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When Na Young came home, she tried to behave as usual, but suddenly she heard Na Young ask her, "Hyunja, what's wrong?"

The spoon in her hand trembled slightly, and she put it back into the bowl pretending to be calm. "I've thought about it for a long time, and I think it's better for Enbiao and I to move out. Enbiao and I are just your troubles, and Enbiao has no blood relationship with you, and you shouldn't raise him, let alone me. An outsider..."

"Enough!" Naying interrupted from the original soft question to an angry reprimand. She stopped talking in fright. She had never seen Naying lose her composure like this. "I've said it many times, I don't treat you as an outsider, why do you always think like this every time?"

But she can't stop.If she doesn't continue, she will soften her heart──"In this day and age, no one will be a widow anymore, and you don't have to help the Han family support Enbiao anymore, Enbiao and I will be on our own..."

"Enough is enough!" Naying yelled, "If you think I haven't done enough for you, then leave this house and I won't stop you."

Hyunja stood up silently, and at the same time as she was about to leave, she suddenly heard Naying speak—

"Hyunja, I need you."

Why did Na Young talk to her in such a humble tone?Just like crying in the car that time, she felt distressed and wanted to give him more comfort.Naying, you shouldn't be so pitiful, you shouldn't be so sad, how could she walk away like this!

Tears filled her face again at some point, and her thoughts were twisted and twisted in the broken teardrops, looking at Naying who was crying with her.

Naying intends to clarify the matter with her and take her to the living room.

"Why bring this up again?" Naying calmed down and began to ask her, quickly catching something. "Xian Bi went to look for you, right? What did he tell you? Did he tell you to move?"

"It's not President Nan." Seeing that Na Ying picked up the phone and wanted to call President Nan, she said in a low voice, "Miss Zheng came to see me."

"You mean Seung-sook? What did she say to you?"

She didn't know how to say those words to Naying, so she kept silent.

"She told you to move out, right? She told you not to drag me down, saying that Xian Bi is still chasing me, don't let me delay my life's happiness for you and the Han family!" Naying said at the end, her tone softened. "What I want to pursue, I know very well. Although Shengshu is my friend, what she said does not represent my thoughts."

So is the current life what Na Young wants?Xianzi felt that there were many thoughts churning in her head, she could only grasp one of the threads, and asked out: "Miss Zheng said, you are a very proud person."

"Your pride doesn't allow you to share a love with other people. But why...you have to give in so much for me?" She held her left hand tightly with her right hand, and she didn't understand why she asked such a question Awkward questions, breaking their relationship, wanting to know what Naying really thinks.

Naying answered quickly. "Maybe it's because I like Han Sang Jin so much."

Answers without thought are not real answers. "It's been seven years since you said you loved him."

"What exactly do you want to ask?"

With just such a sentence, she retreated into silence again.She only vaguely grasped a line, and she didn't know what was at the end, but no matter what the answer was, the relationship between her and Naying would change. After feeling that Naying cared for her, she was afraid at the last moment.

"Go to class, I'm going to be late for Chinese class soon." She wanted to escape the topic, but was grabbed by Na Ying, and a chill came from her body.

"You are afraid of me." Naying said not a question but an affirmative sentence. "The happiness you had in the amusement park that day was not real."

Looking at the other party with wide eyes, she saw the loneliness on Na Ying's face, and seeing that the other party was about to let go, she reflexively held Na Ying tightly──

Even though she shed tears of distress, she was still greedy.She wanted to stay with Naying, her heart told her so, looking into Naying's eyes, the other party didn't tell her whether she understood the answer, but no one let go.

Although only one day has passed, Hyun Ja feels as if a century has passed.

Naying woke up early in the morning and seemed to be the same as usual, but the tiredness in her voice could not deceive anyone. Before going out, Naying stared at her for a long time, but left without saying anything.

──She was disturbed by this gaze all day long.

After calling and saying that she would not be home for lunch, Hyunja spent the whole afternoon cleaning housework and cooking, and hurriedly turned on the lights in the living room in the evening, waiting for Naying to come back.

Just like how she waited for her father in the past, she would leave a lamp for fear that his father would be too lonely, and she would not be at ease until her father entered the door and turned off the light.If possible, she also likes to wait for Naying to come back and share with her the big and small things that happened today. She likes the trivial greetings from Naying about whether her clothes are warm or not, and whether the things at home are enough. She likes to make a cup of hot water for Naying. Ke Ke, watching the man smile sweetly at her because he drank the hot drink.

She knew in her heart that it felt like home.Although it is ironic, in the eyes of Mrs. Jincun, it seems that Naying destroyed her home, but in the eyes of Ms. Shengshu, she is the murderer who destroyed Naying's family.

Seeing that the hour hand was getting closer and closer to eleven o'clock, Xianja was fidgeting holding the phone, and couldn't help but go to the room to see if Enbiao was asleep, so she picked up her leather bag and walked to the door.

After the door opened, I saw Naying leaning against the wall, meeting her gaze in astonishment.

Naying looked at her with a slightly embarrassed expression. "Is Enbiao asleep?"

She nodded, and then realized that Naying was still at the door, so she hurried out of the passage.

The other party didn't enter the door right away, but looked at the leather bag under her arm. "It's so late, where are you going?"

"Your phone is off, I'm a little worried..."

"So you want to find me?"

"Eun Biao has already fallen asleep, I want to say that I will be back soon..."

"It's so late now, there are no taxis on the road, and the company is some distance away, are you going to walk there?"

"I used to go to the bus stop and wait..."

"This is not Korea. What if Eun Pyo wakes up and finds no one at home? It's so late, it's dangerous for you to go out alone in the middle of the night." Naying's tone became urgent, perhaps because she realized that she was too excited, Gradually lower your voice. "I'm sorry, my mood is a little unstable today, don't take what I said just now to your heart."

Sensing the other person's emotional changes, she raised her head and met Shang Naying's sincere eyes. "Actually, I'm glad to see you come out to find me."

Entering the room, she quickly served Naying a cup of hot cocoa, and then sat beside her. Naying didn't hold the cup, but only used a spoon to circle the cup intermittently.

"You want to move away, I won't stop you." After Naying burst out this sentence for no reason, she grabbed Hyunja's hands, and at the same time she didn't know how to react, she leaned her face against her palm. "But I need you. Hyunja, I need you."

This is the second time, when Naying said this to her, she could feel Naying's breath scratching her fingertips, thin and warm, like seaweed growing and spreading from the deepest part of the ocean, Gently entwined into the deepest place in her heart.In the world that has been so quiet for so many years, she heard a different breathing sound, passing through the dense pores, and letting out a long sigh during the rotation of the gears.

The world seems to be loose because of this, as if turning the head sideways, you can see a light shining in through the gap.She sighed softly, Naying succeeded in keeping her, not because of pity or redemption, not because the Han family needed her; but Kim Naying herself needed Seo Hyunja, it was Naying who took her hand, showing her fragile back, Waiting for a while to appease, also handed over the weight of life to her.

"Eun Biao, Auntie is going to work later, come over to eat soon." The next day when she got up early for dinner, she avoided the other's eyes, and softly fed Eun Biao to eat breakfast, and took the school bus. Naying accompanied her to At the door, when she was about to turn around and enter, he quickly held her hand.

Before the other party could speak, she said directly, "What do you want for lunch?"

Naying's eyes suddenly lit up, so dazzling that she couldn't escape, so she could only meet them in a daze.

"You want to wait for me to come back for lunch?" Naying wanted to ask something further, they all knew that was the core of the problem, but she didn't think about it last night, maybe even Naying didn't dare to think about it.But Naying was still so happy, and said to her cautiously: "Then let's have lunch together. Every day from now on, it will be the same."

Last night, Xianzi sat alone in the living room, looking around, the rose-shaped wall hooks on the wall were bought by her and Naying together, and there were Enbiao’s raincoats on the low cabinet, there are so many without trace shared memory.

Back in the room, Yongtai's photo was still on the dressing table. In the photo, Yongtai was wearing the jacket she bought, smiling innocently while hugging Enbiao.During her dream at midnight, she also thought, did she kill Yongtai?If instead of being Han Sang-jin, he was Min Yong-tae for the rest of his life, wouldn't he have to go through all the struggles and struggles later?She thought it was good for Yongtai to do so, and pushed away Yongtai who said he needed her. Knowing that Yongtai could not adapt to the Han family, she closed the door for Yongtai to come back.Who is happy in the end?She, Yongtai and Naying all fell into the abyss that cannot be rescued.

Now she is faced with another choice, let her be more selfish this time, shall I?Don't worry about what other people say, don't think that doing this is good for everyone—it was Naying who said she was needed, Naying was sober and not confused at all, and it was Naying who said clearly what she was doing now.If Na Young makes a choice, then she will follow Na Young's choice.

"Okay. It will be the same every day from now on." She said softly to Na Ying, although her voice was almost inaudible, but she thought Na Ying would definitely hear it.

After this incident, there was an unspoken tacit understanding between them. She didn't ask President Nan and Miss Zheng what they said later, and Naying often took her around.Sometimes it was just in the nearby park, the two of them walked around the tree, and sometimes they just stood at the door of the coffee shop, letting Naying, who was stipulated to drink only one cup a day, enjoy the aroma of coffee.The topics between them are always very common, they are inseparable from housework and the two children, and sometimes they lose their voices while chatting, but they are not as awkward as before. They are immersed in the silence, listening quietly and not belonging to own breath.

A ballad song floated from the street by chance. Naying said that this song has been popular for many years.It's funny to say that it was the first time she heard this song that was widely circulated in the streets and alleys in a foreign country. "The dependence I felt towards him, I prayed that it wasn't love. The regretful eyes staring at me, I wish it was just my illusion. I want to avoid him even now, he who has been just a friend's love for a long time ..."

What about the chorus?She heard her heart beating faster, and secretly glanced at Naying who was walking aside, and the expression on the other side was also very subtle.They bowed their heads and walked slowly. Why do they feel that the road is very long, as if they can't finish it? "Because you love someone, you might lose a lot, right? Even the friendship you can rely on when you're tired. But our love, which started with so much hardship, is only allowed by God──"

The author has something to say:

I love this song so much! ! □□

After listening to this song and then listening to "Hou Ai", you will find that the timbre and treble are really beautiful, she really just doesn't often release ballads□□