when you stare into the abyss

The closed space was filled with more air due to the sudden opening of the door, but it was far from enough for Nie Zhiyan.She felt the breath of death flowing in the bus, her breath filled with fear, visible like dust, smell like natto, palpable like damp.

The fingertips gripping the back of the seat sank deeply, and the arms trembled uncontrollably, hoping that he could move forward, but he dared not take a step for a long time.

Although no body was seen, it was known what had happened.

"Aunt Yan." Wan Tong observed the changes in the woman's emotions, as if in an instant, the blood on the other's face faded away, turning as pale as a piece of white paper, which became more obvious when she approached.

It turned out that during Wan Tong's two steps away, Nie Zhiyan's eyes just fell on the twisted face of the deceased, her eyeballs were bulging, and her last struggle was projected in the bloodshot eyes.

"It's terrible. She kept making weird roars in the car, her body twitched, her expression was quite painful, the passenger in the front seat took a video on her mobile phone, and..." the driver standing by the door suddenly said, Wan Tong's peripheral vision Seeing Nie Zhiyan close her eyes in pain, she put her index finger next to her mouth to signal the man to stop talking.

The driver kept silent, thinking that there was nothing wrong with him in the car, so he took out a Yuxi and went to find a place to smoke.

As soon as he left, Wan Tong nervously stretched out his hand to grab Nie Zhiyan's wrist, pulling a little force towards the door, and said urgently, "Aunt Yan, let's get out of the car."

The woman tried her best to adjust her breathing, and loosened a button on her neckline. The exposed collarbone was soaked in fine cold sweat, and she managed to piece together a sentence from the fragmented words: "I, I want to try."

The reddened eyes cautiously opened again, and her feet moved like lead. Nie Zhilan looked back at her with worry written all over her face.

The torment and pain of that year are vivid, but it seems that only the body has recovered, but neither sister has been able to touch the psychological damage.

For eight years, that scar was still there, declaring war on them constantly, and I couldn't hide it even if I wanted to...

It's time to face...

Nie Zhilan understood her consideration, stepped back a little distance, and made room for the forensic investigation scene, looked at her, and approached her little by little.

Wan Tong stared at her body, which was not as tall and straight as usual, but wanted to break through forcefully, feeling like a knife was twisting her heart.

I really want to tell her that I am behind you, a place I can rely on at any time.

Nie Zhiyan had already stopped in front of the corpse, thinking that she would squat down in a second.However, in just an instant, she turned around in embarrassment and bumped into Wan Tong's chest.Due to inertia, the two of them almost lost their balance. Wan Tong reflexively grabbed her shoulders, hugged her into his arms, and put his right hand against the seat beside him.

One second, two seconds, ten seconds passed...

Feeling the urgent and unprecedented breath of fear from the person in her arms, a soreness suddenly gushed out of her cramped chest. What happened to her in the past?

"I'm sorry." The murmur whispered into the ear, and the woman stood up straight with the armrest of the seat.Wan Tong gritted his teeth uncomfortably when he heard this, and buried the pain in his heart: "It's okay, let's get out of the car."

They returned to Nie Zhilan's car. Not long after, the traffic police department arrived first, followed by the criminal investigation team of the Xuzhou County Public Security Bureau.After completing the formalities, the case was handed over to the Anti-drug Detachment of Binnan City.

Adding Jia Yan, this is the fifth recent death due to drug overdose. The entire anti-drug detachment, as well as the criminal investigation detachment downstairs, are in panic.

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The noon meal was canceled immediately, Xiao Bei complained a few words at first, then he heard that Nie Zhiyan was unwell, he was more concerned, and told Nie Zhilan that if she felt unwell again, she had to be sent to the hospital.

From getting in the car to returning home for more than an hour, Nie Zhiyan didn't say a word, Wan Tong was anxious and worried, but he couldn't do anything. Auntie, my mobile phone is on 24 hours a day, if you need help, just say it."

Having said that, the two of them would not bother her as a junior, Wan Tong knew this well, and when he turned around, a helpless wry smile hung on the corner of his lips.

This feeling is really bad...

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In the middle of the night, the person who secretly took sleeping pills behind Nie Zhilan's back tossed around half the night before falling into a dream.

A colorful picture, Nie Zhifeng took the two sisters on a snowy night with wrapped dumplings on New Year's Eve.In the duty room of the hospital, a family of four was finally reunited, laughter echoed freely, but before the corners of the mouth could rise, the mottled colors of the cold dusk disappeared, leaving only darkness.There was a wet, sticky beast-like stench in the cold night air. The woman opened her eyes, and beside her were six or seven people who were also tied up like her.

"Go in one by one, and let you go when you come out." The man yelled, his fierce appearance engraved in his mind.

Some of the people who went in before were sent back, foaming at the mouth and struggling to persevere; some failed to persevere and died in a corner;

"It's your turn." His arm hurts from being pulled.

"let me go!"

Nie Zhilan was worried, she stayed in the living room, and in the middle of the night, while she was asleep, she pushed open the door of the bedroom, leaving a gap. Two minutes ago, I heard a low voice in the room, helpless and desperate.She hurriedly got off the sofa and ran to Nie Zhiyan's room barefoot.

"Ayan, Ahyan, sister, wake up." The roar in her ear pulled her out of the door, the light came again, and her powerless body was embraced by someone, familiar, familiar, and safe.

With cold sweat and irregular heartbeat, he squinted his eyes with difficulty, and the warm yellow light and anxious expression came into view.

"Sister." Nie Zhiyan tightly hugged the waist of the person in front of him, crying like a life-saving straw, "I'm so useless."

"Who said that Ah Yan has been the pride of her sister since she was a child. We are not afraid. Let's take our time. If it doesn't work once, we will try again next time. If it doesn't work next time, we will do it again. One day we will be able to."

This is the second time that Nie Zhiyan has thrown herself into Nie Zhilan's arms and wept unreservedly. She used to be like a hedgehog, she hid herself too deeply, she didn't want to trouble others, even her own sister, she kept a little distance, and didn't stab each other. .

"I don't want to worry you all the time."

"I know, then tell me everything, don't hold it in your heart"

Nie Zhiyan nodded silently, stared blankly at the ceiling above, and gradually calmed down, before speaking leisurely after a while: "Sister, I want to see a psychiatrist."

During a one-month business trip, Nie Zhiyan applied for another day off and made an appointment with a professor of psychology at Binnan University. When she was studying, she met the professor a few times, and the professor also heard about her.

On Monday morning, in the psychological counseling room of Binnan University, the female professor talked with her for several hours. As she expected, the most important thing was to face it.

If you want to get out of the predicament, you must face the difficulties, come over regularly for psychological counseling, and take medicine on time.

Also, be prepared, you might not be able to get out of it for the rest of your life...

In the afternoon, he went to work as usual, but Lu Dongdong felt that his boss was a little cooler than before, and he could express it in two words, but he would never say the third word.

At three o'clock in the afternoon, after the meeting, Nie Zhiyan needed to review the body of a deceased person. She entered the dressing room, took off her shoes and coat, and stored them in a dark cabinet.Put on a disposable dissecting suit, put on a mask and gloves, and step into the aseptically treated epoxy brown vinyl antiseptic floor of the dissecting room.

Lv Dongdong stated the process of the first autopsy and the identification report. She listened carefully, and occasionally observed with her body, or lifted the limbs and head of the deceased.

"Injured 3 centimeters below the right brain? Direct trauma or?" The woman asked, stroking the exposed wound on the deceased's head with her thumb.

Lu Dongdong responded in a panic: "It's a direct trauma. It should be the corner of the desk, but it's not the fatal cause."

"Come here and touch it again." Nie Zhiyan stepped aside, and Lu Dongdong stepped forward.

"Does the wound bulge?"

"No."

"What kind of injury is that?"

"The blunt injury caused brain congestion, so it was also the cause of his death?" Lu Dongdong asked in disbelief, his eyes widened suddenly.

Nie Zhiyan responded coldly: "Our forensic doctor wrote a wrong report, which may disrupt the reconstruction of the crime scene." Without asking the other party to explain, she took off her mask and gloves, and walked out of the autopsy room without looking back.

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For two days, Wan Tong didn't say a word to her for two days, and the WeChat messages she sent also fell into the sea. She didn't receive a sentence until noon: "It's okay, I'm in treatment, don't worry."

How can she not be worried, she who has always slept well in the past two days has actually suffered from insomnia and did not fall asleep until the middle of the night.In the afternoon, after finishing her work, she clocked off work in 15 minutes and slipped to the forensic identification center.Outside the examination room, I asked my colleagues that the woman was in the anatomy room on the third floor.She hurried to the third floor again, but in the anatomy room, only Lu Dongdong was recording and packing up tools.

"Looking for the boss?" Lu Dongdong glanced at her from the corner of his eye.

"Ah."

"Boss just left this room 5 minutes ago, and he is not in a good mood."

"Okay, thank you, Brother Dong."

Just as Wan Tong was about to let go of her pace and run, the person in front of the anatomy table stopped her: "I didn't see anyone in the locker room, you can go to the rooftop on the top floor to have a look."

"what?"

"When the boss is in a bad mood, he will go to the rooftop."

Wan Tong found the woman on the rooftop of the Forensic Medicine Center. She was leaning on the railing, holding a bottle of mineral water in her hand, and staring into the distance.

The clouds in the setting sun are dyed with intoxicating orange red, from far to near, layer by layer.She looked at Nie Zhiyan's lonely back under the sky, and couldn't help approaching him step by step.

The people around him also seemed to be aware of her presence, they closed their eyes, turned their gaze away, and turned their heads to look at Wan Tong, who was smiling lightly.

"Aunt Yan, please eat ice cream."

The author has something to say: The power of love is great, but mental illness still needs the guidance of professional doctors, and the assistance of other factors.Some mental illnesses cannot be cured for a lifetime, while others can recover slowly.

感谢在2020-04-1721:00:05~2020-04-1821:31:50期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: Ruoyi and Lanyan 1;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: 2 pieces of Bingxin; 1231 piece for Mu Chenyan, HSQ1, Zhe, Changan., Muzi;

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: 10 bottles of uncle in pants; 2 bottles of Gone with the Wind; don't take it too seriously 1 bottle;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!