law of forbidden love

Fu Xiaojia followed Shang Kai out of the supermarket, staring at his broad shoulders in a daze.

Shang Kai is holding a supermarket bag in his hand, which is full of ingredients, but he has a kind of magical power, carrying a bag of vegetables looks like a model on the cover of a street photography magazine.

Fu Xiaojia knew that he was unhappy, so she regretted telling Shang Xu that she would persuade Shang Kai.

For Fu Xiaojia, the most important thing is whether Shang Kai is happy or not, not how Shang Kai does or does not do.Maybe it has something to do with An Zhi's education method, although Fu Xiaojia is young, she can be regarded as a considerate little lover.He always feels that there are many things in the world, and the pain cannot be overcome by forgiveness. If he does not forgive in his heart, but says that he has forgiven because of the pressure from the outside world, isn't that also a kind of torture?

His Shang Kai was already very tired, Fu Xiaojia couldn't bear him to be tortured again.

"Shang Kai..." Fu Xiaojia hesitated for a moment, reached out and secretly held Shang Kai's hand that was not carrying anything, and smiled sweetly at him.

Shang Kai turned his face to look at him, and smiled, with a soothing expression.

"Do you have something to say to me?" Shang Kai asked, holding the boy's hand and putting it in his jacket pocket.Shang Kai is taller than Fu Xiaojia, and his palms are a circle bigger than him, and the palms are very warm. Fu Xiaojia likes this feeling.

"...It used to be." Fu Xiaojia scratched the back of her head embarrassingly, "but now...it doesn't exist."

"Why?" Shang Kai seemed surprised, squeezed the boy's hand, and teased him like a small animal.

"Anyway, I will support you unconditionally. I don't want you to wrong yourself for others." Fu Xiaojia lowered her head and murmured, "I'm very selfish...my boyfriend, stay with me Must be happy..."

Shang Kai laughed, and when he heard Fu Xiaojia say this, his heart seemed to be filled with warm tide, and he was extremely happy.If it wasn't on the street, he would choose to kiss the child until his face was red and his eyes were watery.

"You have nothing to tell me, but I have something to tell you." Shang Kai took Fu Xiaojia by the hand and slowed down his pace.They had already walked into the community where An Zhi's house was located, deliberately took a detour, and walked slowly on the path in the green grass.

"Well, tell me." Fu Xiaojia said obediently.

"I... I actually don't know whether I should go to see him or not." Shang Kai lowered his head slightly, restraining the clear light in his eyes. He stood in the shadow cast by a pine tree, and the expression in his eyes seemed to be Also blended into the shadows, misty, like deep sea water.

"Now I don't hate that he promised to send me abroad, and I don't hate that Xia Xin hated me back then, and I can't... and I can't make Shang Xu so sad." After Shang Kai finished speaking, he looked at Fu Xiaojia with serious eyes. , "I used to hate...I hate why they can exclude me, have laughter and a happy family, and I always look like an outsider, how can I not blend in."

At that time, Shang Kai was immersed in the pain of his mother's death, but he couldn't feel the closest relative in the world—his father had the same pain as him.The mother's departure seemed to hurt Shang Kai's father only for a short while. Soon, he had a new family and a new lover, and soon gave birth to his youngest son.

The traces of his mother were quickly wiped out, which made Shang Kai feel very uneasy and terrified, so he tried his best to reject Xia Xin's existence, and Xia Xin couldn't tolerate his existence. A few years later, the war ended with Xia Xin's victory. But in the end, Shang Kai was thrown out of this house like a defeated man, wandering until now.

Fu Xiaojia slowly pulled out her hand, took Shang Kai's arm, and stood in the blind spot covered by the pine tree, so that no passerby could see him.He stood on tiptoe slightly, gently wrapped Shang Kai's hair with the other hand, raised his head and hugged him, and Shang Kai also bent down to cooperate with this warm hug.

"Now you have me...I need you and love you. Without you, I won't be able to eat well, sleep well, cause trouble, and my grades will deteriorate..." Fu Xiaojia couldn't help laughing when she said this laugh.He wanted Shang Kai to know that they were each other's sense of belonging.

When one person gives another person his whole-hearted dependence, that is to say, he admits that the other person is very good and that the other person is very powerful.Fu Xiaojia wanted to please Shang Kai with this, like a child happily holding his most beloved candy to his most beloved playmate.

"Yes..." Shang Kai also smiled, and continued, "Now that I have you, I don't hate any more. The past is over, and my life is not bad...They didn't treat me No substantial harm has been done. So...the basis for hatred no longer exists."

"En." Fu Xiaojia let go of him, stepped back to the spot and raised her head to listen carefully, looking at him with clear eyes, only on him.

"But I still can't help feeling uncomfortable, my heart is empty... I know I should go, but I don't know how to face them, I am afraid... I will disturb the original harmonious atmosphere between them... I am also afraid that they will Let me fall into that outsider's pain again."

Fu Xiaojia thought about it, and Shang Xu's red eyes from crying

flashed before him.

"So... Xiaojia, I want to listen to you this time."

"Listen to me?" Fu Xiaojia raised her hand and nodded in front of her face.

That is to say, is he qualified to influence Shang Kai's thoughts and life?

Fu Xiaojia's heart was pounding, and for a moment she had the urge to burst into tears.

"Yes, I want to hear from you." Shang Kai took a step forward, leaned into Fu Xiaojia's ear and exhaled warmly, he said with a smile, "After all...someone broke into my room last night and told me You want to marry me with three books, six ceremonies, and eight sedan chairs..."

Fu Xiaojia raised his hand to cover Shang Kai's mouth, his face blushed.

"...how do you remember?"

God, what was said last night.

"Let's go, my mother won't wait until we're going to scold someone again..." Fu Xiaojia pulled Shang Kai's sleeve and walked forward quickly, "She doesn't scold you, she only scolds me, so you feel bad Feel sorry for me!"

With a shallow smile, Shang Kai was led step by step out of the shadow under the pine tree by his hand, into the sun, into the scorching sun.

……

After dinner, Fu Xiaojia and Shang Kai talked about it again, and finally decided to visit Shang Kai's father together.

After they explained to An Zhi, they called Shang Xu. Fu Xiaojia listened to Shang Xu on the other end of the phone thanking him incoherently, not knowing what to say.

In fact, he has always hoped that the two brothers will reconcile and the relationship will return to the same as when they were children.He knew how much Shang Xu relied on Shang Kai, and Shang Kai said he didn't care, but he cared about his younger brother in his heart.

In the afternoon and evening, Fu Xiaojia bought fruits and bouquets downstairs, and Shang Kai drove him to the hospital that Shang Xu mentioned.

Shang Kai's father had a liver problem, he drank alcohol, Shang Kai knew it without even thinking about it.

"He has been very busy with work and often needs to drink and socialize with clients. As far as I can remember, I feel that he is often not at home." Shang Kai carried the fruit basket, Fu Xiaojia held the bouquet of flowers, and walked in the corridor of the hospital. The smell of disinfectant was very strong, and both of them were in a bad mood.

For the hospital, both of them have an experience that they don't want to recall again.They have all sent off their loved ones here, and they have understood the fragility of life at a very young age.

"Where do you think you can earn all the money? If...he comes back earlier that night, isn't it..." Shang Kai wanted to say something, but he didn't continue, and saw Shang Xu who was waiting for them at the door of the ward from afar .

Fu Xiaojia waved to Shang Xu, and Shang Xu changed from his old foolish image, and stood at the door to give Fu Xiaojia a grateful smile, but when he looked at Shang Kai, he didn't know what expression to make.

Shang Kai nodded to him, not as polite as two brothers, but it was enough for Shang Xu.

Walking to the door of the ward, Fu Xiaojia handed the bouquet to Shang Kai: "Go in, I'll wait for you outside the door."

Shang Kai nodded, and touched the top of his hair.

"Brother... Thank you." Shang Xu tentatively said to Shang Kai.

Shang Kai turned his gaze to Shang Xu, didn't say anything, just smiled lightly, then Shang Xu pushed open the door, allowing Shang Kai to see his father lying on the hospital bed.

Haven't seen it for many years.

Recall carefully, the last time we met, Shang Xu and Fu Xiaojia were still in the third year of high school, and Shang Kai’s grandmother was still alive. Out of the old man’s wish, Shang Kai went home once, but that time was only a quick glance, and there was a commotion A lot of unpleasantness.

The person on the hospital bed seemed to be much older.His face was sallow, and he had lost a lot of weight. His face was dry and chaotic, and his eyes were tightly closed. On the back of his bone-like hand, there was an infusion needle, and blue blood vessels could be seen.

Shang Xu walked over and squatted down beside the bed, whispering in a low voice: "Father, brother is here, brother is here to see you..."

Father Shang's hand moved suddenly, and his eyes slowly opened.He looked at the two figures standing in front of his hospital bed with disbelief, and when he passed Shang Xu and saw Shang Kai, tears overflowed from his cloudy eyes, and he whimpered in his throat.

Shang Kai looked at all this calmly, maybe because he was used to seeing life and death, or maybe it was too far away, and he hadn't seen each other for too long, which exhausted the kindness in the blood relationship between father and son.

"Xiao...Kai..." Father Shang raised his arms vigorously, wanting to sit up, but he had no strength in his body, so he could only make a hoarse voice, "Come here, come here..."

Shang Xu helped him up, glanced at Shang Kai, and said to his father, "You talk to brother, and I'll buy you food."

Shang Xu went out and closed the door, and suddenly there was silence in the ward. The lengthy silence between father and son was like a silent confrontation.

After a long time, the father who was lying on the hospital bed moved his Adam's apple with difficulty and said, "Son, are you... okay?"

"Okay, why not?" Shang Kai smiled and said.