Criminal Psychology

Duanyang turned off most of the lights in the laboratory, turned on a desk lamp, and sat down beside Lin Chen.

He was very afraid that Lin Chen would suddenly be unable to survive in the middle of the night, so he could only use the most primitive method to disinfect Lin Chen's wound regularly.Fortunately, there was enough anhydrous alcohol in the laboratory. Although it was useless, he still cut open a lab coat, dipped it in diluted alcohol, and let Lin Chen sandwich it under his armpits and apply it on his forehead to cool down.

Surprisingly, Lin Chen cooperated well.

There was a faint smell of alcohol in the air, and Duanyang felt that he was almost drunk. Thinking of Lin Chen's previous words, and seeing Mr. Consultant's haggard face lying beside him, he subconsciously asked: "Consultant Lin, the person you love What is it like?"

Duanyang felt remorse after the words were out of his mouth. He would definitely be scolded by Lin Chen again for asking such a question.

"A very handsome man."

What Duanyang didn't expect was that Lin Chen actually answered him.

"Hey, it's actually handsome. I thought you would have some other adjectives."

"Is it too vulgar?"

"No, no." Duanyang thought to himself, Lin Chen's tastes are indeed different, and he actually likes handsome girls.

"It's like this, handsome is for everyone to see, but only I know his inner beauty." Lin Chen added.

"Then...then does he know that you love him?" Duanyang was a little confused, but still tried to ask.

"I know, I confess."

As if seeing his thoughts, Lin Chen opened his eyes slightly, and squinted at him: "Do you want to ask in the next sentence: Consultant Lin, how did you confess your love?"

"I just...ask." Duanyang hesitated.

"At that time...it was basically an accident, I kissed him forcefully." Lin Chen said calmly.

Duanyang was shocked again: "Isn't that girl frightened by you?"

"What girl, he's a man."

Hearing this, Duan Yang almost bit his own tongue: "What...what do you like men?"

"As long as you have a crush on your teacher Duan, don't I like men?"

"That's not what I meant." Duan Yang hurriedly waved his hands, "But is the person you like a policeman?"

"Yeah, it's a superior."

Lin Chen was already dying of illness, but he was still talking to him in a very decisive tone, as if his physical illness could not affect his will at all.

Duan Yang asked again: "Will there be any problems, such as disagreement from your leaders, gossip among colleagues?"

"A lot of people talk nonsense every day. Do I have to listen to everything they say and keep it in my heart?"

"You really are..." Duanyang couldn't help leaning against the experimental table, his legs stretched out, "It's amazing."

"What kind of evaluation is this?"

"To be honest, Consultant Lin, I really want to be someone like you..."

Lin Chen said, "Is the following half a sentence: If I were like you, I might already be with the teacher by now."

"Impossible... Teacher can't be with me." Duanyang interrupted him.

"Just say what you want, I won't ask why."

Duanyang lowered his head, looked at Lin Chen's dark and peaceful eyes, and said, "Because I did something too much to the teacher."

Lin Chen frowned, and his expression became serious: "What did you do?"

Duanyang gently covered his face with his hands, recalling that night, the feeling of remorse submerged him again like a sea of ​​water: "That day, our laboratory was involved in a big project, and everyone stayed up for many days and nights, and the seniors were also very excited. Yes, the teacher also came that day. Something went wrong with the experiment. The teacher stayed late and said to sleep in the lounge. If something goes wrong, you can call him at any time. There were not enough beds in the lounge, so I made a bed next to the teacher's bed , but the teacher told me to go to bed, don’t catch a cold, so I went up. So, I... I slept in the same bed with the teacher.”

"Um...then what?"

"Then, we fell asleep. I really liked the teacher. The teacher was sleeping next to me. I couldn't help hugging him and kissing him. The teacher must have known. After that, the teacher seemed to be in a bad mood. After the experiment was over, he never came again during that summer vacation. Later, we received news that he had resigned to participate in a medical aid operation. He must have known that I kissed him and hated me but didn’t want to affect me before he left. ..." Duanyang stopped, took a deep breath, and continued, "At the beginning, I kept calling him every day and sending countless text messages. I wanted to apologize to him, I wanted to say sorry, but His phone is always turned off, and his text messages have never been returned. Later, I heard about him from the senior sister who followed his footsteps. I asked the senior sister to ask the teacher tentatively. The teacher made it clear that I should not go. Dana, stay in China.” Duanyang rubbed his eyes, “Thinking about it now, I’m still not brave enough. I didn’t realize it until I got here. It’s just such a short distance. I should have bought a plane ticket and took a few more trains. You can see the teacher and apologize to him face to face. Duanyang became more and more depressed. Thinking of so many emails that have been sent but have not been heard from, he was suddenly too sad to speak, "It's all my fault, I'm sorry...really sorry……"

"Come here." Lin Chen said suddenly.

Duanyang looked at him with red eyes.

"Keep your head down a little."

According to Lin Chen's instructions, he lowered his head for no reason, and the next moment, a thin palm gently covered the top of his head, and then rubbed the hair on his forehead.

"Why are you so stupid? If it's because he hates your kisses and hugs, he can think of [-] ways to punish you. Why did he leave by himself?"

Duan Yang heard him say that.

……

When Duan Wanshan started telling the story, Xing Conglian already regretted it.

Because Duan Wanshan is about to die, no matter how sweet the story he tells, it is of course a tragedy. Although the tragedy is thought-provoking, I always feel bad when I listen to it.

"Actually, I'm not that great. I gave up my high-paying domestic medical school job to help medical care in Dana because I fell in love with my students."

Xing Conglian's cigarette had just finished burning, and he almost burned his fingers. He looked at the doctor sitting on the haystack leaning against the wall, and asked, "It's so explosive, teacher-student love?"

"Yeah, he's still a boy." Duan Wanshan said calmly.

Xing Conglian stared at Duan Wanshan with wide eyes.

Probably because of his reaction, Duan Wanshan said: "At that time, I felt that I fell in love with a man, who was still a student, like a bolt from the blue. Such young boys, who are taller than you, surround you every day and call you teacher, teacher, wholeheartedly. I respect and admire you, but you think about things that are far beyond the friendship between teachers and students, and you feel that you are particularly immoral. Anyway, falling in love is the same as taking drugs, it stimulates the brain to secrete dopamine. I am happy when I see him, and I like it very much , anyway, it doesn’t make sense to like it. So compared to others, I take special care of him. He thinks I’m targeting him, so he keeps looking at me with deer-like eyes, running around every day, just to make me treat him so nicely. little bit."

When Duan Wanshan talked about this incident, his tone was very calm, without even the slightest pain, and he seemed very happy.

"From when you like someone to when you make up your mind to leave someone, something must have happened between them?"

"Of course. At the beginning, I couldn't think about it. Although I liked it, I didn't dare to fight for it. Of course, I also thought about confessing to the students, but I didn't feel embarrassed. Anyway, I just put it off. Until one day, I heard that he Talking about a girlfriend, I watched the girl hook his hand into the school, he stretched out his hand and rubbed the girl's head, the picture was beautiful...I realized that I could finally let go."

"You don't call letting go."

Duan Wanshan just put the wine bottle on the ground, but this time he couldn't find it after touching the ground for a long time.Xing Conglian looked at his out-of-focus gaze, probably because the toxins brought by sepsis invaded his optic nerve, causing his vision to gradually fade.He reached out, picked up the bottle of Niulanshan Erguotou, and handed it to Duan Wanshan.

"Yeah, it's not called letting go. I haven't owned it before. How can it be called letting go?" Duan Wanshan took a sip of wine and said, "At that time, I happened to see the introduction of the Dana area and the recruitment announcement of Doctors Without Borders, so I went to participate in it." Now that I think about it, I should have seen him talk about a girlfriend at the time, so I was angry, but I had no reason to get angry, I could only abuse myself. Now that I have sent my life here, I really regret it in retrospect, why I couldn’t figure it out at the time .”

"It's really stupid." Xing Conglian commented.

In a daze, Xing Conglian seemed to see Duan Wanshan giving him the middle finger.This kind of action was done by a man who looked like an old farmer and was full of suave scholarly air in his bones. It was so out of harmony that he didn't have time to react, so he just listened to Duan Wanshan continue.

"Less standing and talking will not hurt your back. When encountering emotional problems, not everyone can be like you, have the determination, perseverance, or even full ability to pursue what you love. Many people don't even know their own. Feelings, letting go of true love amidst hesitation..."

"Of course I don't have a backache, because I met this kind of person who is determined, persistent and even dares to pursue what I love." Xing Conglian said.

Duan Wanshan almost spit out the wine he swallowed, flushed on his face, turned his head and said angrily: "Don't you think it's too much to show affection to a dying person?"

Xing Conglian spread his hands: "I'm just telling the truth."

"I envy you very much." Duan Wanshan raised the wine bottle and saluted him from afar.

"I envy myself too." Xing Conglian said seriously.

That night, Duan Wanshan probably really regarded him as a confidant and said a lot to him.

Why do you hope that he can help bring some news out, let the colleagues of the Dana General Hospital act as the dean temporarily, and take care of the hospital's affairs on behalf of the hospital.When talking about this, Duan Wanshan also mentioned that the hospital is short of funds recently, and it would be best if someone can invest more.

Xing Conglian always felt that the other party was taking the opportunity to rob the rich and help the poor, but the wish of a person like Duan Wanshan before his death was so simple. He also asked him if he knew any rich money, and hoped that someone would invest some more money to facilitate the observation of the Dana rainforest virus. The establishment of the outpost.Duan Wanshan said that if such an observation site existed at that time, AIDS might not have had the opportunity to spread out of the African rainforest and kill tens of millions of people around the world, so it was quite important.

Duan Wanshan really talked too much. In the end, Xing Conglian couldn't bear it anymore and asked, "Don't you think it's too much to ask a person you just met?"

"Then what can I do, I'm dying, and there are still so many things to do, so tell someone what's wrong?" Duan Wanshan said.

Probably because he was too righteous, Xing Conglian couldn't think of any rebuttal at all: "Why don't you tell me about you and your student, what do you need me to bring to him?"

Duan Wanshan shook his head: "It's too deliberate to let him know that I'm dead and bring him my belongings."

"Then what do you want?"

"I think he'd make a good doctor."

……

Xing Conglian walked out of the room and closed the door gently.

Many of the Gaomeng people in the factory were instantly awake, looking at him with vigilant but questioning eyes.

Without words, Xing Conglian glanced at the door and nodded to everyone, indicating that Dr. Duan is still alive, but this life is only temporary.

Xing Cong looked around, Wang Chao was operating the computer in the corner, and the rest of the people were gone.

Xing Conglian walked over, patted the young man on the shoulder, and said to him: "Find out the video at home, I want to see him."