Floating Life Half Awake GL

A heart couldn't help shrinking, Xia Lan immediately raised her hands and gently embraced the person in her arms.

The heart that was originally filled with various emotions such as sadness, gratification, loss, happiness, helplessness, etc., is now completely occupied by distress and guilt.Nan'er, she is very sad, very sad, very sad...

Because of her, because of tonight, there are still some memories or past events that have been hidden deep in my heart. It seems that because of tonight, all of them have been uncovered, dragging the vines, and piercing my heart.

But even though he was so sad, there was only one tear.

Xia Lan really couldn't imagine how a child who was less than four years old could bear it. When he was on the street for the first time, tears wet the clothes on his shoulders, but he didn't hear a cry from the beginning to the end. , but this time, obviously sad to this point, but only shed a drop of tears.

It was supposed to be an age of wanton crying and laughing, but it turned out to be unsmiling and calm like an adult.

Although Xia Lan has been working hard to make Cen Nan's life easier and happier, the result is that because of her, Cen Nan is more sad and sad.

Although Cen Nan never said anything, Xia Lan knew many things, especially the reason for Cen Nan's emotional ups and downs.

Just like now, Xia Lan knows that Cen Nan is worried about her, loves her, and is afraid that she will be sad and sad...

But even if she knew, Xia Lan couldn't make a decision that was completely different from the current one in order to make Cen Nan not sad and sad.

She clearly wanted to make Cen Nan happy, and she knew how to keep Cen Nan from being sad and sad, but Xia Lan didn't do that, which made her blame and feel guilty even more.

Faced with Cen Nan's sincerity and true feelings, Xia Lan felt that what she gave Cen Nan was so little and illusory, and she also got involved in these right and wrong for no reason.

A heart swelled to the point of sadness, and then, a drop of crystal silently rolled down on the fur collar around Cen Nan's neck, moistening the silver-gray down.

Even the tears that Leng Zongmu had never shed in the face of the sad and lonely departure just now, were defeated by Cen Nan's unexpected embrace.

The hugs of the two were very light, showing a trace of caution, as if they didn't want the other party to notice their emotional ups and downs.

The noise in the front yard has gradually faded away, and the sound of the cold wind outside the house began to faintly enter the ears.

Cen Nan had gradually calmed down, and slowly regained his senses, and then he realized, belatedly, that when he hugged him, something happened suddenly, so he didn't say anything, and the hug time was...too long up.

Thinking of this, a gust of hot air hit his cheeks, Cen Nan's body stiffened, and he silently removed his hands from Xia Lan's back.

However, just a few inches away, the person in his arms suddenly trembled, and Cen Nan hugged him back almost subconsciously, and this time, he hugged him even tighter.

After reacting, he released it like an electric shock, and then quickly retreated from Xia Lan's arms, but the blush on the little face couldn't be covered.

"That, me"

Xia Lan just smiled softly, and wanted to get up, but Cen Nan saw that her movements were a little stiff, and even her expression was a little strange.

After thinking about it for a while, it suddenly dawned on her that she hurriedly stretched out her hand to support Xia Lan's arm, "Sister Fulan, please sit down on the couch."

Xia Lan wanted to refuse, but when she saw Cen Nan's frown, she nodded gently, "Then there will be Lao Nan'er."

As soon as he sat down on the couch, Cen Nan squatted down at Xia Lan's feet, clenched his hands into empty fists, and lightly tapped her calf.

"Hey, Nan'er, don't," Xia Lan hurriedly bent down to help Cen Nan up, "I'll be fine after sitting down for a while, Nan'er, get up quickly."

"It will get better sooner," Cen Nan insisted on not getting up, and Xia Lan had nothing to do with it.

After a while, Cen Nan couldn't help raising his head and asked, "Sister Lan feeling better?".

Xia Lan nodded hurriedly, "It's not so numb anymore, Nan'er, get up quickly, if not, your feet will be numb again after a while, sister Lan will press for you again, and your feet will be numb again after a while, Isn't that endless?"

Hearing this, Cen Nan stopped insisting, stood up from the ground, and then sat down on the couch.

Xia Lan couldn't help reaching out to caress her slightly red ear tips, and smiled silently, "Nan'er is really warm and considerate."

Cen Nan only lowered his head slightly and did not reply, but the redder ears showed that she had listened to Xia Lan's words in her heart.

Xia Lan just looked at Cen Nan like that, and the two sat there quietly for a while, and then, when the blush was about to spread to Cen Nan's neck, Xia Lan finally slowly withdrew her hand.

"My mother left early, and I was only eight years old when my father left." He spoke softly, without any emotion.

Faced with this sudden topic, although it was a bit inexplicable, Cen Nan did not interrupt, but just raised his eyes and looked over, and Xia Lan also happened to look over with lowered eyebrows.

After the two looked at each other, Xia Lan continued, "As the third brother said that day, before his death, my father entrusted me to the Pingnan Palace and to the third brother. The third brother has taken care of me since I was a child. If there is a plus, everything that is delicious and fun will be given to me first, give way to me everywhere, and protect me, just like,,, my elder brother."

brother? !The first time Cen Nan heard this description, for some reason, his heart suddenly felt like a huge wave, and something seemed to be moving deep in his heart.

"Only two years after my father left, the old prince also went. Not long after Yun Mu and Nanjing decided to make peace, the old prince entrusted the third brother to me on his deathbed, so that the two of us will be together in the future. Support each other and face all the twists and turns and difficulties together”

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"Five years later, under the auspices of the old concubine, my third brother and I held a wedding ceremony, and we will spend the rest of our lives together. One year later, I became pregnant. The old concubine was very happy, and my third brother was even more happy like a child, but"

Xia Lan's voice became low as she spoke, and Cen Nan almost subconsciously stretched out his hand to hold her slightly cool catkin. The corners of Xia Lan's lips twitched slightly, signaling with her eyes that she was fine, and then continued after a moment's pause.

"It's just that, within two months, the child was... gone. The old concubine was not in good health. This sadness, within a month, then, and went along... When she was dying, the old concubine took me The hand said that the line from the Pingnan Palace to the old prince is thin, and there is only the third brother alone. She is the one who is sorry for the old prince, and even more sorry for the ancestors of the Leng family. From now on, she will give the third brother back. All the palaces are entrusted to me, I hope I can spread more branches and leaves for the Leng family, and continue the incense of the Leng family."

Hearing this, Cen Nan frowned unconsciously. She could understand what the old concubine thought, but she didn't dare to agree with it. Because of this, did Xia Lan want to wrong herself like this? !

But, Cen Nan knew all too well that with Xia Lan's gentle, considerate and understanding temperament, she would definitely follow the old concubine's last words to the letter, otherwise how would she be here today.

"It's just, where is it her fault?"

Xia Lan suddenly murmured in a low voice, but Cen Nan almost didn't hear it clearly, and the strength in his hands increased unconsciously.

Then, from Xia Lan's next words, Cen Nan knew that it turned out that the line from the Pingnan Palace to the old prince was not weak. Both his elder brothers died in the war with Nanjing.

The war between Nanjing and Yunmu lasted for 30 to [-] years. In order to maintain the tranquility of the southern border, the old prince spent almost all his life as a soldier, hoping to stop the fighting and restore the peace and stability of the people. The two sons, even the youngest, would have died in battle if Xia Lan's father, Xia Chunyu, had not risked his life to save him.

Finally, the emperor paid off. Ten years ago, after another defeat in Nanjing, Nanjing was finally unable to bear the internal friction of successive years of fighting. He took the initiative to hand over the letter of credence to the imperial court, saying that Nanjing would put his swords and guns into the warehouse and his horse would be released from Nanshan. , live together with the people, and hope that the two countries will never fight again in the future, and the war will never reappear, so that the soldiers and the people of the two countries will return to a peaceful and prosperous age.

The Pingnan Prince's family is loyal and loyal, serving the country and the people. Let me ask you, with a kind heart like Xia Lan, how could he have the heart to let the Leng family's lineage cut off their incense, not to mention his father's righteous deeds before him.

But what Cen Nan didn't expect was that Xia Lan actually had an older brother, but he also died in battle early on.

After knowing all about the past, Cen Nan seemed to understand every decision Xia Lan made better, but, why, he felt even more sad in his heart, as if something was weighing heavily on his heart, every time Heartbeat felt labored and uncomfortable.

Moreover, for some reason, after knowing so many heavy pasts, what Cen Nan wanted to ask Xia Lan was, what kind of, what kind of feelings did she have for Leng Zongmu, is it love?Or, it's just affection...

But after thinking about it, Cen Nan felt that his question was superfluous. The two had known each other for many years, so they must have both, and how could they be so clearly distinguished.

More importantly, even if they can tell the difference, so what if it's not love but just family affection, the road ahead will still be walked by the two of them hand in hand.

Suddenly realizing that his thoughts were like a runaway wild horse, Cen Nan hurriedly forced himself to recover, raised his head, looked at Xia Lan with firm eyes and said, "Sister Lan, believe me, you will definitely have a child of your own."

Xia Lan frowned, and said softly, "Now, I am no longer obsessed with this. Now that I have Nan'er, I feel that this life is complete."

The heart began to thump for no reason, and Cen Nan closed his eyelids slightly, always feeling that these topics were too heavy, and the night was long, so it was time to change to other light topics.

As soon as he changed his mind, Cen Nan began to talk to Xia Lan about the three years she spent under the cliff, her life-and-death friendship with Sweet Potatoes, and the first time she caught fish, but she fell directly into the stream; The first time I grilled fish, but all the fish fell into the fire, leaving only a fish skeleton on the branch; The first time I cooked wild vegetables, because I didn’t know which wild vegetables were delicious, I ended up making a kind of bitter wild vegetables. After eating for three days, I didn’t know the taste; Monkey was so frightened that he fell down, but luckily Sweet Potato was following her...

It was the first time for Cen Nan to say so many words. When he said those things, even his expression was much more lively and brisk than usual. Xia Lan had been listening carefully, with the corners of his mouth slightly raised, and looking at Cen Nan, his eyes were also full of emotion. With a particularly soft light, he would occasionally ask a few words, which also made Cen Nan speak more vigorously, even with a faint sense of glee.

This is the first time that Cen Nan confides his past to others, although what he said is not all, nor is it about every bit of his past life.

Xia Lan also knew that there were some people, some things and some words that Cen Nan had never mentioned, but she was very happy because it at least meant that Nan'er was willing to open her heart to her.

However, listening to Cen Nan talking about those fun and amusing pasts, Xia Lan was more distressed, almost filled with those beautiful eyes, but Cen Nan never noticed.

Time passed by quietly, it was late at night before he knew it, and Cen Nan couldn't remember when and how he fell asleep. When he opened his eyes again, it was already dawn, and he tilted his head slightly. , and saw Xia Lan's exquisite side face, with a peaceful expression and a peaceful sleeping face.

This night is finally over.

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