love, unspeakable

What I said at the time, I answered him, yes, I said "yes".However, after waking up from the drunkenness, he turned right and wrong and scolded him, agreed but regretted it.

"But I'm afraid you'll regret it when you wake up, leave me, you know, I'll be in more pain then."

"I'm not leaving."

At that time, he promised so firmly that he would not leave, but when he woke up, he drove people away.Junping must be in pain now, Lingya said he ate wasabi, why did he eat it, was it to hide his tears?

He dialed Chen Junping's number, but no one answered. When he called the store, Lingya said he hadn't come back yet.Chen Junping, where have you been?

12. Drag Queen

Chen Junping fell on the ground and wept bitterly. He really needed to vent. There was nothing wrong with being nice to Qiao Xizhi, but when he thought that Qiao Xizhi would stay away from him and hated him, his heart ached even more.It turns out that the beauty in the world is just a moment, and the ecstasy of last night was just a dream.The so-called Zhuang Zhou's Dream Butterfly can't distinguish between reality and dream, so it can be regarded as the most real dream, but it is too painful after waking up from the dream.

Lingya stood anxiously and looked at the boss. She had never seen the boss like this before. The boss had been in a bad mood before, but it was never like this.She vaguely knew that the boss ate the mustard on purpose, but she could vaguely see a thing or two, but it was not clear.She followed the boss's back, not knowing how to comfort him, it really hurts that a big man like him is crying like a child now.

Tired of crying, mustard's momentum also subsided, Chen Junping gradually stopped his tears, his eyes were red with big eye bubbles when he looked up, looking so elegant that he wanted to laugh but didn't dare to.Chen Junping felt ashamed and ashamed, but he couldn't control it just now, and the backlog of years in his heart exploded, and now he feels much more relaxed.He went out without explaining anything to Lingya.

The car was driving on the asphalt road, and he didn't know where he was going, so he just drove around the city.His thoughts drifted a long way again. Driving like this is extremely dangerous. When the green light turned on, he was still wandering. The car behind him was honking angrily, and he was woken up and drove out slowly.After driving a long way, I passed a chemical factory and found that it was almost completely burned down. There were many people around outside, including employees, leaders, and firefighters.Chen Junping watched intently. He vaguely remembered that when he went to close the window yesterday, there was a red light rising in this direction. At that time, he only cared about Qiao Xizhi and didn't look closely.It is said that a gas leak accidentally ignited the flammable material, and then it exploded. Fortunately, the heavy rain last night did not intensify the terrifying fire. Except for the supplies, all personnel are safe.

It was blown up, and the relationship between him and Qiao Xizhi was also blown up like this factory?If I had kept a little sense last night, if I had woken up at the last moment, if I could have suppressed the throbbing that had been hidden for many years, they are still good friends, good buddies.Then there is never regret medicine in the world, and the feelings for many years have been buried deeply by me, but why I couldn't help it yesterday, why should I possess him.Thinking of Qiao Xizhi's initiative, gentleness and coquettishness last night, the devil in his heart moved again. He suppressed the restlessness, held the steering wheel tightly with both hands and honked the horn. The people outside looked and did not give way.He pressed a few more times, and passers-by finally gave way to him through the narrow passage.

It was as difficult for him to squeeze past Qiao Xizhi for the first time, and it took him a long time to squeeze through the congested section. The rear was unimpeded, and the unbridled horse galloped happily.He ran more and more happily, but his horse was tired.

Qiao Xizhi under the dim light made him inseparable, and the tight string snapped. This was the body he had been thinking about for many years, and this was the person he had been secretly in love with for many years.He tempted himself, he climbed onto his body, into his heart, that's why he desperately possessed him, even if it was a dream.In the dream, he was also afraid, but he couldn't control the string that had been tensed for many years. The arrow was already on the string and had to be fired.

Chen Junping sat by the beach for a long time, and he didn't bring his mobile phone with him when he came out in a hurry, so he didn't know if he would call.How could it be possible to call, he smiled wryly.Qiao Xizhi's panicked expression appeared in his mind again, perhaps with hatred for him, he must have felt that he was not human, and touched him dirty.

The sea breeze made him get goosebumps, but he still sat on the reef like that, with the sea water beating, trying hard to wet his shoes, but he was only a little bit short.He sat until his whole body was cold, and he got up to go back when it was dark. At this time, Qiao Xizhi didn't know if he had eaten.

Chen Junping lingered downstairs of Qiao Xi's House for a long time. He wanted to go up to find him, but in the end he didn't have the courage.When I returned to my home, it was clean and tidy, without a trace of last night.On the tea table were the roses he had arranged in the morning, several of which were crushed by the rain and dew last night, and the remaining few were left alone in the vase, making the vase seem too big.For the rest of my life, hehe, it turned out to be so difficult.

Turn around and see my favorite fish, they swim carefree, I heard that the fish only have seven seconds of memory, when they swim from one side to the other, they forget everything before.Qiao Xizhi said that they are really pitiful, they will never know how they live.Chen Junping now wishes to become a fish, because he wants to forget, maybe Qiao Xizhi at this time also wants to forget.

Fish, Yu.Chen Junping wished so much to raise Yu like a fish, but he is Yu in the sky, how could he be willing to stay in his small world.

Pick up the camera on the sofa, turn it on, and dig out the photos from last night.There is only one photo, the only group photo of them in many years, he hugged Qiao Xizhi from behind, Qiao Xizhi hugged a red rose, blushed, lowered his eyebrows and eyes, slightly pursed his lips and smiled, I didn't see this kind of shyness when I took the photo.In the photo, Chen Junping is holding Qiao Xizhi's waist with one arm and Qiao Xizhi's hand in the other, leaning his head on his shoulder, he leans over and gently sticks to his side face, closes his eyes, as if in Enjoy the fragrance of his body.But at that time, apart from the smell of alcohol all over their bodies, there was no fragrance at all, but he was also satisfied and happy smelling his alcohol smell.This frozen picture will not appear again, it should be impossible.

In the bathroom was the bright red bed sheet he changed last night, which was stained with the breath of the two of them, and holding it at this moment, he could still feel the crazy physical entanglement and fierce collision last night.Although there is a washing machine at home, he is used to washing in the laundry room at the intersection downstairs, putting in a few coins and waiting.

When his thoughts floated up, he felt eyes watching him. He followed and saw a handsome man with long hair.His hair is beautiful and very black.

The man looked at him naked. He also came to wash clothes.

Chen Junping has never met him before, and he knows most of the people in this community, although he is not familiar with them.

The man saw him and noticed that he was walking towards him with a beautiful smile. When he walked, his long hair fluttered gently, and his voice was very pleasant. He said: "My name is Shiliang, I just moved here. .”

Chen Junping didn't speak, took the cigarette from Shiliang, lit his cigarette butt, the smoke formed a circle and slowly lifted into the air, and then scattered.

"I've met you before. You're the owner of the East Street dessert shop. I even bought cakes from your place." Shiliang leaned against the washing machine next to Chen Junping.

"Really, I don't remember." Chen Junping was no longer smoking cigarettes, he was puffing hard, sucking as much nicotine as possible, and he seemed to be in better spirits.

"At that time, you were talking to a pretty boy, so naturally you didn't notice me. I pre-booked, and then I took the cake and left."

pretty boy?Who else could make him forget other things in his shop except Qiao Xizhi.Chen Junping smiled wryly and did not speak.

"You like that boy?" Shiliang said suddenly, but his tone was very light, as if he was asking what brand the washing machine was.

Chen Junping glanced at him, his eyebrows and eyes were somewhat similar to Qiao Xizhi's.Chen Junping reached out his hand to touch his smooth long hair, and asked, "Isn't it too troublesome for it to be so long?"

"It's not troublesome, just get used to it." Shiliang pushed his black soft hair to the front, such a movement fit him so well, it was not as nondescript as imagined.

"The eyes are really similar."

"what?"

"It's nothing."

Chen Junping looked away, he pinched off the butt of his cigarette, turned around and pushed Shiliang against the wall next to him, and kissed him on the lips.Shiliang didn't struggle, as expected, he reached out to hug and deepened the kiss.

Chen Junping stroked his hair, thinking that Qiao Xizhi would look better than him if he had such long hair.His waist was soft but not as resilient as Qiao Xizhi's.His lips were very attractive but not as soft as Qiao Xizhi's.Kissing the person under him, what came to mind was Qiao Xizhi, Qiao Xizhi moaning under him, and Qiao Xizhi moving on him.The more I thought about it, the more I kissed harder.

Shiliang obviously felt that he was absent-minded, he was kissing himself, but he was thinking of others.In order to make Chen Junping concentrate, he bit his tongue.

Chen Junping looked into his eyes, his eyes were soft, but there were no stars that he wanted to see.He didn't flinch when his hand was in his clothes, he didn't even shake, if Qiao Xizhi would have dodged sensitively.Suddenly he felt dull, and let go of the other party after perfunctory pecking twice.

"I'm sorry." Chen Junping leaned against the wall prostratedly. Why is he so tired? Today is especially tired, and he always wants to find something to rely on.

Shiliang shook his head, not paying much attention: "It's okay." After a long time, he asked: "Arguing with that pretty boy