when we kiss the blade

Eddie hurriedly came to An Weng, I thought An Weng would be laughing and joking as usual, and Eddie passed my eyes, but Eddie was frightened, the man was serious and serious.

He looked at Eddie, then at me, and said, "What are you doing?"

I have always been very straightforward: "I like men."

He frowned suddenly, he knew that eight of the ten sentences I said were unreliable, but he immediately recognized that this sentence was one of the remaining two sentences, he slowly handed me a cigarette, and when I took it He laughed and said, "Shao Ting, sober."

This speechless answer made Eddie completely panicked. He didn't dare to look An Weng in the eyes, and wanted to hide behind me uncomfortably. Resolutely said: "I didn't come to seek your consent, I brought him here, just to tell you that I like a man."

An Weng is obviously very old-fashioned. His eyes passed me and fell directly on Eddie behind me. When he looks down on others, he will be very serious, like a needle hidden in his eyes. He sneered: "When you learn How can you face me, talk about your qualifications to stand beside Shao Ting, now you are worthless in my eyes, I will not let my son hang out with a trash."

I'm furious. I rarely do things that end in such a bad way. If it weren't for Eddie, the goal I set would be crazy to die.

I don't believe there are ideas that can't be changed, so I said to the beaten Eddie, "If you give up on yourself, I will give up on you."

In order to let An Weng get used to the fact that my son is already gay, I deliberately let Eddie stay at home and appear in front of An Weng with high frequency every day, because no one at home dared to cook for me. Having a small discussion with Eddie at another table, Anon looked down on us with a look of rubbish, and I will never wrong myself to play flying chess with him again, while I play flying chess with Eddie It was such a joy, this made An Weng red-eyed...

I left the mountains of documents that Anweng gave me every day, and painted pictures with colorful paints, landscapes and waters, and men. Eddie played cheekily with me and hung out quietly together. During that time, we were closer than ever before.

Eddie discovered a me other than authoritarianism, my mind is more than those cold data, I can restrain myself in addition to restraining others, and I also discovered that he is not a fool who is so stupid, he Just willing to show me the simplest side.

Exactly, my life needs to be simple, which is also one of the simple explanations for my heartbeat when I met Song Kai many years later.

And at this moment, I'm like a calm madman with a huge active volcano hidden inside. Eddie and I are cooking in the kitchen, and while we're cooking, our arms want to catch up, and we start to dance slowly, and I don't like it at all. Thinking it was odd, Eddie caught a latent quality in me.

However, this potential was later squandered by me, and instead of being used to develop art, I used it to flirt with men.Under my subtle influence, Eddie gradually became mischievous. When he was the most naughty, he could use my white T-shirt as a canvas to act recklessly on it, and paint his own Q-version portrait on it...

He spread his hands and sighed helplessly: "Don't you think your clothes are too serious?"

I put the t-shirt back in the closet, and I was so angry: "You are so good at drawing, why don't you draw me on it, that would be more meaningful."

He nodded naturally, his expression already a bit reassured, he nestled into my arms, saw that I didn't hug him, and tightly wrapped my arms around his waist, raised his head and looked at me with bright eyes : "I want to draw, but unfortunately I can't think of how to draw you as a Q version..."

After Eddie passed away, I shrank that dress in the dark room on the third floor all the time.When he opened it, a smell of camphor flowed into his nostrils, and the clothes had turned yellow, and some of the oil paint on them had faded. He painted himself with a bright smile, like a silly child, always showing his expectation to the world.

However, how brilliant he is, I feel so sad.

I lost a ray of sunshine in my cold world.

It didn't take long for An Weng to realize that his obstruction had no effect on me at all. On the contrary, I felt that after going through this experience, I could see more clearly what I wanted in my heart.

Anon didn't care about Eddie. I think he has changed his policy at this time. He knows that I am a person who loves the new and hates the old. I like men just on a whim, just on the spur of the moment.He still has high hopes for me, so I no longer have any reason to waste time, even if I yearn for freedom and an unfettered life, I should restrain myself a bit.

When I built Xu's huge system into my brain, Eddie's dance became more and more refined, and every performance was extremely brilliant, so he received more and more invitations.I don't know if it's because he looks easier to bully or something, but there are many more men who look at him than women...

This made me feel like I picked up a treasure. I was very useful. Of course, I was very useful. Of course, I didn’t show it on the face. I still said the words that made him speechless in a commanding tone. Look He didn't know how to answer the words, and I felt an inexplicable sense of pleasure.

As I got busier and busier, he was free to arrange his own time, and I seemed to have found another thing that allowed me to devote myself physically and mentally——work, I confess, I am indeed an ambitious man. I feed myself with emotion like a woman, which is a fantasy.

He has a little temper, because I forget him as soon as I start working, he is very sad, and I don’t answer a few calls a day, I separate work from him, but what I didn’t tell him is that I always When you see him, you forget about work...

My enthusiasm for liking men was not as prosperous as An Weng thought, and withered after a while, but became more and more intense. An Weng clearly told me that the empire does not recognize homosexuality, and Eddie and I are waiting to be killed by others. Poke the spine for a lifetime in the back.

Eddie didn't care about this at all. What others thought of him was as useless as a wrong weather forecast. He said more than once: "I will definitely change the law in the future so that the empire recognizes homosexuality."

It's a pity that he didn't have time to realize this wish. Several years later, another person fulfilled it instead of him.

Song Kai and Eddie were arranged by God in the dark.

In order to hit me, An Weng made me agree to the marriage with Tianye. On the night when Eddie got the news, he rushed all the way to me from the moment he got off the plane, and threw himself into my arms as soon as we met. Feeling his uneasiness, it was like being tormented in a frying pan.I kissed his temples and said, "I promise you, I only have you in my heart."

However, this promise was broken after I was revived, and it became my unspeakable and lingering sin of love.