windy city rainy season

What is most important in traditional Hawaiian culture is the connection between people and people, people and families, people and the land they live on and other creatures on the land.The closer a person is to his environment, the more respected he is by others.In Hawaiian, people call the land of life and emotion Aloha'āina.

During the four days on the uninhabited island, everyone gathered in the open space in the middle of the camp every day after dinner to exchange ideas about their lives and why they chose to volunteer on the island.Some people, like Dr. Chang, want to experience a simple life away from civilization, some people want to take their families to visit all the islands in Hawaii, some like Mike just want to come to the island to take pictures, and some people come to make soy sauce, such as Adrian.

"Yu, what brought you here?" The organizer looked at Tao Yu who had been silent all this time. (Translation: Tao Yu, what brought you here?)

Tao Yu was a little absent-minded, and he didn't come back to his senses until Chang Zheng pushed him, and apologized: "Sorry I got distracted." (Translation: I'm sorry I was distracted.)

The organizers didn't care, and repeated the question again.

"... that's actually a question to Jason." Tao Yu looked at the people around him, "Thankstohim. Ididn't even know where I was going until the day we got to Maui." I don't know where the destination is.)

Tao Yu kicked the question to Chang Zheng, who smiled helplessly and explained to the others his three-month travel plan.Listening to their conversation, Tao Yu unconsciously began to lose his mind again.

Recently, he has always felt low energy and lacks a sense of participation in everything around him. He used to like to make friends, but now he always wants to keep a safe distance from the crowd.Afraid of Chang Zheng's worry, he tried to integrate himself into the group, but the irritability in his heart rose little by little.

After sitting for a while, he excused himself to go to the toilet, got up and left, turned a corner at the back of the dormitory, and walked to the beach alone.

The lights of the camp barely reached here, Tao Yu stood on the edge of the beach, the sea breeze blowing towards his face with the fishy smell of the waves.This kind of night reminded him of the edge of the Great Lakes—a scene that repeatedly appeared in his nightmares. He masochistically forced himself to stand in the dark, trying to overcome his inner fear, and trying to recall some beautiful things, but he was always hallucinated. Bullets fired from an unknown direction broke through.

"Yu, areyouallright?" (Translation: Tao Yu, are you all right?)

Someone behind him asked softly.

Tao Yu turned his head and saw Adrian walking down the embankment.The other party's T-shirt looked like a child's, with a dinosaur skeleton print that would fluoresce in the dark, which looked a little funny, which made Tao Yu's uneasiness lessen a lot.

"What are you doing here?" Adrian asked. (Translation: What are you doing here?)

"Mediation." Tao Yu said casually. (Translation: meditation.)

"How to realize communism?" (Translation: How to realize communism?)

Tao Yu smiled, Adrian has the aura of a shit-stirring person, and he is always the one who can most energize the atmosphere in group activities. Among the people on the island, Tao Yu talks more with him.

Adrian handed him a can of beer, and the two sat down on the beach, looking at the dark sea in the distance.

"Mind if Iaska personal question?" Adrian asked suddenly. (Translation: Mind if I ask a personal question?)

Tao Yu didn't even think about it: "Yes." (Translation: Mind.)

"...youknowthere'sacomplexityhere.'Yes'canbe'YesImind.'Or'YesI'mwillingtoansweryourquestion.'" means "Yes, I would like to answer your question.")

"Are you gonna ask or not?" Tao Yu asked impatiently. (Translation: Do you want to ask?)

"Are you and Jason having troubles?"

Tao Yu raised the beer can but didn't drink it, and replied after a while: "No, just me." (No, just me.)

"Wannatalk?"

"Notsure what to tell you." He whispered, "Sometimes If you feel scared, but don't even know what exactly I'm scared of."

"Will it be better if Jason is with you?" (Translation: Does Chang Zheng feel better when he is with you?)

Tao Yu thought for a while: "Not really...Idon'twanthimtoworryforme.Hehashisownshit." (Translation: No... I don't want him to worry, he has his own things to worry about.)

"Come on. Youguys are in a real relationship, not just dating. You should tell him your true feelings." Adrian tried to explain. (Translation: You are in a serious relationship, not just dating, you should tell him how you really feel.)

Tao Yu was speechless, it's not that he didn't want to say it, but he really didn't know where to start.Sometimes an inexplicable irritability comes up, and it feels like nothing is right, like being surrounded by a hopeless circle, and I want to yell to vent.But intellectually, he understands that he has no reason to lose his temper. Ever since he was injured, Chang Zheng has been careful with him. This is another reason why he doesn't want the other party to worry, so he can only control himself and keep his emotions in his heart.

"You'redepRessed." Adrian looked at him, and his tone was serious. (Funny.itookantidePressantMedMedMEDIONSFORTWOYEARSWANIWASABOUTYORAGE. " Trust me, don't let it go, tell Chang Zheng or see a therapist. Depression is no fun, I was on antidepressants for [-] years when you were your age.)

"Youkidding?" Tao Yu looked sideways, "How could you possibly have depression?" (Translation: Are you kidding me? How could you possibly have depression?)

"Honey, it doesn't matter what type of person you are. Bad things can happen to everyone."

Returning to Maui means that the four-day experience life is over.Many people became good friends. Tao Yu watched Chang Zheng say goodbye to everyone, but he only left Adrian's phone number.

"Give me a call whenever you need to talk." Adrian hugged Tao Yu when they parted, and whispered in his ear. (Translation: If you want someone to talk to, just give me a call.)

Tao Yu nodded. After a few days of contact, he became friends with this stage actor who was 12 years older than him. Maybe it was because their lives were far apart, so they could chat together more.

According to Dr. Chang's plan, they will stay in Maui for two days, enjoying food, sunshine, and beaches.However, when Tao Yu checked his mailbox, he found an email from his mother, saying that he was going to Toronto to attend a conference and planned to stay in Chicago for a day, asking if he had time to meet.The email was sent two days ago, when there was no internet on the island, and it was tomorrow when Mom arrived in Chicago!

The leisure time of the last two days had to be cancelled. The two hurriedly changed their tickets and took the flight back home that night.

The next morning, Tao Yu went to the airport alone to pick up his mother who came from Beijing.

Tao's mother had already booked a place to stay before she left, and Tao Yu drove her to a hotel in the urban area.

"Mom, this place is very close to my house, do you want to go over and sit?" He whispered to his mother unwillingly.

Mother Tao looked at her son and asked, "You don't look very well, are you busy with school?"

"Maybe I was tired after going out to play a few days ago." Seeing that his mother refused to answer his words, Tao Yu changed the subject wisely, and talked about his experience on the uninhabited island of Hawaii. He did not mention Chang Zheng's name, but only said Go on a trip with friends.

Mother Tao knew in her heart who the "friend" referred to, but she didn't say anything.Tao Yu was frustrated by the conversation between the mother and son, who were afraid of touching the minefield. In the second half of the journey, he simply pretended to concentrate on driving and stopped talking.

After going through the check-in procedures at the hotel, Tao Yu carried the luggage and sent his mother into the room.While she was washing up in the bathroom, he flicked his phone in the room boredly.During the period, Chang Zheng called and asked if everything was going well.Tao Yu answered a few words, then hung up the phone when he heard the bathroom door open.

"At the end of the year, your aunt and I went to France and bought you some tops. Come and try them on." Mother Tao took out a bag from the luggage and handed it over.

Tao Yu took it over and looked at it. The color of the clothes was bolder and the brand was familiar, all of which he liked in the past.

"Thank you, Mom." He smiled, but didn't intend to open it.

"Don't you want to try it?" Mother Tao picked up the clothes on his body, "You are wearing too dark now, where is the vitality of youth."

"Chicago is so cold, what vitality do you need after hibernating? The vitality will come when spring begins." Tao Yu said, still not wanting to disappoint his mother, he took out a shirt and went to the bathroom to change.

"What are you hiding in front of Mom?" Mother Tao said, "Just change it here, and let me see if it fits."

Tao Yu was afraid that his mother would see the injury on his back, so he could only face her, peeled off the three inner and outer layers, shook off the new shirt and put it on his body.Mother Tao's eyes were originally focused on her son, but she inadvertently glanced behind him. There was a mirror on the wall. Tao Yu didn't notice it, and Mother Tao's face immediately changed.

"What's going on behind your back?" She grabbed her son's arm and told him to turn around.

Tao Yu's shirt was half worn and he froze in place. His mother had already turned behind him, and he subconsciously reached out to cover the wound.

Mother Tao stared at the scar in disbelief, touched it cautiously, and there was a crying sound in her voice when she spoke again: "How did you do this? You were stabbed?!"

You should know sooner or later, Tao Yu sighed and persuaded his mother, "Don't cry, everything will be fine, it's fine."

"How did you get hurt?" Mother Tao insisted.

Tao Yu had no choice but to move out of what he told Mary before, and was hit by a stray bullet on the street when he came home late.

"Why didn't you tell the family about such a big thing?! If you die here, will your parents still be kept secret!" Mother Tao thought that her son who had been raised so hard almost disappeared without a sound, and almost collapsed. Watching Tao Yu not let go, he cried, "I won't read this book anymore! Go back to China with me, I won't be able to rest assured even if you're here for a day!"

Tao Yu helped his mother onto the sofa, and persuaded him, "Mom, this is a small probability event. I was unlucky enough to catch up. It won't happen again..."

"Who can guarantee that it won't happen again? Anyone here can have a gun. How do you know that no one will run into the street and shoot randomly again!"

Tao Yu found that the cause and effect he had made up were not very good, making his mother think that the streets of the United States were full of lunatics who killed people with guns, but to be honest, he couldn't explain why he was so black without pulling Chang Zheng's brother out. God ran to such a dangerous place.Scratching his hair, he felt his anxiety escalating little by little, and barely maintained his patience and said: "There are so many people in this country, and no one dares to go to work and school because they can legally buy guns here. Besides Can other places be safe? There are also people who took knives to the streets and stabbed people. My school is doing well. Do you and my dad think that one day I will be able to study for a doctorate? You are willing to let me drop out of school. ?”

"Without this degree, you can live just as well in China..." Mother Tao cried, "You lost your good job by yourself, and you came here to suffer! I raised you so much, and I didn't make you suffer a little bit. Just to let you go to another country to eat guns?!"

Tao Yu squatted in front of his mother. He could understand her mood, but he couldn't interrupt his studies because of this incident.What can I do back home?Let the family arrange a job again?What's more, what will Chang Zheng do when he returns to the country?

"Mom, I can't go back, I have my life here."

"Your life? If you are dead, what life are you talking about!"

He took a deep breath and tried to say in a calm tone: "I know you don't want to mention Chang Zheng, but there is no way, he is a part of my life, and I can't get around it. He proposed to me at Christmas, and I agreed. You may I find it ridiculous, what are the two men talking about getting married, and where to get married? That's another question, but the proposal shows his attitude, I can't just throw him here and go back to China."

Mother Tao raised her head to look at him and asked, "For him, your parents don't want you anymore?"

Tao Yu felt sad, and he had always wanted to ask his parents this question: "Without Chang Zheng, the family conflicts would be resolved? What is the problem that Dad refuses to see me and you don't want to talk about? Can we stop kidding ourselves? "

The next morning, Tao Yu sent his mother away early in the morning. Tao Yu was physically and mentally exhausted. Things didn't make any progress, and everything went back to the original point.

Back home, Chang Zheng had already gone to work.He sat alone in the living room, looking for someone to talk to. He searched through the contacts on his mobile phone, but he couldn't find anyone to talk to. Even Liu Jingyang, who grew up together, didn't know many things because he was too far away. , and not talking as much as before.

After looking at Adrian's name for a while, Tao Yu finally didn't press the call and put the phone aside.

After a while, he took out his medical insurance card from his wallet, logged on to the website, entered psychiatrist in the column to search for doctors by category, and pressed Enter.