when we kiss the blade

In fact, I don't want to face Xu Shaoting at all. Anyway, I haven't talked to Xu Shaoting for a long time. The most vivid memories in my mind are quarrels, anger, and hurting each other, not to mention a little warmth. Now even the memories have become gray and light.

Because, the person arguing with him is not me, but another person.

That person is like the host of my body, he pushed me out, and now he releases me and throws me into a place where not a single grass grows.

It's a feeling that I can't even vent.

In the past two days, I have blocked more than 20 text messages, and I didn't slow down myself. I believe he didn't prepare any unsatisfactory explanations.

I suddenly turned into a black and white curly ghost, squatting in the corner of the dark red room on the third floor of Jinxu, outsiders can't get in, and I can't get out.

The shadowy lights in the bar are extremely ambiguous, there is no one in the afternoon, and the singing and dancing are going to be in the evening, a group of lunatics are shaking their arms, wanting to release the bursting hormones.At this time, only the singer who was carried up plucked the strings of the guitar, and sang a lonely and unbearable tune with his low and decadent voice with his eyes closed.

I shook the red wine in the glass. I don't drink often, and I don't drink well. Ever since I was plotted against by someone, I can't avoid this kind of irritating liquid. Roughly, after smoking, I think it still hasn’t changed, and I feel a lot more tired.

I still remember Xu Shaoting's appearance when he smokes, even the movement of pinching the cigarette with his fingers is different from others. Others smoke hastily and pitifully, but he smokes sharply and fiercely. .

We are two lunatics, one is ruthless and even more ruthless to himself, and the other is lonely and closed like a greedy wolf. God knows how we came together.

I retreated step by step and restrained my character, while he violated step by step, firmly controlling the relationship.

I looked at my watch, he usually arrives early, it seems that he has never been there, he didn't see my message or what?I have calmly put all the things I want to say to the showdown, and the words are very clear, everyone is a man, there is no such thing as nonsense, whether you want to get along, be clean.The meaning is very clear, if he doesn't want to continue, or has no real feelings for me, Song Kai, then there is no need to come again today.

I waited until 5 o'clock today, when it was o'clock, I said goodbye to two people first, one was Zhao Chengwei, this time he was finally unable to save me, and the other was Song Cheng, he was a very strange person, he was with me There is no common language, so there is no good relationship, but there was an agreement a long time ago——

If either of us has a hunch that we're done, let the other know, so the teenage vows come to fruition.

The phone call was very ordinary, he heard me say that I was almost finished, and he reacted very calmly, as if I should have finished playing at this time, and there was a strange chiseling sound over there——

"What the hell are you doing, what noise?"

He blew lightly, as if he was blowing away something, and then his voice was still casual, noble and cold: "Zhuoyu."

"Are you catching fish?" I was taken aback.

He chuckled slightly, and the strange voice on the other end was a bit more serious: "Song Kai, you and I will never be on the same channel, I am carving."

I was not in a good mood, so I sculpted, carved jade, and caught fish.

Like explaining the funeral, I said everything I could say, and when I returned to Sal Palace, Luo Hua pursued the dereliction of duty in front of everyone, and fired me solemnly and angrily.I don't know why, but I received his message after leaving:

At 9 o'clock tonight, I'll be waiting for you at the end of Yijing Road.

Yijing Road is not far from Sal Palace. It is a bustling commercial street. There are so many people there, it is estimated that it is deceptive, and it is difficult to track.

I changed my outfit and appeared on time at the end of the brightly lit street. There was a lot of noise. At this three-fork intersection, I stood under the street lamp and called him: "Where are you?"

"Have you seen that coffee shop called A Grain of Sand?"

I looked, among the many shops, the small coffee shop with unique design is indeed very pleasing, the dark green signboard is faintly shining, and a feeling of primitive deep forest is revealed.I walked to the gate and looked inside, and the people inside were drinking coffee and chatting quietly: "Where are you?"

"I'm on the second floor, you go directly to the boss, tell him you want to find me, and he will bring you here."

I pushed the door open and asked the waiter to take me to the boss. The man understood and led me to the third floor without saying a word. The third floor is already a living area and there are no customers. A small bedroom.

A wall lamp was turned on in the bedroom, under the warm light, the boss smiled kindly at Luo Hua who was sitting on the bed drinking coffee: "Ah Hua, is that him?"

I looked back at him, the person who can be called President Hua probably opened a coffee shop purely out of interest.

Luo Hua responded with a smile: "That's right, it's him."

The boss closed the door when he left. With a light sound, the place immediately became a closed space. I walked over and asked in confusion, "What are you doing?"

He patted the place beside him and said with a smile: "Out of the Saar Palace, I hope you don't care about identity."

Of course I didn't care. I sat on the bed naturally, and the strong aroma of coffee wafted over. It was very unique. Sure enough, the shop had a secret recipe. The corner of my mouth curled into a smile: "This coffee is good."

This space is too small, looking up is the ceiling painted with starry sky, surrounded by wooden furniture, even the walls are made of wood, giving a strong sense of comfort.

He brought the cup to my mouth, raised his eyes slightly, and said, "Taste it, you must have never tasted it before." Damn me - I tasted it, and...

—— Luo Hua, you did it on purpose!

He couldn't help laughing and tilted his head, and hurriedly found a disposable cup to spit it out for me. I vomited all the coffee in it in embarrassment, and wiped the corner of my mouth with the paper towel. It was so bitter, I was sure it was me The most deceitful coffee I've ever drank, it's a hundred times bitterer than the bitterest coffee I've ever drank, and I've brought the taste of bitterness to its extreme.

I pointed at the instigator and joked coolly: "I will drag you out and spoil you if you do this." It seems that Yun Qiao said this, so let me borrow it.

He didn't care, he conjured a piece of chestnut cake from the cabinet like a magic trick, and put it in my hand like an apology: "Don't be angry, I have prepared dessert for you, and if you want to ruin it, you can do it early."

I was stunned.

I can still see the blush on his face, faint, just right, charming, exquisite facial features, a man like a goblin is scary, although no one has ever seen a goblin.He continued to hold the cup of unreasonably bitter coffee and sipped it bit by bit, wrapping his slender white fingers around the body of the pure black bone china cup, caressing it carefully.

Then, the shadow of Xu Shaoting appeared in my mind. He was holding a coffee cup and gently stirring it with a delicate little gold spoon.