your name is so tricky

After getting off the plane, I returned to my own city.In fact, in just one week, the city where he has lived for more than 20 years seems to have changed again. It seems that there are more cars and narrower roads, and more people and the streets are noisier.The high-rise buildings under construction seem to burst out of the ground, wishing to go straight to the sky, they are more arrogant than the people in this city, anyone who walks by will raise their necks and look at them fiercely.At this time, the streets and alleys of the old city of Yumen appeared in Mr. Ao's mind again. Even though it could not get rid of the word "abandoned city", in the noisy and chaotic contemporary era, it is more like a reed in autumn and winter, elegant and elegant. Standing silently in this reinforced concrete forest.

When I got home, the phone rang before I could wash off the dust all over my body.Seeing that it was Qi Ji's call, Mr. Ao frowned and ignored him. He took off all his clothes and went to take a shower.Zhao Meng's May [-]st holiday is not over yet, so he picked up one of his sons and brought her back with him. When he entered the door, he saw her sitting on the balcony and feeding her baby with a bottle. When he saw Mr. Ao coming in, he just said: "You're back! ?” It sounds like he just went to the supermarket instead of being away for a week.

The more indifferent Zhao Meng is to him, the more relaxed he is, because only in this way, Zhao Meng can suffer less harm when they are separated, and the guilt in his heart can also be alleviated.He regretted it at the beginning, and he also knows what marriage means to a woman. Although he is not a saint, he can't hurt an innocent person indifferently.

When he came out of the bath, the child had finished drinking the milk and was sleeping soundly in his mother's arms with his eyes closed.The setting sun penetrated the glass, and the face of the baby in Zhao Meng's arms was flushed red, with a small mouth and a small nose, and the cute sleeping god made him want to hug him a little bit.Mr. Ao felt that it had been a long time since he had seen the child seriously and hugged the child.Not only was he an incompetent husband, but he was also an incompetent father.But even if he is being condemned by his conscience at this moment, his mind is still full of Hao Fang.At this moment, he should be walking on the road into the mountain, his thin back is like a lone wild goose flying in the air.Thinking of this, a plate of stone mill rolled across his chest, crushing him until he was a little breathless.

I called Qi Ji back, and he had nothing to do, just half a greeting and half a complaint, asking Mr. Ao when he would be free to come out to get together, and now he is single, He Yu dumped him.

Although the words were tactful, the meaning was nothing more than the fact that Mr. Ao had given him the breakup with He Yu.If it weren't for the phone call that night, He Yu would have quarreled with him more than friends, and broke up with him when he got angry, and he couldn't come back no matter how hard he coaxed him.Of course, Mr. Ao knew it well, but he didn't intend to take responsibility for this matter, so he said in a half-consolation and half-sarcasm tone: "You can still hang yourself on a tree? Why bother, learner Tang Shiyang, free and easy point."

If you don't mention Tang Shiyang, Qi Jixing probably doesn't have much to say. Mr. Ao is falling in love and ignores his classmates.Tang Shiyang's current situation is not much better than theirs, that's what the so-called brothers in distress are like.They are three high school roommates and brothers for many years. Qi Ji has just been dumped.

I have to blame Mr. Ao for this matter, if he hadn't pushed Song Yan in front of Tang Shiyang that day, that medical ruffian would not have become what he is today.Of course Qi Ji also knew who the middleman was, but he didn't know what kind of heart the middleman had in order to lead this line, so he said: "You tried to match them with good intentions, but it's been more than a year. The two of them are still so unclear. It’s not my turn to worry about them, and it’s definitely not my business, but I can’t see the seriousness of Tang Shi. It's done comprehensively, except that it is serious to keep chastity in front of us, but when it comes to Song Yan, it's still tough, how it is on weekdays, how it is now. You say it's funny or not, he Tang Shiyang is also embarrassing Speaking of the word chastity, the chastity of the Chinese nation for 5000 years has been defeated by him, and now he brings up chastity."

After hearing this passage, Mr. Ao was a little confused. It stands to reason that Tang Shiyang should be serious in front of Song Yan, and he should do what he should do in front of them. Why is it the other way around? Is he trying to make Song Yan feel so serious? Got it or don't want to get Song Yan?Mr. Ao said, "Then tell me why he is so serious."

Qi Ji cleared his throat, as if he was preparing for the long speech below, he said: "Tell me about when we were in high school, there were four people in a room, and only Song Tao and I were more devoted, you and Tang Shiyang, tsk Tsk tsk, I don't even want to mention that you can hook up three of the four girls in the bar counter after spending a week in the Internet cafe. You participated in an Olympic competition and threw ambiguous notes with the female classmate at the next table and almost got kicked out of the exam room. No matter the occasion..." Hearing this, Mr. Ao couldn't help but sneered, but didn't interrupt him.

"Not to mention Tang Shiyang, who came out of the closet in high school, and even the Chinese teacher who just took office will not let go. As long as he sees the right person, no matter what the other person is, he will not let go. I think it is time for retribution. Touched To a person who can’t let go of his mouth and can’t eat, speaking of Song Yan, he looks like an ordinary person, and he is not as delicious as your family’s Hao Fang, I really don’t know..." When Hao Fang was mentioned, He couldn't bear it anymore, and yelled into the phone: "You dare to give him an idea, I'm so impatient."

Qi Ji gave him a supercilious look across the phone, and replied: "I just said something, the relationship between Hao Fang and Hao Fang is good, so you don't want to let people tell you, you should find someone who is not good enough, That way others won't miss it." What you said is true, but if you change someone, let alone a bad guy, no matter how good-looking he is, as long as that person isn't Hao Fang, it's useless to say anything.

At this time, Zhao Meng came over and knocked on the door of his study room, telling him to keep his voice down, the child should be woken up later.Mr. Ao responded, and hung up the phone because he didn't bother to chat with Qi Ji anymore.

At night, Mr. Ao sat in the study in the middle of the night. In the next room, Zhao Meng and the child were already asleep.As usual, he planned to continue sleeping on the sofa in the study.The sofa is foldable, and when it is rolled out, it becomes a bed. As soon as I lie down, I feel that there is something missing beside me.Thinking of the past week, he has been sleeping with Hao Fang, and at night, either his arm is pillowed, or his hand is on Hao Fang's waist.I always felt that something was missing in my hand, so I got up to get the plush doll on the bay window that no one cared about all the time, held it in my hand, and slept on my side, and it felt better at this time.

He sent a text message to Hao Fang with his mobile phone, knowing that he could not receive it now, but he just couldn't help but want to send it.It is not difficult to say "I miss you so much", but every time I type it out in pinyin, my heart trembles. This feeling is the most comforting torture in the dark night.Still holding the news that Hao Fang could come back in his heart, he was reluctant to leave the phone, turned it to vibration mode and held it tightly.

I thought I could fall asleep in anticipation, but although my eyes were closed, the eyeballs kept moving restlessly with my mood.Mr. Ao turned on his phone again to make sure that his phone was in vibrate mode, but there was no new message displayed, and the time just jumped to two o'clock.He got up and got out of bed, holding the doll in his hands, took out a cigarette from his jacket pocket, and opened the door to the balcony.

A potted plant with blue flowers was blooming under the balcony, and Hao Fang might not be able to come back after all its flowers withered.This spring has just begun, and Mr. Ao is already looking forward to summer.

He finally returned to his post. As for his voluntary renewal of leave without prior notice, Datang said that he would deduct all his bonuses for this quarter, and gave him half an hour of oral education.From the beginning to the end, Mr. Ao just silently lowered his head and let him talk, and he was also indifferent to deducting the bonus.After the whole day, he worked extremely hard, and he only took a few casual bites for lunch. He was also working during lunch breaks, and he was also working when others were drinking afternoon tea.Datang walked past him occasionally, and he could always hear his sighs.After returning to the office, the penalty of deducting his bonus was cancelled, and some reflections were made on whether he had spoken too harshly.

Three months, only one quarter, only three salary payments, only twelve weeks, Mr. Ao often comforts himself like this.The brand-new desk calendar on the table is finally useful. Since he came back, it is the most enjoyable thing to circle a day after a day, and turn the page after a month. It feels like crossing a century.Having said that, Mr. Ao still feels that time has stopped at the most ambiguous crossroads. Opposite him is the person he wants to see, but there is a road passing by vehicles in the middle. At this time, the red light is on, and he can only be patient. wait.

What about when Hao Fang comes back?The unavoidable question still lies between the two.For men, status may not be as important as for women, after all, China's marriage law does not yet recognize same-sex unions.But he is a married man and has two sons. Even if Hao Fang doesn't try to be jealous, he can't just spend his whole life with Hao Fang in ignorance. It's unfair to Hao Fang up.

Every time he thinks of these things, Mr. Ao will fall into a bottomless pit of regret and self-blame.Just when he was hesitating whether to ask for a divorce, Zhao Meng made a move first.