riddle

"Will you marry me later?"

"We agreed to be together forever, you can't lie to me!"

"You must always love me."

"I love you, so we will always be together."

"I love you, so you let go!"

"Nuoshang, live well, please, can you live on my behalf?"

The darkness gradually faded, he didn't know where he was now, he just instinctively stretched out his hand to hold the girl tightly in his confusion.

The girl's chest was still bleeding, and he felt that he almost had no strength to hold her hand, and there was an endless abyss below, once he let go, the girl would never come back.

However, even though he exhausted all his strength and did not let go, the girl's vitality still gradually dissipated along with the blood on her chest...until it became cold.

His heart finally sank little by little, is there still no way to pull her back?

"let it go!"

The girl's voice came from the void, as clean and pure as when they first met.

"Do not……"

"Let go! I can't go back, and you have found someone better..."

"I didn't, so don't go, okay?"

His vision gradually became blurred, and the girl's wrist gradually slipped from his hand... But her voice clearly reached his ears.

"Don't lie to yourself anymore, and don't be persistent, don't miss the people who care about you."

"Yu Chen!"

Han Nuoshang opened his eyes quickly and woke up from his sleep.

He suddenly remembered today's day and sighed!Every year at this time, I dream of her, but this year's dream is too special, very different from previous dreams.

The sky was already light, but it was still a little gray, and it was not time to get up yet, but Han Nuoshang was not in the mood to stay in bed.

He got off the bed and poured himself a glass of cold water. He needed to wake up and deal with his weird dream. It is said that dreams are the manifestation of people's subconscious mind, so who is that person Sun Yuchen mentioned in the dream? ...

When Han Nuoshang went out, the door of Gu Ci's house next door was still closed, but this time Han Nuoshang did not knock on the door to find someone.

Not long after he woke up, he received a message from Gu Ci.

Gu Ci: Team Han, I have something to ask for a day off today.

Then there was the sound of the master leaving the house from next door, Han Nuoshang asked him what he was going to do, but Gu Ci didn't reply for a long time.

When Han Nuoshang called again, the other party had already indicated that the phone was turned off. Although he didn't know what Gu Ci was going to do, it was obvious that he didn't want anyone to disturb him.

It's just one day, nothing will happen to Gu Ci, so just let him go, as I also have something to deal with today.

When Han Nuoshang arrived at the police station, there was no one in the criminal investigation team's office!

It seemed that after the case was over, the whole team became lazy, but he didn't think there was anything wrong with it. It's okay to be lazy at ordinary times, as long as you are serious when you have business.

After thinking about it, he walked into the office to see if there was any work to do, and if there was nothing, he would play with his mobile phone...

After a long time, Bai Yinchen and Hua Xiaolu finally walked over with big yawns, and glanced at Han Nuoshang who was sitting in his office.

Bai Yinchen: "Yo ho, are you here so early?"

Han Nuoshang: "It's not too early, it's almost time for work, those who come later will be late!"

Bai Yinchen knocked on his watch and said with a smile: "It's rare that there is no case, everyone is naturally happy to relax, and it's normal to take a rest for a while."

Han Nuoshang nodded: "By the way, I will ask for leave in the afternoon. You should pay more attention to those bastards. If you have nothing to do, don't call me."

After all, he shook the phone in his hand.

Bai Yinchen raised his eyebrows and nodded. He and Han Nuoshang have known each other for five years. This person who became the captain of the criminal investigation team right after graduation has such a habit.

Every year on November 11th, Han Nuoshang would disappear for half a day. As for where he went during this half day, no one knew!No one will bother him.

At 02:30 in the afternoon, Han Nuoshang left the police station on time, and drove to the address he remembered by heart.

This is a cemetery, and it is also a relatively high-end cemetery in Yuancheng. Whether it is management measures or other things, it has done a good job.

Han Nuoshang took out a large bouquet of lilies from the car and walked into the cemetery.

He signed his name and filled in the information with the cemetery. These are the management regulations of this cemetery, and Han Nuoshang will naturally abide by the rules here, but what he doesn't know is--as long as he gently Turning forward, you can see a familiar name, but he doesn't have it.

He walked towards the tombstone he was familiar with, put down the flowers in his hand, and smiled at the tombstone.

"Long time no see, how are you doing over there?"

At this time, there was a brisk guitar sound, I don't know who is playing the guitar for the person I care about!

He sat in front of the tombstone for a long time, carefully wiped off the dust on it, and was also talking to her.

Han Nuoshang didn't know how long he had stayed here, anyway, when he thought it was time to leave, the sky was already dark.

He stood up, but he didn't walk towards the exit of the cemetery. He didn't know what made him walk towards the place where the guitar sound came from earlier.

Han Nuoshang didn't go far, and saw the man sleeping next to the tombstone.

That person was closing his eyes undefended, perhaps because he was around important people, so his vigilance was also reduced.

Han Nuoshang walked over, and saw beside him was a guitar that was worth a lot of money at first glance.

Han Nuoshang looked at his sleeping face condescendingly, and unconsciously smiled.

However, when he saw the tombstone, he couldn't laugh anymore, and his face turned cold.

It was a joint burial monument, a tombstone of a family of four, on which it was clearly written - the tomb of father Gu Qiyu, the tomb of mother Xie Zimo, the tomb of younger sister Gu Qingzhi and the tomb of Gu Cizhi.

Seeing the family of four on the tombstone, he felt mixed feelings for a while. The tombstone was erected 11 years ago.

What kind of person would erect a monument to himself at such a young age?He even came back to visit his own grave!

The man also seemed to feel Han Nuoshang's cold breath and pressure, he gently opened his eyes, and looked at the person standing in front of him in a daze.

Han Nuoshang stared at his slowly opening eyes: "Deputy team, you are really a special person."

"Team Han?" Gu Ci was still a little sleepy, and he didn't know whether it was a dream or reality, so he called out to him uncertainly.

Han Nuoshang: "..."

He suddenly didn't want to talk now, and somehow felt anger rising from his heart, and he didn't know who it was directed at.

Feeling his low pressure, Gu Ci followed his field of vision for some confusion, and finally stopped at his own name on the tombstone, and suddenly understood why he was angry.

He reached out to touch his name and smiled: "I just hope that I can spend more time with them!"

Han Nuoshang frowned: "Stop laughing if you don't think about it, it's ugly!"

He looked at the posthumous photo on the tombstone, and Gu Ci had pasted his own childhood photo on it, which is really... Inexplicably, he felt that the child in the photo looked familiar, as if he had seen it somewhere before.

Gu Ci: "Sometimes I also think, if I go down to accompany them, will they be happy..."

"No." Han Nuoshang was startled, interrupted him hastily, and sat across from him, "Gu Ci, listen to me, stop thinking about what you have and what you don't have, nothing is more important than being alive, as long as you're still alive, Everything is possible, and when you die, there is really nothing.”

"Really?" Gu Ci smiled wryly, "But I always feel that I was already dead when I was ten years old, and I can't live anymore!"

That's why he erected a monument to himself.

"..." Han Nuoshang was speechless for a while, and an inexplicable pain rose in his heart, "You..."

Gu Ci: "Don't worry! I'm fine."

Han Nuoshang felt suffocated, and couldn't help turning his gaze to the tombstone, "Can you tell me about them?"

Gu Ci looked at Han Nuoshang in surprise, and said after a long time: "Captain Han, you... want to know me?"

Han Nuoshang nodded as a matter of course.

"But it's a bit unfair to me." Gu Ci licked his lips, "If you want to know my secret, you have to exchange your secret first, an equivalent exchange."

Gu Ci's index finger poked on Han Nuoshang's chest, with some imperceptible calculations on his face.

"Why? Don't you want to say it? Since that's the case, I also..."

"Her name is Sun Yuchen." Han Nuoshang interrupted him.

Gu Ci looked at him in a daze, he didn't really want to know Han Nuoshang's secret, he just wanted Han Nuoshang to retreat and stop asking about his own affairs, but Han Nuoshang...

"Eight years ago, when I was still in college, Yuchen was my girlfriend. At that time, I had been in love with Yuchen for a long time!" Han Nuoshang sighed, as if recalling "She is a very good girl."

Before Han Nuoshang graduated from university at the age of 22, he had already assisted the police in solving crimes as an intern, and solved several major cases.

No one can make achievements at such a young age - of course, Gu Ci is an exception.

A capable person is always prone to envy and hatred. Because of this, he has offended many people. Some people hate him and others will naturally want revenge.

Eight years ago, the family of a prisoner captured by Han Nuoshang kidnapped Sun Yuchen.

That person invited Han Nuoshang to the beach and threatened him not to call the police, but Han Nuoshang himself is a policeman, so it is impossible not to call the police.

And that person had no intention of letting Han Nuoshang and Sun Yuchen go, he wanted Sun Yuchen to die in front of Han Nuoshang, and wanted to kill him after seeing him collapse.

"Yu Chen is a very smart girl." Han Nuoshang said, "She knows what that man is thinking, but she doesn't want to follow his wish."

Gu Ci: "What did she do?"

Han Nuoshang: "She secretly broke free from the rope that was binding her. At that time, the man's knife was still on his neck."

Sun Yuchen is also a member of the police academy. Facing the murder weapon of the gangster, she can calmly confront him.

And while the man was not paying attention, he secretly gestured to Han Nuoshang, calculating the escape route.

But that person's mood was very unstable at that time, and he didn't know what he was thinking, so he suddenly changed his mind, took out his gun and shot Han Nuoshang.

Han Nuoshang was dumbfounded at the time. He thought that the man only had the knife in his hand, but he never thought that he was secretly hiding a gun.

Seeing that the bullet flew towards him but the pain did not hit him, Sun Yuchen stood in front of him first and blocked the shot for him.

"We were all standing on the high platform by the sea at that time, and Yu Chen fell directly to the high platform. Below is the sea. She was already seriously injured. If she fell again, she would definitely not survive!" Han Nuoshang Said these things calmly.

Eight years have passed, and the scars from that time seem to have faded away, and he didn't feel much pain when he told Gu Ci about it at this time, on the contrary—someone was willing to listen to his pain, which made him feel relieved Quite a lot, as if the burden that had been weighing on my heart had been relieved.

"I just grabbed her hand, but that person shot me again, and the bullet hit me on the shoulder." Han Nuoshang sighed, "Fortunately, I called the police at that time, otherwise you should have been killed by now." Can't see me anymore."

Gu Ci: "The God of Destiny is willing to take care of you, and will not let you die so easily."

"Accept your auspicious words!" Han Nuoshang gently raised his eyebrows at him, "I tried my best to grab her wrist, but my own consciousness began to blur, but I heard her talking to me clearly. Say let go."

"Nuoshang...I love you, so...let go!" Sun Yuchen's condition was much worse than Han Nuoshang's, and it took her last strength to say these words.

"They said that Yuchen died before falling into the water!" Han Nuoshang straightened his hair, "I know, they all want to comfort me, but no matter what the situation is, Yuchen is because of me. I am very guilty and regretful, but after two months of depression, I went back to school again."

Because he knew that Sun Yuchen definitely wanted him to live well and live to uphold justice for the people.

Gu Ci just looked at him quietly without saying anything.

At this time, he should say something to comfort Han Nuoshang, but he doesn't know how to comfort others.

Han Nuoshang: "My secret is over, it's your turn."

Gu Ci: "..."

It turns out that so much has been said to pave the way for this sentence.

"What do you want to know?"

Gu Ci shook his head in resignation, Han Nuoshang told him all the secrets in his heart, it doesn't seem so good if he doesn't say anything.

Han Nuoshang pointed to the tombstone next to him: "Can you tell me about your family?"

Gu Ci smiled, turned around and caressed their posthumous photos.

"You want to know how they died?"

Han Nuoshang nodded.

"To tell you the truth, I don't know either." Gu Ci's hand stopped on the tombstone, "They died in a serial murder."

Han Nuoshang looked at him suspiciously, his words were somewhat contradictory.

Gu Ci: "You don't know, do you! I am a witness to this case. I saw the murderer kill my family with my own eyes."

Han Nuoshang suddenly opened his eyes wide and looked at him in disbelief.

Gu Ci: "But I forgot."

Han Nuoshang frowned: "Forgot?"

"Yeah!" Gu Ci nodded, "The doctor said that I suffered from severe PTSD, and I forgot everything I saw and heard that night, and stayed in the hospital for half a year in a daze. The only thing I didn't forget was When I was brought out of the closet, my parents and Xiaoqing's corpse were sitting in the living room."

"Gu Ci, you..."

There was an inexplicable pain in Han Nuoshang's heart. It must have been painful for Gu Ci to see that scene at the time. It must have hurt more than when he watched Sun Yuchen leave. He suddenly wanted to hold him in his arms and not let him Those pains touched him.

"I was only ten years old at the time." Gu Ci lifted him up, the corners of his eyes were slightly red. "When I was ten years old, my world and my time all collapsed that night."

He engraved his name on the tombstone because Gu Ci was dead, he died when he was ten years old.

Han Nuoshang suddenly felt that he couldn't say anything, he obeyed his own heart, and gently embraced Gu Ci in his arms.

"I know that the closet I was hiding in was not locked at the time. At that time, I should have been hiding in it and watched my family members go. I neither cried nor had the courage to rush out..." I just looked at him indifferently. His own family was tortured and did nothing.

"This is just your speculation." Han Nuoshang interrupted him, lifting his face, "You are not such a person, and you have already forgotten what happened at that time, haven't you? Maybe something happened to make you sleepy." It's in the closet..."

"I don't want to deceive myself. It is clearly written in the medical records that all indexes are normal. I just watched them being killed with my own eyes." Gu Ci left the beginning and sneered, "Maybe I did something irreparable at that time. , That’s why I choose to forget that time, and it’s not necessarily true.”

Han Nuoshang froze in place, so he had always thought of himself this way, compared to that, the little bit of guilt in his heart was really nothing.

What was he thinking every day when he was awakened by nightmares?No wonder he was always using alcohol and sleeping pills to lull himself to sleep.

"It's painful, isn't it?" Han Nuoshang hugged him forcefully again, comforting him, "It's not your fault, it's the murderer, you don't need to blame yourself like this."

Gu Ci didn't struggle or speak, he lowered his head and didn't know what he was thinking.

After a long time, he brushed aside Han Nuoshang's hand on his shoulder, and leaned back on the tombstone without saying a word.

Han Nuoshang rubbed his nose, inexplicably feeling that the atmosphere was quite awkward: "I heard you play the guitar in the afternoon, and it was pretty good, can I listen to it again?"

That's all he said, and he didn't want Gu Ci to actually play, but just wanted to divert his attention.

Gu Ci raised his eyes and glanced at him, and really reached out to pick up the guitar beside him, reached out and picked up the tone.

The sound of the guitar jumped out with the movement of his hands, and his lips moved slightly:

The stars of Yuancheng wake up the dream in the streamer,

The scattered sparks are engraved in the cold heart;

I come from the abyss, wake up in the dark,

Who kindled a cluster of light for me on the way forward;

is it you?It's you!

Take me out of the entanglement of the abyss,

To the warmest light;

is it you?It is you!

A warm chest that embraces me in the dark,

The scattered light converges into the warmest sun;

Cut off all the scars on the way,

Remember the warmest light in my heart;

……

Han Nuoshang clapped his hands for him. He didn't expect that Gu Ci could sing, and his singing was no worse than those singers.

"It's so nice, I've never heard this song before, can you tell me his name?"

Gu Ci smiled, as if they had never talked about those sad things just now

""Ming Guang"... the name of this song is Ming Guang."