Mr Prejudice

The year I first came to Beijing, I was still a silly music youth, with long hair, living in a basement in Chaoyang District, smoking and drinking, and singing in bars. I hope one of these idiots is not so idiot, and can pick me out of a bunch of fish eyes at a glance.

Later, I thought about whether my life would be different if I had known Guan Lan earlier; Be busy and become a positive spinning top.But if I got to know him, my standard of living would definitely be much better. He would definitely not allow me to live in the basement, and he would help me advance money for a more comfortable place to live.

It's not that he has never suffered, but he has never suffered from poverty.People who have never been poor are generous.

So whenever Guan Lan later told me that his family’s conditions were not good, I wanted to swear; there might be a few times when I actually swear, I don’t really remember.He said that his parents have been paid a lifetime of wages in the government, and they have no salary and low grades; when they were young, they were in the class with the worst conditions in the class, and they didn't let him pay when they went out to play with their classmates. .I just said, you don't even look at what schools your mother went to when you were young, who your classmates were, and you children who grew up in big cities have never seen poverty.

In the county No. 80.00 middle school in my hometown, a small county where [-]% of Chinese people have never heard of, his family conditions, where both parents eat imperial food, are definitely the richest class in the class.

But at least he was from the petty bourgeoisie, much more down-to-earth than my predecessor.

Pull it away, I will pull it back.

Facts have proved that at that time I drank too much dreamy chicken soup, which was purely overnight fame. In reality, a serious record company producer would not squat in a bar in Sanlitun for private visits every day. In reality, only liars can find you.

Liars don't look at your singing voice or talent, they can only see the fanatical desire for success and fame in your eyes, and they can see it right.

My first agency was a workshop specializing in the production of peripherals and wild models, or it could be said that it was a brothel for prostitutes.

But at the foot of the emperor and in a society ruled by law, they don’t do prostitution. If you don’t want to, they won’t drug you and tie you to someone’s bed—as long as you watch the “seniors and juniors” in the company every day. The extravagant "upper class" life can not be jealous.

To be honest, jealousy is still jealousy.But I have to say that I still have a little moral bottom line, jealousy means cursing and cursing after drinking.

I quickly saw the essence of this company, but I didn't leave, I really didn't want to go back to live in the basement.It's just that every time "business" comes, I just avoid it with a headache and a stomachache.

But in the end, the company will not support a person who does not work all his life, and there will always be times when he cannot escape.

This time, my "manager" made it clear that I only accompany you for drinks, but not for sleeping.You must obey the company's arrangement, if you don't go, you will leave.

I am Yang Peiqing who I met at this wine bureau.

I could tell at a glance that, like me, he had been dragged here by force, with an impatient look on his face.

His mind has always been transparent in my eyes, from the very first sight.

In the middle of the drinking party, the two of us hid to smoke, and he came over to me and asked, "Brother, borrow a fire."

That's how we got to know each other.We didn't get together on the spot, only to the extent of exchanging WeChat.I don’t really remember whether there was WeChat at that time, maybe it was phone numbers that were exchanged.

Later, when Yang Peiqing chased me, I hung him up for a few days without hesitation, and then I gave in half-heartedly.

I admit that I didn't like him much at that time, and I did have the idea of ​​"find a rich boyfriend".I'm sorry for him, I haven't told him about it, but I admit it in my heart.

This is how the environment affects people.In a smoky circle, you think that you are untouched by the mud, but in fact your moral standards have been unknowingly lowered by the people around you.When you live among chickens and ducks, it's easy to think that finding a boyfriend for money is not a problem at all-after all, I am a serious boyfriend, not a money maker or a prostitute, and he is still unmarried, God , Am I a role model of morality in the world?

It took me a long time to realize that Yang Peiqing was serious to me, from the very beginning.In the same way, when you know too many chickens and ducks, you will quickly stop believing in love, especially this kind of Cinderella-style love that is fucking fake than chicken soup.

Then my "agency" finally got me a TV spot.It can't be said that it was fought for me, it was actually leaked from the fingers of the "senior" of the company.It was a variety show on a third-tier provincial TV station. They thought the show was not well-known, the TV station was far away, and the money was not enough, so they were unwilling to go.

I just asked, "Is the round-trip ticket reimbursed?"

They said that the TV station would reimburse them, but they only reimbursed the train tickets, and they were not allowed to take the plane.

I was not afraid of taking the train, even though there was no high-speed rail across the country at that time.I have never seen other worlds except Beijing. I think it is worthwhile to travel at public expense and to be on TV.

At that time, outdoor variety shows had not been introduced from Japan and South Korea, and the format of variety shows was still that of a group of people playing games in a studio.I mainly made background boards inside. After working on the background board for a long time, I was able to say a few words later, and the photogenic weight increased.

The final ratings of that show were still the same, it was half-dead all the time, and it stopped broadcasting after less than two years after I went there.

But I was actually discovered by my current agency.

My boss said that in the variety show I participated in, there was a problem with the process, the content was boring, and the host was mediocre. The only bright spot was me.He thinks that I have a sense of variety show, and I have a good grasp of the rhythm and humor. With a little training, I can become a first-line variety show star in China.

Of course I switched jobs without saying a word. The previous brothel and the current legitimate brokerage company, it is a fool who would choose the wrong question for giving points; but I am very disdainful of the development path set by the company for me.A country bumpkin like me, how can I know what a variety show is? My noble Sanlitun music youth, how can I be a comedian?

Yang Peiqing has a vicious vision for the market. He told me that variety shows have great prospects for development in the past few years, and that the variety show will be much more profitable than making music.

I still told him, I said, why do you smell like copper, do you know what a dream is?

In fact, what I said is quite shameless. I have never been a noble person who treats money like dung, and I am also quite stinky.

The two of us had a big fight, after the fight, Yang Peiqing contacted the producer and released the record.

Not Guan Lan.

Would it be different if it was Guan Lan?After all, Guan Lan was very good at that time, and whatever he wrote was popular, maybe he could make me popular too.

Alas, I wish I could meet you when you were not married.

In short, that record hit the street, and sank into the vast ocean of the entertainment market with a bang, without a single splash.I also suspected that Yang Peiqing did it on purpose, he just didn't want me to sing; and he was so angry that he didn't talk to me for three days.

Now when it comes to this matter, I really do it.

Since then, I cut off my long hair, officially bid farewell to my music dream, and became a comedian.

Guan Lan and I are two completely different people.He is the hard-working type who believes in one step at a time; as for me, it's hard to say, I may be the type who "can't stand hard work at all".For example, when we were in school, we played in bands. He knew to disband the band when he was in the third year of high school and study hard for university entrance exams. As for me, I came to Beijing with my so-called dream.If you want me to climb up like him step by step, working more than ten hours a day, honing my ability, accumulating qualifications, and improving my grades, it would be better to let me die.

When I was young, I was unwilling to admit it and used my so-called dreams as a fig leaf. Now that I am older, I am gradually able to look directly at this past.It can be said that it has little to do with dreams, it is vanity and impetuosity, can't stand loneliness, can bear poverty but can't suffer.

But at that time, I felt that I had abandoned my original intention, succumbed to the world, and buried my dream with my own hands, so it was very painful, and I had to vent my anger on Yang Peiqing every day.

I have to say, I am very careless about this relationship.Because I have always held a pessimistic attitude deep in my heart, thinking that the two of us will not go long.And he was managing this relationship with his heart, but he managed it very illegitimately.

Yang Peiqing, who comes from such a family, is still the youngest son of the family. Don’t look like a human being. Everyone calls him "Boss". In fact, he is very immature, and he may have read too many idol dramas and romance novels when he was young. , a little love brain, silly.

He always finds various reasons for the turbulent relationship between the two of us, such as the seven-year itch, my change of heart, he has lost both mental and physical attraction to me, etc. Waiting, but I can't see it. The root cause is that I was the one who had to ask if the ticket was reimbursed in the last announcement, and his dog has a Q7.

Yes, this is the lowest-grade car in his family. People generally don't sit in it, and it's specially for taking dogs for a ride.

Fucking people are people from two worlds. They are talking about two worlds. If they insist on living together, of course they will not be able to live together.

Economic conditions, the higher party is usually not aware of it, and thinks that money is not an obstacle at all, while the lower party is always sensitive and careful, and thinks about two things every night before going to sleep. The first is that I am not worthy. , the second is that I am so tired.

The deeper the love, the more tired you are.The more you love, the more inseparable you will be. If you can't be separated, it will only make you more tired, a vicious circle.

Even though I'm a bit more mature than Yang Peiqing, I'm not a master at dealing with relationship issues, otherwise I wouldn't have separated and reunited with him so many times, wanting to break up but being reluctant to part with him, making a relationship so embarrassing.

Guan Lan was a piece of driftwood when I was about to drown.

At that time, I was almost depressed by this relationship, and my contract with the first brokerage company was picked up on the Internet again.What kind of thing is that company? People in the circle know it well. Of course, those who come out of the brothel will not be a good family. In addition, when I had long hair in my early years, I looked like a bit of a coquettish bitch. At that time, talking on the Internet was as bad as it sounds. ugly.

Although all the black material on the Internet was eventually removed by public relations, I only felt that my life was full of these bad things and there was no light.

Then Guan Lan appeared, like a heavenly soldier, not only saved me with friendship, but also let me see another way of life.

The friendship between the two of us was so incredible that I still think he was sent by an angel to save me, or maybe he is the angel himself.But I can't tell him this, it's too nasty, I just think about it myself.

Originally, I was still entangled with Yang Peiqing - as I said before, he is a person with a love brain, as if he is living in a danmei novel written by a 15-year-old girl, and he thinks that nothing can be solved without sex, Seven times if it doesn't work once - this one is especially annoying.

Later, I suddenly realized that if I don't solve my own problems, then I will never be able to deal with my relationship problems, no matter how many partners I change.I have always felt in my heart that everything I have now is not earned by myself, nor is it what I deserve. It is a building without foundations.

I should straighten out my career first, and then establish and maintain some intimate relationships other than love. In this way, I should organize my life and fill the holes in my heart. Until the end, whether it is with Yang Peiqing or whoever, I can be confident Look him straight in the eye and build a solid relationship with him brick by brick.

But Yang Peiqing doesn't understand this, he is still looking for opportunities to have sex with me every day.Seeing that I can't succeed recently, I have thought of all kinds of crooked ways, so stupid as hell.

But it doesn't matter, you've been so stupid.

As long as you are willing to wait for me.