please divorce

In the end, Cen Ge took his own quilt and built a bed with Anxi, sleeping on both sides of the small bed in a regular manner.

The space was claustrophobic, so quiet that one could hear each other's breathing.

Anxi didn't feel sleepy at all, and stared at the luggage rack above her head with her eyes open.

Her mind was very messy, full of messy thoughts and ideas, and she regretted the hasty decision to see her mother.

Anxi secretly glanced at Cen Ge.

Cen Ge was lying on his back with his head slightly tilted towards her.The light and shadow were dim and blurry, but the beautiful outline of Cen Ge's side face to side neck could be seen clearly.

She actually fell asleep.

Anxi was a little surprised, she thought that Cen Ge would do everything possible to squeeze into her suite, and was always going to do something, but she didn't expect that he was really just sleeping.

Anxi lay down for a while, but she really didn't feel sleepy. Out of boredom, she gently propped herself up, leaned against Cen Ge, and carefully checked whether Cen Ge was really asleep.

The dim light softened the contours of the facial features.Cen Ge closed his eyes, his face looked gentle and harmless, like a defenseless Sleeping Beauty.

Anxi suddenly remembered that when she and Cen Ge were together before, she often peeked obsessively at Cen Ge's sleeping face.

At that time, she couldn't get tired of watching Cen Ge.

Anxi was stunned for a moment, and quickly lay down back to her seat.

It was quiet all around, except for the low hum of the plane flying.

Darkness and silence are pressing in from all directions, making it impossible to avoid.Facing the darkness in front of her eyes, Anxi had to face a question—is she really doing the right thing?

Anxi turned her head and looked at Cen Ge, who was sleeping soundly beside her, feeling a deep daze spread from the bottom of her heart.

Suddenly, Anxi not only didn't know whether her choice at the moment was right or wrong, she didn't even know why she was lying here at this moment.

The past may have passed without any concern, but what about the future?

Does she really want to be with Cen Ge again?

Anxi didn't know.

--

The plane landed in the middle of the night.

Cen Ge just wore Anxi's pajamas, calmly got off the plane, and went to the baggage claim area to get Anxi's suitcase.She had already arranged the address and travel driver, and the two left the airport directly from the garage.

Cen Ge was on the phone in the car and had someone prepare clothes and toiletries for her.

Anxi stared at the familiar street outside the window in a daze.

This is obviously a foreign country, but because I have been there for a few years, when I come back, I will have a wonderful sense of familiarity similar to returning home.

But this is not where Anxi belongs, she knows it clearly.

After her mother passed away, she had no home.She doesn't belong anywhere, though she would love to have one.

Anxi was in a daze when the back of her hand suddenly felt hot.

Cen Ge clasped her fingers, and when Anxi stared at her with big eyes, she smiled, calmly, and asked gracefully, "Can you hold me?"

"No."

Anxi pulled out her hand vigorously, but couldn't pull it out.

Cen Ge grasped her fingers tightly, looked down at the intertwined fingers of the two, and said softly, "Xiaoxi, I will stay with you from now on, okay?"

Anxi's eyelashes trembled, she pursed her lips and said nothing.

Cen Ge slowly loosened his fingers, and interlocked with Anxi's fingers.

"Let's reconcile and start a new family." She said one word at a time, calmly, gently, but firmly, "Just you and me, if you still want children, then we will have one, or two. Then we will live like this lifetime."

She tightened her strength and held Anxi's hand tightly.

"I promise, I will never be separated from you again. If I lie to you again and hurt you, I will die alone and no one will collect my body."

Anxi was silent.

She knew that once she opened her mouth, she must answer "yes".

Cen Ge didn't mind her silence, and shook Anxi's hand: "The future is still very long, I will slowly prove to you that every word I say right now is true."

After a pause, she lowered her eyelids to hide the embarrassment in her eyes.

"One more sentence," Cen Ge said after a few seconds, "I love you, this sentence is also true, really, I love you very much."

--

Cen Ge has a villa here, which Anxi didn't know until later.The location is only two streets away from the former homes of Anxi and Quzheng.But Anxi had never seen Cen Ge near here.

"I came to look for you that year, but I saw you and Qu Zheng together, so I left that day." Cen Ge said in a calm tone while looking around the customer hall, "I swore at that time that I would never come to you again, But after a few days, I got someone to buy the villa."

The decoration of the villa does have Cen Ge's personal style.

"The same goes for Rose Castle. We are obviously divorced, but I still have someone repair it according to the original design."

Anxi glanced at her, and said mockingly, "Because you think I'll come back by myself?"

Cen Ge smiled and said frankly: "I did think so before, but now I realize that it's not because I firmly believe that you will come back, but because..."

An Xi curled up her fingers, thinking of what Cen Ge would say.

"Because I love you." Cen Ge said, "So I restored the house in Tiansheng Rose Bay, repaired our castle according to the original plan, bought a new house near where you live, and... kept our wedding ring. "

Cen Ge took Anxi's curled hand, gently spread out each of her slender fingers, and interlocked them.

"I used to be a nasty and stupid woman, but I swear I will change it in the future." Cen Ge said, "Xiaoxi, you have to trust me. Every word I say to you from now on, every promise, I will do it all."

Anxi lowered her head, looked at Cen Ge clasping her hand tightly, bit her lip, but still did not respond.

Cen Ge still didn't mind her silence, took Anxi to eat, and then left to rest.

At nine o'clock in the morning, Cen Ge and Anxi set off for the cemetery.

Half an hour later, we arrived at the cemetery.

Anxi bought a bunch of Bai Baihe, and Cen Ge bought a bunch of white chrysanthemums.

Cen Ge squatted down and gently put down the chrysanthemum.

Pasted on the tombstone is a black and white photo of Anxi's mother, Chen Luomei. In the photo, she smiled gently with her brows and eyes, and her dark eyes gently watched everyone who came to worship.

Cen Ge looked at the familiar yet unfamiliar person in the photo, and suddenly felt clearly that eight years had passed.

It has been eight years since Chen Luomei passed away.

And Anxi changed from 24 years old to 32 years old.

She also changed from 27 years old to a 35-year-old woman.

Eight years passed away quietly like a stream of light. Looking back, I suddenly realized that one tenth of my life just disappeared.

The years go by without a trace, what else is left besides wrinkles?

Cen Ge raised his eyes and looked at Anxi who was standing quietly.

If Anxi hadn't returned to her side, then she would have kept nothing but aging.Birth, old age, sickness and death are all lonely.

Cen Ge looked at the tombstone and said in a low voice, "Mom."

The word she yelled made Anxi's heart beat violently.

Cen Ge never called Anxi's mother, only when he was in a good mood would he call Auntie.Anxi didn't mind this title either, because Cen Ge didn't even call Su Liyu his mother.

Although Cen Ge didn't say it, Anxi understood that the word "mother" had a shadow in Cen Ge's heart.

But Cen Ge actually yelled today.

The shock caused by this word in Anxi's heart is no different from that "I love you".

Cen Ge said a lot to the tombstone.

Apologize for her past bastards, and swear for her future reformation, and explain some trivial things in life by the way.

In the end, Cen Ge knelt in front of the tomb, respectfully kowtowed three times, and solemnly apologized for his ruthlessness on the night of Chen Luomei's death and her absence for the past eight years.

An Xi was watching from the side.

Looking at the noble and proud woman in a handmade wool coat, she knelt and prostrated humbly, apologizing to a cold tombstone.

Anxi suddenly cried, warm tears wet her cheeks, she hurriedly raised her hand to wipe them away.

After Cen Ge got up, Anxi told her to go first, she had something to say to her mother alone.

Cen Ge touched Anxi's red and moist eyes, and said softly, "Then I'll wait for you in the car?"

Anxi nodded.

When Cen Ge walked away, Anxi knelt in front of the tombstone.

She lowered her head, staring at the white chrysanthemum left by Cen Ge a few minutes ago.

The wind in winter is a little bit strong, and the petals can't help trembling.

An Xi whispered: "Mom, I may be worthless again."

On the tombstone, Chen Luomei just smiled gently.

Anxi didn't dare to look up, and murmured: "Actually, I don't know what I think, but it's just that I can't refuse her more and more recently."

She paused, her tone raised a little.

"By the way, Cen Ge is sick, she said it was cancer." Anxi curled her lips as she spoke, murmuring coquettishly, "But I always feel that she is lying to me, she doesn't look like she is going to die at all. "

After two seconds of silence, An Xi whispered again: "But I have also checked, and if you are lucky, with targeted drugs, you can indeed live for many years with cancer.

"Cen Ge is not an ordinary person. There are so many people in her family jealously staring at the power in her hands. Even if she can use this reason to deceive me, she cannot use this reason to deceive them..."

Anxi babbled, talking a lot.

Finally she got up, because she knelt for too long, the blood was not flowing, her eyes went dark, and she almost fell down.

Anxi hurriedly supported the tombstone, calmed down for a few seconds, his vision gradually cleared up, and Chen Luomei's photo on the tombstone came into view bit by bit.

Mother smiled as gently as ever.

Anxi lowered her hands and stood upright.

After waiting for a while, she suddenly asked softly: "Mom, if I really reconcile with Cen Ge, will you be angry with me?"

The wind blew gently, and the wrapping paper wrapping the white chrysanthemum rustled softly.

Anxi replied in the breeze: "Can you entrust me with a dream at night? If you are not happy, I will keep my distance from her again."

Anxi touched the photo on the tombstone: "Are you okay?"

Cen Ge didn't get in the car.

She waited outside the car for Anxi to come out.

Seeing Anxi's figure from a distance, Cen Ge immediately walked over to pick him up.

Cen Ge turned his eyes around Anxi's pale face, and took Anxi's cold hand.

This time Anxi didn't hide or struggle.

"What did you talk about?" Cen Ge asked, and found that Anxi's hands were cold, so he covered them with his hands and rubbed them, transferring his warmth to her.

Anxi took a fixed look at Cen Ge, and replied, "I scold you."

"Huh?" Cen Ge glanced at her, with a smile in his eyes, "You scolded me with your mother?"

The words "Mom" coming out of Cen Ge's mouth were particularly scorching. An Xi felt uncomfortable hearing that, so he took his hand out of Cen Ge's hand and went around to open the door.

Cen Ge got into the car from the other side, and once he was seated, he asked the driver to turn up the temperature of the air conditioner, and then asked Anxi, "Is it cold?"

Anxi shook her head: "It's not cold."

She was even a little hot, and her face was hot, and she was probably red.

Cen Ge looked at her, and said to the driver, "There is no need to adjust the temperature of the air conditioner."

After she finished speaking, she asked Anxi what she wanted for lunch.

Anxi suddenly remembered the fish in lemon sour soup made by her mother, so she said, "I want to eat fish."

Cen Ge: "Chinese food?"

Anxi nodded.

She actually wanted to tell Cen Ge, you know, in 2020, on my birthday, my mother also said that she would make fish in citric acid soup for me. She said that eating fish on my birthday would be more than enough every year, but we didn’t have it in the end. I ate fish, but I didn't eat the ordered birthday cake, because I had a miscarriage in a car accident that day.

These words lingered in Anxi's heart and lungs for years and months. Whenever she regretted the pain, she would think of this day and these things, and then she would be more painful and angry.

She wanted to slam these words on Cen Ge like a knife with an angry questioning tone countless times, so that she could also taste the pain that hurt like a knife.

But when the opportunity came, these words, the pain and hatred that had been boiled to death for a long time, suddenly evaporated and disappeared like steam, becoming meaningless.

Questioning will not bring results, nor will it bring relief.It's better to let it pass like every past.

--

In the evening, Cen Ge took Anxi to the mountains to watch the stars.

It started snowing in the evening, and it was going to be snowing big.

Cen Ge drove the car, slowly walking along the road towards the mountainside at a low speed.Here is the scenic area, the roads are clean and spacious, and the street lights are bright, clearly illuminating the silhouettes of tree shadows and snowflakes.

At ten o'clock in the evening, it is reasonable to say that the scenic spot has been closed long ago, but now not only the gates are open, but the staff are also there, and they waved politely when they saw Cen Ge's car passing by.

Anxi realized that this place was reserved tonight, and there must be other surprises on the top of the mountain.

Anxi looked at the snow on the side of the road and the snowflakes all over the sky, and remembered that the morning when her mother fell ill in the kitchen, it was also such a snowy day.

She suddenly shouted: "Stop!"

Cen Ge steadied the steering wheel, stepped on the brake slowly, stopped on the side of the road, and asked patiently, "What's wrong?"

Anxi stared at the front of the car and said in a low voice, "I don't want to see the stars anymore."

She didn't want to face Cen Ge's surprise, she was not ready to fully forgive and accept Cen Ge.

Cen Ge looked at her trembling eyelashes and pale face, and quickly said, "Okay, then let's go back first."

Cen Ge held her hand: "I'm sorry, I have too many schedules, don't worry about it."

Anxi nodded: "Let's go back."

"it is good."

Cen Ge restarted the car and turned around down the hill.

On the way, Cen Ge's cell phone kept ringing. She was concentrating on driving in the snow and didn't answer it.

Anxi couldn't stand listening, so she happened to see the toilet sign on the side of the road, so she said, "I want to go to the bathroom."

Cen Ge stopped the car, Anxi went to the bathroom, she answered the phone in the car, and informed about the cancellation of the scenic spot arrangement.

An Xi washed her face, then stared at herself in the mirror in a daze.

She was still confused about whether her choice was really correct, and she found that she didn't think clearly about what she wanted.

Anxi washed her face again, she closed her eyes and wiped off the water drops.

The sound of Cen Ge's footsteps sounded in the quiet bathroom, and Anxi slowly opened his eyes.

Cen Ge stood at the bathroom door, looking at Anxi worriedly.

An Xi avoided her sight and took out a tissue to wipe her face and hands.

At this moment, Cen Ge came over and stopped beside Anxi, seeing that the ends of her hair were wet, he helped her brush them back from her shoulders.

"Are you ready?" Cen Ge asked nonchalantly.

Anxi thought she was asking if she finished washing her face, so she nodded.

Cen Ge took Anxi's hand and said softly, "Then follow me back."

An Xi followed Cen Ge out of the bathroom, walked into the heavy snow, and suddenly thought, maybe this is what she wanted.

To be needed, to be dominated, to be cared for, and to be loved.

An Xi drooped her eyelashes, thinking to herself, let's do this first, take a step at a time.

Anyway, maybe next month Cen Ge will be immune to targeted drugs, and then the cancer will get out of control...

The author has something to say: It’s not far from Mr. Cen’s overturned repair shop (