one in ten million

Many years later, Gu Chenliu once thought, if the incident with his father hadn't happened at that time, would he have been with that confused worm, and would he not be as distorted as he is now.

Ten years ago, Gu Chenliu's father cheated on an uncle who had been visiting their house for as long as Gu Chenliu could remember. He was a very, very gentle person, but he would often look at his father with very serious expressions. Sad look.

Since childhood, Gu Chenliu felt that his father had always been extremely indifferent to his mother. Although his father did not treat his son like his mother, he still felt that the relationship between his father and him was not like a normal father and son.

At least Gu Chenliu never played with his father like other children.

Perhaps it was because the family was deformed and inherited the blood of his father's indifferent personality, so Gu Chenliu had a very indifferent personality since he was a child, with the indifference that a child of his age should have.

Gu Chenliu once thought that his father was just cold in nature and not good at words, so he treated him and his mother like this.

This idea continued until Gu Chenliu found out about his father's cheating.

His father cheated, and his partner was even a man—the uncle whom Gu Chenliu had a crush on, this incident hit Gu Chenliu very hard.

At that time, the parents at home had a lot of trouble, Gu Chenliu remembered it very clearly.

It was also when the quarrel started to heat up, Gu Chenliu finally learned why his father was so indifferent to his mother and himself during the quarrel between his parents.

Father and that uncle were lovers.

The mother who had liked her father for a long time didn't know that her father liked men at that time, and she simply thought that her father didn't like her mother. In order to marry her father, she played a lot of tricks, and finally even used her children to threaten her father to marry.

A father who is forced to marry someone he doesn't like because of his mother's tricks will naturally not give his mother a good look. For this son who ruined his happiness, his father will naturally not like where he is going.

After that, the mother who had to accept the reality of divorcing her father began to hate homosexuality extremely, and was even more worried about whether Gu Chenliu, who inherited his father's blood, would also fall in love with men like his father.

So every day, Gu Chenliu would be brainwashed by his mother.

"Chen Liu, you must not become gay, you must not be like that man."

"Homosexuality is disgusting! I really don't understand why there are such people in the world!"

Words like these were repeated over and over again, and later, the communication between Gu Chenliu and his mother began to become nothing more than these.

Gu Chenliu, who had lived for more than ten years and finally saw the reality clearly, was hit one after another, and each one was enough to drive him crazy.

A cognition began to form in his immature mind.

——All these and all misfortunes are caused by homosexuality.

Such thoughts continued to expand in Gu Chenliu's mind, coupled with his mother's brainwashing, Gu Chenliu began to feel that it was abnormal for him to have a good impression of that confused worm.

Did this kind of self also inherit the gene of "loving men" from the man who hated him?

Wandering between these kinds of questions every day, Gu Chenliu began to get confused, and finally, he vented all the anger accumulated in those days on that confused worm.

No, it doesn't seem to be entirely correct to say that it was venting. That action was somewhat mixed with self-defeating elements.

Even Gu Chenliu couldn't help feeling that the confused worm was innocent, but he couldn't control his violent emotions.

"Can't be gay."

"You can't be like your father."

Like a mantra, such words kept appearing in Gu Chenliu's mind at that time.

I am afraid that I will become gay like my father; I am afraid that even my mother will not like me; I am afraid that my mother's eyes like looking at dung will be used to look at me...

Later, Gu Chenliu denied the self who fell in love with the worm.

In order to completely destroy that "gay Gu Chenliu", Gu Chenliu did something absolutely irreparable.

Just two days before Gu Chenliu and his mother were going to move to the house under her name after his parents had completed the separation procedures, it was no surprise to Gu Chenliu that the fool was following him.

Gu Chenliu didn't know what the worm was thinking, but Gu Chenliu had already noticed that the worm was following him, just because he thought the worm was interesting and cute before, so he let the worm go up.

But this time is different.

He was going to destroy any possibility that he might even be gay at all.

At the corner, Gu Chenliu caught the worm with the messy black hair.

Gu Chenliu didn't pay much attention when he was in close contact with him for the first time, and he couldn't see his facial features clearly after looking at him from a distance, but this time Gu Chenliu was finally able to see the appearance of this confused insect clearly.

Wearing a pair of ugly, clunky round-rimmed glasses, Misty is actually not good-looking at all.

Probably because he has been staying up all night, there are deep dark circles under his eyes, and there are many freckles and acne on his face, the whole face can be said to be horrible.

Although it doesn't matter for boys to pay special attention to problems such as skin quality, but the skin quality is so bad that people can't help but feel sorry for his skin.

Even now, Gu Chenliu is very curious about why he fell in love with such an ugly little man at that time, and this relationship can even last for so many years without being able to forget it.

"The pervert who has been following me all this time is you!"

Gu Chenliu grabbed Misty Worm's hand, and the frightened Misty Worm's body trembled violently, and he couldn't even speak.

"I, I... no! I, I..."

"Who did you think was following me? It's an ugly man like you!"

Gu Chenliu could clearly see the hurt expression on the confused worm when he said such words.

Gu Chenliu couldn't help but feel a little guilty for the pitiful look of the confused worm with tears in his eyes, but Gu Chenliu felt even more angry that he would feel guilty for this.

In anger, Gu Chenliu ruthlessly pushed Misty Worm to the ground.

Misty Worm fell to the ground, and the short-sleeved Misty Worm's white and thin arms rubbed against the rough concrete floor, resulting in a big scratch.Although he noticed this, Gu Chenliu deliberately ignored his uneasy conscience.

"Stalking men home is disgusting! Thanks to your pervert, we have to move. You don't like men, do you?"

After saying such excessive words, Gu Chenliu gave Misty Worm a disdainful look, as if he was afraid of seeing Misty Worm's scratched arm again and being condemned by his conscience, Gu Chenliu hurried away.

The pitiful appearance of the confused worm that day was deeply engraved in Gu Chenliu's mind.

Condemned by conscience and avoiding the matter of "I fell in love with a man", Gu Chenliu let this matter submerge in the ocean of memory like self-hypnosis.

And all of this was awakened again at the moment of meeting this stalker for the first time.

At first, Gu Chenliu was really angry.

After entering the entertainment industry, it is not uncommon for people to be stalked, but to be honest, it makes Gu Chenliu feel very disgusted and disgusted, no matter whether the partner is a man or a woman.So Gu Chenliu made the same excessive verbal insult to the stalker as that day ten years ago, but the moment he saw the stalker, the confused bug that Gu Chenliu had "forgotten" revived in his memory again.

Should it be confusion?

The anger towards himself and the complicated feelings towards the worm all flooded into his heart, and Gu Chenliu did those things in the end.

When his mind calmed down, Gu Chenliu regretted what he did at the beginning, but he also knew that there was no way to undo it.Even if there is a possibility of being forgiven, it is unlikely that he will find the other party in this world.

But now, the person in front of him, who is ordinary but unexpectedly cute and confused, looks much better than the worm, and that person and the worm give him a very similar feeling. He thinks maybe this is a chance given to him by fate. By chance, he got the "Confusion Bug" again.

Until now, Fuck still has no real sense of the fact of living with Gu Chenliu.

Under Gu Chenliu's suggestion that day, or under coercion and lure, fortunately, he packed up some necessities and moved to Gu Chenliu's house the next day.

On that day, Gu Chenliu asked about the scar on Cao Xing's left hand, but Cao Xing didn't tell the truth.

Firstly, he didn't want Gu Chenliu to feel guilty, and secondly, it was because of selfishness, he was afraid of being hated by Gu Chenliu after telling what happened back then.So in the end, I pretended that I was mischievously injured when I was a child and got away with it.

Gu Chenliu is an actor with a light workload, this does not mean that Gu Chenliu's career is going downhill.

The reason why Gu Chenliu has few jobs is mainly because Gu Chenliu will selectively take on new movies.

About a few days after moving to Gu Chenliu's house, watching Gu Chenliu's new TV series, he asked Gu Chenliu a question that had been entangled in his mind for a long time.

"Why are you very popular, but you have so few scenes?"

If I remember correctly, Gu Chenliu was never asked this question when he was interviewed.

"Why should I shoot a bad script? Unless it's a good script, I won't shoot it. Anyway, after accepting a good script, the money I make is enough for me to spend many years. It's a waste of time to make a bad film. It’s better to spend that time relaxing.”

Speaking coldly, Gu Chenliu noticed that Cao Xing was staring at him on the TV screen with eyes full of admiration, and he couldn't help but feel a little uncomfortable.

"But... if you get more scripts, I can watch you on TV more, what a pity..."

--ah!The protagonist played by Gu Chenliu and the heroine are kissing... so uncomfortable.