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Xia Nuan can't remember how hard the days of detoxification are. People's memory will naturally block some painful memories, just like now Xia Nuan can't remember how she ran out of Tang Qianmo's house.

In those days in the small black room, in Xia Nuan’s memory, she only remembers that Luo Jia used him to practice weightlifting when he was addicted to drugs. He was 1.9 meters tall, and then raised his arms. The height, Xia Nuan dared not Glancing down, I was afraid that I would fall, my whole body was painful and itchy, and when the need for drugs reached the peak, I still worried about whether I would fall, and sometimes I wished that Luo Jia would just throw him on the ground Falling to death, every time a drug addict has to experience these double tortures of body and heart, and these are meaningless to Luo Jia, Xia Nuan is a drug addict, he just looks at him and doesn't let him hurt himself , Xia Nuan practiced weightlifting because of boredom, and later found that lifting Xia Nuan would make him quieter, and this was used as a way to cure Xia Nuan, which saved him from always thinking and crying. Luo Jia never took it seriously I've heard what Xia Nuan is talking about, and I don't care. Sometimes Xia Nuan is so noisy that he will bump his head against the wall. Anyway, the wall is covered with foam, and it doesn't hurt. He just sits on a stool beside him and stares coldly. Look, when I am addicted to drugs, I feel very irritable when I move here. I can’t take drugs, and I can’t vent my emotions. Xia Nuan will come to Luo Jia and scold him. Luo Jia ignores him and beats him. The arm can stop him from moving.

A large part of the reason why drugs are difficult to quit is because of inner dependence, escaping from reality, and indulging in the joy brought by drugs. Happiness is much more serious. Gradually, the fear of drugs overwhelms the desire, and the drug addiction gradually decreases. When Xia Nuan doesn’t have seizures, he will chat with Luo Jia. Well, Xia Nuan wasn't a talkative person at first, but there were only the two of them in the room. He didn't know what Luo Jia thought. Anyway, he felt that he would suffocate to death even if he wasn't tortured by drugs, so he often teased Luo Jia, Luo Jia He didn't feel discouraged when Jia ignored him. Anyway, no matter what mood Luo Jia was in, he always had that expression on his face. He naturally thought that Luo Jia would not be angry. Tie it up and throw it on the bed. There are a lot of ropes in the room, and Luo Jia can find them easily. At this time, Xia Nuan lay obediently on the bed and talked sarcasticly. Someone brought the meal every day, and Xia Nuan would take all of Luo Jia's meat. In his own bowl, Luo Jia didn't care about him. During those dark days, these memories became the faint sunshine of Xia Nuan. Later, his thoughts of drug rehabilitation were much less, and he wanted to see Luo Jia change his face every day. Jia's eyes are a little different, and Xia Nuan will feel particularly accomplished.

Chen Yunge often came to see him. At first Xia Nuan was still unhappy, even unrequited. Later, his health improved, his appetite improved, and he was not so thin. Several times, Chen Yunge wanted to take him to eat some delicious food Xia Nuan refused, fearing that she would lose control if she went out, so in that room, facing this person who was no different from a dumb person, entertained herself, and left no trace of drug rehab, Chen Yunge saw I have met many people with perseverance, and I have seen many people who are cruel to themselves, but Xia Nuan is beyond his imagination. Maybe Xia Nuan's appearance is too weak, which makes Chen Yunge think that he will not be able to hold on, so he treats him The effort is unexpected and thus admirable.

When Xia Nuan came out of the small black house, Xia Nuan felt as if he had just felt a world away. Even the setting sun felt dazzling. Looking at the road not far away, there was a little more desolation under the setting sun. Xia Nuan thought, that is probably the road leading to me the way ahead.

When bidding farewell to Luo Jia, Luo Jia smiled at him for the first time, "Take care." Xia Nuan looked surprised, "So you can laugh. Smile again, okay?" Luo Jia returned to his expressionless face, and Chen Yunge Looking at it from the side, I was a little relieved and a little moved. Now Xia Nuan is really like being reborn. She is much more cheerful and loves to laugh, just like the naughtiness of a child who was buried many years ago has returned.

After leaving, Xia Nuan never contacted Luo Jia again, he always felt that Luo Jia represented the unbearable days, maybe Luo Jia was the god sent by heaven to save him.Sometimes Xia Nuan feels that the past is like a dream, as if he was originally from City C, and everything in City A is just a dream with ups and downs. When he wakes up, he should not put it aside in his memory until From the appearance of Lin Yao and Song Yan until the appearance of Tang Qianmo and Tang Qiudi, Xia Nuan didn't know whether it was the continuation of the nightmare or the arrival of a new life.