Fall in love with special forces

While tossing and turning on the bed, the door opened slightly, and Guan Shijie walked in.But he didn't dare to turn on the light, he just crawled onto the bed in the dark, and gently stretched out his hand to hold me in his arms.I didn't struggle, so I let him hold me.

After a while, he started looking for my lips, and I gave him a slight push.

"Ajie, I don't want to do it! I said I want to be quiet for a few days. If you can't sleep, you can move to the next door first!"

His body was a little stiff, and after a while, he begged me.

"Wife! How can you believe that I want to be with you all my life?"

"It's not that I don't believe it, I just think... It's too difficult for two men to live together, and there are too many things to face in the future. Since you can like women, there is no need to bear this pressure at all!"

"But I'm willing to bear it!" He roared, but immediately lowered his voice, "Okay! If you don't want to do it, then don't do it. I'll just hug you, okay?"

"Hug it, it's just... don't call me wife anymore!"

He stiffened again, and for another moment, he gently released me from his arms.

"I'll listen to what you say, I'd better go to sleep next to you first!"

He got up and got out of bed.I clearly felt a little choking in his voice, which made my tears finally come out, bit by bit, soaking my pillow.

I didn't sleep well all night, and on the second day, I vaguely felt that Guan Shijie came into the room and kissed me on the mouth, but when I was fully awake, he had already left.

He came back late at night, and I was already asleep, but not asleep, but when he came into the room, I closed my eyes and didn't move.He sat on the bedside and looked at me quietly by the light coming in from the living room, for a long, long time, so long that I couldn't help but open my eyes, then he leaned in and kissed me again, then walked out the door, for me Close the door.

It was like this for a few days after that.Because I didn't want to meet him, I went to bed very early every day. When he came back, he would always enter the room and look at me and sit blankly for a while, then kiss me before going out.The next morning, he would come in and kiss me first before going out.

And often being kissed by him like this makes me feel very uncomfortable, and I can't fall asleep for a long time.So much so that I went back to school after the summer vacation, and I was listless at school.

The management in the university is loose, I am several years older than other students, and I don't live in the school dormitory, basically I don't even know the students in the same department.I used to go home after class, but now I often sit with a book in any place on campus. In fact, I don’t really read a book, but just sit there in a daze.

On the fourth day of school, I had no class that day, but I really didn't want to stay at home alone, so I went to school anyway.I randomly found a class that I was interested in, and after listening to it, I went to the campus to find a big tree to lean against, staring at the blue sky, letting my thoughts wander outside the sky with the few white clouds, until I felt that someone was walking towards me. Come closer, and called me: "Ma Xiaole!"

When I regained consciousness, I saw a person standing in front of me, very thin and refreshing, it was Xiao Yanggao.

"It's you!"

I was about to stand up when he first asked, "Can I sit down?"

"What's wrong?" I made a gesture of invitation.

"Because...that report!" He smiled wryly, "Many people know that I am gay and I was adopted by others, so... people who used to have a good relationship don't dare to touch me anymore!"

"I'm not afraid!" I raised my head pretending to be chic, "Anyway, I'm also gay, so whatever other people think!"

"Hey!" He sighed softly, and sat down beside me, "I really saw you right, in fact, from the first time I saw you, I wanted to be friends with you!"

I kept my eyes on him.It's amazing, I'm also a victim, when I'm with Gao Tianlong and Guan Shijie, I'm the one being molested, but when I'm with this "little lamb" who is so thin and beautiful that he's a little soft, I just want to molested him the other way around.

So I winked at him.

"Then do you know that the first time I saw you, your pitiful appearance made me wish I could become a strong man and protect you!"

As soon as I finished speaking, I couldn't help laughing "haha".

"I just know...you really seem to want to help me!" He didn't stare at me, but smiled shyly, and changed the subject naturally, "Are you and your boyfriend okay?"

As soon as he asked, I couldn't laugh immediately, and I felt so uncomfortable!And he saw it right away.

"What's the matter? Are you arguing?"

"It's not a fight, it's... a breakup," I said, trying to look as relaxed as possible.

"Ah?" Xiao Yanggao was taken aback, "Aren't you two very nice? He still pays for your studies, how could...?"

"He has a wife! His wife came to the door in person, so what can I do? No matter how good he is to me, he can't abandon his wife and children for me!" I felt a pain in my heart again, but I took a breath, but Smile at him, "But it's okay! He doesn't want me, so of course someone wants me. Now I have a new boyfriend who is even more handsome than him!"

"Really?" He didn't seem very convinced.

"Why should I lie to you? He is my comrade in arms of the boyfriend in front of me. He has liked me for several years just because he saw a photo of me. Do you think he is stupid?"

I smiled smugly.He looked at me, and asked again for a long time: "Then why...you still look unhappy?"

"because……"

I couldn't laugh again, I even got a lump in my throat, and swallowed all the words behind me.

Xiao Yanggao remained silent, but leaned lightly on me.

Just leaning in like this immediately made me feel that it was a very shameful thing to be weak in front of this boy who made me want to attack.

So I took another breath and tried to still look at him and smile, but this time it was a wry smile.

"He's bisexual! The one... used to be in love with me for many years, but... he still chose to get married. He... can obviously like women, so how can he stay with me forever without getting married? ?”

Xiao Yanggao still kept silent and looked at me quietly.It made me feel uncomfortable, so he said faintly: "You still love the old one, right?"

"Ah?" I froze for a moment, "Why do you say that?"

"Because...if it's the one from before, do you care if he's bisexual? Do you care if he gets married in the future? You just wish...you can stay by his side for one more day!" He laughed He smiled, but slowly lowered his head, "That's like... Young Master Xu, he's not even bisexual, he likes women at all, and he's also married, outside... there are other women But... as long as he still wants me, I'm willing to guard him, even for one more day!"

I was stunned.He is right, if it is Gao Tianlong—actually there is no if, because after reuniting with Gao Tianlong, he already has a wife and children, and he refused to make any promises to me, he even set rules for me, As long as his wife notices, he will never see me again!But I still want to be with him, just like what Xiao Yanggao said, just stay with him for one more day.

And now, Guan Shijie has promised to be with me for the rest of his life. I also believe that at least for the time being, he is sincere, but it is precisely because he made me the promise. Cut ties with him ahead of time.

But, if it's really over with Guan Shijie, will I feel better?Can I still meet a man like him who is my "wife" wholeheartedly?

I'm afraid it will be difficult.Because I'm not as good as Guan Shijie thought, there won't be another man rushing to get me.Once I break up with him completely, I am afraid that I will fall into endless loneliness and longing for a long period of time.

What's more, even if another man appears, can he give me forever?

I am afraid it is more difficult.If even Guan Shijie, who loves me so much, can't do it, no other man in this world can do it.

"Thank you, little lamb. Thank you for speaking to me!" I said, sincerely.

I think I'm really weird - and maybe a lot of people are as weird as I am!Because if the person you love doesn’t love you enough, most of the time you will tolerate in every possible way, hoping that he will love you more and more—that’s like what I did to Gao Tianlong; but when that person loves you enough, you On the contrary, you will find fault with him in every possible way, and you can't bear even a little bit of grievance - that's how I treat Guan Shijie.

I admit that I still love Gao Tianlong, but I can't say I don't love Guan Shijie at all, but so far, I still don't love him as deeply as I love Gao Tianlong.

However, Gao Tianlong has already returned to his wife and children, and it is impossible for him to be with me again in this life.Now that I have accepted this, I shouldn't be too harsh on Guan Shijie who loves me wholeheartedly, at least for now.

"I also want to thank you! You were the one who gave me the greatest support and courage when I was in the most difficult time!" As soon as I thanked Xiao Yanggao, he immediately felt embarrassed again and smiled at me with a blushing face, " Since you said...your current boyfriend is very handsome, and...you have liked you for several years based on a single photo, then cherish this fate! Why worry about things in the future now? "

"Yes! I think I'm on the edge of it."

I let out a sigh of relief, and suddenly felt a lot more relaxed.

So what if Guan Shijie is bisexual?Can I be willing to let go of him completely now?

I don't want to.Otherwise, I wouldn't be so uncomfortable these days!Then, just like when I was with Gao Tianlong back then, I also knew that there was no future, but I wholeheartedly enjoyed the good time with Gao Tianlong, grasped the present wholeheartedly, and didn't think about the future.

Guan Shijie and I can also hold on to the present.