casual and fun

Yang Sile stood in an unfamiliar neighborhood, under an unfamiliar building, and looked up.

Look at the windows of Shi Nian's house, look at the T-shirts and trousers hanging on the balcony of Shi Nian's house, look at the place where Shi Nian usually lives, and see what Shi Nian's fearful daily life might be like.

While imagining the scene behind that window, he searched his mind for the memories after reuniting with Shi Nian—what harsh words he said, what he did to hurt him, and what actions he misinterpreted.

He called Shi Nian "sick" several times.

He said to Shi Nian, "You too".

He beat Shi Nian in the face so that no one could see him.

Shi Nian plucked up the courage to come to him to ask the truth, but he took it as a malicious provocation self-righteously, and satirized him mercilessly: "Don't forget the way home."

He had to admit that he actually looked down on Shi Nian's "growth" from the bottom of his heart, and couldn't stop blaming him and belittling him.

He misunderstood everything, including that Shi Nian owed him a friendship that shouldn't be missed.

Yang Sile was slapped in the face by recalling in the milk tea shop. Feeling guilty, he repeatedly begged Fu Yi not to reveal the truth to Shi Nian.

Once Shi Nian matches him with "Brother Yangyang", he will just relive the bewilderment and fear of three years ago, and maybe add new embarrassment and unfamiliarity, which will do no harm but no benefit.

They have to get to know each other again, let go of their prejudices against each other, and slowly correct the trajectory of their relationship.

There was a sudden movement on the balcony that had been silent all afternoon, and a T-shirt was taken off the drying rack. Yang Sile, who was standing dumbfounded under the tree, suddenly regained his spirits and stared at the window.

However, he waited for a long time without any other changes.

Just when he accidentally spilled oil on his body after eating and had to change into clean clothes, the door of the unit in front was pushed open by a fair-skinned hand.

Shi Nian walked out of the building wearing the black T-shirt with capital English letters printed on the chest, carrying the cello on his back.He immersed himself in typing, as if he was chatting with someone, with a faint smile on his lips.

Yang Sile followed the new address given by Fu Yi to find him all the way, just out of an urgency to relieve his guilt, and had no intention of meeting Shi Nian.He still remembered that he said every year that he didn't want to see him again, and he couldn't break his promise without reason.

So his first reaction was to turn around and run away.

However, he really didn't know that Shi Nian was going out at this time today, so it should be considered a coincidence now, right?

With this level of "not deliberate" confidence, Yang Sile became a little more confident.So he stood motionless in the shade, waiting to be discovered.

Shi Nian is enough to give him face.That's how it was determined over there, and this side put away the phone and looked over.

He was too busy chatting with Zhang Qing just now, and didn't pay attention to his surroundings. When he was only one step away from Yang Sile, it was already too late for him to pretend he didn't know each other.

"Shi Nian?"

Yang Sile's eyes widened in astonishment, but a gentle smile couldn't help but flow out of his eyes.He walked up to Shi Nian and shortened the distance between them.

"You live here too?"

Shi Nian had been educated by Shi Zhengguo, and he once worried from the bottom of his heart what he would do if he met Yang Sile at school after school started, and what he would do if he couldn't wait until he could go down the stairs.

However, now that the steps were in front of his eyes, he couldn't lift his legs to step down, and his mind went blank.

Taking advantage of his lack of reaction, Yang Sile seized the time to look at his face and hands, confirming that the bruises and redness from his punch had dissipated, and he was completely relieved.

"I'm here to play with my former classmate, he lives in the unit opposite you. Do you think it's a coincidence?"

Well, the excuse is well made up, and finally I can smile at Nian Nian openly.

Shi Nian just felt creepy: Damn, did this person forget that they had a fight at the end of last month?

"...Oh." He backed away subconsciously, keeping a safe distance from Yang Sile.

Yang Sile didn't mind, and continued to approach: "Are you going out?"

Now Shi Nian is sure that there is definitely something wrong with him: "...What else? On a hot day, I carry my piano on my back and go downstairs for a walk?"

Yang Sile was overjoyed, Niannian didn't hold grudges as he expected at all, and he was willing to answer his words, or this—such a long rhetorical question!

Good good good good.

"Going to practice the piano?" He chased after the victory, "Can we be together? My friend let me go, and I just have nothing to do."

Shi Nian was going to change shifts with Mu Xiangfei in the hospital to give cello lessons to his younger sister. If Yang Sile followed, Mou Xiangfei would probably pack them up and bury them in the flower bed of the hospital.

"No." He refused straight away, hurriedly avoided Yang Sile who seemed to be possessed by a sticky spirit, and walked quickly to the gate of the community.

"Why not?" Yang Sile followed behind him, trying to convince him, "I won't bother you, I'm just bored and can't find a place to go."

The more Shi Nian listened, the more panicked he became, and he couldn't help but wonder if he had forgotten something important in the past two days.

For example, he has already apologized to Yang Sile, and they have reconciled, or Yang Sile deduced from his mistakes in the final performance that he has amnesia, and now he is using this matter to blackmail him.

Yang Sile noticed that Shi Nian sped up his pace again, but he didn't realize that he was in too much haste, and then babbled behind his back.

"Qingjiang is so big, and the summer vacation is so long, it's fate that we meet here today. Why don't we practice piano together? I'll learn from you by the way."

Shi Nian swiped open the door, just wanting to get rid of him quickly and turn over his notebook to find clues.But Yang Sile is like a little tail that is useless except for learning how to speak human beings, always hanging behind him half an arm away.

"Teacher Xue asked me to reflect on my practice ideas and methods. I tried for more than half a month, but the final exam was still very average. I guess there is a problem with the general direction."

"You have such good grades and a solid professional foundation. I want to learn from you. Maybe I can find new ideas. See if this makes sense, Shi Nian?"

Shi Nian ignored him and walked forward dully.

"Shi Nian?"

Without the expected response, Yang Sile was unwilling to give up.

"Help me, Chief Shi."

"May I treat you to dinner?"

The weather was so hot that Shi Nian finally couldn't bear it any longer. He braked suddenly and turned around, angrily venting at him, "What does it matter to me if you don't get good grades? Why should I help you? Do I have an obligation to tutor you?!"

Yang Sile was taken aback, and stared at him blankly, shrinking his neck: "Nian..."

Shi Nian interrupted him without hesitation: "Mu Xiangfei is the number one professional in your profession, why don't you ask him how many hours he only sleeps a day in order to find time to practice the flute for a while? Feel free to ask me?"

He gained the upper hand, and further sneered, "When you dragged Xie Chen into some shit band, you didn't think about what you would do at the end of the semester? I think you are quite confident in yourself, and you even signed up for the final performance, and now you suddenly run away Is it a little fake to come to me and wake up suddenly?"

They parked outside the community, with shops on both sides. Residents coming and going were attracted by the aura of cursing. Shi Nian would have felt ashamed if he wanted to change.But now, he witnessed the shock and embarrassment on Yang Sile's face in turn, and for some reason, he felt the joy similar to the day of the first fight.

"No more to say?"

Satisfied, he lowered his volume, slowed down his speech, took out his phone from his trouser pocket and looked down at the time.

"Yang Sile, not everyone is as idle and boring as you, I'm in a hurry, can you let me go..."

As he spoke, he raised his head again, only to find that the shock and embarrassment on Yang Sile's face had disappeared, only some complex emotions that he could not read remained.

Like sympathy and pity, and connivance.

He was speechless for a moment, unable to believe his eyes.

"Shi Nian, what you said makes sense, I will keep it in my heart."

Yang Sile was extremely calm, not angry at all.

Fu Yi told him that Shi Nian suffered from severe panic disorder because of the anxiety caused by forgetfulness. When he was nervous, he might not be able to control his emotions and body, just like during the final performance.He fully understands this and is subjectively willing to excuse Shi Nian.

"But I hope you will only speak in this tone when you are facing me. Just because I don't care doesn't mean others don't care."

The sweltering summer wind was coming, and Shi Nian seemed to be slapped heavily by the breeze.

Yang Sile lied, he has something to say, he is very sad now.

"You may have misunderstood me." He tried his best to restore his smile, and said patiently, "It's okay, we have a performance during the summer vacation, if you have time, you can come and see it, maybe you will like it, and then find, ah, it turns out The band that Yang Sile pulled Xie Chen into was not... bullshit."

"It's a fun thing to do."

"Yang Sile is also quite a fun person."

Shi Nian had already discovered that Yang Sile had never cursed a single word—at least in front of him—not even when they fought him to the brim.

The highest level of his cursing is still at the level of "sickness", which is indeed rare.

On the other hand, "Chief Shi" is polite and modest. When he is "Shi Nian" in front of Zhang Qinghao and Shi Zhengguo, he is easy to show his original shape, and he can't control his mouth at all.Even though Shi Zhengguo's temper wasn't bad, he was so angry that he turned his face countless times.

What on earth did Yang Sile do to tolerate him like this?

Distilled water?

It can dissolve all his anxiety, boredom and nervousness, and finally give him a handful of regrets.

But there is still one place where this description does not match.

If Yang Sile is really a pool of clear water, then why can't he control himself every time a couple is in this pool of water, and only think about how to vent the long-standing resentment in his heart?Obviously Yang Sile didn't do anything wrong, it was because he couldn't remember him first, and his emotions were involuntarily drawn by him first.

Shi Nian thought of Yang Sile's smile of repaying his grievance with virtue, and his ears burned with shame.

It just keeps on thinking about it all the time.

Mu Xiangfei's younger sister climbed halfway up the scale, saw that he was blushing abnormally, put down the bow and asked seriously: "Mr. Xiaobai, are you feeling well? If you feel uncomfortable, let's finish class early, and I will accompany you to find the doctor sister. "

Shi Nian realized that he was distracted again, raised his breath, took a deep breath, shook his head and denied: "No."

The little girl looked at him eagerly, obviously not believing it.

Shi Nian corrected: "I've said it many times, don't call me Teacher Xiaobai, I'm not a teacher."

The little girl is in good spirits today, and insisted on asking: "Brother Ke Xiangfei said that anyone who is willing to teach me is a teacher."

The two were sitting in the gazebo downstairs of the inpatient department, surrounded by other patients and family members. It was inconvenient for Shi Nian to speak too bluntly, so he had to tell her: "This rule doesn't work for me."

The little girl couldn't understand: "What is invalid?"

"It means it doesn't count." Shi Nian straightened her hand, "Let's continue practicing the piano, and you can play it for your brother when he comes back from work."

Children love to break the casserole and ask the end: "Why doesn't it count? Teacher Xiaobai, you have taught me a lot!"

Shi Nian felt even worse when he saw her worrying about this matter.

How could he assign such a simple and sensible child as a teacher?He is self-willed and presumptuous, he is more strict with others than himself, and thinks that he is the worst person in the world, and that everyone owes him a little, and he can't even do the very least not to vent his anger.

"Because," he patted the little girl's forehead and said with a smile, "I'm a bad guy, I can't help but get angry with people close to me, and regret it after I get angry. Don't learn from me."

The little girl swayed her legs holding the cello: "Is this wrong?"

Shi Nian pressed her knees: "Don't shake your legs when playing the violin!"

The little girl stopped shaking her legs, and stretched out her hand to gesture instead: "But brother Xiangfei told me, it's still a good child to know what I'm doing wrong."

Shi Nian was almost slapped in the face by the banging of the bow in her hand, and quickly leaned back to stop him: "Look, look! It's not right for you to look like this!"

The little girl stopped her hands immediately, and sat upright with her buttocks twisted: "I changed it! So I am a good boy among good boys, Brother Xiangfei said it!"

"Yeah, good boy." Shi Nian bent down and pulled down her slack trousers to prevent her from being bitten by mosquitoes, "Do you have another brother? Why don't you just call Mou Xiangfei 'brother'? Add a name in front?"

"Because the doctor's sister is the doctor's sister, and the neighbor's aunt is the neighbor's aunt, so I have to call Brother Xiangfei, which sounds nice."

Shi Nian actually understood the repeated twists and turns.The little girl has grown up to the age of pursuing perfection, and the address must be opposite, neat, and have the same number of words.

"So I'm Brother Xiaobai, not Brother Bai, right?"

"Yes, yes!" The little girl seemed to be waiting for someone to discover the secret, and she laughed happily, "Brother Xiaobai is so smart, he is a good boy among good children!"

Shi Nian straightened up, seeing her sincere admiration, his heart immediately softened.

He leaned over and rubbed her head, and said sincerely: "Thank you, Brother Xiaobai will work hard."

Yang Sile put on a sun protection suit he bought from the hospital supermarket over his school uniform, and sat quietly on the promenade connected to the gazebo, listening to them talk.

Two hours ago, because he was worried about Shi Nian, he quietly followed him on the same subway.

He thought that he would go to a certain professional piano room every year, but unexpectedly, he came to this cancer hospital.

Fortunately, he had the cheek to follow in, otherwise he wouldn't know, in fact, he misunderstood more things than he thought.

It turned out that Mu Xiangfei didn't live in school and didn't take professional self-study classes. He slept in school every day because he had to work several jobs at the same time.I worked several jobs at the same time because I wanted to treat my sister.

Niannian didn't make friends carelessly, or deliberately confronted him, but because he wanted to teach Mou Xiangfei's younger sister the cello, so he came to the Minle Building every Friday to wait for Mou Xiangfei to finish his get out of class.

Only now did Yang Sile truly understand what Shi Nian said, that Mu Xiangfei only slept for a few hours a day in order to find time to practice the flute for a while, not to belittle him, but to empathize with hating the injustice of fate.

No one has an easy life, except himself.

He turned on his phone and brought up the dialog with Shi Nian, wanting him to know right now that he is really a kind person and definitely not a bad boy.

However, after thinking about it for a long time, no matter how he worded it, it still seemed abrupt.

He had no choice but to open the list of emojis, rummaged through them for a long time, and carefully sent out an emoji.

Shi Nian's phone in his pocket vibrated, subconsciously thinking that Zhang Qinghao was sharing the game link with him again, so he didn't open it in a hurry.After he finished class, he took the little girl back to the ward and watched an episode of cartoons with her before confirming the news on the way home.

To his surprise, the only unread message was not from Zhang Qinghao, but from Yang Sile.

Startled inwardly, he stopped abruptly, hovering his fingertips on the screen for a while, hesitating.

Muster up the courage to click on it, there is no other content, there is really only an emoji package for push notifications.

[Rub face face].

Two chicks, one big and one small, cuddled together and rubbed each other's faces.

"What the hell..."

Mental preparation was in vain.

Shi Nian stared at this emoji pack repeatedly on the street, trying to understand what Yang Sile wanted to express.It's a pity that he can't read such a stick figure that has no words and can be used everywhere.

Anyway, it's definitely not angry.

Shi Nian gave up and continued to be serious with these two chicks who were busy rubbing their faces, and his mood was completely relaxed.

Well, let's take a closer look without any purpose... To be honest, he didn't expect Yang Sile to have such an aesthetic appreciation for emoticons——

"So childish."

Shi Nian laughed unconsciously, immediately long-pressed "View Album" and clicked "Add".