G soldier diary

It wasn't until we distanced ourselves that we realized that what we wanted was never the same.What I want is spiritual companionship, what Xiaojun wants is physical companionship.

Is being a soldier a test, or is it creating an emotional incident that shouldn't have happened at all?

After Xiaojun took a shower, I was in a daze on the bed, and he also sat across from me.We sat cross-legged on the bed facing each other.The video on the phone has been deleted, all that is needed now is a confession.

"What's wrong with you?" Xiaojun's eyes were very sincere.

"It's been nearly two months, and I have nothing to do with you, "

"Otherwise, what else do you want? Aren't you a soldier?"

"I'm in the army, so I only need the slightest contact, but there's nothing like that. 』

"Forget it, then can we still be like this?" Xiaojun's face was expressionless, but his eyes were red.

"I'm not that kind of person. 』

"I can't do it." Xiao Jun's voice blowing his nose.

"I really can't help it, I'm tired. 』

We looked at each other silently.

His beautiful tired face, a transparent line was drawn on his cheek, and my vision was also blurred for a while.

"Don't cry, it makes me want to cry too." 』I felt hot all over my face.

Watching each other cry, but can't think of words of comfort.I don't want to say that the next one will be better, stabbing each other shouldn't heal each other, it's all so hard.Although we still have love, what we want is different.You never know why I'm upset and I'm tired of teaching you how to be in a relationship.

"Fuck, no, but our sex is so good, not even friends with benefits?" He smiled through tears.

"I don't need a friend with benefits. 』

If you are soft-hearted, it will be me again when your heart aches on weekdays.

The one-year anniversary of the relationship that was skipped was really too hurt.

I've never been sexually dissociative, and I'm really not a fucking man in that regard.

"Blow..." We looked at each other and kept crying, and the tears dripped down on the calves sitting cross-legged.Crying so weakly, so not knowing what to do.Our minds are filled with pictures of happiness once, and these memories are desperately shattered and scratched our hearts.

Unable to bear it, we hugged each other who were hot.

"Hum..." Xiao Jun cried out, but couldn't see his expression.

I also used an ugly expression and broke down in tears.

More than a year ago, I saw you at the K Book Center, and I saw the most beautiful scenery in my life, and I have been chasing you for more than a month.I was so amazed at that time, how could there be such a handsome boy who could play sports, and it was a prestigious school that would make the elders feel young.I accidentally found that our bodies fit so well, and the frequent thunder and lightning made up for the high wall that you didn't want me to enter your life outside your circle.

But the long-distance part, we completely failed.

Once the distance is far away, you will forget that there is me.If it's a classmate who doesn't chat with you because they changed seats and isn't next door, are they still friends?

"You're going to find a... better one, you know?" 』I couldn't pronounce clearly.

"You're really good at speaking beautiful words...you don't want to read that kind of inspirational book all the time."

"Okay. 』

I opened the door, and the corgi was still happily wagging its tail at me inside the iron gate, but I didn't stop there and shut it inside the gate.No matter how cute it is, it's just cute.

You are not bad, it's just that the quality of your relationship is too bad now.

Stepping out of the elevator to the spacious atrium, there are always boys who will take me on the bus, but this time I am alone.

The spacious roadside is full of buses with flashing LEDs, and that convenience store, how many drinks have we bought in it.

As soon as the bus door opened, I took out my Easy Card.

"Beep beep." The bus started and passed countless routes.

Looking at the crowded road, I feel that something has been drained, the city has suddenly become so empty, the memories are so fierce, the streets are full of traffic, who can I embrace.

"Taipei Main Station."

This chest hurts so much, that happiness is the same, but this sadness has thousands of kinds.

Occasionally slipping tears, as long as you don't wipe them, no one will notice.

"Beep beep!" platform.

"Beep beep!" The train station.

"Beep beep!" The bus.

"Ding dong."

"Ouch! You're back!" Mom was lying in the living room watching TV and bounced up.

"You really live in the living room, right? 』

"Stop talking." My mother ran to the kitchen enthusiastically. "Here are the hairy crabs given to us by our neighbors."

There are some things that you know will happen, but you don't know until they happen. "Knowing" is not better at all.

I go back to my room and turn on my iPhone. There are some unread messages on Line, and there is a +999 group, I quit after saying hello.When I am irritable, I always cut off interpersonal relationships unconsciously.

A big headshot of a hip-hop boy flashed across his pupils, and Xiaoyu's hazy DJ photo had a three-sentence message beside it.

"Hello"

"Ihava holiday."

The "(smiley)" date is a day ago.

What the fuck?I sneered, what kind of robot knocking method is this?I am extremely warm, but the words are so cold.Even so, let me be alone for a while.

This silence is four days.

On the way to collect the leave, I bought a three-layer storage cabinet with drawers. The seniors said that it can be placed in the internal cabinet.At Keelung Station, we made an appointment.

Little Chen Kun, the corrupt officials, and the uncle gathered with me again.

Thinking about how amazing it was to go out with Xiaoyu at the beginning, most people would never want to go out with the same ladder on vacation, would they?Every time I see Tong Lai's face, I think about going in again and being telegraphed by the seniors, which is fundamentally classical.

"I'm sure I will be transferred, within about a week." The uncle said with a smile.

"Damn! Don't~~~don't leave us!" Se Kai grabbed the uncle's collar and shook it back and forth.

"We will miss you." Melancholy Hong.

"That's what No. [-] said just now, and No. [-] said you should go, maybe a very upright pseudo-mother will be transferred here." You Hong, again showing split personality.