Qin would have been gone three years ago. Zhou Ji Sheng Sheng took three more years of Aunt Qin's life from Lord Yan's hands, and the children are content.

"Aunt Qin, I'm here to see you." Zhou Jisheng leaned over Aunt Qin's side and said softly to Aunt Qin.

When Aunt Qin heard Zhou Jisheng calling her, she showed a kind smile to Zhou Jisheng. She stretched out her hand to hold Zhou Jisheng's wrist, and asked softly, "Xiaoye and Xiaoshen are gone?"

"Well, they were just discharged from the hospital today." Zhou Jisheng went back to Aunt Qin, and at the same time motioned for the little nurse to take Aunt Qin's temperature.

Aunt Qin smiled: "That child Xiaoye is very attractive. I heard that the nurses in the inpatient department all like him, but Xiao Shen looks energetic and is good to Xiaoye, but he just doesn't like him." He loves to talk." Zhou Jisheng thought that Ye Chen's temperament would not be able to sit still, he would run around in the inpatient department when he was half healed and could go to the ground, Aunt Qin especially liked to chat with young people, Ye Chen naturally followed Aunt Qin is familiar with it.Aunt Qin's impression of Ye Chen was that of a lively boy, while her impression of Shen Jiahe was that of a taciturn boy.

Zhou Jisheng smiled: "Aunt Qin, you are the most popular. Everyone in Boren Hospital, from doctors to patients, likes to chat with you."

Aunt Qin nodded: "Look at what you said, Aunt Qin is not as popular as your little doctor Zhou." Aunt Qin moved her body and cooperated with Zhou Jisheng to stick the end of the stethoscope on her back, "Even if you have a date Yes, your popularity is still not low."

Aunt Qin said a very fashionable word, Zhou Jisheng smiled knowingly, and then asked the question he kept in his heart: "Aunt Qin, do you know the relationship between Ye Chen and Shen Jiahe?"

Aunt Qin nodded with her back to Zhou Jisheng: "I know, they are dating."

"..." After getting Aunt Qin's answer, Zhou Jisheng fell silent. He looked up at the little nurse who was standing by and handed him the thermometer. Seeing the little nurse also smiled, Zhou Jisheng's heart throbbed.He seemed to have misunderstood something, no, maybe Ye Chen and Shen Jiahe also misunderstood, but they did still have scruples before Ye Chen was discharged from the hospital, and now Ye Chen and Shen Jiahe have no scruples.

"Doctor Xiao Zhou, what's the matter? Is there something wrong with my health?" Seeing that the people behind her were silent and did not move for a long time, Aunt Qin asked, "Just tell me if you have anything, Aunt Qin can bear it."

"No, Aunt Qin, you have nothing to do. I am the one who has something to do." Zhou Jisheng took the stethoscope away from Aunt Qin's back in a panic.

"Xiao Zhou, what's the matter with you? Did you upset your girlfriend?"

"Aunt Qin, it's not like that." Zhou Jisheng explained, it really wasn't like that, but Zhou Jisheng didn't know how to speak to Xu Haoran.

After leaving the inpatient department, Zhou Jisheng has been in a daze. He kept recalling the scene of Ye Chen and Shen Jiahe when they left, and Aunt Qin's words in his mind. Don't hide it anymore, just walk in front of people so openly, okay, like Ye Chen and Shen Jiahe?However, Zhou Jisheng hesitated again. Ye Chen and Shen Jiahe did not have as much burden as Xu Haoran. University professors are role models, and... now can be said to be the most critical moment in Xu Haoran's career.

After get off work, Zhou Jisheng's mind was full of these things. He didn't know how he got on the bus, how he went upstairs and opened the door, and what kind of expression he used to face Xu Haoran.

"What's the matter, you're depressed, there are too many patients in the hospital today?" Xu Haoran asked Zhou Jisheng while getting a pair of slippers for Zhou Jisheng.

Zhou Jisheng looked at his lover in front of him, and out of the corner of his eye, he happened to catch a glimpse of the steaming dinner prepared on the table in the living room. Zhou Jisheng's heart moved, he reached out his hand to stop Xu Haoran, and hugged him into his arms.

"Hao Ran, let's not hide, shall we?"

"Hiding what?" Xu Haoran was at a loss.

"Let's make it public, to everyone, okay?"

"What did you say?" Xu Haoran asked softly, his voice gradually turning cold.

In the past, when Zhou Jisheng felt Xu Haoran's anger, he would immediately stop the topic or start another topic, but today, Zhou Jisheng decided to face up to this problem, and he also wanted Xu Haoran to face up to this problem.

"Don't hide, okay?" Zhou Jisheng pleaded further, "Remember the appendicitis patient I told you about taking over, he and his lover walked in the crowd openly, I think we can do the same."

Xu Haoran took a deep breath and then let it out, he wanted to struggle out of Zhou Jisheng's embrace, but Zhou Jisheng was so hard that he couldn't break free.

"Zhou Jisheng, do you know what you are talking about?" The struggle was useless, so Xu Haoran could only order Zhou Jisheng to let go in a cold tone, "Quickly let go!"

"Why do you keep running away? You don't want to?" Zhou Jisheng frowned and pressed his chin firmly on Xu Haoran's shoulder, "Is our love so shameful? Even when we go for a walk at night, we have to give our hands Let go, is this considered dating? Can we be together forever like this?"

Xu Haoran's shoulder was painfully pressed by Zhou Jisheng, he endured the pain, gritted his teeth and replied, "Zhou Jisheng, why are you crazy!"

"I'm not crazy! I'm seriously thinking about our future!" Zhou Jisheng growled, depressed and deeply saddened.They have known each other for almost 20 years, he has been chasing Xu Haoran for seven or eight years, and they have been together for almost two years, but...they have been hiding their relationship so far, and Zhou Jisheng doesn't want to continue like this.Ye Chen and Shen Jiahe gave him the courage to decide to go public, but Xu Haoran still flinched.

"Others are others, we are us, and the situation is different. If I were not an associate professor at Jingnan University, and you were not a promising doctor, we might be able to go on like those two people, but we can't. Besides, neither does my mother. Wish I..." Xu Haoran didn't say that sentence in the end—my mother didn't want me to love a man either.

However, Zhou Jisheng could guess what Xu Haoran was going to say.

Zhou Jisheng moved his chin away from Xu Haoran's shoulder, and he slowly let go of Xu Haoran, his eyes were full of disappointment and pain.Shen Jiahe asked him, can Xu Haoran and his love be equal?He felt that Shen Jiahe was too harsh on Xu Haoran, and thinking about it now, Shen Jiahe didn't blame Xu Haoran, but as the same kind of person, Shen Jiahe had already realized that Xu Haoran would be shaken by this love.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't force you like this. You have your helplessness and compulsion." Zhou Jisheng lowered his hands and looked down at the floor illuminated by the soft light. The shadows of him and Xu Haoran were vaguely printed on the floor. It's vaguely unreal.

Xu Haoran thought that Zhou Jisheng had compromised, and dragged Zhou Jisheng to the living room. The food was getting cold, and the taste would change if he didn't eat it.

However, Zhou Jisheng avoided Xu Haoran's hand.

"I remembered that the hospital's research institute needed to collect cultured cells. I'll be in the hospital tonight." Zhou Jisheng picked up his bag, put on his shoes, turned and left.

The sound of closing the door was the same as Zhou Jisheng's closing sound when he went out on weekdays, but the two people who were separated by this door had already noticed that the atmosphere was completely different from the past.

In the blink of an eye, it was the end of November, and the chill was overwhelming, and the battle for the dean of the Faculty of Liberal Arts of Jingnan University was in full swing.

Ever since the big quarrel with Zhou Jisheng, although both of them tacitly did not bring up that incident, Xu Haoran felt that this might be the most serious quarrel between the two of them.From then on, Xu Haoran felt that the relationship between him and Zhou Jisheng had become a little delicate. Zhou Jisheng never mentioned that he would disclose the relationship between the two, but he rarely went home for dinner on time. Text or call Xu Haoran, Xu Haoran always feels that something is gradually changing between the two of them.

At the end of November, something happened in the Faculty of Liberal Arts. In the last week when the announcement of the public recruitment of the dean of the Faculty of Liberal Arts was about to end, the Academic Affairs Office of Jingnan University informed the Faculty of Liberal Arts of Jingnan University that another qualified candidate had submitted his resume. , and this dean candidate is also from the Faculty of Letters, Keenan University, and was hired as a professor by the University of Tokyo for three years. serve.The appearance of this professor was undoubtedly a huge shock to Nie Mi, who was already fully prepared. In addition, this professor was a fellow student recommended by the principal of Jingnan University. It was a matter of great importance, and he began to use his power as much as possible, vowing to take the position of dean of literature into his bag.

Xu Haoran also couldn't escape the net woven by Nie Mi and Professor Lin.