Continuation of "Gone with the Wind"

Chapter [-] Unpleasant Memories

Lanli hesitated.Like the ladies in the southern norms, she doesn't know and doesn't want to understand politics, but now she is driven by an emotion that she doesn't know about to understand this matter. She doesn't know what's wrong with herself, she just hesitates Say, "That—I, I, I just..."

Dison didn't rush, just quietly waited for her next words, and smiled at her gently.

"I, I have something to ask you, you have to tell me the truth." Lan Li hesitated, but she still said it, probably encouraged by Disen's smile. "Tell me, what's the name of this banquet?" She wasn't sure if she had expressed what she meant, but Disen understood—from her worried expression.

"It's all about building a relationship with the governor and rescuing Mr. Butler." He said it easily, but it didn't convince Lan Li.

"What else?" Lan Li was not at all satisfied with his evasive answer.

"The rest are not worth mentioning." Deason waved his hand indifferently, "Anyway, I will be transferred back to my hometown next year, and even if something happens, I won't clean up the mess."

"Then you have to mention it to me!" Lan Li just couldn't understand his cynical look, and her tone became not gentle again.She suddenly understood that what she had been unable to accept was that he didn't seem to care about anything.The dislike she has always felt towards Deason is nothing but an imbalance, because he is completely different from herself. She does everything with her heart, and often feels that she is not doing enough and panics, but what about him? , I've never seen him make any real intentional actions, but he just has the ability to handle everything well - of course, excluding the matter of his ex-husband.She was a little confused, what was her feeling for him, was it resentment or jealousy?

"Well, if you don't think my narration is boring." Disson raised his hand in surrender, motioned for her to sit down, and then sat down himself, just a short distance away from her, neither It will make people feel ambiguous because they are too close, but they will not have to shout because they are too far away.

"This matter is a gamble for Mrs. Butler, and for me too. We all want to recover the most important thing we have lost." Lan Li felt something was wrong when she heard the opening sentence of the first sentence, but looked at Disson's normal expression, she did not leave without shaking her hand, but chose to continue listening.

"What we want to achieve with this matter has nothing to do with politics. Scarlett is for her husband, and I am for you." Hearing this, Lanli already knew what his so-called "dry narrative" was about, she She should have turned her head and left without listening to his sweet words, but she stayed because the contrast between Disson's calm expression and tone and the content of his words created a wonderful atmosphere, making people feel that he didn't care what he said at this moment. It is serious, it is worth listening to, and it is also worthy of respect.Conscientious people have a quality that makes them want to be close because they make other people feel at ease.

"I admit that I came back in such a mess just now to try to please you, but in the end it still failed." When talking about this, Disen smiled wryly, "You see, I am a person who can't please you, man Women are the same, big and small are the same. Before I met you, I was a lonely person, my parents died, I had no one to talk to except Kevin and my uncle and aunt, I was not popular at school, graduated from college After that, I went straight to West Point. Anyway, I said that I didn't know Rhett at all and it was not true. After all, I had heard his name--when I first entered the school, there were rumors that he was expelled for indiscipline. It’s been many years. After all, although West Point is a famous concentration camp for devils, it’s not so easy to accumulatively receive [-] punishments within three months.” He wanted to liven up the atmosphere, but Lan Li couldn’t laugh at this joke: she didn’t either I have met Rhett many times, but the Mr. Butler she knows is a gentleman who donates money. He is willing to lend her money to help her repair the tombstones of the fallen soldiers of his family without any guarantee, and he is willing to lend her money without interest. The capital of the jewelry business, and she remembered how much he liked Angela.People who like children can't be bad, this is what she has always believed - but for Dieson, this law automatically fails.

Seeing his failure to laugh, Disen had no choice but to correct the topic and continue: "Actually, I lived a relatively comfortable life in West Point. Although the training was very hard, I also met many friends from all over the country. I was much more cheerful. Only a few years later, the war started, and our group of newly graduated recruits were selected to join the army. Later, they all became cannon fodder except me, and now we don’t know who was buried in the south Under which piece of land, I can't help their families transport the remains back to their hometown." Disson's eyes became sad when he said this, but his tone was still gentle.His narration was indeed not "vivid" enough, without adding the emotional exaggeration that Lanli was used to hearing from veterans in the south when they talked about the battle, but she really felt the existence of that sadness. "This should be the first time I've told you about it—no, actually I haven't told anyone else, not even Kevin."

"Later, I was transferred to General Sherman's army. Coincidentally, Kevin was also in it, the doctor accompanying the army. He always advised me to let go of my friend's death first, and not to be so pessimistic. After all, 'the war will end soon'. This It's something he's been holding on to since he was drafted, 'It's over with us,' he told me at the time."

A shadow flashed in Lanli's mind: Sherman ignored the life and death of the common people and pleaded for the atrocities of setting fire to Atlanta. Even the three-year-old children in the south knew about it, and it became the only way for young mothers to discipline them. I also frightened Angela with "children who don't sleep will be captured by Sherman" when she refused to sleep well.The meaning of Kevin's words was quite different after being relayed by Deason. The northern style of optimism became contempt for the southern spirit to her.As he himself said, Deason is not pleasing to the eye. It can be said that he is a typical example of which pot is not opened and which pot is lifted.She originally wanted to laugh at Di Sen in her heart to retaliate against his provocation just now, but she knew how difficult it is for a man to speak his mind, especially to a woman (she knew what it meant, so she was more concerned at this time. at a loss).The last thing they can express when they open their hearts is to ignore and sneer, which is tantamount to a sentence of sincerity and dignity to a man—not a death sentence, but a crueler life sentence.She has always disdained and does not need to pretend her expression in front of Disson, so this kind of hatred, which is not strong even if it is overturned, is intertwined with her inherent infinite caring psychology for others, which is naturally reflected on her face. Sen also saw it.

"However, in front of my eyes, facing so many fresh corpses, they were still living people one second, and turned into a bloody mass in the next second. Whether it is an enemy or a comrade-in-arms, I am really shocked." I doubt whether the war can end. No matter how close a person is to me, it becomes a joke to say such things in my ear, no matter how many times. Until later, I met you." He looked away and looked at himself Speaking her own words calmly, Lan Li's heart was once again turbulent.

"On the battlefield, when a person sees too much death, his heart will gradually become numb. A person becomes a machine. He goes to kill his own kind. If he doesn't kill them, he will be killed by them. In order to survive, he has to not Treating the same kind as the same kind, not killing each other but fighting for justice, so killing such a daily crime has become common. But when there is no war in the dead of night, I keep thinking, what is the war for? Woke up?" Deason bypassed her again and started talking about the war.She was not interested in this kind of fighting and killing that had passed, but she didn't leave because she didn't understand why: no one told her when she was in the south, several family death notices and a broken Her home made her hate war to death; she didn't understand it when she was in the north, and the difficult accent and victor's attitude of the northerners made her too lazy to listen to their spittle; when she returned to the south, she was already a human being. No, her countrymen had forgotten why--perhaps they never remembered, only their failed efforts for the Confederacy, and the excitement became beyond her comprehension; and now, she was back in the North, quietly Set your mind to it, and listen to a person she is most familiar with but also the most unfamiliar tell her this question that she has not understood after thinking about it for more than ten years.She wanted to know it, only to never meet it again.

"It was your gentlemen who started this war, but we here in the North have plenty of equally fanatical orators. The politicians are a bunch of well-dressed liars, but there are smart people among them. War and Mr. Lincoln is all right, emancipating niggers is not what he intended as a politician. Although as a person, his noble personality makes him unable to tolerate such backward ways of obtaining freedom in the land of the free. Southern gentlemen are free, The so-called freedom based on the unfreedom of 3000 million black slaves is inherently unfree and destined to last forever. Because freedom itself is not maintained by depriving others of their freedom." Lan Li thinks He now looks like a "brightly dressed liar" who is inciting voters, although she also admits that Deason's words are right. Make peace, but what the life of the slaves was like before the war started, the decent people in the South can see it, and it is even more obvious how it has become after the war.