Carved Bones of Rebirth

Looking at Song Renliang in the dark, Yan Leng felt a little sour in his heart, not because of his brother's loneliness, but lamenting the impermanence of fate.

He knew that Song Renliang did not regret his choice at the beginning, because it was his responsibility as a man and as a son, and they would not complain about it, because this was the arrangement of fate, or in other words, this was their responsibility. Life.

So, Yan Leng just walked over, pressed Song Renliang's shoulder, leaned against the French window, and sat on the ground with one leg curled up.

The neon lights outside were flickering, hitting Yan Leng, as if he was sitting on the edge of the room, and if he leaned back, he would fall from here, and he would fall to a bloody mess.Many people dare not lean against the window completely, because there will be an illusion that they will fall in the next second, but Yan Leng likes this kind of stimulation that goes against the self-protection in people's hearts. He doesn't like to follow the trend of animals completely. The instinct of avoiding disadvantages, he likes a little self-destructive stimulation, and a little self-violating struggle, just like he will not obey his own heart, he has never understood what obedience is.

Except Cen Ge.

Because of the guilt, emptiness, guilt and so many years of self-torture in the previous life, after being reborn, a person who has had his complete spiritual sustenance for nearly 20 years appeared in front of him. Give yourself completely to that person, obey that person, atone for your sins, pay your debts, and...satisfy your love and desire for 20 years.

But Cen Ge, who was working in a small town, never thought that Yan Leng would have such a mentality, just like he never thought that Yan Leng would have such deep guilt and such strong love for him.

Because in Cen Ge's eyes, Yan Leng just raped him and imprisoned him for a few days. To him, this was a memory and past that he didn't want to touch at all, and it was also a betrayal of a relationship that was not love.But what is it to Yan Leng?He, Cen Ge, is actually no different from the women who surrounded Yan Leng before. He can fuck when he wants to, kick when he wants to, coax him when he is happy, and force him when he is not happy. Even Yan Leng seemed to like him too, so he regretted that he shouldn't treat the person he likes so roughly, but what's the point of worrying about these things to Cen Ge?

He likes Yan Leng, Cen Ge is sure of this, and he is not willing to recall and touch those injuries, and he is also sure that Yan Leng likes him now, and he thinks it is not fake, so he cares about those hurts. What's the point?

If Yan Leng gets tired of it, then we won't see each other again, and it's no big deal, he, Cen Ge, is also a tough man, so he wouldn't lose Yan Leng, and he would wash his face with tears all day long, doubting life, right?

If Yan Leng is not tired, really loves him so much, and really wants to spend the rest of his life with him, then he believes that he will not love less than him, and will give him equal love back, and he will not suffer.

In fact, Cen Ge is a very ruthless person, Yan Leng spent a long time thinking about it in his previous life before he realized it, but it was too late by then.

It's not a lie that Cen Ge likes Yan Leng, but he is so determined to leave, even if he can't break his love, even if he is reluctant, as long as his bottom line is touched, he will turn around and leave without looking back, even if it hurts People still have themselves.So that day, Yan Leng knelt on the ground to apologize, with tears streaming down his face, and Cen Ge only shed a tear. After that, he never shed a tear again. , he would only bury his feelings deep in his heart, and even deceived himself.

Cen Ge is actually self-reliant and inferior. He moved out of the Lin family at the age of 14 and relied on his hands to eat, but he also felt that he was withdrawn, cold and unlovable.He was able to leave Yan Leng gracefully, but he also felt that Yan Leng would be better off without him.He can confidently give back the same amount of love to Yan Leng, but he silently weighs in his heart whether he is worthy or not.

Cen Ge was washing the cups in the small town while thinking about himself and Yan Leng. He only felt that the more he thought about it, the clearer he became, and the more decisive he became. The fat and thin beauty also remembered the uneasiness and uneasiness when she looked at him.

Cen Ge is really not jealous, he is a big man, not to mention he just likes Yan Leng, he doesn't think Yan Leng is someone to him, and seeing Yan Leng with those women, he has no idea.Moreover, Yan Leng had already told him that these were all for the purpose of deceiving others, to get jealous or something, so he couldn't do such a thing.

It's just that the uneasiness in Yan Leng's eyes remained in his heart. They didn't have much time to spend alone recently, so even if he wanted to comfort him, he didn't have the opportunity.Originally, he came to work in the small town tonight because he wanted to wait for Yan Leng to come, and the two of them had a good talk. After all, he didn't want Yan Leng to be so anxious.

Yan Leng knew that he was working here today, but he didn't come.

Obviously his eyes told him that he cared about him, but why didn't he come?Cen Ge couldn't figure it out, and didn't take the initiative to call Yan Leng until he got off work, because they were not a couple who had a quarrel and needed to be coaxed, they were just two people who liked each other but had nothing to do with each other.

Cen Ge just walked from the small town to the dormitory. At one o'clock in the morning, it was the time for him to get off work. At this time, there were no people on the street, only those street lamps, which were obviously many but still lonely, pulled his shadow away. Very long, it seems that the road is also very long.

Before Yan Leng was still around, he would not walk back to the dormitory by himself, because the road was too long for him to finish, so he would take the newspaper, find a door opening, sleep all night, and wait for the earliest day of the next day. class bus.

Later, when Yan Leng was around, the two of them walked to the dormitory together, because it was not that far away from the high school, and the dormitory was also close.

Now, it's okay to walk back alone, since I'm a man, I'm not afraid of robbery, and the dormitory is very close.

Without Yan Leng, Cen Ge didn't feel uncomfortable, Cen Ge was still Cen Ge, he hadn't changed, he was just a little puzzled, why didn't Yan Leng come to him for peace of mind, not why Yan Leng didn't walk this road with him Not a long way.

Cen Ge has never needed company. Compared with company, loneliness is the taste he is more familiar with.

The next day, as before, there was no interaction between them, and there was no communication. Yan Leng told himself to restrain himself, but Cen Ge didn't change.

After school, Cen Ge and another boy in the class stayed to take out the trash. When they came out, there were almost no people left.

As usual, Cen Ge had to catch the bus and then go to the place where he worked, but as soon as he left the school gate, he was strangled by someone and taken to the corner of the alley that was only separated from the school by a wall.

Cen Ge looked at the people surrounding him and smiled contemptuously, Pan Wei and his lackeys.They can be regarded as old acquaintances. When they first entered high school, they fought with them. The reason was that I refused to join forces with them and do evil. At that time, there was a win and loss for each other. Although there were a lot of them, But it didn't go well, especially when Pan Wei was wearing red and hanging colors, with black eyes and two lines of nosebleeds, he looked very embarrassed.

Pan Wei was also considered a jerk, he didn't report this matter to his family, he didn't poke him up, and Cen Ge wasn't called to the office either.Only two days later, he found more people to surround him. This time, he also suffered a big loss. He broke a rib, lay in the hospital for two days, and paid a lot of money.And those people were only injured on the flesh, and they recovered quickly, and they came to trouble him again in a few days.There were a lot of them, and Cen Ge was wounded, and he didn't want to fight with them all day long, doing nothing, so he could only protect his head and ribs, curled up and was kicked.

Later, when Cen Ge saw them, he found a place to lean on, and when they were tired and left, he patted the ashes and left.In this case, he would only suffer some flesh injuries, at most bruises and bruises. He would not hurt his bones, and he would not need to go to the hospital. It would only hurt for a few days. Pan Wei didn't just stare at him, he came every day.

Later, Yan Leng was there to protect him.At first, he helped him fight, and later, he used power to suppress him. After that, Pan Wei didn't dare to trouble him anymore.

Now, I don't know why these people are here again. I haven't seen them for a long time, and I feel embarrassed, and I almost can't recognize them.

"Hey, isn't this Cen Ge? Why did you leave alone? Where's Yan Leng? Tsk tsk tsk, look, look, how pitiful, just like a stray dog. What's wrong, the master doesn't want you anymore?" Pan Wei came over, patted Cen Ge's face with a mocking expression.

Cen Ge tilted his head, looked at Pan Wei coldly, as if he was looking at a bedbug, and didn't say a word, his temper was extremely cold.

Pan Wei told Cen Ge that it was boring, and he also felt that this person was wronged by saying that he was a stray dog. He had only seen this one with such a stubborn temper.He originally thought that after being protected by Yan Leng for a year, he should be subdued when he saw him again, but he still had this bad temper.

Pan Wei also inquired about it before coming here. After the semester started, Yan Leng and Cen Ge suddenly became estranged. It’s been almost a week since the start of school, and they haven’t said a word. Cen Ge went out to work alone yesterday, and it is said that he came back alone. , probably broke up with Yan Leng.Only Pan Wei dared to block Cen Ge, if Yan Leng was still around, he wouldn't dare to touch him.

Pan Wei stepped back and waved his hand, and all the yellow, green, and purple hairs surrounding Cen Ge came up, punching and kicking Cen Ge who was already in a posture ready to be beaten. Not only was Cen Ge familiar with the process, they were also familiar with it.

Cen Ge covered his head with one hand and his ribs with the other, facing the wall, feeling the heavy blows on his back and legs, and stuck all his voices in his throat, without shouting or screaming in pain, just Standing next to each other quietly, even thinking about these fists and feet are still familiar, not unfamiliar at all, and not uncomfortable at all.

He didn't resist because he felt that he was guilty, he deserved these things, but he felt that these children who had not yet entered the society but worshiped the underworld were naive and pitiful.He did this not because he gave in, but because he didn't want to see the disgusting faces of the Lin family, let alone give in to the Lin family.

Because he is still living on the poverty line, he can hardly have any extra expenses.If his injuries continued, he would be forced to die, or forced to kneel down to compromise with the Lin family. This is his uncompromising dignity, and it is his last persistence. Even if he dies, it cannot be changed.

So he can only stand next to each other and cannot resist, not because he is afraid of more people, nor because he is afraid of pain, but because he is afraid of losing the life he still misses, or his last dignity.