when we kiss the blade

In the dark red environment, a voice kept echoing in my ears, it wasn't An Weng's weird threat, but Xu Shaoting's indifferent words——so, I don't expect much from you...

It was like a nightmare. It brought me back to when I was very young, and I was taken to the black market for trading. The most fearful thing was the disappointed eyes of the customers after seeing me. It meant that I would continue to starve and be abused until someone used money I buy it.

The feeling of fear is still there, it's just that I have experienced and practiced too much over the years, and I can still look expressionless when blood is splattered.But that kind of look and tone were sharper than a sharp knife and stronger than sulfuric acid, which suddenly broke me down.

You obviously don't have that kind of feeling, but I hope you can achieve perfection; you are obviously a wild wolf that cannot be tamed, but I hope you become docile.I know, you can't do it, so, Song Kai, I don't expect much from you.

So, I would be willing to wear handcuffs.

So, be willing to stay here in silence.

Isn't it like a clown, trying to save his audience?

Without an audience, all performances are meaningless.

Is meekness that difficult for you?What a dog can do, but you can't do it, isn't that even worse than a dog?

The heart in my chest was beating violently, I got out of bed immediately, picked up the phone on the cabinet, and dialed the number with a hesitation.

The moment it was connected, I held my breath. There was a familiar sound of a man inhaling. He was smoking a cigarette, and it took a long time before he said, "What's wrong?"

I whispered, "I'm sorry."

His voice was indifferent: "Your apology doesn't make any sense."

I asked again: "Do you really like Samoyed?"

"What's wrong with you?" He seemed puzzled.

"Don't be disappointed with me, okay? I will change my character, restrain my irritability, lose my egoism, and let go of everything Song Yunhui taught me. I will learn how to be gentle and lovable. Do you still have the patience to wait for me? After finishing these incredible words in one breath, I found myself as if I was suffocating, and my whole body was extremely tense, waiting for his answer.

"is it okay……"

I feel bad.

He intentionally delayed the response: "Yes. Remember that this is an opportunity you asked for from me, only once. If you can't do it, Song Kai, I don't have your persistence. That's it, what do you want to eat? "

"Chestnut cake."

It probably never occurred to him that I have a sweet tooth.

At noon, he brought over two pieces of chestnut cake. The cake was very delicate and showed his style.After a whole morning of trouble, I was already hungry, and I devoured two pieces of cake.

He didn't make a sound, and carefully observed the room. After making sure that the items in the room hadn't changed, he looked at me and said in a clear voice, "You just sat by the bed all morning and didn't do anything?"

I nodded, and after eating my stomach, I felt a little relaxed.

He seemed very satisfied, and reminded: "Remember, it's not a good habit to rummaging through things. I don't want to come here one day and see that any of the things here have changed their positions."

I didn't have that habit in the first place, so I agreed.

"What would you like to eat tonight?"

"I still want to stay here alone for an afternoon?"

He asked naturally: "Otherwise, you want to go out now? The people have already left, and there will be no obstacles for you to go down, but you should think clearly, this is the opportunity you asked for."

Obviously he misunderstood me, I corrected: "It's not going down, but you let me stay here, but you don't let me do anything. Is this what you mean by taming?"

He nodded knowingly, pressed his palm on my shoulder, and said with a chuckle: "Which owner have you ever seen give orders to their pets on the first day? If after three days, you still have no signs of resistance , I will consider giving you an errand."

"..."

His hand patted my shoulder twice, very lightly, and continued: "Of course, it's just for consideration."

I understand that I'd better not speak or move for these three days.Because once this happens, with my personality, I will probably get into a stalemate with him again, even though I am enduring it now.

"Okay." I said.

"Tell me, what do you want for dinner?"

I thought about it: "Sweet and sour pork ribs."

He smiled and said, "What else?"

"Chestnut cake." I thought I was pretty honest.

My thinking is right, as long as we talk less and do less, the peace between Xu Shaoting and I can be maintained.In the next three days, the long silence made me wonder if I had lost the function of language. Moreover, the whole apartment was dead silent, and I couldn't hear a sound, as if I was isolated from the world.

Except for bringing me three meals a day, Xu Shaoting would not go up to the third floor. Every time I finished eating, he would leave without any stay, let alone communication.

I am not a lively person, but I am definitely not a lonely and boring person.After not seeing the sun, not speaking, and doing nothing for three days, I actually hoped that he could stay here for a while, say one more sentence, and let my ears hear some voices.

I remembered what he said three days ago, and couldn't help asking him before he left: "Have you forgotten what you said before?

He turned around, pretended to be thinking, and asked, "What do you mean?"

"You forgot, you said that after three days, if I don't resist, then you will give me one thing to do."

I think he probably forgot, and he is so busy every day, unlike me, who is so boring that there is only one thing left in his mind.

He didn't suddenly realize it, but smiled, walked up to me, and leaned over to look at me: "I haven't forgotten, but your performance didn't satisfy me, so that matter was cancelled."

This flirty tone seemed to be playing tricks!

I stared at him, my voice trembling: "Did you do it on purpose?"

Without concealing it, he said it very bluntly: "If you think you can just turn yourself into a piece of wood and you will be docile, I'm sorry, you don't understand me at all." The bridge of the nose finally stayed in the center of the lips, "You don't speak just because you don't want to conflict with me, and you still resist mentally. You are afraid that if you speak, you will lose control of yourself. Who would be satisfied with such an attitude?"

I lowered my eyes and asked deeply, "What do you want from me?"

He sighed: "Think about it for yourself, why is something as simple as meekness so complicated when it comes to you."

I feel like I'm going crazy.

"Can you... give me a hint?"

He smiled casually: "What reminder do you want?" He thought for a moment, "You can't go out now, and you can't do anything. It's better to learn how to dance. It's a pity to give up halfway."

Why are you dancing again!Knowing it's impossible, but still forcing it!

He turned on the computer, clicked on a video in an encrypted folder, and I quickly recognized that it was the last time he watched a distracted video.

The dance that shocked me too.

He pointed to the skinny boy on the screen, and said lightly: "I have learned [-]%, I am very satisfied."