Small Face Blindness and Great Movie King

Si Jingyan's work today ended early, just like what he told An Xia in the lounge.

However, although it ended early, it was only compared to the situation in the past few days, and it was just that he didn't work until midnight.When Si Jingyan finished his work, it was already dark, and the three of them had dinner outside before returning to their residence together.

An Xia was very quiet on the way back, as if she still cared about how aggressive she was towards Si Jingyan in the lounge.Li Jiaxin originally wanted to tell him not to mind, although it seemed that An Xia was chasing Si Jingyan, but based on his deep understanding of his boss's shamelessness, An Xia was probably the one being bullied.However, he didn't know exactly what happened between the two of them, and he wasn't that convenient to guide An Xia, so he didn't say anything in the end. The elevator reached the floor where he lived, and talked with An Xia as usual. , Si Jingyan said good night, and walked out of the elevator.

——For things like feelings, the intervention of outsiders will probably make the situation worse, so let Si Jingyan torment himself.

An Xia was in a low mood, even Li Jiaxin could tell it, so it was impossible for Si Jingyan not to notice it.But today in the lounge, he pretended to be angry to escape An Xia's questioning, and acted all the way. From his current position, it would be too suspicious to immediately turn around to comfort An Xia.

It would be best if An Xia could take the initiative to talk to him, and then he could get off the horse, but until he got home, he saw An Xia looking at him with a hesitant expression several times, but he didn't hear An Xia say anything What.

After Si Jingyan took a shower, he sat by the bed and watched the script of "Mystery Case". He still attaches great importance to the audition of "Mystery Case". Next week is the audition time. Although he has already familiarized himself with the content of the script, but Every day when he has time, he will still watch it again, simulating various interpretation methods in his mind.But I stared at the script for ten minutes tonight, not to mention imitating it in my head, I couldn't even read the content of the script.

He got up and threw the script of "Mystery Case" back on the table, walked around the room a few times, then sighed helplessly, opened the door of the room and went out.

If An Xia is not allowed to come out of his depression tonight, he feels that he is doomed to suffer from insomnia!Moreover, it has been almost seven or eight hours since the incident in the lounge, and it has been long enough. Now I take the initiative to talk to An Xia. According to An Xia's slowness, I should not see any clues. An Xia's performance was unexpectedly sharp and sensitive...

Thinking of An Xia's appearance at that time, Si Jingyan suddenly felt a chill down his back.But - he would rather An Xia get angry at himself with full energy, than see him depressed with guilt on his face...

Si Jingyan went to the kitchen to warm a glass of milk before knocking on An Xia's door with the hot milk.

The door was quickly opened, An Xia raised her head slightly, looked at Si Jingyan, who was standing outside the door, wearing a silver-gray nightgown, with the skirts open, revealing a large chest, and wondered why this person didn't sleep properly every time. robe.And Si Jingyan looked down at An Xia who was wearing pajamas and pajamas, tightly dressed, and felt infinitely sad - why are An Xia's pajamas so conservative?

The two stood at the door and stared at each other silently for a few seconds before Si Jingyan handed the glass of milk to An Xia's hand, "Here, hot milk will help you sleep at night."

"Thank you." An Xia took the milk glass and thanked in a low voice.

"Don't ask me to come in and sit down?"

"Ah, please come in." An Xia quickly stepped aside to let Si Jingyan in.

In An Xia's room, An Xia sat on the edge of the bed holding the milk cup given by Si Jingyan, while Si Jingyan crossed his legs and sat on a chair casually, facing An Xia face to face.He glanced at the seat next to An Xia, if possible, he would prefer to sit next to An Xia.Still, that's not an appropriate move at the moment.

Si Jingyan withdrew his gaze, and said in a warm voice, "Still minding about the lounge in the afternoon?"

"I'm sorry, I was thinking too much..." An Xia lowered her head and stared at the ripples caused by the slight shaking of the milk in the milk glass, and apologized softly.

"It's okay, I don't care." Si Jingyan slowed down his tone, "I have something to ask you, if you don't want to answer, I don't mind if you refuse."

"go ahead."

"I don't know if this is my arbitrary guess, I feel...you seem to be particularly disgusted with homosexuals?"

An Xia's hands holding the milk cup were slightly tightened, her mouth was pursed, and her expression showed a bit of stiffness.

After An Xia was confessed by his senior brother Hua De, besides being frightened and fled to this city in S city, there were also obvious sequelae, which I really realized today. She will be subconsciously sensitive to the same sex who is too close Overthinking too much.He actually didn't like this, and even hated himself who was so suspicious, so he fell into the trough of self-loathing.However, such things as psychological shadows can never be effective through subjective correction, and - the culprit that caused his shadows, he has not yet had the courage to face them directly.There were several messages from Hua De lying in the text message inbox, but he never replied.

An Xia has been worrying about this matter for a long time. In fact, she really wants to talk to someone, but it is not something that can be discussed with others casually. As time goes by, it forms a kind of pressure on him invisibly.She has been enduring this kind of mental pressure alone, probably because she is really tired. Now that Si Jingyan asks about it, An Xia suddenly has a strong desire to tell her.

Parents and teachers will only make them hate their seniors, so they can't say anything; although Zhao Changqing is a few years older than him, his personality is not the type that can make An Xia feel dependent. Telling him probably won't help solve the problem. .Si Jingyan is different, he is like a friend of the same generation, and also like an elder who can be relied on, although sometimes he likes to play tricks on him, but he is definitely more reliable than Zhao Changqing, and Si Jingyan is still a person who has nothing to do with his brother Hua De .

"Actually... To be precise, it's not that I hate homosexuals. I have no prejudice against homosexuals..." An Xia rubbed her milk glass, frowning and organizing her words, "I can't tell what it feels like, it's probably like a A persecution paranoia, overly sensitive to same-sex intimacy..."

In fact, you are not overly sensitive, and you are surprisingly sensitive. I do have thoughts about you... Si Jingyan felt a little guilty, but he still controlled his expression and continued to use a low and gentle tone to induce He asked, "Did something happen?"

Since An Xia himself feels that he is overly sensitive to same-sex intimacy, it means that he was not like this before, and something must have happened.

After a little hesitation, An Xia took a deep breath, looked up at Si Jingyan, "This is the first time I've told others about this..."

"I'll keep it secret for you." Before An Xia could finish speaking, Si Jingyan continued.

"Actually, it's not a very confidential matter, but I don't want other people around me to know." An Xia smiled shyly at Si Jingyan, "This is also the reason why I came to S city. Brother, one day he confessed to me..."

Si Jingyan's knees suddenly tightened, his eyes darkened, someone actually attacked An Xia before him!who is it?Zhao Changqing?No, if it was Zhao Changqing, An Xia would not have lived with him in the first place.The guy named Wei Lang who went to the wild club with An Xia before?Probably not, that person seems to have known An Xia not long ago, so it's impossible for him to be someone who An Xia has always regarded as his elder brother.The reason for coming to S City?Isn't that person in City S now...

An Xia didn't notice the emotion surging in Si Jingyan's eyes, holding the milk cup and continuing to talk——

"I don't have that kind of affection for him. I just treat him as a brother. But if we reject him, we won't even be brothers and friends." An Xia laughed at himself, "Maybe I was too greedy, I didn't want to lose the brotherhood with him, but I didn't want to be his lover, I couldn't make a decision, so I ran away. But, I know, running away can't solve the problem, there will always be One day I had to make a choice."

"It's also because of this incident that you are overly sensitive to the intimacy of the same sex?"

"Yeah." An Xia nodded.

"Now you tell me about this, do you want me to give you some advice?"

"I can't find any other people around me who are suitable to talk about this matter and who can give some suggestions."

"I feel very honored to be trusted by you so much." Si Jingyan said with a smile, hiding the darkness in his eyes calmly, "My suggestion is that you can be more willful, refuse if you don't want to, and keep what you want to maintain." Just continue to maintain it. No matter what kind of relationship, whether to start or end, it is not up to one person. The lover relationship that person wants, as long as you do not agree, it cannot start; the friend or brother relationship between you, if he wants Give up, if you don't give up, it won't end."

An Xia thought for a while in silence, then her eyes lit up, "That's a good idea, I know what to do."

Si Jingyan stood up and patted An Xia's head, "Am I solving a problem for you?"

"Well, thank you."

"Will it help your persecution paranoia?"

"Have!"

"That's good." Si Jingyan smiled, "Go to bed early, there is still work tomorrow."

Si Jingyan went to talk to An Xia so that he would not suffer from insomnia at night, and hoped that An Xia would not continue to be depressed about the day's affairs.In the end, An Xia came out of his depression as he wished, but he still lost sleep—he thought he was the only one who was staring at An Xia, but he didn't want someone to reach out to An Xia before him. paws.

But - since that person didn't succeed before, then he won't give him another chance to attack An Xia!