What should I do if I am disqualified in the adult room?

Why do people live, and what do they live for?

What is the value of life?

As the body continued to sink, Osamu Dazai thought of this question that had been bothering him.

In order to find the meaning of his life, he joined the port mafia.Because he was looking forward to something that would allow him to find a reason to live in this environment full of violence and death... It was like looking for hope in despair, Osamu Dazai longed to be able to find hope on the edge of death. the value of one's own life.

However, the closer he was to death, the more confused Dazai felt about the value of the act of 'survival'.

Since the end of all life is death, what is the reason for trying to live?

Osamu Dazai couldn't figure it out.

Even though he was walking on the brink of death again and again, he still couldn't find what he wanted in this world surrounded by blood and violence.There is only endless loneliness, like a shadow, like the sea water that wraps his body now, cold and dark.

So, it doesn't make any sense at all...

Feeling the cold seawater intruding into his lungs along his nasal cavity, Osamu Dazai suddenly wanted to laugh.

When the right calf had just jumped into the sea, it was knocked on the reef, probably fractured and unable to move.The internal organs squeezed by the seawater hurt as if they were about to tear apart, and they couldn't hold the air at all...

pain.

It hurts.

very painful.

Every part of his body was protesting against him, his heavy heartbeat was beating against his eardrums, the feeling of suffocation became more and more obvious, and even his consciousness inevitably became blurred.

This time, he might really be able to die...

Osamu Dazai looked at the halo on the sea surface that was getting farther and farther away from him, and thought in his heart.

No one will find him, and no one will come to rescue him.

He finally fell into the abyss of bone-chilling cold and loneliness, with no end and no hope in sight.

There is only endless darkness, like sea water engulfing him.

It's just... why can't you be happy at all?

Obviously he is about to fulfill his long-cherished wish, but why can't he be happy at all?

Osamu Dazai accidentally choked, and more sea water entered his trachea along his nasal cavity, burning his lungs.

But he still didn't make any movements to struggle for survival, he just let his body sink continuously.

The soul is constantly struggling under the skin, as if it wants to break free from the shackles of the body and blend into this deep blue.His thoughts collapsed, and darkness began to occupy Dazai Osamu's field of vision.

what……

In a blur of consciousness, his mind went blank, but Osamu Dazai suddenly understood why he couldn't feel happy at all.

Is it because I am somewhat unwilling?

The abyss under the sea is already full of darkness and loneliness, it would be too lonely to die in it like this.

But what can be done?

This frail body is already on the verge of limit, and everything will return to silence.No one will come to save him, and no one can save him, as he has walked alone for so many years.

Osamu Dazai struggled to gather his consciousness, staring at the sea above.

The afternoon sun flooded the entire sea without hesitation.Even under the water, Osamu Dazai could imagine the feeling of being irradiated by such sunlight.

Warm and bright.

It's a pity that such light will never belong to him.

Osamu Dazai slowly closed his eyes, feeling the peace of the last moment before drowning.

No breathing, no sharp pain in the lungs, only loneliness.

That's fine...

Bathed in sunshine, without pain.

However, even though he thought so in his heart, Osamu Dazai still stretched out his right hand involuntarily at the end towards the halo on the water surface that was getting farther and farther away from him.

Everything is quiet.

Suddenly, Osamu Dazai suddenly opened his eyes, and looked in front of him in disbelief——

right hand...

Got caught!