my bamboo horse rider

Grandma Chunlai walked away in her sleep, she was free from illness and pain, and she lived a rare longevity. According to the custom, it is joy and mourning.

The family members were glad that the old man passed without pain, but it was Qin Beichen and Tang Jin, two outsider children who had never experienced death, who were more sad.

In the past two months of getting along, Granny Chunlai has been loving and restraining to them, like their elders who are truly related by blood. For the two who have different degrees of lack in kinship, it is a precious warmth that makes up for the vacancy.

But suddenly, when she woke up yesterday morning, Grandma Chunlai didn't wake up again.

Grandma Chunlai is an old man with status in the village, and it was a funeral. Many villagers came to worship, and some from neighboring villages also came after hearing the news. It is also a matter of convention.

Relatives and friends came one after another, entered the main room, handed over the wreath to the steward in charge, and then presented the memorial ceremony wrapped in white paper to Duke Zhongshun. Zhongshun used a writing brush to write down: XX in this village, one wreath, how much is it .

Then there is worship, burning incense and saluting, walking around the coffin to pay homage to the remains, and then saying two words of comfort to the host, most of which are the same.

"Longevity, no sickness or pain, Grandma Chunlai is a blessed one."

"Grandma Chunlai is a good person, those two children from the city are always sad."

Tang Jin has been crying for a long time, and he probably realized that he shouldn't show such a sad look, so he tried hard to bear it, sobbing and choking, he was very listless and nestled beside Qin Beichen, leaning his head on Qin Beichen was not generous Shoulder.

Qin Beichen's eyes were only looking at the incense table in front of the coffin, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

Outsiders may feel that the child is a little sad, so Tang Jin felt that Qin Beichen was very sad, but if Qin Beichen didn't show it, Tang Jin felt even more sad, so even though he was not energetic, Tang Jin still held onto it firmly. Qin Beichen's hand.

The main room was used to stop the coffin. Uncles and aunts were worried that Tang Jin and Qin Beichen would be afraid, and planned to let them move to any house, but Tang Jin said he was not afraid, and insisted on staying in the left wing room. Qin Beichen also meant the same thing.

These two days Tang Jin cried a lot. His uncles and aunts were surprised that the child was so emotional. Seeing that they were not afraid, they stayed with them in the left wing room. After all, they really had a lot of things to do.

It was near the end of August at that time, and it was too hot to stay still for too long. The days had already been counted, and in two days it would be time for the coffin to be buried. Tang Jin and Qin Beichen also put on sackcloth and walked among their close relatives.

The mourning music in the countryside is played with earthen musical instruments that have been handed down for many years. Its mournful and horrifying sound made some children cry. The more Tang Jin listened to it, the sadder he became. He held Qin Beichen tightly and tried not to cry. .

Because it is a happy funeral, it is necessary to go around the village to accept the villagers' farewell. From time to time, mothers hug their young children and bow on the side of the road.

That day, the sound of mourning and music, firecrackers and firecrackers rang all the way, and paper money was scattered all the way. Tang Jin remembered that three holes cut out of the paper money looked like human faces, which seemed to represent eyes and mouths.The procession went all the way to the grave on the mountainside.Grandma Chunlai's husband's grave is here, and next to it is the place reserved for Grandma Chunlai.

When the craftsmen began to seal the grave, the funeral procession dispersed.Only close relatives remained, and Tang Jin and Qin Beichen were coaxed back to the old house because they were too young.

The main room was a bit messy, there were late condolence guests staying here, elegiac couplets were hanging, and the center was empty.

Seeing that they were all strangers, Qin Beichen dragged Tang Jin back to the wing.

As soon as Tang Jin entered, he hugged Qin Beichen and burst into tears.

He cried so hard that Qin Beichen felt uncomfortable all over.

At first Qin Beichen didn't stop him and didn't say anything, but Tang Jin had been crying for too long. If he kept crying, his eyes would be broken by crying. Finally, Qin Beichen managed to get Tang Jin to let go of his clothes and twist He came back with a hot towel, wiped Tang Jin's face, then folded it to the other side, folded it into a short strip, put it on Tang Jin's eyes, and said, "Don't cry."

Tang Jin obediently supported the hot towel over his eyes with one hand, still sobbing, hooked on the bed like a cooked shrimp, shaking and shaking, so pitiful as hell.The other hand grabbed Qin Beichen's clothes again.

After stopping for 2 minutes, I don't know if I thought of Chunlai's mother-in-law and started crying again.

In this cycle, Qin Beichen had absolutely no choice.

After simply eating two mouthfuls of dinner, he could still continue to cry.

Qin Beichen told him to drink water, wash up, and go to bed, and he did it one by one while crying.

When the moonlight shone on the window sill, Tang Jin was finally tired from crying and couldn't shed any tears.

He didn't sleep on the pillow, and put his whole head on Qin Beichen's shoulder, rubbing his forehead against Qin Beichen's shoulder, like a puppy begging for comfort from his littermate.

Qin Beichen plucked his hair helplessly, and said in a low voice, "You can cry."

The hair on his head was a little painful from being pulled. Tang Jin still vaguely felt the grievance in the tired sleepiness of crying. He moved his head and skillfully occupied the highest point of Qin Beichen's chest, crying until he whispered in a hoarse voice. : "Then you don't want to cry."

Qin Beichen's hands stopped.

"You don't even want to cry," said the stupid monkey lying on his chest, with hair brushing against his chin, limp and articulate, "Then I'll cry for you."

Qin Beichen opened his eyes wide.

But it was useless, his nose was sore, his breath became moist, even though he thought Tang Jin was kind and brave, in his subconscious, tears were still a symbol of weakness, unstoppably overflowing his eyes, sliding down his face, and falling into his black hair.

He looked at the pale moonlight from the window.

I have seen the dawn.

Tang Jin's dream was very short, it was just the mourning hall. He dreamed that he was leaning against Qin Beichen, watching the guests come and go blankly, with sorrow and joy playing in his ears, but it seemed that he couldn't hear the sound at all, except for sadness. He was still sad, so when he woke up, he was in a daze.

Why did I dream of Chunlai's mother-in-law's funeral?He was very uneasy.

But when the mobile phone jumped out of the schedule reminder, Tang Jin squeezed the mobile phone and laughed again.

Before he left yesterday, he mentioned to Qin Beichen that he wanted to visit his grandfather in a nursing home this morning. Qin Beichen said that he was going nearby, so they made an appointment together.

When leaving home, Tang Jin took off the sticky note he had pasted on the refrigerator yesterday and replaced it with a new one: I'm going to visit my grandfather in a nursing home.

He took a bottle of purified water from the refrigerator, rode his bicycle, and went to meet Qin Beichen's house.

The weather forecast said that the typhoon might land in the near future, but today is still sunny, the sun is too bright in the early morning, and it is estimated that the temperature will reach a new high in summer by noon.

Taking advantage of the fact that there were no pedestrians, Tang Jin was in a good mood and played with the trick of "jumping" onto the sidewalk when he quickly entered the community.

Not far into the community, at the corner of the tall building, Tang Jin saw Qin Beichen's back.

What is Qin Qin doing downstairs so early?

But he quickly realized that Qin Beichen would go downstairs to throw out the trash in the morning.No wonder he was wearing last night's home clothes, old T-shirts and old jeans. Of course, Tang Jin couldn't see where the old ones were, Tang Jin thought helplessly.

Tang Jin took the handle and gently moved the bicycle, and the bicycle slid towards Qin Beichen.

It was only when he got closer that he realized that there was someone opposite Qin Beichen.

It was the boy from yesterday.

Tang Jin groaned in his heart, the male god this boy was talking about couldn't be Qin Beichen!

My family, Qin Qin, was a disaster. Although Tang Jin was a little bit annoyed at being coveted by his own people, considering the big size gap between the two sides, Qin Beichen would definitely not suffer, so he could joke around in his head.

Tang Jin's car was unlocked, so he gently put the bicycle on its side on the ground, and walked over quietly, intending to watch.

As soon as he approached, he heard Qin Beichen say: "...It has nothing to do with me."

Appeared, Qin Dangdang refused to confess, Tang Jin sighed.

The boy was dressed similarly to yesterday, but his vest was replaced with a leopard print, and he shrunk unconsciously in front of Qin Beichen, not like a leopard, but like a petrified little mouse.

I don't know if he was stimulated by Qin Beichen's words, the boy suddenly clenched his fists, Tang Jin thought he was going to attack Qin Beichen, his eyes froze, and he was about to take a step forward, but saw the boy raised both fists In front of the chest, the whole person shrunk even more, and summoned up the courage to shout to Qin Beichen: "I just like you! Why can't I like you! They all bullied me because I like boys, you didn't, and you helped me , you don’t know how happy I was that day! So what’s wrong with me liking you!”

Tang Jin thought about it, and it really made sense, there is nothing wrong with liking.

No, this man is prying his corner.But Qin Beichen wouldn't like him.No, it's not a good idea to think so.

Tang Jin thought about it without any sense of crisis.

Faced with such a passionate confession, Qin Beichen was unmoved, not only unmoved, Qin Beichen held the boy's neck, rubbed the back of the boy's head against the rough wall, and lifted the boy a little higher. Cut, the boy was terrified, wanted to cry out in pain but his neck was pinched tightly, and his toes desperately tapped the ground to get air to breathe.

"Did you forget that I warned you not to appear in front of me?"

Qin Beichen's tone was still so calm that there were no waves, as if he was not holding a boy of the same age, but passing by.

He leaned his upper body back slightly, not even willing to get even half a centimeter closer to that boy.

Tang Jin was taken aback for a moment, but soon thought of the reason why Qin Beichen transferred to another school.

it's him?The boy facing Qin Beichen's desk...?

This person is quite different from the wretched man Tang Jin thought, but Tang Jin didn't have the time to think about it, so he immediately stepped forward, grabbed the elbow of Qin Beichen's hand hanging by his side, and said With dissuasion: "Qin Beichen."

Regarding Qin Beichen, Tang Jin was actually sure in his heart, he never thought that speaking in front of Qin Beichen would be useless.

He never expected that when Qin Beichen heard his call, his first reaction was to turn sideways and throw the boy to the ground with his backhand. Tang Jin felt himself being pushed away, and Qin Beichen's back suddenly appeared in front of him, and the whole body Everyone is dumbfounded.

Qin Beichen's movements were not big, but the force was deft and ruthless. The boy fell to the ground without any defense, and he didn't even have time to reach out to block the buffer. Obviously he had no fighting experience. When he landed, his forehead hit the corner of the wall , with a loud bang, it swelled up visibly to the naked eye.

The back of his head was scratched by the wall, and his forehead was swollen again. The boy covered his head and cried loudly, as if he was frightened by Qin Beichen, and he seemed very sad, crying and trembling. He seemed to want to run away immediately, but I was too flustered to even get up.

But Qin Beichen still didn't let him go, stepped on his waist, put his whole body on the ground, crying and shouting: "Let go of me, woo, I dare not dare."

Tang Jin was worried that Qin Beichen would be responsible for beating someone seriously, and he was pushed away by Qin Beichen just now. Tang Jin felt sore and bitter in his heart, so he shouted again in a serious tone: "Qin Beichen."

Qin Beichen acted as if he had never heard of it, and said calmly to the boy under his feet: "If I see you deliberately appear again next time, I won't be as measured as I am today when I beat you. The X photo you sent me, you violated the school rules Surveillance video, when you are still alive, wherever you go, it will be spread. Do you understand?"

"I understand, I understand..."

Qin Beichen moved his foot away.

The boy rolled and crawled, and ran out as if fleeing for his life.

Then Qin Beichen looked at Tang Jin, as if waiting for his opinion.

There were many thoughts in Tang Jin's mind, but he noticed that Qin Beichen's left hand, which had pinched the boy's neck, was hanging by his side, but it was more than ten centimeters away from his body, as if Qin Beichen didn't want this polluted hand to touch it. to myself.

Tang Jin subconsciously unscrewed the pure water bottle in his hand, grabbed Qin Beichen's left wrist, raised his hand, thought for a while, pulled Qin Beichen to walk two steps into the lawn, and then washed Qin Beichen's left hand with water , empty a bottle of water.

He stuffed the empty bottle into Qin Beichen's right hand, found a tissue from Qin Beichen's trouser pocket, and dried Qin Beichen's left hand.

Then he squeezed the crumpled tissue and looked up at Qin Beichen.

"You... why did I tell you to stop?" Tang Jin was still worried, and it was difficult to speak, but it went smoothly, "What if he calls the police?"

Qin Beichen calmly said: "The scalp is scratched, the forehead is slightly swollen, and there may be bruises on the back. Even minor injuries cannot be identified. He can call the police and show up in the building where I live for two consecutive days to harass him. He left a case."

Tang Jin was a little dazed, but subconsciously felt something was wrong: "No, this is not a question of whether or not minor injuries can be identified..."

"Then what's the problem?" Qin Beichen seemed to really not understand, but also seemed to be deliberately teasing, his tone was extremely relaxed, and he didn't seem to be so cruel to people just now.

Tang Jin tried to organize his thoughts so as not to be led away by Qin Beichen.

"That's right, no matter how you put it, it's not right. Although he did something obscene first and harassed you, even under a name he likes, it's wrong. I can understand, but aren't you a little too aggressive?" Serious," Tang Jin tried to clear his mind, saw that Qin Beichen was about to speak again, and immediately added, "Don't mention minor injuries! I thought before that if you see the person who harassed you, you must beat him up, but I didn't Thinking of how he looks like, beating him is useless... It’s not that he’s weak and shouldn’t be beating him, it’s true that he’s harassing him too much. No, this doesn’t seem to be the point.”

Tang Jin stopped in despair, thought carefully, and finally grasped the inspiration: "I want to say, if you don't mention that you beat him, in the end, you are threatening him, right? Are you relying on him to be afraid of being out of the closet?" Threatening him? Although I understand that you don't want to be harassed by him anymore, the justness of the purpose does not mean the rightness of the means. Aren't you taking advantage of his psychological weakness as a vulnerable group? What is the essential difference from discrimination? Although , although I also hate him and don't want you to see him again, but I don't think it's good..."

In the end, Tang Jin looked at Qin Beichen carefully. Although he felt that this was wrong from the bottom of his heart and didn't regret saying it, he still didn't want Qin Beichen to be angry.

Qin Beichen remained calm, and he even nodded in affirmation: "You are right."

Tang Jin breathed a sigh of relief.

Qin Beichen even analyzed it for him: "Although I haven't dealt with that boy a few times, it is enough to see that he is an emotional person, easily incited by words, and easily moved by himself. When encountering others' neglect Or cold reception, he immediately wants to show that he is different, thinking that this can shock others, but in fact, he is very fragile, he probably did not show so boldly, because he is completely incapable of bearing the consequences of these behaviors. resentment and even bullying.”

"These and the high-pressure atmosphere of Jifu High School have all turned into his pressure. The pressure has accumulated to a certain point, and I happened to help him, and probably regarded me as a life-saving straw. After I rejected his confession, the psychologically fragile In the end, he chose to vent his pressure on my desk..."

Thinking of the boy's abrupt and bold performance by the elevator yesterday, Tang Jin's analysis of Qin Beichen was speechless.

Qin Beichen changed the subject: "So, to deal with such a person, threatening his weakness is the most effective."

"Wait," Tang Jin blurted out, "Didn't you just admit that this kind of threat is no different from discrimination?"

"so what?"

"What 'so what', that's not right!"

"It's not true."

"you……"

After Tang Jin said you, he didn't know what to say.

He suddenly realized that Qin Beichen treats others equally and doesn't care. This shows the good side, that is, Qin Beichen seems to understand any behavior. Qin Beichen does not discriminate against anyone, and he does not have any opinions on small groups.

But this, in turn, has a bad side.

That is, Qin Beichen can really completely not care about others.

So now Qin Beichen acts like nothing happened, so Qin Beichen can calculate the unidentifiable injuries while doing it, so Qin Beichen knows that it is the weakness that the boy fears the most, and knows what kind of discrimination and indifference the boy will encounter if it is spread out , will be used as a threat.

"You won't really do that, will you?" Tang Jin seemed to be confidently asking, "Even if he does appear again?"

As soon as he finished asking, Tang Jin immediately added, as if he was afraid that it would not be enough, "I will help you drive him away."

Qin Beichen didn't answer directly, he said gently: "Do you think I will leave the X photo sent by that kind of person in my phone?"

Tang Jin thought about it, yes.

Therefore, Qin Beichen just took advantage of his weakness and threatened verbally, not wanting this boy to appear to harass him again.Not really trying to do it.

Tang Jin really relaxed, and felt that he insisted on having these issues with Qin Beichen because of the boy he also hated, a bit too careless about Qin Beichen's mood.

Qin Beichen didn't speak, and grabbed Tang Jin's hair with his right hand.

Tang Jin grabbed Qin Beichen's right hand and held it in his hand. After a few seconds, he let go. He rushed forward while urging: "Go up and change clothes."

Qin Beichen didn't move, and had no choice but to remind: "Your bicycle is not locked, and it is still on the ground."

He himself forgot that the bicycle was unlocked, but Qin Beichen still noticed that Tang Jin looked at Qin Beichen with a look of "You guys are going against the sky", and jumped to push the bicycle.

Qin Beichen had something to do nearby, and Tang Jin got out of the car alone at the gate of the nursing home.

He passed by the front desk and received a warm greeting from the front desk. She was asking why Zheng Xiaoqin hadn't come for a while, Tang Jin only said that she was busy, but after being reminded like this, Tang Jin left his mobile phone number in the nursing home system inside.

Zheng Xiaoqin and Tang Guohai were still arguing. In order to make rules for Tang Guohai, Zheng Xiaoqin often turned off the phone at night and refused to answer the phone. Tang Jin thought, if something happened to Grandpa, he might not be able to find anyone.

Grandpa still doesn't care about people, and he doesn't have the spirit to care about people anymore.

Tang Jin did some chores within his capacity, and sat by the bed to accompany him.

Grandpa was older than last time I saw him, he didn't eat well, his nutrition absorption became worse and worse, he was skinny, and the tall and majestic man in his memory became very illusory.

Grandpa sleeps and wakes up, neither sleeps nor wakes up for long.

Once he asked Tang Jin to open the window, and after more than ten minutes he said angrily: "Whoever opens the window, Ah Ke will kill me!"

Tang Jin could only quickly close it again.

Seeing grandpa like this, Tang Jin felt empty and a little scared.

When Qin Beichen came to pick Tang Jin up, Grandpa fell asleep again.

Tang Jin stood up and whispered to the old man on the bed, "Grandpa, I'm leaving first, and I'll see you next time."

Grandpa's eyes seemed to be opened, but he seemed unable to open them. After a long time of identification, he suddenly stretched out his hand from under the thin quilt, held Tang Jin's hand that was quickly handed over, and asked tremblingly, "Xiuhua?"

Tang Jin was stunned.

Xiuhua is his grandmother's name.

When he came back to his senses, grandpa had already fallen asleep again.

In the middle of the night, Tang Jin received a call from the nursing home.

His grandfather is gone.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-06-1008:04:59~2020-06-1108:14:14期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: 1 Sui Sui white fox;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 6 bottle of Chongming Jingyuan;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!