What should I do if I am disqualified in the adult room?

who are you?

Satomi's words were like a thunderbolt, causing Dazai Osamu to stand there stiffly, not knowing how to answer Satomi's question for a while.

During the six months when Satomi fell into a deep sleep, he thought a lot.He thought about all the situations that would happen after Satomi woke up, and also thought about how to appease his injured ability. Even the worst possible outcome, Osamu Dazai was prepared and planned to deal with it.However, the only thing he didn't expect was that Satomi would forget him after waking up from a deep sleep.

That was his disqualification in the world!

His abilities, his half body... how could he forget him!

Osamu Dazai stared at Satomi Sato who also looked at him with scrutiny, trying to find even the slightest trace of lying from him.

but……

The alienation and indifference towards him exuded from Satomi's body, but there is no trace of falsehood at all.

He really doesn't remember him...

His disqualification in the world really forgot him...

Osamu Dazai struggled to move the corners of his mouth, but he still did not give up in his heart and asked: "Mi...today is not April Fool's Day, your joke is not funny."

"I'm not kidding you."

However, Satomi's next words completely broke the last trace of luck in Dazai Osamu's heart.

"Excuse me, do we know each other? My mind is blank now, and I can't think of anything."

Satomi's words were like a cruel big hand, completely pushing Osamu Dazai into the cruel abyss of reality.Osamu Dazai only felt cold all over his body now, as if he had fallen into an ice hole. The coldness spread from the bottom of his heart to his whole body, and even his soul was almost frozen.

"Then what do you remember?"

Osamu Dazai's Adam's apple rolled up and down, and he asked with difficulty.

Even now, he has to accept this cruel reality... His disqualification in the world is because he has really forgotten him.

"lose."

Osamu Dazai closed the door with his backhand, didn't bother to change his shoes, and walked directly to Satomi standing in the middle of the living room.

"What do you remember?"

Osamu Dazai repeated what he said just now, and then stopped just one step away from Satomi.

"I……"

Satomi frowned and thought for a long time, and finally shook his head at Osamu Dazai.

"Can not remember."

He doesn't remember anything.

Whether it is Osamu Dazai who is standing in front of him now, or himself, Satomi doesn't have any relevant memories in his mind.However, his heart was surprisingly peaceful, as if whether he could remember these memories was not important to him at all.

"All right……"

Osamu Dazai closed his eyes and let out a long breath.

"I see."

I don't remember anything...

Osamu Dazai slowly tightened his hand hanging by his side, as if he was thinking about something important.

Satomi lost nothing now, including the fact that he was his ability... In other words, he forgot all the bad things that would affect him, and became a "vegetable card" that was not polluted by any color. color" white paper.

Osamu Dazai opened his eyes again, and looked at Satomi in front of him.

Those crimson eyes were just like when they first met, revealing the ignorance and clarity of not caring about the world.This is a piece of white paper that has lost all its colors, and he can shape it into any shape he wants...

"Then let's get to know each other again—"

Osamu Dazai slowly released his right hand that was tightly clenched by his side, and then lifted it upwards, as if he was about to touch Rimi's cheek.

"Execute me, Dazai..."

"Please, please execute me..."

The broken and desperate cry seemed to be still echoing in his ears, and Dazai pursed his lips, but in the end he didn't caress Satoshi's cheek as he wanted to do in his heart.Instead, when he raised his right hand halfway, he put it down again.

"My name is Dazai."

"Osamu Dazai."

Osamu Dazai introduced himself to Satomi in a bright tone.

Satomi Sato nodded, not paying attention to Osamu Dazai's inexplicable behavior just now.

He hesitated for a moment, but still didn't hold back, and asked, "What about me?"

"You should know me, right?"

Osamu Dazai nodded with a smile, and replied, "Of course."

"Not only did we know each other, but we were very familiar."

"Your name is Dazai Suki. It's mine..."

Speaking of this, Osamu Dazai suddenly stopped for a moment.

Satomi lost all memory of the past now.He forgot that he is actually the incarnation of his superhuman disqualification, that is to say... the current Satomi body no longer has the obedience to him that almost annihilates humanity.

He is blank, now is the closest and most likely time to become a real person.He can really start over and have a new life without pain...

"It's different, Dazai. 』

"Every time I fish you out of the river today, the look in your eyes is different from any time before. 』

Osamu Dazai opened his mouth, and the words he originally planned to say suddenly got stuck in his throat and he couldn't say it anyway.

"I have no intention of rejecting you! 』

"Gifts and so on... I can give you anything you want. 』

"you are mine……"

Osamu Dazai discovered for the first time that it was so difficult to say something against his will.

He thought he could easily say those two words.But it wasn't until this moment came that Osamu Dazai realized that he was not as selfless as he imagined.

The throbbing heart and the throat that seemed to be blocked by something were all preventing him from saying those two words.

can not say……

Because once he opened his mouth and uttered those two words, it was equivalent to blocking the road between him and Satomi with his own hands.

He can no longer wait for the feeling he was looking forward to to take root, and he will no longer be able to get the response he wants from Satomi's body...

There will always be an insurmountable gap between him and Satomi...

but--

"He said I was a good brother...but I, I...I don't even know his name..."

"say no more!Please...don't say it anymore...don't say it...』

Osamu Dazai couldn't help but clenched his hand hanging by his side into a fist, letting his nails dig deep into his palm, leaving a few deep half-moon scars.

"No--!stop it!Don't do anything like this again! !stop it! ! ! 』

"Whoa, don't do this... I'll live with you!"I choose to live with you...』

His loss was painful.

It was so painful that he even wanted to leave his side by sleeping.

He was miserable.

This soul, which has been badly injured by the malice of the world, is making its final struggle.

So...how could he let his most beloved lose his place in the world and fall into that kind of pain for his own selfish desire?

Osamu Dazai slowly let go of the clenched hand that was hanging down beside him, the corners of his mouth slightly raised.

The orange-red sunset shone into the room through the window, dyeing those iris eyes a moist light brown, just like Osamu Dazai's voice, soft and inconceivable.

"You are my brother~"

Osamu Dazai narrowed his eyes, and his Adam's apple slid up and down.Immediately afterwards, he smiled at Satomi in front of him with the same hearty smile as usual, as if he had exhausted all his strength.

"You are my brother, Dazai."