blue warm sun

Although unfortunately he grew up in an abusive and violent family, there was nothing special about Yueqing's teenage years.His alcoholic father, who has a little money, paid for him to go through the boarding elementary school, then junior high school, and finally ran to a new direction in life with the bar girl, leaving his mother hysterical alone.But for Yueqing, the sad memories brought by all the families are just the torment unique to the holidays, and his popularity in school is not bad, his grades are not bad, he belongs to the type that attracts no attention, and his life is no different from that of ordinary boys. Life.Of course, it is impossible to read idol magazines with friends during adolescence, but passionate novels. At the age of 15, it seems that he has experienced a lot of hardships in the world. Yueqing, who had a rough life experience, actually has not recovered from the second illness.

"I never thought about being an idol, but since I met a scout, then this is my destiny." Yue Qing put on a firm expression at the right time, imagining the scene of the heroine of the novel meeting an expert apprentice under a cliff.He originally wanted to say more, but was frightened by the woman's indifferent expression, so he silently held back the lines of Gengzhong Er.It was probably from this time on that he became cowardly whenever he saw Sister Feng.

It's a pity that the youthful spirit didn't last long. After becoming a trainee, life became busy and really rough.During the same period of training together, some of them had amazing appearances, some had special voices, some were eloquent, in short, they all looked very different from the boys of the same age in school.Among this group of people, Yueqing quickly fell into a not-so-bad situation, so that he wouldn't fall to the end and be brushed off, but he wasn't eye-catching at all, just like a spare tire.If you want to do it, you must do your best. There is no such kind of awareness.All he wants is a place where he can go back at night, and it doesn’t matter to him that the days of practice continue, but debuting as a star is really a strange and distant topic.Therefore, when facing this group of outstanding, beautiful, and ambitious boys, he really felt the sense of distance.Their goals are different, and their motivation is different. Yue Qing still wants to make more friends, but he doesn't realize that he is just an opponent to others.Yue Qing couldn't integrate into the atmosphere here, and his loneliness was like a black ocean, trapping him in a very deep place, the fire of youth was forced to extinguish halfway through burning due to lack of oxygen.

One month before her 19th birthday, Yue Qing was confirmed as a member of Sixteen and will debut in half a year.This experimental large-scale group also absorbed Yue Qing. Although he was a little surprised, he was not flustered. During his four-year trainee career, Yue Qing had already grasped the truth called what comes, what comes. A 16-member team needs light as well as shadows. Yue Qing intends to live a low-key and stable life singing and performing, earn enough money to buy a house, and then wait until the team disbands before finding another livelihood.There are a lot of unrestricted dramas in this circle, and it is natural to hear about it when you enter the door, but Yue Qing never thought that these would have anything to do with him.

It was after the [-]rd anniversary of debut, just now at the commemorative concert, weeping until the eyes were red, shouting please support our members forever, and immediately divided into several groups after stepping off the stage, each of them left without saying hello.Yue Qing got into the car of her own agent and waited to go back to the dormitory.

"Yue Qing, let me tell you something." Yue Qing's agent, Zhao Yue, is a woman who is not yet 30 years old.It's a pity that Yue Qing didn't live up to his expectations, and his popularity hasn't improved after several years.Naturally, there is no shortage of excellent resources that people are willing to take over, and Yue Qing actually vaguely guessed what Zhao Yue was going to say.

"What's wrong?" He pretended not to know.

"I'm going to take someone else next month. The company has arranged a new agent for you, and I will hand it over to me in a few days." Zhao Yue glanced at the rearview mirror, as if wanting to see Yue Qing's expression, but She looked away within a second, and she said in a guilty tone, "I said I wanted to take you with me all the time, but the company didn't agree."

"...Well, I see, it's okay."

Zhao Yue glanced at the rearview mirror again, saw that Yue Qing was sitting in the back seat with the same color, and answered her softly, she looked away, unable to say anything, and sighed silently in her heart.

The new manager is an uncle in his late forties. His name is Jiang Li. He has the same surname as a director of the company.This bastard who always smells of cigarettes and alcohol, is so big that he can boast, but his best job is actually pimping.

Yue Qing is already 22, and his height of 177 is not too high in the team, but his proportions are good, with long hands and long legs.He looks like a good student, not amazing, the feeling of belonging to other people's children.According to that Jiang Li, there are quite a few bigwigs in the industry who like to find boys to accompany them. If you find a few more places to hang around, someone might fall in love with Yueqing.If you can get an endorsement after a night of sleep, it will be much more satisfying to do your work.But soon Jiang Li found out that Yue Qing didn't seem to care much about his career, even if he cut off his one-month trip, Yue Qing didn't make a sound, just stayed in the dormitory silently.After finally getting such a convenient job as a broker, Jiang Li had a series of calculations in his mind. He didn't expect to encounter a thorn when he came up, which was really unlucky.But it can't go on like this forever. Sixteen is on the rise, and it's acceptable to be absent once or twice. If Yue Qing is not allowed to show up, the problem will be serious.Yueqing then returned to the stage, and when Sister Feng asked him, he only replied that he was sick.

Jiang Li thought that Yue Qing could not be persuaded, so he gave up after a while, but Yue Qing knew in his heart that his three views were in jeopardy and might collapse at any time.

People in the entertainment industry will always praise the high and depress the low, even the people in a small dressing room know who is worthy of curry favor.Yue Qing was originally used to the setting that he was always in the middle of nowhere, but after his debut, he was trampled on as mud for three years. He adjusted himself time and time again, comforted his self-esteem, and finally reached the limit.

"It's hard work being your fan." It was written in the letter.The girl's small and delicate handwriting made Yue Qing feel extremely painful.

"Brother, it must be very difficult for you, but I still can't help thinking, if you are the one who stands in the c position of this song, it will be fine. There is a new drama to be officially announced that you are a member of Sixteen, so I will stay on the computer I wanted to be you before, but none of these came true.”

"Brother, you are so handsome and dance so beautifully..."

No, most of the people on the team are handsomer than me and dance better than me.

"The company is really too much, why doesn't it value you at all..."

This is normal, I am not good enough.

"But it doesn't matter, you have only debuted for a few years, I will support you no matter what."

I am sorry for you.

During the one month in the dormitory, Yue Qing read several letters over and over like he was masochistic, and lost ten catties all of a sudden.However, his torment did not last long, and fate gave him a ready-made cover, leading him to step into the mud.He moved around according to the information given by Jiang Li, indulged in sensuality, and started drinking like his father who couldn't remember his face.I don't know how long this ridiculous day has passed, Yue Qing just felt that he had been dreaming for a long time, and when he woke up again, he saw Shen Jun appearing in front of him, and asked him:

"Do you want to follow me?"

"Are you still in the company?"

Yue Qing dazedly took out her vibrating cell phone, it was Shen Jun calling Chagang.

"Well, I still need to take pictures of the inside pages. I haven't eaten dinner yet." Yue Qing pouted her mouth aggrievedly, subconsciously acting coquettishly.

"I'll pick you up."

"Don't!" Yue Qing glanced nervously outside the glass and replied, "I came here by car. Well, I want to eat dumplings. You can order them at home and wait for me."

"it is good."

After hanging up the phone, Yue Qing breathed a sigh of relief. Shen Jun had never seen him at work, as if he knew that he would be uncomfortable. In the past, even when he was on the set, he would always deliberately go somewhere else before coming back, caring very.Yue Qing is not afraid of acting, he basically doesn't have any burdens when filming, but when it comes to his job as an idol, he can't change the problem of thinking too much.It was already in hard mode, if Shen Jun was still watching, he wouldn't be able to give the photographer the effect he wanted until tomorrow.

"Yue Qing, it's ready over there." Kitty slipped back and touched up Yue Qing's makeup.

"Oh." Yue Qing replied dryly.

Although the site of M&J Company is far away from the city center, there are many office buildings in the surrounding area. The white-collar workers who get off work are hurrying on the street, and there are really not many people on the road.

Tsk.I can't help it.Yue Qing despised himself for being worthless in his heart, tried to put on a calm look on his face, and let a bunch of staff surround him and put him in a proper position.Soft and warm light came from the window, and instead of the colorful Santa Claus in Yueqing's imagination, there were lights in the shape of two elks, one big and one small.Yue Qing leaned against the glass with his face sideways and looked at the two elk, his coat was hung casually on his shoulders, the colorful lights and shadows on the street and the yellowish light in the window drew a beautiful interlacing on his face.The photographer on the opposite side is a young man with a ball head, wearing only a graffiti vest in the cold weather, shivering in the wind, holding the camera aggressively and pressing the shutter repeatedly.

Yue Qing was a little dazed, he actually liked the set, but his mind was a bit empty about how to shoot it.All his poses are collected in very well-behaved poses. What photographers often say about using eyes to express is really unclear, so he has no experience.

The photographer made a pause gesture, looked down at the photos he had taken, and Yue Qing reluctantly walked over to see the effect.The composition and color of the photos are very professional. Yue Qing looks tall and thin, giving him the feeling of a teenager.His blond hair was a honey hue in the lights, and his complexion was enhanced by just the right amount of make-up.Although it is a cold winter night, the photo shows a very warm atmosphere. The fly in the ointment is that Yueqing's expression seems a little lost and uncoordinated.

"This year is a more cheerful song. It's not a bitter love. Your eyes should have drama and a sweet feeling." The photographer gestured excitedly, "What are you standing here for now?"

"...for shooting?" Yue Qing was caught off guard by the sudden question.

"No," the photographer said with a look of resentment, "You are waiting for your lover, and you are looking forward to the next date."

Oh oh oh, Yue Qing sort of understood the photographer's intention, which was to create a scene.He walked back to his seat and tried to recall the situation of dating Shen Jun in his mind, but after much deliberation, the two of them dated at most to go to a restaurant, and they had never been to a couple's sanctuary like a movie theater or an amusement park.And Shen Jun always waited for him, but he didn't have much experience in waiting for others.This is really true, he was spoiled, Yue Qing couldn't help but want to laugh, the flash light dutifully lit up, and Yue Qing started to play in the next second.

"Keep up!" came the roar from the photographer.

Yue Qing tugged at his bangs and felt a little embarrassed. Passers-by in twos and threes walked by. Although the staff strictly supervised them not to get too close, a few groups of people still formed, which tended to grow bigger and bigger.

I really want to end it quickly.Yue Qing tried to calm herself down, looked into the distance, imagined that she was waiting for Shen Jun downstairs from get off work, and then watched him walking towards her step by step.The dim light made him hallucinate, as if Shen Jun really passed through the crowd and approached slowly.He was wearing a standard three-piece black suit, the tie was a navy blue water pattern that Yueqing randomly chose today, and black pointed leather shoes on his feet.He looks even taller than the models on the runway, and he has a unique calm and unrestrained chic.Yue Qing met the eyes of the person who came up, and the distance was unbelievably close. He saw Shen Jun looking at this side with a smile on his face, and his black pupils were burning with a flame of passion that was difficult for others to recognize.It was like this every time, when Shen Jun looked at him with such eyes, Yue Qing would feel that he had floated up from the sea of ​​suffering alone, and was led into a warm house, his uneasiness and inferiority complex They all left him in an instant, and the long-awaited youthful spirit revived in his heart.

His cowardice and hesitation are a disease that is suffocated day by day, and only Shen Jun is his good medicine.Regardless of what the rational mind is thinking about, Yue Qing's subconscious mind is always happy and relaxed because of Shen Jun's existence.Shen Jun gave him so much sense of security and filled his heart full.