pen pal

10. Qingqing's reply came very quickly. At that time, postmen were still very diligent.

In Qingqing's reply letter, she seriously praised Zhou Ruxin for being "good", she is really a good boy who answers every question.As for the words of mutual encouragement in the second half of the letter, Qingqing did not choose to ignore them, but sincerely agreed and said, "Let's work hard together."

In the days that followed, Zhou Ruxin had this only pen pal.What did you say in the letter at the beginning?

Zhou Ruxin recalled carefully, but couldn't remember too much.

When I left the countryside to go to the provincial capital to go to university, those things that I thought were precious in my heart were naturally stored at home. The letters that Qingqing wrote to her during those two years were naturally stored in a small wooden cabinet at home. .

It's just that the world is unpredictable, her father passed away suddenly, Zhou Ruxin was in a daze like a puppet and let the elders of the clan arrange it, so many people came and went, and when the funeral was over and everything settled, Zhou Ruxin realized that her family had already been destroyed. So many people coming and going made a mess, and too many things were missing from the house inexplicably.

In the next few years, although there were occasional care from relatives and friends, the house would not collapse, but many objects in the house gradually disappeared inexplicably. clean up something.

It is impossible to put anything down in the university dormitory. At first, she just wrapped some of her father's documents and some letters and notes with her father's handwriting in a small cloth bag, and kept the rest with her. Put it in my hometown, so it was all lost.

Later, the hometown was favored by real estate predators, and the villagers who had been poor for many years were lured by the 10,000+ demolition compensation, and signed the demolition contract early.When Zhou Ruxin got the news and went back, she saw her hometown that was completely changed, and the small house that carried all her past had already disappeared in the sound of rumbling demolition machines.

Let it go, let it go, from now on, there is no hometown anymore, and everything in the past passes by like water without a trace.

After Zhou Ruxin received her own compensation for the demolition, she didn't return to her hometown where neither things nor people were there for a long time.It's just how many times I dreamed back at midnight, always the landscape in my memory, the person talking and laughing in my memory, when I woke up, I found that my face was full of tears.

Zhou Ruxin really hopes that there is a medicine for forgetting in the world, because she doesn't want to remember too much of the past.

After her father left, her uncle, who loved her since she was a child, accompanied her to the mountains to see Fengshui, and tried her best to choose a geomantic treasure for her father.Along the way, my uncle chatted lightly with Zhou Ruxin.

Ru Xin, I am naturally sad when your father is gone, but I have my own family, and I have my own children and elders to take care of.As for your other relatives, I believe they are all the same as me. We all have our own responsibilities.

Therefore, it must be you who will be sad for a long time.

Ru Xin, you have to learn to take good care of yourself.

When I was young, I read Tao Yuanming's poems: Relatives or Yu Bei, others have already sung, what is the point of death, and the body is on the same mountain.Truly a wise saying.

Zhou Ruxin understands everything, but no matter how many books we read and how many principles we understand, we cannot reduce the pain of losing our loved ones by half.

So long such a long time, but still unable to bury such deep and deep sadness.

Zhou Ruxin, who was sitting in front of the desk, pulled herself back to the past that she thought she had almost forgotten because of a few words from an almost complete stranger.

In the next two years, Zhou Ruxin and Qingqing wrote a letter a week on time, and took the role of pen pal seriously.

There is a little sorrow when I was young, but there is also some joy.It should be more about academic confusion or discussion. Qingqing's "working together" is not a joke.

The teachers in the No. [-] Middle School are much better than those in the No. [-] Middle School, so Zhou Ruxin is more often helping Qingqing to answer her doubts. However, Qingqing's Chinese level is obviously higher than that of Zhou Ruxin, so when Zhou Ruxin encounters a composition topic that is difficult to write, she will also help her. Will take the initiative to ask Qingqing for advice.

Qingqing's grades have been rising. When they first communicated with each other, Qingqing said that she was not at the middle level of the grade. Zhou Ruxin thought it was normal at the time, because Qingqing's thoughts were elsewhere.

Later, Qingqing, who focused on her studies, made more and more progress. When she finished her second year of high school and was preparing to divide subjects, Qingqing said that her grades could already rank among the top ten in her grade.

It's just that both of them knew that in a school like the No. [-] Middle School, even the top ten in the grade could hardly secure a place for an undergraduate degree, so Qingqing never had the intention of relaxing in front of Zhou Ruxin.

Recalling her memories, Zhou Ruxin remembered that Qingqing chose liberal arts at the beginning, but she herself chose science.Qingqing chose the liberal arts because her Chinese ranks first in her grade, and the science has a lot of experience in the past year.

The intermittent help has also improved significantly.

Zhou Ruxin chose science but not because she likes science.

Zhou Ruxin is a student who is well-balanced in all subjects. If she takes the liberal arts and science subjects together, she can enter the top ten in her grade, but

Whether it is a single subject or science, she is only in the top [-].

So she chose science in the end, purely because No. [-] Middle School’s undergraduate admission rate for science is much higher than that for liberal arts. To be on the safe side, she would rather give up her love of Chinese and history, and make sure she can go to university for undergraduate.

For this reason, Qingqing even sighed a few words.However, after getting acquainted with her gradually, she also knows that Zhou Ruxin must never miss it. The so-called choice of what she likes to do must have the premise of "no worries about food and clothing".

After entering the third year of high school, the academic work became more and more tense, and the correspondence between the two people gradually changed from once a week to once every half a month and then once a month.

Most of the time, the sigh half a month ago has dissipated in the wind by the time the reply is received.

At the end of the last semester of senior high school, Zhou Ruxin received a tear-stained letter from Qingqing, which contained too much pain.

It was only at this time that Zhou Ruxin knew that Qingqing had a twin brother.

Parents have always favored sons over daughters. At the beginning of the high school entrance examination, Qingqing missed the second middle school by only one point. In fact, if the family was willing to pay more money, the second middle school was willing to let Qingqing study, but her twin brother was not enough. He was struggling and couldn't even get into the third middle school, so his parents had to spend a lot of money to let his brother go to the third middle school with Qingqing.

Originally, because of that blow, Qingqing was a little discouraged, so she let herself go, and used the opportunity of making pen pals to have a real and fake relationship with a boy from afar, and the results were naturally very unsatisfactory.

On the contrary, after her elder brother entered the third middle school, maybe the boy really grew up and became sensible, so he changed his temperament of being playful and tired of studying, and studied very seriously, and his grades continued to improve.Although it was money to enter the third middle school at the beginning, but later it was really relying on my own efforts to step into the top [-] of the grade step by step.

After entering the third year of high school, the advantages of boys in science became more and more obvious, so her brother was able to rank among the top ten in science.Although Qingqing is the long-term liberal arts No. 1, but the farmer with an average family background does not really expect two college students in the family at the same time, because it is really difficult to afford the expenses of two college students at the same time.

In particular, the parents at home did not know what people said, saying that there are very few universities for liberal arts students to apply for, and even if they graduate from university, it is difficult to find a job, so they want to focus on raising their son first.

Therefore, the parents began to vaguely want to persuade Qingqing that it is better to give up the college entrance examination and go to other places to work early, so that her elder brother can prepare for the exam with peace of mind and not have to worry about the financial hardship at home.

Qingqing said: Ruxin Ruxin, I am also their child.I know it is not easy for them to raise us and let us go to high school, but I am not reconciled to letting me give up like this.My parents gave birth to me and raised me. I shouldn't have disregarded their wishes, and the family is really difficult.For me and my brother to go to high school, they worked hard day and night, getting old day by day.However, I am not reconciled.Ru Xin, I promised you that we will work hard together and go to college together.Ru Xin, what should I do?

How did Zhou Ruxin reply back then?

Zhou Ruxin couldn't remember how hard she tried to remember.

At the beginning, Zhou Ruxin had the love of her father like a mountain. Except for some financial difficulties, other aspects were really smooth, so she couldn't understand why her parents would let such an excellent child give up her studies.

Are you short of money?When my father sent her to No. [-] Middle School, he said: "Ru Xin, as long as you can study, my father will definitely send you to school even if it is a waste of money."

Patriarchal?Back then, my mother died young, and my young father, who loves to read, had a bookish atmosphere that is rarely seen in the countryside. Many matchmakers came to the door, but my father always smiled and declined: "If I have Ru Xin, I will have the best treasure in the world. Come into my house. door, unless she promises not to have any more children in the future."

Zhou Ruxin couldn't empathize with Qingqing's dilemma and pain.

As a pen pal, she naturally felt sad for him, but she didn't know how to comfort him.

Maybe, no matter what kind of consolation, it's just scratching the surface of the ear. There are so many pains in this world, and in the end, you have to endure it yourself. So, it's better to keep silent.

After thinking for a long time, Zhou Ruxin wrote back and said: Qingqing, I read an article that said that college freshmen can apply for loans to study, and they can also apply for work-study programs in schools to pay tuition fees.

At the end of the letter, Zhou Ruxin transcribed a lyrics:

"Is there a window that can make you not despair, and look at the colorful world, which turns out to be like a dream.

Some people cry, some laugh, some lose, some grow old, and the ending is not the same.

Is there a kind of love that can keep you from getting hurt?How many intimate words to you have accumulated over the years,

What wine, can't wake up, what pain, can't forget?Going forward, it is impossible to look back.

Friends, don't cry, I'm still the home of your soul,

Friends, don't cry, believe in your own way.

There are too many ignorant and infatuated pursuits in the world of mortals, and I also feel your pain.

Don't cry my friend, I'm always in the deepest part of your heart,

Friends, don't cry, I won't be alone with you.

It is rare to have a few real friends in the sea of ​​people, please don't care about this kind of love. "

Qingqing's reply came very late, and this was also Qingqing's last letter Zhou Ruxin received.

In Qingqing's last letter, there are only a few short sentences.

She said: Good!Ru Xin, I will not give up.

What came with the letter was a postcard, in which there were several stalks of green bamboo.

The poem goes, "Be virtuous before it is unearthed, and be more open-minded when it is Lingyun", which is one of Zhou Ruxin's favorite lines.

Hollow and self-reliant, Zhou Ru thought to herself, Qingqing must have really figured it out.