A young master lives downstairs in my house

"I fell in love with you, you are always in my mind, from now on, everyone I like has your shadow."

The paper is a little yellowed due to dampness, but this line of black ink writing is clear and easy to read. Each stroke is completely different from the immature and fuzzy fonts around it. The strength that is about to pass through the back of the paper seems to call for its freshness. Spend.

I held a page of the paper, picked it up and shook it, and then put it down again after hearing a tear.

I tore more than half of the paper apart, leaving a small piece wretched there pitifully, showing signs of destruction at any time.

I sighed, carefully aligned the broken half of the paper, and gently closed the diary.

After I finished, I lay paralyzed on the bed, my mind was full of what happened in the evening.

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In fact, my life is really contradictory. For example, I am actually very cowardly but I can't help but get angry a few times. For example, I am comforting a person one second, and I can't stop getting angry at him the next second.

Just like when I said that sentence to Yang Huan coldly, for a moment, my mask that I usually built was destroyed to pieces, and at the same time, my work might still be there.

Looking at his expression with mixed feelings, I suddenly thought maliciously that Xiao Danran would not let me be fired.

I don't know if Yang Huan thought the same as me, but his expression was extremely complicated, and in the end he seemed to have thought of his self-cultivation, and left without saying anything.

Of course I know the second half of Yang Huan's unfinished sentence. College students are bored when they don't have classes. I don't know who first talked about that bullshit relationship, or who first discovered it. In my major where straight men are everywhere, It can be described as a shocking event.

Not to mention the drama I made in the forum later.

I don’t really mind these things. In addition to those who eat melons, there are also all kinds of voices on the forum:

No matter how deeply this person fell in love with you, as long as he is a straight man, he will still marry and have children in the end.

The most ridiculous thing is that I was persuaded that meeting, and I still remember it vividly.

Yang Huan's kind reminder was to let me not repeat the same mistakes and misjudged the wrong person, but what I couldn't help thinking was: Did I repeat the same mistakes and use Xiao Danran as a substitute.

I somehow hated the idea of ​​Yang Huan, and then I calmed down, sat in front of the computer and let myself go, and realized that my sudden anger was not only because I thought Yang Huan was meddling and thinking too much, but more because I was angry from embarrassment. Xiao Danran was just not sure.

A while ago, I struggled with knowing nothing about him, but I told myself that this is love, beautiful and innocent, like a fool.

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In the evening Xiao Danran replied to my message, I swiped away the screen, and before I finished replying, his call came in.

When I connected the phone, Xiao Danran's brisk voice came over:

"Lin An, are you off work?"

"Just got off."

The background on the other end of the microphone was very quiet, and I heard a ding, probably he was waiting for the elevator.

"Then come down, I'll take you to dinner~" he said.

After I went downstairs, I saw the familiar car in the morning parked in front of the door. I suppressed the little joy in my heart and got into the car expressionlessly.

Xiao Danran was looking down at her mobile phone, she didn't raise her head when she heard the sound of the door closing when I got into the car, and just pressed the door lock casually.

I glanced over and saw him clattering away typing.

After 10 minutes, he finally raised his head. He put his phone aside and turned to look at me: "I was just answering an email."

I groaned and didn't say anything else.

He looked at me, put his hands on the steering wheel, but didn't start the car for a long time.

I couldn't figure out what he meant, so after hesitating for a moment, I asked, "...where shall we eat?"

He seemed to have received a satisfactory response, and smiled: "I'll take you there."

At night, the neon lights on the side of the road are intertwined, and the car is sometimes bright and sometimes dark.

I took advantage of the darkness under the car to look at Xiao Danran blatantly.

His hair, which he had done in the morning, was completely slumped, and most of his tie was loose. The light from the window made most of his side face hidden in the darkness, with a three-dimensional and strange beauty.

I have to admit that this man's facial features are really good-looking. Although I can't remember the face of the young Bai Yueguang, it must be a handsome face. After all, apart from the familiar atmosphere, among the few people I have liked Without exception, he is also very handsome.

I looked at his side face, and unconsciously became dazed, until he stopped the car and looked into my eyes suspiciously.

"What's wrong?" He asked strangely, "Did I get something on my face?"

"There was a mosquito just now." I said without changing my face, and for a moment I didn't think about where the mosquito came from in this cold weather.

Whatever the hell, the cockroaches are showing up, and I don't think anything is impossible anymore.

In fact, Xiao Danran didn't realize the omission of this sentence at all, he said nervously: "Isn't it? Where are you?"

"I don't know where I flew to." I quickly opened the door and got out of the car, feeling extremely guilty.

Xiao Danran followed me after locking the car, we walked for a while, he and I said at the same time, "What do you want to eat?"

I was speechless, "Isn't that where you brought me?"

He was also quite helpless, "You walk in front like a leader."

In summary, neither of them knew what to eat.

Xiao Danran explained that this is the nearest food street that he found online.

"There are so many to eat, let's choose one." He said.

I don't know if other people have this kind of problem, anyway, I have it, Xiao Danran obviously also has it, it's the difficulty in choosing.

The food street is small but very long. It is said that it was an alley before the urban planning, but later it was transformed into a shop area, and gradually evolved into a food street. There are various restaurants standing on both sides. The aroma of food.

Xiao Danran and I walked side by side, walking through the entire street like a leader inspecting the menu. The waiter at the door read the menu after menu, and finally stood at the exit of the food street, hungry.

"What... do you want to eat?" Xiao Danran asked me with his head lowered as he rubbed his stomach.

I asked back, "What do you want to eat?"

The scene fell silent.

"How about this," I thought of a way after a long time, "Look again, if you see something you really want to eat, just go in and eat it."

He agreed, and the two walked back again.

After a while we stood at the entrance of the food street again, and I heard Xiao Danran's stomach growl.

I didn't bother to laugh at him because my stomach growled right after.

"Didn't you just go in if you saw something okay..." I was so entangled, depressed, and still hungry.

His expression was more uncomfortable than mine, "But I think every one is delicious."

I was speechless, feeling a little complicated for a while.

"Just the first one, don't choose."

The first one is a small two-story building, but there are two restaurants open at the same time. The lights on the second floor are extremely bright, compared to the one on the first floor, which is extremely dim, and the name of the restaurant is hard to see clearly. .

Without hesitation, I turned my gaze to the pizzeria on the second floor, and asked the people beside me, "Can I eat this?"

Xiao Danran nodded, "I've eaten at this restaurant and its chain stores."

I have never eaten pizza from this restaurant, so I asked casually, "Is it delicious?"

He glanced at me thoughtfully, "It's quite delicious, but I eat Sichuan spicy food, you don't like spicy food."

"It's okay, just try another flavor." I didn't think much of this unique pizza flavor, after all, even spicy ice cream debuted on Weibo a while ago.

To put it bluntly, human beings are not afraid to eat anything except unexpected.

Finally we decided on a place to eat, Xiao Danran and I felt a lot more relaxed, he said happily: "Actually, what I ate before was also mandarin duck flavor."

I was shocked, what is it, mandarin duck-flavored pizza?I glanced at the entrance of the pizzeria, which was very small and fresh, and went upstairs with mixed feelings.

Before I could react, I took a glance and found Xiao Danran pushed open the door of the restaurant on the first floor.

When he saw me going upstairs, he was taken aback for a moment, and stopped in the state of pushing the door.

So he and I were upstairs and downstairs, with the words "what's going on" written on our faces.

"Don't you want pizza?"

"Don't you want to eat hot pot?"

We both spoke at the same time.

I found that I have no other tacit understanding with him, the only tacit understanding is in the dialogue, not answering the conversation, but rushing to speak the sand sculpture speech at the same time.

At the end of the pizza we both ate, Xiao Danran cut off half of the pizza and put it on my plate, and cut another piece for himself.

The pizza is freshly baked, very chewy, and full of strong cheese flavor after the entrance.

I am not used to knives and forks. I usually use gloves directly when I eat pizza. I raised my head and was about to call the waiter, but I saw the man opposite me pick up the knife and fork solemnly, and cut the small piece naturally. Pieces of pizza.

Xiao Danran cuts slowly, before I would have insisted that this guy is handsome, but after going through the identity change in the morning, I suddenly felt that this is what he really looks like.

Out of place.

It was the first word that came to my mind.

His behavior after get off work just now was so natural, as if nothing happened, so that I forgot for a moment that this guy had changed from a second neighbor to my immediate boss overnight.

I thought of his posture when he called himself the young master every time, and I laughed in my heart. Even if I fell in love with him because of the heartbeat and familiarity, I still regarded him as a giant baby because of this.

I thought he was the typical type who would not survive the young master's illness.

It was only then that I realized that this guy's identity is really different from mine, not only that, but it may be very different.

"Xiao Danran," I stared at the pizza in front of me, and said slowly, "You owe me an explanation."

He had a big reaction, the fork in his hand fell off and hit the edge of the plate with a bang, he ahed, as if suddenly remembering something, "I forgot..."

"I had a meeting all day and I forgot to explain to your manager that you were late..."

I:"…………"

Seeing that I was silent, he looked worried, "Your manager didn't mention you, did he?"

I lowered my eyes and swallowed the last bite of pizza without making a sound.

Xiao Danran's voice was a little anxious, "He said you? The one in the blue suit, right? I'll tell him tomorrow..."

"No need." I put the knife and fork away neatly, grabbed my coat and left.

I heard Xiao Danran calling my name from behind, I pushed open the door of the restaurant, walked out, and took a deep breath.

I rely on,

So cold.

I was putting on my coat and rubbing my face as I walked briskly. Pedestrians passed by from time to time, and the atmosphere of laughter and laughter seemed to melt the cold winter.I rubbed my face to heat it up, walked to the side of the road, and squatted down.

Xiao Danran should have run out after paying the bill, panting slightly, holding a small receipt in his hand.

He probably thought I would go straight away, and he seemed relieved when he saw me squatting obediently by the side of the road.

"Lin An?" He walked up to me and asked cautiously, "Are you all right?"

I looked up at him, saw his bangs blown by the wind, and his slightly frowned brows, with worries and doubts in his eyes.

A few people passed by the side of the road, looking at us curiously.

"Let's go." I stood up straight and walked to the place where he parked.

Xiao Danran didn't say anything, but followed quickly, and unlocked the car door for me in advance.

On the way back, I sat in my seat, feeling the texture of the seat belt in front of me with my fingers, and my mind was in a mess.

My little emotions were blown away by the wind after leaving the restaurant, and I subconsciously felt that my heart was also blown.

chilling.

Logically speaking, I shouldn't get too entangled. No matter how you look at it, an older bachelor fell in love with a little boy, and it happened that the boy also liked him. The two got together naturally, and the script ended happily.

But I always deviate from the script from time to time. For a while, I feel that I am a scumbag, using someone as a substitute, and then I tell myself that he is him, not someone else.

I finally untied the messy end of the thread, and pulled it, but found that the wool on that end was already in a mess, and the more I pulled it, the more disturbed it became.

I passed my level and found out that I actually knew nothing about Xiao Danran. When I was young and ignorant, I could tell myself that it doesn't matter, as long as I love him.

But life is not a script.

I closed my eyes and realized that the ups and downs of my emotional journey were all due to my thinking too much.

But if you invest in it, why don't you think about it.

"What's our relationship?" I said abruptly, not thinking about the fact that this guy was driving and not talking.

He froze for a moment, glanced at me, and immediately turned his head to look ahead, "Male...boyfriend?"

I sighed, "Actually, how did you like me?"

He didn't answer, but instead asked me, "What about you?"

"Face." I tugged at the corner of my mouth.

"I thought……"

"Why?"

"Forget it," he smiled, "I said I forgive you before."

I frowned, feeling a little annoyed.

Why do you never speak about yourself?

Are you really rough or you don't want to say it?

I didn't ask the exit until I passed two traffic lights.

At the third intersection, when waiting for the red light, he turned around and looked at me fixedly.

Not to be outdone, I looked back, "Why?"

He sighed like me, "Lin An, are you angry?"

I think Xiao Danran is a very magical species, except for his brain, he can always make you have some emotions inexplicably, maybe it's just aimed at me.

"Yeah," I was curious about his reaction, and decided to be self-willed, "I'm angry."

He didn't ask me why I was angry.

So much so that the belly draft I wrote full of emotion was useless.

Xiao Danran frowned: "Lin An, have you reached menopause?"