my bamboo horse rider

Tang Jin felt as if he was split in two, pulling himself apart.Half of them want to run away, far away from the fact that they don't seem to like Qin Beichen; half of them want to turn around and go back to Qin Beichen's side.

Feeling tangled, he couldn't run far, and when Qin Beichen caught him and had to turn around, Tang Jin lowered his head and didn't look at Qin Beichen.

Tang Jin's eyes refused to leave the gray bricks on the road, and his vision was useless, but it made him feel more clearly that Qin Beichen was holding his elbow.

That hand was very hot, and he held his elbow firmly with a firm posture, knowing that he couldn't run away without trying.

And Qin Beichen's soft sigh sounded like thunder.

"Don't cry."

Hearing Qin Beichen say this softly, Tang Jin's nose soured, and then his vision went dark.

Qin Beichen hugged him.

Qin Beichen also gently pressed his head on his chest, regardless of the tears he shed just now, as if his cleanliness obsession had been cured.

At such a time, the more he was comforted by Qin Beichen, the more Tang Jin felt guilty. Qin Beichen was too kind to him. If Qin Beichen knew that he had invisible covetousness in his heart, would Qin Beichen hate him?Treat him as an unclean dirty thing?Thinking about it this way, he really didn't deserve to be hugged and comforted by Qin Beichen so tenderly, but how could he be willing to leave Qin Beichen's embrace?He is so selfish.

Tang Jin didn't dare to hug back, his hands were hanging stiffly by his side.

He gritted his teeth and endured desperately, but in the end he cried again. There were too many self-blame, grievances, and fears in his heart. This was the biggest problem he had encountered so far in his life. It was not only about his understanding of himself, It even foretells a future that was never imagined that went off track.

He wanted to tell the person he trusted the most, he wanted to ask the omnipotent person what to do, and he wanted the comfort of the closest friend.However, the person he trusts and is closest to in this world is none other than Qin Beichen.

So he really didn't know what to do.

He didn't know how the night would end, and he didn't know how to face Qin Beichen.

The more he cried, the more he was afraid that Qin Beichen would hate him, and the more he felt uncomfortable, he wanted to endure it, like a puppy who was kicked out of the house by his master, sad alone on the side of the road, afraid of being kicked and beaten by strangers, He didn't even dare to cry loudly, sobbing stuck in his throat, and even his back was twitching, it was so pitiful.

Qin Beichen couldn't calm down any longer, he dug out Tang Jin's stubborn head that was about to be buried deep, and asked Tang Jin's dodging gaze, "What's the matter?"

Tang Jin felt that his current appearance must be ugly, and he was anxious and uncomfortable, so he subconsciously turned back: "Don't you know everything, can you guess everything?"

"My surname is not Holmes." Qin Beichen looked down at Tang Jin, his voice was a hundred times softer than usual, and he deliberately slowed down his speech to ease Tang Jin's emotions, "If someone thinks that he understands everything and guesses everything right, Isn't that a big arrogant fool?"

There was nothing funny about this sentence, and Tang Jin didn't think it was funny either, maybe because Qin Beichen comforted him like this, his mood improved rapidly, so Tang Jin couldn't help laughing.

Seeing Tang Jin smile, Qin Beichen rubbed his hair, and continued to be persuasive: "Of course I can't know everything. If you don't tell me, how would I know? So, why are you crying?"

The smile on Tang Jin's mouth disappeared again.

How would he tell Qin Beichen?Say "this person you're comforting right now has something wrong with you"?

Tang Jin lowered his head again and saw the water marks on Qin Beichen's clothes, which was the evidence that he polluted Qin Beichen.

He felt uncomfortable again, and in order to cover up, he said in a muffled voice: "I thought you knew everything. You could answer any questions I asked. It seemed that you knew what to do about everything, and you almost got full marks in the exam. , when did you make a mistake..."

Qin Beichen interrupted him, still in a gentle tone: "Why didn't I make a mistake? If you hadn't stopped me, I might have really smashed him to death at that time."

Tang Jin was subconsciously eccentric, and explained to him: "But, it was a dangerous situation. Although it was impulsive, you were only 14 years old at the time, and the other party was an adult, so you were also afraid."

"I'm not afraid."

Qin Beichen retorted calmly.

Tang Jin looked up at him.

Qin Beichen looked back calmly: "His behavior makes me angry, not afraid. The only thing I am afraid of is when he grabs you."

I am very important to Qin Beichen, Tang Jin realized this.

It wasn't unnoticed before, Tang Jin certainly knew that they were very important and special existences in each other's hearts.

But, especially tonight, on this night when Tang Jin continued to belittle himself, Qin Beichen's plain statement made Tang Jin feel saved.

Waking up from the hormonal chaos, Tang Jin no longer focused on the sensory details of the contact with Qin Beichen, not the embrace of Qin Beichen's arms, not the frequency of Qin Beichen's breathing, but the attention that Qin Beichen was hugging. The matter itself.

Qin Beichen has been hugging him like this for a long time. This long time does not mean that it has really been that long, but that friends or brothers don't hug him like this, right?

Once I noticed this, those chaotic negative emotions were like hydrogen balloons that quickly rose into the sky, and disappeared in the blink of an eye, replaced by heat from the bottom of my heart to my earlobes and cheeks.

Tang Jin forced himself not to look away, looked into Qin Beichen's dark eyes, and asked in a low voice: "Qin Beichen, do you know that I like..."

Qin Beichen covered his mouth.

Those chaotic negative emotions are like sandbags tied with heavy stones and thrown into the Yellow River. They quickly sink to the bottom and come back in an instant.

Tang Jin opened his eyes wide.

got rejected?

But before negative emotions could occupy Tang Jin's heart, Qin Beichen hugged him tighter, supported him, and said to him, "I know."

"Why don't you let me finish?" Tang Jin pushed Qin Beichen's hand away, unable to understand, and then quickly thought, "So you don't like..."

His mouth was covered by Qin Beichen again.

Qin Beichen said helplessly, "Don't worry."

Tang Jin glared at him, pushed away the hand that was covering his mouth again, and hit him as if to vent his anger.

How can you not be in a hurry if your confession is forcibly interrupted?

Qin Beichen withdrew his hand, supported Tang Jin's back, thought for a while, and said slowly: "I don't dislike you. You are very important to me. Love may break up..."

This time it was Tang Jin's turn to interrupt him.

Tang Jin said: "That friend may also break up."

Qin Beichen said very firmly: "We will not break up our friendship."

"How do you know it won't? Isn't it possible for friends and lovers to have a broken relationship? Why do you have double standards?" Noticing that Qin Beichen didn't dare to say that he liked it from the beginning to the end, and insisted on using double negatives, Tang Jin was anxious and angry. , the tone is naturally even worse, "You are escaping!"

Qin Beichen calmly found a reason to explain: "It's different. When a lover breaks up, it's hard to be friends again, and it's awkward to meet each other. And friends, no matter what happens in the future, or just drifting away, you Very kind, if I want to see you, you won't miss me."

Listening to what Qin Beichen said, Tang Jin began to find loopholes for Mou Zujin to refute, and gradually became dumbfounded.

"Qin Qin," Tang Jin's eyes were bright, as if the lights of the whole city were falling into his eyes, "You want to say that you never want to leave me."

Qin Beichen didn't deny it: "Yes."

"Then why can't we..."

"Because I'm afraid."

Qin Beichen said the word fear very calmly, making Tang Jin feel sorry for not complaining: "You call that fear? Besides, what's there to be afraid of?"

Qin Beichen smiled.

He looks so pretty when he smiles, Tang Jin decides to forgive him.

Qin Beichen asked Tang Jin: "Have you noticed the couples in school?"

"No," Tang Jin replied cautiously, fearing that Qin Beichen would sneak in, "But I've heard that the two couples in our class also have one next door, and Di An'an."

Qin Beichen continued to ask: "Do you think our situation is the same as theirs?"

Tang Jin replied vigilantly: "Do you want to talk about gender or something else, then I don't know what other people are like. Who stipulates that the situation of falling in love in school is the same?"

Seeing his fear of being abducted by Grandma Wolf, Qin Beichen was helpless, and patiently said: "Generally speaking, love on campus is based on appearance, personality, or something happened, or even just because the other party confessed first. In short, I developed a good impression of the other party, and then started dating. Because I like it, I want to be with the other party, so we are together."

Tang Jin hummed: "What's wrong with that?"

"I didn't say it was wrong," Qin Beichen pulled Tang Jin's hair, "I just want to say that our situation is different from those."

Tang Jin hummed again: "So what?"

Qin Beichen asked another question: "Tangtang, if we are together, imagine what would make you happiest?"

Hearing this, Tang Jin's pulse speeded up. He didn't know how Qin Beichen could calmly say such a hypothesis. He imagined it according to Qin Beichen's words. The load, which must be done to relieve the overly great sense of well-being.

"We," Tang Jin finally spoke, but he had to lick his dry lips before he could continue, "You and I, we are at home, our home."

He seemed to understand what Qin Beichen was talking about.

Qin Beichen lowered his head and touched Tang Jin's forehead. Tang Jin could feel that Qin Beichen was very happy now.

Qin Beichen's eyes were gentle, and he said in the way Tang Jin spoke just now: "So you see, what we, you and I, want is not just a relationship, but a family."

Tears fell out of his eyes without warning, Tang Jin didn't know why he was crying, he obviously only found out that he liked Qin Beichen not long ago, but it seemed that he had been waiting for this sentence for a long, long time.

"Don't cry," Qin Beichen brushed his slender fingers across his cheeks, and said patiently, "I don't know how to fall in love, let alone how to start a family. So let's take our time, okay? Wait until we mature One point, when we are more free and capable of making decisions, we will be together again. In that way, even if we quarrel and break up, it is just a matter between me and you. I think our relationship, no matter what, should not fall into the situation where we don’t want to meet each other We don’t need to worry, what we can do now is to seize the best future we can achieve and pass the college entrance examination. I said that, do you remember?”

Tang Jin responded softly, and then he realized that Qin Beichen either didn't understand at that time, or he was talking about them.

How can this person do this?

Qin Beichen continued: "After that, if you still want to be with me, as long as you open your mouth, we will be together. So don't worry, and there is no need to be afraid... The worst result is just becoming an uncommon face-to-face friend."

After listening to Qin Beichen's words, Tang Jin hugged Qin Beichen back, tightly gripped Qin Beichen's back clothes with both hands, and whimpered like a puppy.

"What's wrong?" Qin Beichen was at a loss, and helplessly rubbed the puppy's head, "Why are you crying again?"

Tang Jin replied in a muffled voice: "I like you so much, and you like me so much. If we are not together in the end... I feel very sad when I think of this possibility."

After a pause, Tang Jin pretended to complain, "You're the only one who talks too much."

It was the first time in Qin Beichen's life that someone complained about talking too much, and the corners of his lips curled up slightly.

It seemed like it was time to let go, but neither of them wanted to let go.

Tang Jin shook his head, willfully wiped away his tears on the clothes of his new boyfriend-to-be, leaned back slightly, and looked at Qin Beichen.

Qin Beichen was beautiful when he was a child, and Qin Beichen is handsome when he grew up. Tang Jin really had to praise himself for having sharp eyes when he was a child, and he caught his future boyfriend at a glance.

But not every cute and tsundere can grow up to be so handsome.

Gee tut.

His eyes fell from Qin Beichen's beautiful eyes to the tall bridge of the nose, and then to the graceful chin. A little above that, there was a pair of lips that were neither thin nor thick.

There was something in his heart, he was no longer satisfied with the warmth of the hug, he was tempted, leaned towards Qin Beichen's face, getting closer and closer, just when he was about to kiss those lips, Qin Beichen raised his head, still lightly Laughed.

Tang Jin suddenly realized what he was doing, and his whole face turned red, but this didn't stop him from glaring at Qin Beichen, arguing: "It's not like I haven't kissed before!"

Qin Beichen is very good at reasoning: "That's different. It was unintentional that time, but this time it was intentional."

Tang Jin was not convinced: "So what?"

Qin Beichen deliberately teased him: "If you want to force a kiss before you've confirmed your relationship, isn't that a hooligan?"

Tang Jin was stunned by the word forced kiss.

He thought about it.

Although it seems that consent was not sought, is it also called a forced kiss when two people are in love with each other?Qin Beichen was simply a joke.

Tang Jin narrowed his eyes and looked at him: "The relationship is not confirmed, so you can't kiss, right?"

Qin Beichen pursed his lips and remained silent.

Tang Jin bit Qin Beichen's chin with a groan with lightning speed.