my bamboo horse rider

Xu Lai just hung up the phone, immersed in the surprise of "my friend bent himself because of the bamboo horse", recalled the conversation just now, and always felt that there was something wrong.

She has never been in a relationship herself, and her best friend Di Anan is a flirtatious girl who never needs other people's love advice, so strictly speaking, this phone call with Tang Jin is actually Xu Lai's first time listening to a friend's confession. Love troubles.

Could it be that we will become girlfriends in the future... Xu Lai thought so, and replaced the sunny boy Tang Jin in the No. 0 position among male and male couples.

Xu Lai's whole body trembled.

Then she immediately self-criticized, first of all, the stereotype is wrong!Then, it is absolutely impossible for Tang Jin to become like that.

After Xu Lai's self-examination, she continued to think hard. She was still very concerned. What was wrong?

There is no doubt that Tang Jin likes Qin Beichen, but is this kind of love really a love between lovers?

Although she didn't know the past of the two of them, Xu Laiguang's double-standard record as Tang Jin's deskmate was enough for her to realize that these two people were not usually important to each other.

This kind of importance should be the strong bond that can only be produced by supporting each other through the trough of life.At least Xu Lai thinks so, because although the degree may be different, Di An'an's support when her mother died, for Xu Lai, Di An'an's importance is beyond the comparison of ordinary friends.

Because people usually do not encounter too much tribulation when they are young, no matter what happens, they have the wings of their parents to shield them from the wind and rain.

Only those who are unfortunate enough to be a minority can truly understand that when you can't find someone to rely on, when you don't have the ability to live independently, when you face malice from the outside world, maybe even from the closest relatives who are supposed to protect you Human malice, you don't have any strength to fight back, you probably have no other way but to endure.In such a stage of life, how important is the person who reaches out to you and supports you through the difficult years.

The so-called friend in need.

Therefore, Tang Jin's dependence on Qin Beichen and his love for spending his whole life together may be just an overly strong friendship, not the category of love.Didn't the ancients all admire the loyalty of living together and dying together?

But after all, what is the fundamental difference between friendship and love?Xu Lai didn't think this problem would be a problem before, but now she suddenly realized that according to Tang Jin's situation, this problem was really a problem.

She opened the football forum app, trying to find a little inspiration in this place where straight men_cancer gather.

The phone rang again.

It is Tang Jin.

Xu Lai answered with an embarrassing face: "What's wrong?"

Tang Jin said distressedly at the other end: "That's not right, female hero, Qin Beichen, he has an XV actress he likes."

...I am a young girl, why should I sit at the same table with Bancao, discussing which XV actress the first grade likes?

Xu Laimo read the loyalty of friends and humanitarian care.

Xu Lai rolled his eyes: "Isn't this a normal thing, which one of you guys hasn't seen it... haven't you seen it?"

"Of course I saw it." Tang Jin was very honest and embarrassed, "But, isn't that just a coincidence, after seeing it once, after finishing it, and forgetting it? Why do you still remember the name? Besides, it's Qin Beichen , he probably doesn’t like people.”

The slots are too dense.

Xu Lai raised his forehead.

Xu Lai recalled the data that he had carefully checked in order to match up with the straight male cancer. He straightened his mind and asked first: "What do you mean by Qin Beichen not liking people? You want to say that Qin Beichen has a personality_ cold?"

Tang Jin immediately defended the bamboo horse's health problem: "No, no, he is not that cold. Although I don't know, I don't think he is. No, I mean, he doesn't like to be close to people, and he doesn't like to be close to others. He likes to be near him."

"...That's frigidity."

For men, this term has a derogatory connotation, so Tang Jin still did not give up rebuttal: "No, you see, none of us have any cold medical evidence on whether he is, so you can't say that about him. Besides , he doesn’t get close to everyone equally, not just girls.”

Xu Lai suddenly understood that something was wrong.

"Wait, wait!"

Xu Lai tentatively asked: "Tang Jin, when you said you watched it once in a while, you meant XV, not male-to-male videos, right?"

Tang Jin was shocked: "Men and men still have videos? Why are you filming them?"

Xu Lai collapsed.

Does such a pure boy really exist?

Does she really want to watch a straight man who is not greasy or wretched bend over himself? This is simply cruel.

Xu Lai took a deep breath, and said straight to the point: "Although it's a bit of a problem for me to ask this question, but out of friendship, I will say it bluntly—Student Tang Jin, you have sexual impulses towards Qin Beichen Is he the object of your fantasy?" Tang Jin broke down: "What are you talking about, a girl!"

"What the hell are you talking about!" Xu Lai couldn't bear it any longer, and yelled a swear word, "Brother, be direct, do you want to kiss him when you see him? Do you want to hug him? No, then you are entangled! You two are friendship, a touching socialist brotherhood, don't think about it, thank you!"

Tang Jin thought for a while, then asked, "Does an ordinary hug count? The day he returned from transferring, I actually wanted to hug him."

"It doesn't count!"

Tang Jin thought about it again, and answered seriously: "That's not at all. But, I still think I like him."

Xu Lai said: "Like between friends is also like. Friendship also has the desire to be exclusive."

"Is that so?" Tang Jin was also unsure.

Xu Lai sighed, and said bluntly: "You ask me who I ask, and only you can figure out your own feelings, right? After all, if you call me again, is it because you are entangled in Qin Beichen's favorite XV actress? ? Again, isn’t this the normal operation of you boys, what’s so surprising.”

Tang Jin said unconvinced: "You are a map cannon. I don't have one."

Xu Lai didn't accept the bullshit, and rolled his eyes to the sky: "No, no, I dare to bet you with all the experience of fighting straight men with cancer. There will also be XV flavors that you like. If you don’t believe me, go to your boys’ group and ask.”

"Just ask."

In order to justify the name of his male compatriots, Tang Jin left this sentence and hung up the phone.

Ten minutes later, a new message popped up on Xu Lai's WeChat.

【Don Quixote】:...

【Don Quixote】: These beasts

【Woman】: Keke

[Woman]: What did I say?

【Don Quixote】:_(:зゝ∠)_

【Don Quixote】: They say I am... the word you just said about Qin Beichen...

[Woman]: First of all, I express my deep sympathy.

【Woman】: Secondly, don’t shy away from illness

[Woman]: Finally, I'm not an emotional consultation number, let's talk about fees, thank you

【Don Quixote】: I'm sorry

【Don Quixote】: Thank you for chatting with me for so long, I may have panicked at once, but I feel much better now

【Don Quixote】: Cat Thanksgiving Refill.jpg

【Don Quixote】: When I meet at night, I will ask Qin Beichen directly

[Female Hero]: Stop!

[Woman Xia]: What do you want to ask him?

[Female Hero]: Don't be impulsive. Let me tell you, Qin Beichen just met a weird guy, and you said he has a cleanliness habit, so he should be more resistant to this now!

【Don Quixote】: I want to ask why he likes that actress?

【Don Quixote】: Can't I ask?

【Don Quixote】: I know this, of course I will not tell Qin Beichen that he is in a bad mood

Xu Lai was speechless at the phone screen.

This person has a straight man's dull sense of his own psychology and feelings, but when it comes to Qin Beichen, his acuity index jumps up. Is this straight or not?

[Female Hero]: ...you ask, you ask

[Female Hero]: Don't cc me the answer!i got off

Tang Jin sent a waving GIF.

He thought gratefully, Xu Lai is really a good person.

When we met in the evening, it was Qin Beichen who texted Tang Jin "Do you want to watch the fireworks" in the morning.

Qin Beichen said that it was a cultural and creative company that my aunt invested in before, and it was specially planned for entertaining relevant personnel, showing the cultural symbols they tailored for a certain place. The types of fireworks will be more novel, but the time will not be very long. Avoid crowds, and there is no publicity, so not many people know about it.

Tang Jin naturally agreed.

The location of the fireworks is by the river. Tang Jin went to meet Qin Beichen first. Qin Beichen, who was wearing a shirt and trousers, was waiting at the door of a certain Starbucks. Tang Jin saw his figure from a distance, and felt the joy from the bottom of his heart.

"So handsome," Tang Jin approached with a smile, and said exaggeratedly.

Qin Beichen glanced at him, turned around and walked side by side with him, leading Tang Jin to the best observation point.

The wind is strong along the river, gradually blowing the heat accumulated during the day, as if there will be heavy rain tomorrow.

Tang Jin followed Qin Beichen and stood still somewhere by the river, Qin Beichen said, "Maybe wait another quarter of an hour."

Tang Jin responded with a hum.

An endless stream of tourists come and go near them, the sound of boats on the river, the tall modern buildings, the usual gorgeous lights...all of these, including themselves, are part of the urban night scene of the city that never sleeps.

The wind was strong, and there was still time, Tang Jin approached Qin Beichen, and whispered: "Hey."

But as soon as he started, he was too embarrassed to continue.

Qin Beichen lowered his head slightly, turned his head to look at him: "What's wrong?"

Such a close distance allowed Tang Jin to smell the softener aroma on Qin Beichen's clothes, just like the old days reappearing many years ago.Fresh and light fragrance, black hair falling on the white neck, in his heart, Qin Beichen will always be so beautiful and clean, even if Qin Beichen grows so fast, he is almost mature enough to leave the boy's body, to him It's still the same.

Perhaps he was able to identify Qin Beichen by his breath, rather than his appearance and height, which changed every day.

That breath is gentle, trustworthy, what makes him nostalgic, and consistent.

Tang Jin raised his head slightly, and moved closer to Qin Beichen's ear, his eyes were staggered from Qin Beichen's, so he had the nerve to ask: "You answered the question yesterday, saying that you like orange pear yarn...why is it orange pear yarn?"

Asking the question, it seems that the expression is a bit wrong, but Tang Jin's ears are red, so how could he bother about it.

Qin Beichen seemed to want to laugh.

Qin Beichen explained: "The football page of the forum I often go to has an unwritten rule. If you post a question and ask for help, the owner will post some welfare pictures on the main building. What is a welfare picture, you don't need me to explain it? Probably Shui District has always mentioned her recently, and many posters bring her welfare pictures, and you can see them in any post you click on. I thought of it at the first time, so I answered like this."

"That's right," Tang Jin heaved a sigh of relief in his heart, but he didn't know what he was thankful for, so he blurted out, "Then you don't like her?"

Qin Beichen thought for a while and replied, "Like it? Not really."

Tang Jin subconsciously interfaced: "So you have seen it."

Qin Beichen didn't know why Tang Jin had been struggling with this question, and looked into his eyes suspiciously: "Everyone has seen XV, right? Haven't you seen it?"

"I've seen it before," Tang Jin thought of the kind condolences he received in the group of boys, and couldn't help complaining to Qin Beichen, and then looked at Qin Beichen suspiciously, "like them Is it normal to watch it five or six times a week? But, sometimes, I feel so sad after watching the videos they share, that is, the girls in it feel so painful? Qin Beichen, is it my problem?"

Boys with good friendships will inevitably share these things occasionally, which is also to show off their resources to a certain extent.But it is usually a small video that is particularly touching, or a sudden hot event on the Internet, and you don’t have to report it to your brothers every time you watch it.

That's why Tang Jin was so surprised when he learned the real frequency of his friends watching these things. He always thought that the frequency of sharing was the frequency of viewing.

Qin Beichen actually laughed: "You have no problem. You are too kind."

Tang Jin resisted the annoyance in his heart that he was embarrassed to complain to Qin Beichen, but he didn't expect Qin Beichen to laugh at him, and said angrily, "Why are you laughing at me!"

Qin Beichen glanced at Tang Jin's slightly red cheeks, thought for a while, and said in his usual indifferent voice: "You think those girls seem to be being bullied, or are really being bullied, so you feel sad, yes ?"

Seeing Tang Jin nodding, Qin Beichen explained: "You are a person who cares about other people's situation, so you will feel sad, which is normal. Generally, when men look at these things, they don't care about those, or, for some men , What makes you feel sad is exactly what they are after. You can choose what you like to watch, and those that are pleasing to each other are fine, everyone has different tastes."

Tang Jin frowned: "Is it just 'different tastes'? Why do some people like to watch others being bullied..."

Qin Beichen said disapprovingly: "There is a power relationship in any relationship, and the same is true for sexual relationships. Most of the men, but also a few women, like the sense of conquest, and even the desire to destroy. As long as it does not involve the legal and moral bottom line, this is a different taste."

Tang Jin suddenly realized: "Qin Qin, how do you understand so well?"

"I will find a way to find out the questions I don't understand." Qin Beichen said patiently, "I have always had this habit, have you forgotten?"

Tang Jin shook his head, but said: "I haven't forgotten, it's just, just... So, you have investigated all the problems in this regard?"

Qin Beichen was very calm: "It's impossible to find out everything, it's just a rough idea. What else do you want to ask?"

"Then, then you know that XV is not only male and female, but also..."

"I know."

Tang Jin squatted down holding his head.

A Qin Beichen who has a lot of theoretical knowledge... As soon as this sentence appeared in his mind, for some reason, his whole head was so hot that it was about to smoke.

Qin Beichen watched Tang Jin squatting on the ground to load mushrooms.

Time is up.

Qin Beichen grabbed the back of Tang Jin's neck and made him stand up: "Watch the fireworks."

The sound of whizzing launches was endless, and fireworks of different shapes suddenly bloomed in the night sky. Tang Jin's eyes lit up, and the sky ladder fireworks, color-changing fireworks, etc. that he had never seen before were like magic. All the questions were left behind.

It's a pity that the time is not long, and the bright fireworks are fleeting.

They didn't leave immediately, but walked slowly like walking by the river.

Tang Jin seemed to be still struggling, since he had already asked so many questions anyway, he didn't mind asking one more question, so when he walked to a deserted place, he asked Qin Beichen in a low voice: "Then, if it's not Ju Lisha, who do you like?"

Qin Beichen stroked his forehead.

Qin Beichen said, "I don't like anyone."

Tang Jin remembered Xu Lai's words, and asked again: "Then what do you like, type?"

Qin Beichen said, "No."

Qin Beichen asked back, "You have?"

Tang Jin shook his head.

Qin Beichen had a speechless expression like you keep asking me why.

"I am," Tang Jin tried to explain, but started to think that it would be quicker to throw the blame away, "Because they said I was cold, so I thought, ask you for reference."

Qin Beichen said, "You have found the wrong reference object."

"why?"

Qin Beichen said frankly: "Because I am really indifferent. My function is normal, but my voluntary impulse is zero."

Tang Jin stopped.

He was not surprised, he looked at Qin Beichen, Qin Beichen also looked calm, as if he was talking about something that had nothing to do with him.

Tang Jin thought for a while and asked, "Qin Qin, is there any girl you might like? In the future."

Qin Beichen replied, "It's unlikely."

Tang Jin approached Qin Beichen and walked in front of Qin Beichen.

Tang Jin was very sure that the first person who discovered that Qin Beichen was actually gentler than his appearance was Tang Jin, and the first person who discovered that Qin Beichen was actually colder than his appearance was also Tang Jin.

He witnessed how Qin Beichen went from expecting to completely resisting others.

So Tang Jin was not surprised.

In fact, when Xu Lai mentioned that word, he tried so hard to refute it, not just out of the pride of his male allies.

Tang Jin opened his hands like a child, asking for consent: "Let me hug you, okay?"

Qin Beichen did not refuse.

Tang Jin slowly closed his arms and embraced Qin Beichen.At this moment, the complex emotions welling up in his heart almost made him cry immediately.

What he hugged was not only his lost and recovered good friend, not only his potential crush.

It's just as incomplete as him, like half of his soul ripped from him.

He was ecstatic, because hugging Qin Beichen, the sense of peace of mind like returning to the soul, is a perfection that no one in this world can replace.

He was so painful that he wanted to cry because he suddenly realized that if he couldn't have Qin Beichen, he would be a forever crippled individual, and Qin Beichen was the same.And this is likely to be their end, because Qin Beichen's heart has been frozen by the mirror fragments.

However, Tang Jin made up his mind.

He will always like Qin Beichen.

It has nothing to do with the difference between friendship and love, it has nothing to do with indifference, it has nothing to do with Qin Beichen even.

He voluntarily accompanied Qin Beichen, no matter what his capacity was.

"Qin Qin," Tang Jin said in a muffled voice, "tell me a joke, please?"

Qin Beichen was silent for a moment.

Qin Beichen said: "In 1982, against the background of the US-Soviet confrontation, the whole of Europe was in turmoil, and the global economic crisis continued to deepen..."

Tang Jin protested: "I'm not asking you to talk about history."

Qin Beichen patted him on the back and continued: "Therefore, in this year, a far-reaching tragedy occurred, known as the '1982 Grape Massacre' in history, and Lafite in 82 is the iron proof that has been handed down to this day. .”

Tang Jin laughed hahahaha.

Then let go of Qin Beichen.

Qin Beichen reached out, rubbed his hair, and then brought up the matter: "What do you think about Presentation?"

The author has something to say: *From the manuscript box of Mo De's feelings, there will be two changes in the evening