Carved Bones of Rebirth

/In this love, he gave up his self-esteem, he gave up his pride, but it may not be a lose-lose./

It took Yan Leng a long time to realize that what Cen Ge was talking about should be a scene he and Zhao Xiaoya played together. Cen Ge misunderstood, but Yan Leng didn't know how to explain it. Now no matter what he said, in Cen Ge The eyes are all lies, but who can blame this?He was the one who lied to Cen Ge's love, he was the one who lied to Cen Ge's trust, he was the one who put on good plays with Cen Ge, how could Cen Ge trust him?After being treated like that by him.

Yan Leng didn't know what he should do to keep Cen Ge, he didn't know what he had to do to forgive him, as long as he didn't look at him like that, as long as he stopped living in his own cold and lonely world, as long as He is willing to laugh, he can do whatever he wants, and he is willing to do whatever he wants.

In fact, what Yan Leng didn't know was that it was because of his love for Cen Ge that Cen Ge felt that he was lying to him.

In Cen Ge's eyes, how could Yan Leng be so affectionate towards him, they had only known each other for so long.In Cen Ge's heart, Yan Leng is like a ray of light in his life, but he, Cen Ge, is insignificant to Yan Leng.Cen Ge didn't know what he had that was worthy of Yan Leng acting in such a play. He was alone, so Yan Leng didn't have to do this.

Cen Ge has never seen Yan Leng cry, and he has never seen Yan Leng kneel down to anyone, so what is he?

Who is Yan Leng, the only son of the Yan family, one of the three super aristocratic families in the capital, his grandfather Yan Long is the founding general, his father Yan Hongsheng is the wei secretary of Jiangzhou City, and his grandfather Leng Sheng is the chairman of the famous Leng Group. Yan Leng is a veritable young master. Since childhood, this face has been a gold-lettered signboard. There is no one who does not recognize young master Yan. Now, how can he do this because of himself?

Cen Ge has an advantage, he can always see himself clearly, he never feels how important he is to anyone, and he doesn't feel that he is unparalleled in the world, so Cen Ge just wants to say to Yan Leng, look at me Whatever you want, just take it away, let me go.

Yan Leng let go of Cen Ge's hand, which he had been holding tightly, turned around and took out a thick quilt from the cabinet, carefully wrapped it around Cen Ge's body, and drew the heavy curtains, the light in the room suddenly became very dark.

Yan Leng looked back and saw Cen Ge's slightly widened eyes. He could see the uneasiness in the eyes of this stubborn and strong person. He was actually afraid of the dark, and he only found out later.He didn't know what kind of torture Cen Ge, who gave him his eyes, lived in the dark night that made him so afraid. He only knew how much it hurt, that in this life, he would protect and love Cen Ge.

Yan Leng turned on the night light on the bedside table, and saw that Cen Ge's eyes were no longer as restless as before, but he still refused to close them. Yan Leng lay on the bed through the quilt, hugged Cen Ge, and felt the warmth in his arms. The man stiffened for a moment, and said softly, "Go to sleep, don't worry, I won't do anything."

After a while, maybe the night light was too warm, maybe the room was too warm, maybe Cen Ge was too tired, so he fell asleep like this until noon the next day.

When Cen Ge woke up, he found that Yan Leng was no longer there. Just as he was about to sit up, he found that his lower body was still in a tearing pain, but it wasn't as weak as yesterday. If it hurts, he could bear it.

Cen Ge endured the pain, but there was no change on his face. He found a big sweater and a pair of jeans on the balcony. Cen Ge looked at his naked body, put on the sweater, and put on the pants with difficulty. , without caring about the warm liquid winding down behind him, he just walked out with bare feet.

He didn't deliberately take his steps lightly, and he wasn't afraid at all. There was nothing in his life that could scare him. Being treated like that by Yan Leng, the physical pain was really nothing to him. It hurts, that's all.

Cen Ge walked downstairs step by step, every step was steady, he didn't see Yan Leng's figure, he wanted to bid farewell to Yan Leng, and then walked away, never to be seen again, but But now Yan Leng could not be found.

Cen Ge couldn't tell what the feelings in his heart were like. He was not a woman who cried at every turn, nor was he a hothouse flower that couldn't bear blows. On the contrary, he was a self-reliant man who had left the house for a long time. He can't bear it.

As for the farewell, Cen Ge admitted that there was still some reluctance in his heart, but if he wanted to leave, he would definitely leave cleanly.

Cen Ge was about to push open the door with the regret of not saying goodbye and a little bit of reluctance, when he suddenly heard the sound of a heavy object falling to the ground.Cen Ge was startled, and when he looked back, it was the person he wanted to bid farewell to, Yan Leng.

Just when he was about to say something, he was hugged tightly. The coldness on Yan Leng's body shocked him, but Cen Ge was a little dazed.

Yan Leng looks a little miserable now, his face is strangely bluish-white, his hair is still dripping water, and his body is a little stiff from the cold.

In his previous life, Yan Leng always immersed himself in cold water as punishment, but after a long time, it became a habit.Just now, Yan Leng had put his head in the cold water to calm down, but suddenly he felt uneasy, as if someone had ripped out a piece of his heart. Fearing that something would happen to Cen Ge, Yan Leng sat up all of a sudden, put on his clothes and While running outside, Yan Leng ran down the stairs barefoot when he saw Cen Ge leaving, and fell unsteadily to the ground.But Yan Leng, who was always thinking about Cen Ge, didn't care about this, he got up and hugged Cen Ge tightly.

Cen Ge just let Yan Leng hold him like this, feeling the rapid beating of Yan Leng's heart behind him, feeling Yan Leng's exhalation and inhalation against his body, he thought, this is probably the last time they meet, Yan Leng The cold embrace is still so powerful, just like before.

At that time, his mother had just passed away, and he left the place where he had lived for 14 years and the wealthy family that everyone envied.

At that time, he thought, he should be free, even if he is down and out.

But he never thought that it is so easy to leave a wealthy family. He left that house, but his body was full of signs of the Lin family.

The Lin family has found a house for him, and regularly puts a sum of money into his card. If he wants, he can enjoy cars and BMWs, indulge in money, and be a wealthy young master of An Le, but he doesn't want to.

If it wasn't for his mother to be in Lin's house, he wouldn't want to stay there for a second.

Could even call that place home?

So he chose to leave, so he decided that he would not use the money given to him by the Lin family even if he died, so he would rather have his hands covered with scars, and he would rather use the sky as his home and the earth as his hut, he was willing.

And after the Lin family stopped him a few times, there was no movement. Yes, he was a child who was not expected. He never expected anyone to love him sincerely, even if he liked Yan Leng so much. But he still didn't dare to tell him, not just because both of them were men, but because he didn't dare.

Yes, he dare not.

Except for his mother, he has never been treated gently, and after his mother left, he is used to being isolated, rejected, and rejected, even if he is strong enough, even if he is good enough, even if he is brave enough to love and hate , even if he is not afraid of getting hurt, but he resists those strange eyes and looks of disgust.

When he met Yan Leng, he really didn't know whether it was a kind of fate or a kind of tribulation.

I still remember that he often fights with others, from childhood to adulthood, when he was young, because others called him a bastard, he threw his fists at him. At that time, he always lost, because other children would call friends and call a lot of people Come, and he is alone.

Finally, it will be the parents of both parties who will come to visit.

Later, he moved out of the Lin family, but he still hadn't won the fight, even though he didn't have to worry about his mother making an apology, even if he didn't have to face the loud accusations from those people.

But whether it was because of a fight and entered the head teacher's office or the police station, there was only one way to go in the end, which was to find the parents.And his parents have always been just a random person sent by the Lin family, maybe Liu, maybe Zhao, but it will never be Lin.

In this way, he would rather be beaten than face the three words of finding his parents again.

And his non-resistance is like a synonym for cowardice in the eyes of those people. They make things difficult for him, but no matter how difficult it is, he will continue. His bones are hard.

Until I met Yan Leng.

They met at a chorus practice in junior high school.At that time, Song Renliang was the accompanist of the chorus, but there was an accident that day, so he asked Yan Leng to help take the class. Young Master Yan originally wanted to spend some money to find someone to come directly, but he was bored for a while, so he went there in person.

During the break in the middle of the chorus practice, Yan Leng was idly sitting beside the piano, and no one dared to approach him.

Yan Leng's reputation for being moody, bullying you and you have to pay for it, and his good skills are all well-known.Just when Young Master Yan was wondering whether it was right or wrong to take over this time, he caught a figure who was out of place, and that was the first time he saw Cen Ge.

Yan Leng's junior high school was the best junior high school in Jiangzhou. Those who could come here either had strong backgrounds or were top-notch learners. They were all sophisticated at a young age.The girls gathered there to discuss makeup and famous brands, while the boys discussed games and women, which made Yan Leng feel very irritated and disgusted.

But when he glanced casually, he found a different figure.

He is different from the people next to him, he just stands there alone, silent, the silhouette on the side is so cold and lonely.

Yan Leng suddenly felt very interested in him, and initiated a conversation with him for the first time.

Later, the two became friends.

When Pan Wei and the others came to trouble him with random excuses, Cen Ge curled his lips and leaned casually against the wall, waiting for the first punch or kick.It was just being beaten, and those people didn't dare to beat him to death, nor would they break his bones, so he just hugged his head and curled up next to him silently.But he didn't expect that Yan Leng, who had only known him for a day, suddenly appeared and knocked those people to the ground. At that time, he frowned, complaining in his heart that Yan Leng was meddling in his own business.

Later, Yan Leng often went to school with him, and after school, he didn't want to take Yan Leng's car, so Yan Leng went with him, because of Yan Leng, no one dared to trouble him anymore.When he was working part-time, Yan Leng didn't stop him like the Lin family did, and there was no need to throw him money. He just accompanied him when he was part-time job, waiting for him to go home together.

He didn't know what he was to Yan Leng, he only knew that in that short year, he was grateful and loved Yan Leng, but that New Year's Eve told him clearly that Yan Leng never loved him , Maybe Yan Leng just found it novel, maybe Yan Leng just regarded him as a brother, or maybe it was a pass that he wanted to overcome. Now that the game is cleared, the game is over.

From now on, I only hope that Cen Ge and Yan Leng will never see each other again.

"Cen Ge, don't go, don't go..." Yan Leng hugged Cen Ge tightly and refused to let go. He knew that once he let go, he might never find Cen Ge again. He couldn't let go. I dare not let go.

"Yan Leng, I'm leaving, you..." He didn't know what to say for a while, he wanted to say that you should take care of your health, he wanted to say that you must be very good, but these words should not be said by him, What's more, Yan Leng was supposed to be a person who was unrestrained and happy all his life, so he would naturally be very, very good.So, he just said, "Let it go."

Yan Leng, may you be proud and happy forever.

With a hard heart, Cen Ge broke out of Yan Leng's embrace, pressed the handle little by little, opened the door little by little, and walked out step by step.

Cen Ge! ! !

Yan Leng didn't know what to do at all, what he had to do to keep Cen Ge, he knew that Cen Ge was actually more ruthless than him, he didn't even turn his head back, and didn't give him a reason to catch up, such Cen Ge , Yan Leng didn't dare to chase, he could only watch Cen Ge walk away step by step, he could only let the knife pierce his heart one by one, other than that, he couldn't do anything else.

I can no longer see Cen Ge walking away step by step, Yan Leng is holding the door bit by bit, sitting on the ground, alone, until the sun rises and sets, until the sound of firecrackers on the second day of the new year is deafening, until the laughter I plugged my ears completely, until my body was so cold that I didn't feel it, until my heart shattered.

The pain in his body was nothing, he thought, it turned out that he lived a new life and picked up his heart back, but still had to watch him walk away and watch his heart crack, that was the real pain.It turns out that to live again, such pain is atonement for my sin.

I was willing to give up everything, but I didn't expect that the price was too heavy, and I couldn't afford to pay everything.