Who allowed me to live like a dream

The day of July is like a baby's face, it changes as soon as it changes.

On the way here, the sky was cloudy with clouds.When I walked to the door of my cousin's house, the moon jumped out, hanging in the sky like silver in vain.Now that I came out of my cousin's house, the sky was dark and the stars were gone. The moon seemed to be covered with a black cloth, and there was only a faint shadow.

Gu Jiachen's face was burning hot, it felt like being in the winter classroom of the third year of high school.Dozens of people are locked in the classroom, the thick carbon dioxide makes people dizzy, and their faces look like they have been roasted by charcoal.At that time, Gu Jiachen always liked to laugh at himself, saying that if he was going to die in this life, he would be roasted (examined) to death.

When my brother went to college, he was still young, and he seemed to have just graduated from elementary school and was going to junior high school.

Dad was still worried about his inability to go to No. [-] Middle School, he sighed for a while, and lost his temper for a while.It didn't take long to learn that my brother was admitted to university.

The first undergraduate student of the old Gu's family is amazing, this big nephew must have a bright future!Gu's father smoked a cigarette fiercely, and asked Gu's mother:

"How much money do we have left?"

Mother Gu thought for a while, and said, "I still have a few thousand yuan in the passbook... What's the matter?"

"Give it to me, I'll go to the provincial capital."

Gu's mother was originally tidying up with her head down. After hearing what he said, she raised her head: "What? Have you thought about what I said? Are you planning to go to the province to find the official?"

Papa Gu put out the cigarette butt and said, "You can't go empty-handed when you go to someone. Even though they don't need anything, we have to be courteous! I'll get two bottles of wine..."

My brother is really promising... Gu Jiachen thought to himself.Sending generals is not as good as aggressive generals, my father would not be able to lose face even if he was beaten to death, but he didn't expect to be provoked by his brother, so he went to beg for help...

Gu Jiachen walked on the dark tree-lined path outside the residential building, Secretary Han followed behind him, and the driver drove behind Secretary Han.

The place where Uncle Li's limousine had just parked was now empty, the streetlights reflected the white concrete on the parking space, and a few strands of weeds emerged from the cracks in the ground, tenaciously surviving in the cracks in the concrete.

Brother's words seemed to echo in his ears.

"Retainers... Do you think it's easy for people to live? There are 60 billion people on the entire earth, and our country is 16 billion. There are too many monks and too few to eat. We have to fight for everything. Small people like us are trying to survive in the cracks. You What can my brother do..."

The wind in July was already hot. Gu Jiachen stepped out of the cold air-conditioned room and stepped into the sweltering summer wind.I thought blowing the air would refresh my mind, but it actually made me feel heavier.The cranial cavity seemed to be filled with water, and the sound of water echoed in his head when he walked a step.

The greening of M University is also very good. The roads at night are a bit gloomy after the greening is done.

Ren Xiaoxu likes this gloomy alley the most, just enough for a car to drive in.Every time he encountered such a place, he would drive his sports car in, find a place to stop, and raise the hood... Gu Jiachen's ears soon filled with rapid panting...

Gu Jiachen looked around - there was no Ren Xiaoxu's car.

Apart from the dark tree shadows on the whole road, only the black Mercedes-Benz followed that day.Ren Xiaoxu likes to use his Pullman, and this Mercedes-Benz is almost the exclusive car of Gu Jiachen...

Yes, it must be so.It must be that they feel that they are not worthy, not worthy of riding a Mercedes-Benz, not worthy of a driver, and not worthy of staying by Ren Xiaoxu's side. It is all the fault of the Mercedes-Benz.

How big is the hatred between the rich and the poor?Gu Jiachen thought, how big is the hatred between the rich and the poor... There are so many stories of Cinderella, so many stories of the rebellion, everyone is immersed in the pleasure of getting rid of poverty and becoming rich... But why did he Can't feel it?Having been by Ren Xiaoxu's side for so many years, the sentence he has heard the most is the sentence "what is he"...

What am I... Gu Jiachen thought... What are you!

It's not that he hasn't tried to fix those backbiters.Ren Xiaoxu's bodyguards listened to him, and even those who said bad things about him knelt on the ground and apologized to him.

But when the man knelt down, Gu Jiachen didn't feel happy at all.

like today.He obviously came to Xingshi to inquire about his crimes, but his elder brother made a lot of excuses and reasons, and finally begged him to forgive him in tears, begged him to be pitiful, and begged him to help the other members of the Gu family. When it's good deeds...

Gu Jiachen felt that he had won, but he was still not happy at all.

He really wanted to go back to the ward quickly...Ren Xiaoxu was waiting for him there...his Xiaoxu was waiting for him there...

His Xiao Xu always wore a white shirt, so white that it was flawless and gentle.Xiao Xu has a pair of strong arms, when he hugged him, it was as effortless as when he was made of paper.Xiao Xu has a pair of gentle eyes, dark and soft like stars in the sky, like obsidian gemstones, like sparkling autumn water...

He called him a retainer, and his voice was so gentle, like the spun gauze washed by Xishi, and like the flexible waist of a flying swallow.The voice slid over his eardrums like beads, and slid into his mind... The voice formed a hard barrier around him, protecting him from the invasion of all things from outside...

Why isn't Ren Xiaoxu here?If he was here, I wouldn't feel that my cousin's words hurt so much at this moment... The pain is like a thousand arrows piercing my heart...

What kind of life is Xiao Xu facing every day... Gu Jiachen couldn't help but wonder, when he was working, when he said every word and did everything, did he work as hard as he does now?

There is a majestic father, a harsh mother, an excellent brother, a secretary, an assistant, and subordinates, there are veteran heroes like the Ren family, there are dude brothers like Yi Zhou and Zetong, and there are tens of millions of social elites in the entire Southwest. eyeing...

"How can you succeed with such a small mind? Those people are all ghosts and monsters, why don't they eat you alive?"

He remembered that he heard Ren Xiaoxu say this.

"What do you plan to do? A beating can bring our family to the top, how many people can't ask for it! You are also a person from the society, don't you understand how many people in this world have cheap lives?" Like ants..."

What the cousin said was like a storm, and it hit Gu Jiachen's head in such a grandiose way that his whole body was soaked, and he was as cold and desolate as if he was in an ice field.

The world of mortals is like a vast ocean.The past days were a calm sea, and the mirror-like sea reflected the intoxicating sunset in the sky every night... Those peaceful days were like dreams, but life has changed...

There are storms on the sea surface, hidden reefs on the bottom of the sea, and a long road, with torrential rains.While Gu Jiachen was in his own boat, looking around was a darkness, so endless, so empty.

Gu Jiachen was walking around the campus, his legs were already starting to ache, but his cousin's words were still in his mind.

What are you going to do?You go back and see how happy your father was promoted!You will definitely thank me...

What are you going to do?What is the dull pain in the leg at this moment?It turned out to be like this... In such a huge family, no one cares about his pain... What is his pain?

Gu Jiachen couldn't help cursing at his legs and said, "Why are you hurting! No one pities you!"

His leg was still aching, and there seemed to be something strangling the fractured part. The pain gradually dissipated, from bone to flesh, and Gu Jiachen felt that a circle of steel wire on his leg was slowly tightening.

The world is so big, but it's hard to move an inch...

No one is pitiful... This sentence is very familiar, where did I hear it?

By the way, he remembered, at that time Ren Xiaoxu knocked him unconscious and took him to the infirmary. After waking up, he thought that there was no one around, so he hid himself and cried, but he didn't expect that neither Ren Xiaoxu nor Ji Zetong left. Zetong stood behind the white curtain and taunted him:

"Why are you crying? No one will pity you!"

But... After all, there is still one person who pities him...

Should he thank God for letting him meet Ren Xiaoxu?If Ren Xiaoxu didn't exist, he would probably live like his cousin... cruel, numb, chasing fame and fortune... cruel because no one is pitiful, numb because no one is pitiful, because no one is pitiful Poor so... so I live without consciousness, without consciousness, of course there will be no heartache...

Should he blame God for letting him meet Ren Xiaoxu?

Gu Jiachen walked in front slowly, he walked too slowly, like a snail with a heavy shell on its back.The end of the path in front of the residential building is still so far away, how long will it take...

Secretary Han looked at the sky, the clouds were getting thicker and thicker, and the sky was drooping like tears.He walked quickly to Gu Jiachen's side and said:

"Mr. Gu, it's better to get in the car, it's going to rain."

Gu Jiachen looked up at the sky...he couldn't lift his head up.

He felt a pain in his stomach, and his stomach acid seemed to be on fire, so he realized that he hadn't eaten dinner yet.In the ward, there is also the Cordyceps black-bone chicken soup stewed by his mother for him. The black-bone chickens are specially caught from the countryside and have not been fed at all... Cordyceps... Cordyceps is specially sent by my cousin to nourish his body... …

Gu Jiachen felt a convulsion in his stomach, he stopped suddenly, bent over, before he could stand still, he buried his head and vomited "Wow".There was only acid water in the empty stomach, and the acid water splashed all over the floor, on the concrete floor illuminated by street lamps, with a few weeds growing in the gaps.