just frowned

The two arrived at their seats one after the other, Shen Cheng turned his head and put one arm on Liang Xu's table.

"Thank you."

Liang Xu smiled, "Okay, how many times have you said thank you, I don't think you should keep saying thank you to me. Otherwise, invite me to dinner at noon today."

Shen Cheng was stunned by Liang Xu's request, not because he was surprised that Liang Xu said such a thing, but because he felt that he should have said this by himself, but it was indeed his own mistake to let Liang Xu speak.

But he really didn't think about inviting Liang Xu to dinner. One reason was that school had only started for a few days, and although the two of them were front and back, they hardly communicated at ordinary times, and they didn't know each other well at all.If he suddenly proposed to invite Liang Xu to dinner, I was afraid that he would feel awkward.Second, he felt that based on his understanding of Liang Xu in the past few days, even if he asked Liang Xu to have dinner, Liang Xu would not necessarily agree.

But since Liang Xu proposed it now, he has no worries.

Shen Cheng didn't think about it at all, and immediately nodded in agreement. "Okay, let's have lunch together. I know that the food in a certain place is very delicious. That's my secret. I didn't tell anyone. I'll take you there for lunch."

Liang Xu laughed when he heard what Shen Cheng said, he nodded, "Okay."

Shen Cheng turned his body back, and Liang Xu looked at his swaying back, smiling all the time.Just now after I asked him to invite me to dinner, I felt a little bit of regret, regretting that I shouldn't have said that sentence suddenly, and felt that it would make Shen Cheng feel too abrupt.

Fortunately, he didn't seem to think much of it.

Shen Cheng turned around, feeling very happy in his heart.

Liang Xu's textbook is still here with Shen Cheng. Shen Cheng originally wanted to return it to him directly, but when he saw the cover, he accidentally opened the first page.

Liang Xu's name was neatly written on the first page.

"The writing is really beautiful." Shen Cheng muttered, and turned two more pages.As a result, he found that apart from the two characters Liang Xu at the beginning, there seemed to be no other characters in this book.

"Are you really not attending classes?" Shen Cheng muttered.

Turning around, he exchanged the book for Liang Xu, "Nuo, thank you for your book."

"you are welcome."

The two looked at each other and suddenly laughed together.

The deskmate next to Shen Cheng who was sleeping on the table raised his head and glanced at the two of them, muttered something vague, and lay down again.

"So that's when you started to fall in love with him?" Jiang Long's voice brought back Shen Cheng's thoughts.

Shen Cheng shook his head, originally thought that after such a long time, he should have forgotten these things long ago.Unexpectedly, the memory is still so clear, every word between him and Liang Xu, every eye contact, every movement contact, I still remember clearly.

"Isn't it?" Jiang Long asked in surprise when he saw Shen Cheng shaking his head.

"What?" Shen Cheng had no idea what Jiang Long was talking about.

"As for Liang Xu, were you tempted when he lent you the book?" Jiang Long asked again.

"Maybe it is, or maybe it's not. Maybe the matter of borrowing books is just a source. It is precisely because of the matter of borrowing books that we have gradually come into contact."

"I always thought I met him first, but I didn't expect it to be you." Jiang Long smiled wryly, "I always thought you snatched him away from me, but only now did I realize that he never came to me at all. , not once."

Shen Cheng didn't speak, he quietly looked at the boy in front of him.Although hateful, it is also really pitiful.It must be uncomfortable to fall in love with someone who will never fall in love with you.

"Tell me, if I met Liang Xu first, would he like me?"

"No." One second Shen Cheng was pitying Jiang Long, but the next second he answered very simply.

"why?"

"There is no reason, he Liang Xu exists in this life to meet me. Life is my Shencheng people, death is my Shencheng ghost. No matter when, no matter where, no matter whether I appear early or late He is destined to only love me in his life." After saying this, Shen Cheng suddenly felt like a domineering president, and he glanced at the court. Beside him stood a bunch of pretty girls cheering for him.

Shen Cheng curled his lips, girls nowadays are too superficial, they only look at their faces.

He seemed to have forgotten that when he saw Liang Xu's face, the rainbow farts in his heart also came out in piles.

Jiang Long laughed at himself, "Sure enough, I asked him this question at the beginning, but he also said that some things are predestined, and he exists in this life to meet you, no matter what you appear Sooner or later, he only loves you alone."

Could it be different, our words are basically the couple vows he wrote when we were in love.I must recite it as a testimony of our love...

It is estimated that this sentence was written by Liang Xu, and few people would believe it, but if you are not a teenager, Shen Cheng can still understand Liang Xu who wrote this sentence in a non-mainstream period.

I didn't expect him to be able to say this non-mainstream sentence in front of Jiang Long, which is worthy of praise.

"So is what Liang Xu said true? You really knew each other when you were in junior high school?" Jiang Long hesitated for a while, but still asked what he had been wanting to ask.

Shen Cheng nodded.

Jiang Long frowned. He felt that there were many things between Shen Cheng and Liang Xu that he didn't know about, but he didn't ask any further.

If you don’t know some things, there are benefits to not knowing. It’s not a good thing to have to make every doubtful question clear, maybe those things will slap yourself even more.

"Actually, I came to you today to apologize to you for doing such a thing. I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

Shen Cheng was stunned for a moment, he didn't expect Jiang Long, who is usually so proud, would take the initiative to apologize to him.

"It doesn't matter if you don't forgive me. I know that what I have done is too much and I don't deserve your forgiveness. But even so, I still want to say sorry to you, for everything I have done to hurt you. Say sorry."

Shen Cheng sighed, normally at this time, should he rush up and beat Jiang Long for revenge, anyway, he will definitely not fight back at this time.

"I forgive you."

"You..." Now it was Jiang Long's turn to be stunned, "Is that why you forgive me?"

"Otherwise, I can't beat you up now, and I'll beat you to the hospital too. How many days will you stay with me?"

"It's not impossible."

Shen Cheng was amused by Jiang Long's answer, "It's not that I don't want to do this, I'm afraid that if I do this now, I might spend the next class in the principal's office."

Jiang Long also smiled, "I suddenly understand why Liang Xu likes you."

"Could it be that you want to say that it's because of my kindness that I attracted him?"

"I didn't realize that you are quite interesting. I have always regarded you as a rival in love before, and never thought that you really understand you." Jiang Long said with a smile.

"Then you better not understand me." Shen Cheng put a smile on his face.

"Ah, why?" Jiang Long didn't understand what Shen Cheng meant, the two of them were chatting and laughing a second ago, why did they change their faces the next second?

"You just gave up on Liang Xu, I'm afraid that after you get to know me, you will fall in love with me again." Shen Cheng raised his eyebrows at Jiang Long while speaking.

The two laughed loudly.

"Actually, I am quite envious of you two, I don't care about other people's eyes." Jiang Long lowered his head, "I have discovered that I have a different gender orientation from other boys since junior high school.

When they were all fascinated by girls who had just grown up, I only had eyes for those handsome little boys.When they watch banned movies in the dormitory and invite me to share them, I will find a reason to avoid them. I really have no interest in those things. My mobile phone is full of various BL comics.

At that time, I was unhappy every day. I was afraid that they would find out that there was something wrong with my gender orientation. I was afraid of being laughed at. I even suspected that I was sick. "Jiang Long's voice became deeper and deeper.

Shen Cheng also sighed. Although he had no experience like Jiang Long's, he could understand Jiang Long's mood.When he and Liang Xu were in the third year of junior high school, they were also joked about by the people around because they had a good relationship.I was also pointed at when I went out to eat together, and that feeling was really uncomfortable.

But the difference between him and Jiang Long is that Liang Xu is always by his side to accompany him, and Liang Xu has always protected him very well.

"I have seen a psychiatrist countless times, hoping that they can help me and help me get rid of this perverted sexual orientation. But every time after treatment, it doesn't work.

Then I found a doctor who told me that being gay was not a disease, it was just a state of my mind.I'm no different than my peers except that the people I like will be my gender and they'll be the opposite, that's all

He let me know that I am not the only one who has this mental state in this world, there are many people like me, and I gradually accepted the fact that I am gay in the process of communicating with him.

I always clearly remember a sentence he said, he said that all love should be treated equally.Is not a good doctor? "

Shen Cheng patted Jiang Long's shoulder.

"Do you know why I transferred schools?" Jiang Long raised his head and asked Shen Cheng, the pain in his eyes flashed past.

Shen Cheng shook his head, "Why? Could it be because someone discovered your secret?"

"Well, some of them saw my BL manga in the hole in my desk, and then secretly flipped through my diary in the dormitory. My diary recorded all the things I thought in my heart. They found me All the secrets, all the secrets that I tried to hide, they just made it public."

Shen Cheng sighed, this was the last thing he wanted to hear.Taking the current students as an example, they are trapped in school every day, doing nothing but studying, thinking about what to do to pass their boring time all day long.

If a boring person finds out that Jiang Long is gay, then this matter will spread throughout the school at the speed of light waves.

The bored students also had fun, and their fun was to attack Jiang Long.Because Jiang Long is such a special existence, they can use him to entertain all the boring days.

School violence is the scariest thing.

"Do you know what I've been through?

When I was walking on the way to school, suddenly a man would come up and ask me if I would sell it, and how much it would cost if they slept with me for one night.

There would always be two men drawn on the blackboard in the classroom, and one of them would have my picture on it.

Everyone started isolating me as if I was an infectious agent with an infectious disease on my body.

Even when I go to the toilet, people will tease me in the toilet. "When Jiang Long said this, his expression was calm, as if he wasn't talking about himself.

"Does it hurt you to hear it? But you will never feel the same way. No one can understand the pain I suffered at that time!" Jiang Long shook his head with a smile.

Shen Cheng didn't know what to say to comfort Jiang Long at this moment, he felt that no words could calm Jiang Long down.The pain Jiang Long suffered was not just a wound that could be healed with a few words.

Even if those scars had formed scabs on his chest, it was impossible to completely heal after the scabs fell off, because there was not new skin under the scabs, but a deep scar.

That scar will always remind Jiang Long of everything he has experienced, maybe when he can't sleep at night, maybe when he has nightmares, or maybe when he is alone.

Whenever Jiang Long's memory becomes a little blurry, it will pop up and make the blurry places clear.

Whenever Jiang Long wants to forget those pains, it will also pop up, reminding Jiang Long of the humiliation he suffered in the past, he must not forget, and he must not forget.

And the only thing Shen Cheng can do now is to sit here quietly and listen to Jiang Long's talk.

"Later, I couldn't help but beat up a boy who said that I was in front of all my classmates, and this incident naturally reached the teacher's ears.

When the teacher entered the classroom, I was still fighting with that person.At that time, I only had one thought in my mind, to kill him, and after killing him, no one would dare to say anything about me.You must think it's cruel, but what they did to me caused me a thousand times more pain than beating me to death!

I thought the teacher would turn to me, and after understanding the situation, stop them from doing everything to me, and the teacher would give me a hand.But no, the teacher stood in their camp.The teacher, like them, thought I was sick.

That afternoon, I was called into the office.The teacher looked me up and down with his contemptuous eyes, yes, contemptuous eyes.I stood in front of him as if I was naked, and the feeling completely overwhelmed me. "