Fast-passing alternative plan

I am Xia Yang.i have known since childhood

There is a monster in my body.

The first time I knew it was when I was in kindergarten, on the way from school, I encountered a car accident.The man's death was extremely tragic, blood spread from his body, and the world seemed to be blood-colored.Everyone around me panicked and screamed loudly, but I was the only one who was calm and even a little excited.From then on I knew that I was abnormal, but I didn't feel scared, as if I should be.I sure do carry the crazy gene.

My father, let's call him that for now.What he likes most is gambling and drinking. I can't remember how many times he has moved, because in order to avoid gambling debts, he had to hide.But that man did not change his mind many times, and continued to gamble.No matter if I lose or win, I have to go to drink, and when I come back, I will be drunk and beat my mother.And my mother finally couldn't stand it one day, she went out and never came back.He got even worse, but the object of the abuse became me.

Finally one day the debt collectors found the house, and they caught Dad.He threatened to chop off one of his hands if he didn't pay back the money.I just saw the scene of the man kneeling down and weeping, and I felt very funny at that moment.In the end, the man actually said that he wanted them to take me away, and he also said that children's organs are very valuable.I feel ridiculous in my heart, do I still have expectations for him until now?As much as I have nothing to miss about the world, I don't want parts of me scattered.So I ran away. I don't know how long I ran, but my young body still couldn't support it. I just remember passing out in front of a gate.

When I wake up from a coma.I saw a boy staring at me curiously.Seeing that I woke up suddenly, he smiled embarrassedly at me. There was a lot of sunlight shining in from behind him, and that smile was like a ray of light. How long has it been since I smiled?I tried my best to pull out a smile, but I couldn't even smile back at him.I feel sorry for myself.

Fortunately, a kind-looking middle-aged woman came in at this time, "Xiao Luo, you are being naughty again, didn't you tell you that the kid is still resting, so don't disturb him."

"Dean's mother, let me take a look. I'm curious because you haven't told me all this time."

He pouted, looking displeased.How cute, I thought to myself.

"Okay, can't I go?" After finishing speaking, he left.No, don't go, although I shouted in my heart, no words came out of my mouth.The long-term living environment has made me develop the habit of not being talkative. I didn't feel anything bad before, but now I feel disgusted with my personality.

Since then, he has come to see me several times, but my bad words always make him angry, and then I simply stopped talking, thinking that this would make him angry, but unexpectedly he became even more angry, and didn't even come look at me.

I am more and more annoyed, why do I always mess things up.

When I get better, I want to play with him, but I don't know what to do. Every time, a large group of people surround him, which is really an eyesore.One of the women was even more annoying, always arguing with Xiao Luo, whom I liked, and standing in front of me for no reason to prevent Xiao Luo from talking to me.

I want to change this situation, but I am afraid that Xiao Luo will hate me even more.So I swear, if Xiao Luo smiles at me and talks to me again, it will be forgiven me, and I will seize the opportunity to change myself.

Fortunately, God did not abandon me, and I finally waited for the sentence "Let's play." At that moment, I seemed to hear the voice of nature.